send lawyers guns and money...
I really wanna go to that effing concert... thnx mom -_-
[do dreams come true once you wake up?...if they do, I guess I'm still asleep...]
"dark matter has a gravitational effect on other objects. You can't see it, you cant feel it but you can watch something being pulled in it direction"...f
it's offical... I'm going away next weekend with my family to el campo...meh still cant decide whether this is good or bad
working..but its only and excuse, not that it would have changed anything...I hate myself
same old boring day...went to target, got something to wear to the demon wedding, cleaned the bathroom, talked to a couple ppl on, did some reading for school, and am now spending my night doing some homework...WOO
it's really because there are some nights when you just want to know there's someone besides you in this wide world
its complicated...
an interesting new developement..
colleen...*sig
hmmmm.. well got lotsa books today. Reading is a very good way to occupy your time when you have no life, homework works too...
right so today=boring like every other day. and tha's all for now for folks
Roger D the duck: anne i love you
Roger D the duck: i always will
Roger D the duck: remember that
^thnx babe you made my day!...
Julie 22 M: ANNE!!! I MOONED YOU !!!
^yes, yes you did... now i am scarred for life...lol
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kIndOfObscEnE: hey sexy;-)
^daily conversation
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Engld Pants: mullet!
^only in 2nd grade! lol *muah*
the lovely ppl who make my life worth living ^_^
wow... DC was very amazing... the highlights:
my awsum cd from Julie
spending more time on the bus than in DC
sleeping under lauren's seat
finishing the museum in like 45 minutes and waiting 2 more hours for everyone else to finish
Stephanie being high on the way home
tierra's poem (?)
my HUGE bag of combos... yummmm
the random trucker stop
being asked by about 15 ppl why we all had red shirts on
thalin's mom trying to get a picture with amo
"losing" my sunglasses
kayla getting left behind
me almost (thnx to amo... right) falling the museum
Julie was in the same group as Ashly Rothwell
the stupid ppl who were supposed to sing to kayla but didn't
yes overall a very interesting day...
um yesterday was very tired and my head hurt from sleeping underneath the seat and we had pulse..
andy: father can you hear me?
Brittany: what? (sings) tommy can you hear me?
today=boring but got my spanish journal moved to monday and hopefully thalina will bring me my cd finally....
I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
Just to have somebody by my side
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's their heart you won't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much...
damn straight.. i think that song about sums up my whole entire love life.. or the lack thereof. whatever, maybe taht's what's been bugging me all day, so if I looked out of sorts, that may have been the reason.. or some thing (one) else... sry i know.. I have a date, my best friend is getting a great guy for her, I'm going away with jules tomro, glenn's making me laugh, my research paper is done, and about a thousand other good things, but i just cant get over myself... I should be HAPPY! dammit
once upon a time I was falling in love, now I'm only falling apart... Nothing I can do, I need, A total eclipse of the heart
there are times I wonder... why does that never happen for me? and this is one of those times. I should be happy, and I am. I'm just slightly confused as to how it works out that everyone else has the thing I just cant seem to have or get no matter how hard I try, or maybe I dont try hard enough, or maybe I'm doing something wrong, but then again maybe its just not time or maybe I'm just not that lucky...
there I go again, trying to explain my life away w/o any real answers... I wish I had an answer for all of these questions, cuz the reasons are running out...
Will I wake up
Is it a dream I made up
No I guess it’s reality
What will change us
Or will we mess up
Our only chance to connect
With a dream
Say a prayer for me
I’m buried by the sound
In a world of human Wreckage
I’m lost and I’m found
And I can’t touch the Ground
life quotes that we all should remember...
someone's always someone else's o.n.e.
too bad the funniest, hottest ppl in the world are complete assholes
Sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think of them
a broken heart continues to beat
As long as there are humans there will be conflict
All of life is a wakening dream and in death is the final awakening
everything happens for a reason
eat your meat
it only gets harder the more that you know....
Don't be tricked by false memories. The past is never as perfect as you remember.
Everything's ok in the end and if it's not ok it's not the end.
one minute ur waiting for the sky to fall the next ur dazzled by the beauty of it all...
nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight
"it's not brave, if you're not scared"
Sometimes given up doesnt mean your weak it means your strong enough to let go
"Love is rare...life is strange...noth
"The man who is swimming against the stream knows the strength of it."
Take nothing but pictures. Leave nothing but footprints. Kill nothing but time....
" The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple ."(damn straight)
You become sarcastic when you learn life is unfair.
Damned if I don't, damned if I do, It's a game I just can't win
and...
the greatest trick satan ever played was getting the world to believe he doesn't exsist
and the ultimate 2 question
r u really gonna remember to stop drop and roll when ur on fire?
you got cake?
can I have a some?
i got a dresss... yay! whooT... it'll be fine
3 days til the holocaust museaum with JULIEEEEE... dude i cant wait!
so yes... how about my grandmother is (possibly but very probably) coming to live with us, cuz my uncle is an ass, and a grumpy old man who cant deal with anyone unless he is drunk. This could mean ppl visisting me all the time to see her... I sense very much family interaction *goes to check the alchol supply*
but on the bright side I might not have to go to the actual chruch wedding. My brother has a soccer game and I would stay home with Paul so he can sleep and my mom would go with ben to the game. Then we would go to the reception and everyone else (my dad, colleen, and rose) could drive with my aunt and uncle, or my grandmother, who will be staying at my house...
but tonight i am going to middle school youth group.. WOOT! right... o well next week i wil go out... and the week after i will be fishing, which i should be doing today but the stupidheads decided to go a few weeks late... guess that's what happens when you get OLD...then comes prom....woohoo
someone's always someone else's o.n.e.
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
[Chorus]
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]
[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
^this is me...
i dont know what you want anymore
I dont even think you know
Is it him?
Is it them or them?
Is it me?
I wish I could help you but until you know, there is nothing I can do...
I dont know what to believe or who is my friend. This whole thing has me so confused, I'm running in circles and I'm not even sure I'm going the right way... Thing only thing I know for sure is that I am confused...On the brighter side I got you babe! ^_^ and I have done my part... Its up to the rest of them now...They can do whatever the hell they want to, but I'm going my way...
why does it always seem that when I am happy everyone else is sad? and when everyone, else is happy I am sad?
Highschool sucks... It changes ppl you'd never think would change. It makes ppl do stupid thngs for stupid ppl. Ppl lose themselves to someone they never thought they would be.
Well I guess this is growing up....
I'm just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love's sweet charity
An' I'm gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams
An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time
But, here I go again,
Hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption, the sight of it has caught my eye.
big big big sigh.... PHEW dont have to do it.. dont have to do it with them...In all seriousness I am sooo tired of my school, everyone there is just too damn petty for their own good...
well yes then... that made me happy... but I've seen better days i love Brittany!!!!
first and foremost...one month... and still missing you babe
bill: What's your name?
Frannie: Teresa
Me: WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
Frannie: frannie!!
wow... another, ummm interesting, weekend. spent the whole thing out of state... and I will try to get pictures up here but I dont have a scanner so it could take a while...so ya the weekend, left on friday round 4:30 and arrived round 9:00 (dont ask how it happend) set up, ate pizza, went to sleep round 1:30-2:00, some idiot thought it would be funny to have breakfast at 7:30 so we had to wake up very early for a saturday, this caused certain ppl to be very crabby. After that we set up for the kiddies and watched them arrive, then had some random things... lunch (ewww), wandering, rode up to the workshops, did the workshop, came back, had mass, dinner (well not it was too gross) played frisbee with kristen then christian and buddy and eventually steph and ashley^_^ then the lamo dance... meh that was no fun, was chilling out on the field when it suddenly hit me that it was almost a month.. ya well anyways, after ordered more pizza, talked for abit and went to bed... woke up early again and agian passed on the food b/c it was too crappy... cleaned, watched a skit, finished, cabin checked, chilled for a bit then went to eaten park, then headed home... very eventfull, we stopped at a starbucks that had a drivethrew...w
dude i dk what to do about her... she followed him around like she was attached to his ass, and everyone could tell... that doesnt bother me as much as that shes gna get burned... and it kinda makes me feel bad...sigh.. what do to? what to do?...
...some mysteries aren't meant to be fully understood some questions are best never answered...
soooo... here i am waiting for mr. A to get in gear so we can leave... sitting here doing nothing with steph and ashley b/c we dont have to leave he says....i dont wanna.... why the hell do i sign up for these things? aight well gtg be bored summore..
i love miss brittany lyn papalia!!!!!!!
i went outside tonight.. i should have done my history and worked out and washed and dried my hair but i went outside and never regrett it!...
i really dont want to leave.. or go to school tomro or sing in the mass..... i want to stay home like all my other friends are cuz they are cool and go to NA....i wish i did too...
last random thought: how is it all the public schools get off for the Pope's funeral? but i have to sing at school and change about 6million zillion times... ironnic?
I hate my school i really do.. ok translation... the ppl there. not all but its gettting therre. >.< who does that? that is total BS.. all i have to say is thank you very much! now I know why lotsa stuff has been happening... and why the damn faculty thinks I am a whore....all girls. all together, all the time... who's dumb idea what ThAT?
I feel like hell... thnx to my bestestest "friend" in the entire world... and my awsum life...right
parents annoy me.. cant wait til its over
ahhhhhh well yes for once it was actually sunny today WOOOT! um I should not be negative cuz this should be a happy time...but yes... OMG amazing news... on june 15 Tom Petty is coming to the post gazette pavillion!!!!!
parents suck... I hate my house and will be so glad to move out. why when some things start going good others start going bad???? I am tired of looking like an ass b/c of my parents. They need to learn trust me more, and the people I know....
They keep me locked up in this cage
Can’t they see it’s why my brain says rage
Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Build my fear of what’s out there
And cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
Assuring me that I’m insane
They think our heads are in their hands
But violent use brings violent plans
No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
But they think this saves us from our hell
and that would be like my house
Genesis - That's All Lyrics
Just as I thought it was going alright
I find out I'm wrong, when I thought I was right
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
I could say day, you'd say night
Tell me it's black when I know that it's white
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
I could leave but I won't go
Though my heart might tell me so
I can't feel a thing from my head down to my toes
So why does it always seem to be
Me looking at you, you looking at me
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
Turning me on, turning me off
Making me feel like I want too much
Living with you's just putting me through it all of the time
Running around, staying out all night
Taking it all instead of taking one bite
Living with you's just putting me through it all of the time
I could leave but I won't go
It'd be easier I know
I can't feel a thing from my head down to my toes
But why does it always seem to be
Me looking at you, you looking at me
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
Truth is I love you
More that I wanted to
There's no point in trying to pretend
There's been no-one who
Makes me feel like you do
Say we'll be together till the end
I could leave but I won't go
It'd be easier I know
I can't feel a thing from my head down to my toes
But why does it always seem to be
Me looking at you, you looking at me
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
Just as I thought it was going alright
I find out I'm wrong, when I thought I was right
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
I could say day, you'd say night
Tell me it's black when I know that it's white
It's always the same, it's just a shame, that's all - that's
all
ya been searching for this song for forever... love it, reminds me of myself
wow last night=amazing.
yes probably the most fun I have had in weekkkksssss!!
o yes and the pope died...1920-20
the pope is dying... and I am so confused as to why it is such a media issue! the media hate Catholics, so it doesnt make sense for them to get all ryled up about the most Catholic man alive... errr well barely alive, I guess. It just doesnt make sense... its not even like they're all Catholic either, they just think its so kool to broadcast the pope's death, morbid very morbid
so ya..lotsa folks been dying, seems to be the thing to do