Happy ChrismaHanaQuanzaka ppls!!!! =^-^=

my friends are crazy. I took in one of my horse's cookies cause I wanted to see Kevin eat it, well he found out and wouldnt do it, but three of my other friends even after finding out what it was. -_-U

I do not want to hear it
No "I know how you feel"s
How the Hell do you know
No "It'll be okay"s
Give me one solid reason why it will
No "I am sorry"s
'Cause I know you're not

I dont want you to Sympathize
Empathize
Or Criticize
I asked you to Listen
And you failed

I would rather scream to the wind
Then confide in you
for you have already failed me

I asked you to listen
Not put yourself in my shoes
Not pity me
Not tell me why I feel the way I do
Or tell me why I shouldn't feel that way

Why must you continue to fail me
Why can't you just listen

If I scream to the Wind
She will Listen
If I cry to the Heavens
He will listen too
They may murmur in response
But they won't interupt my rant

However, though they listen
They cannot pull me into an embrace
Nor rock me gently as tears fall silently
Or caress those tears away

And for those seemingly meaningless tasks
I thank you

Maybe it is not you who have failed me
But I who have failed myself
I failed to let the truth become a reality
I ran away to my little world

I brushed off your words as if it were a poorly written tale
I convinced myself it was a lie, or a mistake
that it wasnt real, or that you were lying
But to see him lying silently there
Unnamed and unfaced people silently weeping
I knew I could no longer deny it
My serine little lie had come crashing down
My walls of defense fell
Just like the tears

And you were there
You took me in your arms
And held me close
And when I thought you said it would be okay
You had really whispered "I know it hurts . . ."
I had let my crashing world falsify your meaning

I have failed myself
And I am sorry . . .
Thank you for listening to me. . .


Wow, been a while since I've written poetry

-_- i am sad and depressed. My great Uncle died recently. But i suppose its better than laying in a hospital barely there. Strokes are evil. -curls up in a ball and sulks-

YAY ITS ALMOST HALLOWEEN!!!! ^_^ One of my favorite times of year. Hey guess what I found out today, my dog can scale a fallen tree like a cat! She followed my right up the log, we got pretty high too, but she wasnt allowed to go all the way up near me cuz my parents didnt want her to fall, but im betting she would have come all the way up. She had a blast at the park today though, she got to go swimming, and running and climbing and lots of stuff. ^_^

Eh, not much to say, walked horses, froze in the wind, ended up leaving early, worked on homework (hiss T_T) . . . but oh well, saw One Piece today, wasnt that bad, looking forward to tonight and everything thats on then so . . .

Hmm, my poor sad and empty diary . . . well lets see I had an utterly pointless day today. 3 hours of school, half day, utterly pointless -_- rainy, rained yesterday too, hope it don't rain tomorrow, and let it be warmish too, it needs to be warmish tomorrow, walkin' horses for 4, 5 hours, needs to be warm yep yep, well lets see anything else oh yeah I gots a DN Angel manga today -does the happy dance- Yay!! ^-^ numba 4 ha [Perplexing] gunna want to steal it from me well, thats it for today i guess