wow... nice job and 3 claps for the computer... way to shut down randomly

hola...crazy weekend with family in Tionesta at the camp. Here's some highlights
-Burning like 6 mattresses outside in the middle of the woods until like 11 at night
-Sleeping on the couch in front of the fire and being blamed for not keeping the fire going
-Being woken up random times at night b/c the fire was out and for some reason you need to crumple newspaper (which by the way makes a very loud noise) to restart it
-Being woken up by Neko (the big happy rotweiler) with a big slobbery dog kiss
-uncle chuck changes the score of the card game and it takes my dad like 5 minutes to figure it out
-the pouring rain for like 3 hours while we fish
-Robber humping Neko (dogs)
-the crazy guy that threatend to kill Robber and Neko if they killed some other guy's chickens and my uncle looking like he wants to punch him in the face
-me putting body wash in my hair instead of shampoo
-Jen's impression of the family
-Micheal's iraq stories
-Jen trying to vaccum up the million lady bugs only to find that more appeared
-sitting around watching the bug zapper on friday night
-Micheal practically forgetting his wedding in like 2 weeks
-manwhore
-heather getting a bruise from a baseball hat
-the uncles convening outside to dicuss where to put the pool and hottub they want to put in
-my dad's awsum hat he got from my uncle that says lube master O.o...yaa
so that would be it... the weekend... spent with 17 members of my family.

got home round 1 unpacked and went to lifeteen... woot!

taht would be my weekedn

omg.. I still have no idea what hell I am doing for PROMM!!!!!!! ahhh!!!!!!!!!

today was in general pretty good. Did tons of errands with my prom to get random stuff for this weekend and prom before I leave and my grandparents come in etc etc.. O yes very good thing got the "true Parallels" disc by Trust Co. very good!

umm yesterday was one of the most interesting days in while... it was total randomness! and we talked about childbirth in 2 periods...every little detail. Only at mount..

well i gtg pack for this weeknd, Do you know it is supposed to rain, and THunderStorm on saturday!!!!??? that's the day I am supposed to spend outside for about 8 hours!!!!! ahhhhhhhh why did they move the date in the first place??? it was beautiful, 70 degreee weather on the 16 when we were supposed to go up... but now its realllyyyy crappyyyy...props to the unclees for that one..

lata babes<3

erghhh... have I ever mentioned how much I absolutely hate living at my house???

parents are stupid... I will never become one... and If I do I will NOT EVER NEVER EVER not allow my child to go to a once in a lifetime concert with # (yes that's in code you idiot!) of her closest friends including the love of her life! for no apparent good, makes sense reason...ARGHGHHGH I HATE my house!!!!!!...cant wait to leave

do you know it man?

"Nothing is wrong in my life, its just that nothing is right. Everyone around me is so happy. I think I am too. Its like I dont even know me anymore. When I look in the mirror I feel like Im staring at someone else. I havent changed or anything. Thats a lie. If Ive changed, I dont even know. Maybe I have?

Everything feels the same. But then again, everything seems so different. Its like everything around me is changing so quickly, and I dont know how to catch up.

I feel like Im in a ,dream, where everything is moving in slow motion. Im sitting on the sidelines just watching everything go by, and I cant change any of it. I have no control over my life, over myself. I hate it. And at the same time, I dont think I even care."-EC

not my words... but it feels like i finally found a way to describe how I feel... too bad someone else had to do it for me...

smile like you mean it (do do doooo dodo dod o do dod) ..umm right... moving on.

i love ppl, especailly the stupid petty, egotistic, self centered one that go to my school. speaking of which we had another amzing lunch..
julie "I'm not black"
Arline "waht are you trying to say" *pushes jullie*
Julie "nothing! I just wana be Black but no ones listening"

I Want to go to the TOM EFFING PETTY CONCERT WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and umm... those other ppl! wait i rememeber billl and adamm, WHATEVER I STILL WANT TO GO!!!! and get stoned and and and... GTRRRRRR i want to go... and I shall miss them terribly when they are gone

lifeteen last night... fun and then school today bleh... my life... school,home, sleep, school home sleep, *repeat until weekend* sleep, home, lifeteen, sleep school

1. Never do housework. No man ever made love to a woman because
 the house was spotless.

2. Remember you are known by the idiot you accompany.

3. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers.

4. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door.

5. So many men - so many reasons not to sleep with any of them.

6. If they put a man on the moon, they should be able to put them
 all there.

7. Tell him you're not his type - you have a pulse.

8. Never let your man's mind wander. It's too little to be let out
 alone.

9. The only reason men are on this planet is that vibrators can't
 dance or buy drinks.

10. Never sleep with a man who's named his penis.

11. Go for younger men. You might as well. They never mature
  anyway.

12. A man who can dress himself without looking like Forrest Gump
  is unquestionably gay.

13. Men are all the same. They just have different faces so you
  can tell them apart.

14. Definition of a bachelor: a man who has missed the opportunity
  to make some woman miserable.

15. Women don't make fools of men. Most of them are the
  do-it-yourself types.

16. The best way to get a man to do something is to suggest they
  are too old for it.

17. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener.

18. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital.

19. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40
  years. Even in biblical times, men wouldn't ask for
  directions.

20. If he asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell him
  cheque books.

21. A man's idea of serious commitment is usually "oh alright,
  I'll stay the night."

22. Women sleep with men, who if they were women, they wouldn't
  even bother to have lunch with.

23. Remember a sense of humor does not mean that you tell him
  jokes, it means you laugh at his.

24. If he asks you if you're faking it tell him no, you're just
  practicing.

25. Sadly, all men are created equal.

26. When he asks you if he's your first, tell him "you may be,
  you look familiar.""

[Kurin]

send lawyers guns and money...

I really wanna go to that effing concert... thnx mom -_-

[do dreams come true once you wake up?...if they do, I guess I'm still asleep...]

"dark matter has a gravitational effect on other objects. You can't see it, you cant feel it but you can watch something being pulled in it direction"...found this in a book. It is so true... but applied to different situations, kind of an outside looking in philosphy that reminds me of myself

it's offical... I'm going away next weekend with my family to el campo...meh still cant decide whether this is good or bad

working..but its only and excuse, not that it would have changed anything...I hate myself

same old boring day...went to target, got something to wear to the demon wedding, cleaned the bathroom, talked to a couple ppl on, did some reading for school, and am now spending my night doing some homework...WOOT or maybe not

it's really because there are some nights when you just want to know there's someone besides you in this wide world

its complicated...seriously that is the only answer i can give now, all of life is effing complicated

an interesting new developement... why did frannie wanna know anyways? what difference does it make to her?

colleen...*sighs and shakes head* sometimes I wonder how someone so smart can be So IncRediBly effing stupid??? guess its one of life's little jokes

hmmmm.. well got lotsa books today. Reading is a very good way to occupy your time when you have no life, homework works too...

right so today=boring like every other day. and tha's all for now for folks

Roger D the duck: anne i love you
Roger D the duck: i always will
Roger D the duck: remember that
^thnx babe you made my day!...

Julie 22 M: ANNE!!! I MOONED YOU !!!
^yes, yes you did... now i am scarred for life...lol

anGelFish151122: hey pinko
kIndOfObscEnE: hey sexy;-)
^daily conversation

anGelFish151122: JOE!
Engld Pants: mullet!
^only in 2nd grade! lol *muah*

the lovely ppl who make my life worth living ^_^

wow... DC was very amazing... the highlights:
my awsum cd from Julie
spending more time on the bus than in DC
sleeping under lauren's seat
finishing the museum in like 45 minutes and waiting 2 more hours for everyone else to finish
Stephanie being high on the way home
tierra's poem (?)
my HUGE bag of combos... yummmm
the random trucker stop
being asked by about 15 ppl why we all had red shirts on
thalin's mom trying to get a picture with amo
"losing" my sunglasses
kayla getting left behind
me almost (thnx to amo... right) falling the museum
Julie was in the same group as Ashly Rothwell
the stupid ppl who were supposed to sing to kayla but didn't

yes overall a very interesting day...

um yesterday was very tired and my head hurt from sleeping underneath the seat and we had pulse..
andy: father can you hear me?
Brittany: what? (sings) tommy can you hear me?

today=boring but got my spanish journal moved to monday and hopefully thalina will bring me my cd finally....

I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
Just to have somebody by my side
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's their heart you won't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much...


damn straight.. i think that song about sums up my whole entire love life.. or the lack thereof. whatever, maybe taht's what's been bugging me all day, so if I looked out of sorts, that may have been the reason.. or some thing (one) else... sry i know.. I have a date, my best friend is getting a great guy for her, I'm going away with jules tomro, glenn's making me laugh, my research paper is done, and about a thousand other good things, but i just cant get over myself... I should be HAPPY! dammit

once upon a time I was falling in love, now I'm only falling apart... Nothing I can do, I need, A total eclipse of the heart

there are times I wonder... why does that never happen for me? and this is one of those times. I should be happy, and I am. I'm just slightly confused as to how it works out that everyone else has the thing I just cant seem to have or get no matter how hard I try, or maybe I dont try hard enough, or maybe I'm doing something wrong, but then again maybe its just not time or maybe I'm just not that lucky...

there I go again, trying to explain my life away w/o any real answers... I wish I had an answer for all of these questions, cuz the reasons are running out...

Will I wake up
Is it a dream I made up
No I guess it’s reality
What will change us
Or will we mess up
Our only chance to connect
With a dream

Say a prayer for me
I’m buried by the sound
In a world of human Wreckage
I’m lost and I’m found
And I can’t touch the Ground

life quotes that we all should remember...
someone's always someone else's o.n.e.
too bad the funniest, hottest ppl in the world are complete assholes
Sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think of them
a broken heart continues to beat
As long as there are humans there will be conflict
All of life is a wakening dream and in death is the final awakening
everything happens for a reason
eat your meat
it only gets harder the more that you know....
Don't be tricked by false memories. The past is never as perfect as you remember.
Everything's ok in the end and if it's not ok it's not the end.
one minute ur waiting for the sky to fall the next ur dazzled by the beauty of it all...
nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight
"it's not brave, if you're not scared"
Sometimes given up doesnt mean your weak it means your strong enough to let go
"Love is rare...life is strange...nothing lasts...people change."
"The man who is swimming against the stream knows the strength of it."
Take nothing but pictures. Leave nothing but footprints. Kill nothing but time....
" The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple ."(damn straight)
You become sarcastic when you learn life is unfair.
Damned if I don't, damned if I do, It's a game I just can't win
and...
the greatest trick satan ever played was getting the world to believe he doesn't exsist

and the ultimate 2 question
r u really gonna remember to stop drop and roll when ur on fire?

you got cake?
can I have a some?

i got a dresss... yay! whooT... it'll be fine

3 days til the holocaust museaum with JULIEEEEE... dude i cant wait!

so yes... how about my grandmother is (possibly but very probably) coming to live with us, cuz my uncle is an ass, and a grumpy old man who cant deal with anyone unless he is drunk. This could mean ppl visisting me all the time to see her... I sense very much family interaction *goes to check the alchol supply*

but on the bright side I might not have to go to the actual chruch wedding. My brother has a soccer game and I would stay home with Paul so he can sleep and my mom would go with ben to the game. Then we would go to the reception and everyone else (my dad, colleen, and rose) could drive with my aunt and uncle, or my grandmother, who will be staying at my house...

but tonight i am going to middle school youth group.. WOOT! right... o well next week i wil go out... and the week after i will be fishing, which i should be doing today but the stupidheads decided to go a few weeks late... guess that's what happens when you get OLD...then comes prom....woohoo! then the demon wedding (yes-that's it's 'offical' name) then the new star wars comes out!!!! yay!! then memorial day weeknd then school's out!!!!!!! ahhhhhh!!! yes...

someone's always someone else's o.n.e.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
^this is me...

i dont know what you want anymore
I dont even think you know
Is it him?
Is it them or them?
Is it me?
I wish I could help you but until you know, there is nothing I can do...

I dont know what to believe or who is my friend. This whole thing has me so confused, I'm running in circles and I'm not even sure I'm going the right way... Thing only thing I know for sure is that I am confused...On the brighter side I got you babe! ^_^ and I have done my part... Its up to the rest of them now...They can do whatever the hell they want to, but I'm going my way...

why does it always seem that when I am happy everyone else is sad? and when everyone, else is happy I am sad?

Highschool sucks... It changes ppl you'd never think would change. It makes ppl do stupid thngs for stupid ppl. Ppl lose themselves to someone they never thought they would be.
Well I guess this is growing up....




I'm just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love's sweet charity
An' I'm gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

But, here I go again,

Hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption, the sight of it has caught my eye.

big big big sigh.... PHEW dont have to do it.. dont have to do it with them...In all seriousness I am sooo tired of my school, everyone there is just too damn petty for their own good...

well yes then... that made me happy... but I've seen better days i love Brittany!!!!

first and foremost...one month... and still missing you babe

bill: What's your name?
Frannie: Teresa
Me: WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
Frannie: frannie!!

wow... another, ummm interesting, weekend. spent the whole thing out of state... and I will try to get pictures up here but I dont have a scanner so it could take a while...so ya the weekend, left on friday round 4:30 and arrived round 9:00 (dont ask how it happend) set up, ate pizza, went to sleep round 1:30-2:00, some idiot thought it would be funny to have breakfast at 7:30 so we had to wake up very early for a saturday, this caused certain ppl to be very crabby. After that we set up for the kiddies and watched them arrive, then had some random things... lunch (ewww), wandering, rode up to the workshops, did the workshop, came back, had mass, dinner (well not it was too gross) played frisbee with kristen then christian and buddy and eventually steph and ashley^_^ then the lamo dance... meh that was no fun, was chilling out on the field when it suddenly hit me that it was almost a month.. ya well anyways, after ordered more pizza, talked for abit and went to bed... woke up early again and agian passed on the food b/c it was too crappy... cleaned, watched a skit, finished, cabin checked, chilled for a bit then went to eaten park, then headed home... very eventfull, we stopped at a starbucks that had a drivethrew...wow but then we missed our exit and took like another half hour to get home, making it another 4 and 1/2 hour trip... after i got home I took a shower and went to lifeteen ^_^ yay saw brittany and all my other loves too.!

dude i dk what to do about her... she followed him around like she was attached to his ass, and everyone could tell... that doesnt bother me as much as that shes gna get burned... and it kinda makes me feel bad...sigh.. what do to? what to do?...

...some mysteries aren't meant to be fully understood some questions are best never answered...

soooo... here i am waiting for mr. A to get in gear so we can leave... sitting here doing nothing with steph and ashley b/c we dont have to leave he says....i dont wanna.... why the hell do i sign up for these things? aight well gtg be bored summore..

i love miss brittany lyn papalia!!!!!!!! and i wont get to see her b/c i am going on a secret mission all weekend with the world's most random ppl (one of whom is not brittany lyn or sexy ankles bill *_*) now i am sad... i want to stay in the burgh this weeknd... *sniffle* and I DONT WANT TO TOUCH SHEEP tomorrow... they effing scare me...please save me.. drive down to mount and kidnap me from the sheep lady...

i went outside tonight.. i should have done my history and worked out and washed and dried my hair but i went outside and never regrett it!...

i really dont want to leave.. or go to school tomro or sing in the mass..... i want to stay home like all my other friends are cuz they are cool and go to NA....i wish i did too...

last random thought: how is it all the public schools get off for the Pope's funeral? but i have to sing at school and change about 6million zillion times... ironnic?

I hate my school i really do.. ok translation... the ppl there. not all but its gettting therre. >.< who does that? that is total BS.. all i have to say is thank you very much! now I know why lotsa stuff has been happening... and why the damn faculty thinks I am a whore....all girls. all together, all the time... who's dumb idea what ThAT?