Most of the time it's well understood
Most of the time I wouldn't change it if I could
I can make it all match up
I can hold my own
I can deal with the situation right down to the bone
I can survive and I can endure
And I don't even think about *him*
Most of the time


random idiot::parking? what there's parking? right here? in the middle of the road? OK!
me: NOOOOO *shouts and waves arms* STOP! *stops....looks around.... gives up and wanders away to find ppl*

festival weds-friday. weds was ok...got ice cream thrus was bad... yelled at ppl and was in general very confuzld, but I got off parking early!....friday was boring, brittany and adam didnt show till later, bill and rj left early, paige and steph worked kiddyland, and gates never appeared so i hung out with jess and nick... not that they are boring but it just wasnt the same... nick I swear that kid is crazy prepppy. Saturday was pretty good... parked the crazy ppl til until there were no more spaces and then hung out with brittany, adam, bill, brian, barabus and kim til my dad came and snatched me away. yay.....ben and colleen are home... umm yay...

there is volleyball practice tomorrow ... w00t?


so tired of running after you ...

so how ghetto is this??? i'm locked out of my own myspace!!!!!!!! >.< grrr... i cant get to my mail or my home page..... so ya... kinda angery about that....

trying to be so perfect...cuz I know ur worth it, worth it but i fail anyway...

no NO NO NO NO NO NO NO........STOP....it's worth it...but not realy..there's too much crap...like how i'm realy ignorant whenver I'm there... and I nver seem to be the person i want to be or act like it ... or how its always on my mind








ok so britt about friday... it works both ways.. i fine to talk if he wont ignore me.... otherwise... you know what happens...

finally found some YA pics

life=screwy
me=sore
you=wasthing your time reading about my pathetic life
brittany=amazing
gates=will see you in a few hours

ya.. god...

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to [cry]
Well you couldn’t be that man I adored
You don’t seem to know, don’t seem to care what your heart is for
But I don’t know him anymore
There’s nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That’s what’s going on, nothing’s fine I’m torn

I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
[Illusion never changed into something real]
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You’re a little late, I’m already torn

So I guess the fortune teller’s right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don’t care, I have no luck, I don’t miss it all that much
[There’s just so many things that I can’t touch], I’m torn


I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
[Illusion never changed into something real]
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You’re a little late, I’m already torn.torn

There’s nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That’s what’s going on, nothings right, I’m torn

I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I’m ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You’re a little late, I’m already torn

oya... oyaa... yup that's it

Repost this and put in the subject how many of the following 100 questions you said YES to. Be truthful.

1.smoked a cigarette: 2nd hand

2.smoked a cigar: no

3.made out with a member of the same sex: no

4.crashed a friend's car: no

5.stolen a car: no

6.been in love: i don't think so

7.been dumped: no

8.shoplifted: no

9.been fired: no

10.been in a fist fight: yes

11.snuck out of your house: yes

12.had feelings for someone who didnt have them back: hell yes

13.been arrested: no

14.made out with a stranger: ehhhh

15.gone on a blind date: no

16.lied to a friend: yes

17.had a crush on a teacher: no

18.skipped school: yes

19.slept with a co-worker: no

20.seen someone die: no

21.been on a plane: yes

22.thrown up in a bar: no

23.taken painkillers: yessum

24.love someone or miss someone right now: yes

25.laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by: yes

26.made a snow angel: yes

27.played dress up: yes

28.cheated while playing a game: yes

29.been lonely: yes

30.fallen asleep at work/school: hell ya

31.used a fake id: no

32.felt an earthquake: no

33.touched a snake: yes

34.ran a red light: no

35.been suspended from school: no

36.had detention: no

37.been in a car accident: yes, not my fault

38.hated the way you look: yes

39.witnessed a crime: nope

40.pole danced: no

41.been lost: yes

42.been to the opposite side of the country: no

43.felt like dying: yes

44.cried yourself to sleep: yes

45.played cops and robbers: yes

46.sang karaoke: yes

47.done something you told yourself you wouldn't: yes

48.laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose: yes

49.caught a snowflake on your tongue: yes

50.kissed in the rain: no

51.sing in the shower: yes

52.made love in a park: no

53.had a dream that you married someone: yes

54. glued your hand to something: no

55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole: no

56.worn the opposite sex's clothes: yes

57.been a cheerleader: eww no

58. sat on a roof top: yes

59. didn't take a shower for a week: no

60.ever to scared to watch scary movies alone: no

61.played chicken: yes

62.been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on: no

63.been told you're hot by a complete stranger: yes....like here

64.broken a bone: no

65.been easily amused: what kind of a question is this......yes

66.laugh so hard you cry: yes

67.mooned/flashed someone: no

68.cheated on a test: yes

69.forgotten someone's name: yes

70.slept naked: no

71.gone skinny dipping : no

72.been kicked out of your house: yes

73.blacked out from drinking: no

74.played a prank on someone: yes

75.gone to a late night movie: no

76.made love to anything not human: no

77.failed a class: no

78.choaked on something you're not supposed to eat: yes

79.played an instrument for more than 10 hours: no

80.cheated on a gf/bf: no

81.ate a whole package of oreos: no

82.thrown strange objects: yes

83.felt like killing someone: yes yes yes yes

84.thought about running away: yes

85.ran away: no

86.did drugs: not technically...but sorta

87.had detention and not attend it: no

88.yelled at parents: yes

89.made parent cry: yes

90.cried over someone: yes

91.owned more than 5 sharpies: yes

92.dated more than 1 person at once: no

93.have a dog: i used to

94.have a cat: no

95.own an instrument: own..not play

96.been in a band: um no

97.had more than 25 sodas in one day: no

98.broken a cd: yes

99.shot a gun: yes..ehehe

100.been on myspace for more than 5 hours: i don't think so...

Everything so blurry
Everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
you Know that I'll protect you from all of the obscene
Wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us but that's not very far

Chorus:
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
Know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us but that's not very far

Chorus:

Nobody told me what to find
Nobody told me what to say
No one showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
No one showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
Explain again to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me


life is SO fucked up...there's no one who will talk to me...I'm all by myself with nothing to do but write these pathetic entries...

"They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to [Hell]."


yes my eye is still twitching...

gram's in the hospital...aunt eileen is still staying until wednesday...

so ya.. how about I might be going to indiana on saturday??...ya if my gram comes back to my house, we're gone. my mom like freaked out. She said she cant keep 5 kids quiet so my gram can rest at out house, so we're going away. Or if gram goes somewhere else the johnson kiddies might come stay..meh..whatever.. my mom is soo pissed.

*numb to core*...I put on what they want to see and nothing more..but inside I'm so pissed and angery. Why the hell does ths stuff happen at the worst times?? wwhy cant they just all go away?

[Well I don't know why I came here tonight,
I got the feeling that something ain't right,
I'm so scared in case I fall off my chair,
And I'm wondering how I'll get down the stairs,
Clowns to the left of me,
Jokers to the right, here I am,
Stuck in the middle with you,
Yes I'm stuck in the middle with you,
Stuck in the middle with you.]

its starting.... pic-ca-nica today.

and its startng already, I feel so little compared to my family, like I just disappear whenever i'm around them. I cant get a word in, and it just seems like i just disappear...and no one cares that i'm there...only when i'm not to ppl seem to notice

o well offf to pic-a-nica

*eye twitch*

*twitch*




*twitch*

what?? their back?? they're not supposed to be here until tomoro night!!! and the car is making crazy noises and my mom is freaking out, and my dad's ear is killing him, and all the stuff doesnt fit into the dishwasher, and and and and I'm going insane...there are 3 girls under 10 in the basement...

*runs around like a crazy person until she gets dizzy and falls over*

ooo God....does it ever end??/

here's more.... out of order but wth?

ok found out some info and I know I promised but here's summore on glenn:God we effed up...dude all I wanted after I realized we werent gna happen was to be your friend again. BUt you were too concerned with yourself and what you thought I thought to see that..and probably you never cared as much as I thought you did and probably I shouldnt have expected as much as i did, but we screwed up...and even now I still cant seem to reach you...[I dont wana drag this out / I never wanted it to end this way / and even if I wanted to / i dont think I could get to you / there's nothing I can say to you to make all this right again / maybe I was holding on too tight / dont just say goodbye / just turn your back away and leave / and if you're lucky I'll be ur last regret / I guess that this is over now / I guess its called a fall'n out / and every day I'm learning how to make it through this life again]

family: why the hell cant i even be accepted by my own famiy?!? and to be brutally honest (and a terrible person) I really dont want gram to stay here that much. Dude seriously, how do 8 ppl live in one house in 2005?? an 84 yr old woman, 2 40 something yr olds, 1 rebel teen, 1 perfect teen, 1 perfect son, 1 crazy/cute 6 yr old, and 1 insane, growling, TV line saying, picky, tantrum throwing 4 yr old, now tell me how does that work????? cuz I cant/dont see it guys...*heavy sigh* just cuz i dont want it to happen doesnt mean I'm gna be all angery to gram and hate her for it. If I was doing that I'd be hating Frank, but I cant. In fact I damn well sympathize with the guy. Who in their right mind wants to be 50 something and live with their mother-in-law and wife??? not that I agree with how he did it, cursing and yelling at an 83 yr old, but still Caroline is enough to deal with. Speak of the devil, she could at least thank my mom for doing this...when her husband kicked her out...[This is all I can take.... / I push my fingers into my eyes / It’s the only thing / That slowly stops the ache / But it’s made of all / The things I have to take / Jesus it never ends / It works it's way inside / If the pain goes on / I’m not gonna make it! / All I’ve got / All I’ve got Is InSanE]

but ya that's been life...

numb...so much has happend...will tell more later..must go sleep to prepare for the day ahead...oooo God, its coming

I REALLY LOVE MY FAMILY!!!!!!

[Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.]

O GOd... It's been a while so lets seeeeeee....

kennywood>>awsum! spent lotsa time with Rj which was fun cuz he was nice to me and congrats dude... you waited wayyyy toooo long! dont regret it. I LOVE LAUREN!!! and missed miss brittany lyn very much! the exterminator is a very brutal ride esp with four ppl and when 3 of them are guys...you spin alot. umm katherine got angery even though she had tea. cangilla talked to me (surpriseingly)and frannie was tolerable. so ya... prettyy good day
jess's camp>>interesting. she is one scary lady...and then there was the drunk lady who came into our tent and laid all over our stuff O.o...yaa. Then the ppl in cars driving in circles around our tent at like 2am..grr.. jess's mom and aunts got soo mad we left at like 9 instead of like 2pm.yaaa
4th of July>>meh..went to the pool...happy america day
yesterday evning>>ooooo very intersing saw...are you ready for this?.... nick luft!!! o God...that kid talks sooo much! but ya...if you know him...i'll tell you more but otherwise its too boring!

and that's been life. today there's a confirmation mtg, maybe we'll get to holy rangers...right

gates...kid your gna make it...i'll be here for ya! <3ya hun! and we gotsa finish the scrapbook!!!!!!!

*gos off to find lyrics*

Tried a thousand times
Used a million lines
Trying to explain
'Cause they don't have a word
For the kind of hurt
That never goes away

When I try to think it though
It all comes back to you
I don't know why goodbye's so hard to understand
This pain I have is real
And I'll tell you how it feels
If I ever get the chance

It's like a lonely Friday night downtown
Where everyone I know is out
The radio's my only friend around
And all I do is think of you
It's a little like an old sad song
It kills you but you sing along
The melody just tears you all apart
It's something like a broken heart

I could drive a hundred miles
And never touch that dial
'Till the station fades
'Cause nothing that I hear
Will ever make it clear
Words just slip away

And the more I think it through
The more I think of you
I dont know why goodbye's so hard to understand
You're never hard to find
'Cause you're always on my mind
No matter where I am

Just like a lonely Friday night downtown
Where everyone I know is out
The radio's my only friend around
And all I do is think of you
It's a little like an old sad song
It kills you but you sing along
The melody just tears you all apart
It's something like a broken heart

It's like a lonely Friday night downtown
Where everyone I know is out
The radio's my only friend around
And all I do is think of you
It's a little like an old sad song
It kills you but you sing along
The melody just tears you all apart
It's something like a broken heart

~Hanna-McEuen~
*thnx sarah...sweet song*

God I hope you're happy, I hope to hell you're happy. I hope you're happy with your-damn-self. And ya I may be bitter but I was also used. And just to let you know...This is it... I think this time I can safely say I'm done...done doubting, done hoping, done wishing you away. Thnk you, even though you are a total effing hypocrit, you're actions helped me to see to that with you there is no hope; no hope of ever getting back to what we were...so I'm done. Dont eff w/her the way you effed with my head...damn hypocrit who cant balance his own goddamn life...why did I ever think I could let you into mine?

*(self doubt speaks) not really used, maybe there was something*

and maybe he's just an ass

*ya but that's him*

no effing excuse...you cant just stop being friends with someone...you can stop liking them, but there is no reason just to flat out stop talking to someone

*...ya*

so the pt of my little rant...yup kids I think I can say I'm done here. For a while I was fine, it was pushed under the surface, but now I'm done...there's nothing I can do to change the past, and its not worth regretting...so this is the last entry you'll have to read about it...Goodbye to you..and good riddance

[so scared to hope, only to screw up again,
too lonely for love, to just let this feeling go]

so ya...Jesus camp was fun, met lotsa awsum ppl! that i have to stay in touch with b/c they are freaking ammmmzzzzinggggg
+Jim Caviezl
+"pretty girls that wont date you on monday
+429
+bobbi jo what does ur butt have to say about that???
+gordita crunch
+"i'll call my friend, who can find my youth minister, who took our youth group out for chinese for dinner, so he'll know the number, and we can get it, and get chinese!...or we could just look it up in the phone bookkkk" (we were desperate baby!)
+RooMYYY
+pop-a-squat...yes mom
+Hey Jude....
+no mattt,....no squeaky laugh! u'll scare ppl!
+brian with a nylon on his leg
+my candle blowing out
+Shiniqua!
+Dear Brian. You complete me.........check yes, no, or maybe. your secret admirer....PS cant wait till monday
+noise game!
+musk stinks!

buttttt yyaaaa.... i do have somethings that need worked on...they confuse me.... I know i might be able to fix one or at least find the answer to it...but idk if I will like it??? but the other needsss much more work...requires time and spending it with certain ppl....to see if its even a problem at all....or if I'm wrong and its not really gna work out...

I hope I can follow all this through...

Jesus camp Tomorrow!!!

SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: anne
+ Lives in: pgh pa...home of the pixsburgH stillers
+ FiRST BREATH: 11/22/87
+ School: Mount hellvernia--aka--the basement academy
+ Hair color: dark brown
+ Eye color: chocolate brown
+ Style: grunge...I suppose, NOT preppy
+ Fears: ending up alone with no friends


SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Been Cheated on? nope
+ Fallen off the bed? of course
+ broken someone's heart? wouldn't know
+ Had your heart broken? i guess soo, maybe, actually several times i suppose
+ Had a dream come true? ....
+ Done something you regret? being born among other things
+ Cheated on a test? like in first grade


SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? royal blue soffee shorts and an orange T with black writing
+ Listening to? brian
+ Located? in the chair
+ Chatting with? ooo everyyone darrlinngg....all six of my imaginary friends have decided to stay home on friday night as well
+ Watching? me type this
+ Should REALLY be doing? writng my testimony or sweeping


SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yes
+ Like anybody? been there, done that, and it never works and is an effing waste of time and pain...(and she wonders why she has no boyfriend? take a damn risk girl!!!)
+ Have any piercing? 2 per ear
+ Drive? not in the stock household..heaven effing forbid
+ Drink? should start, living here, being a memeber of my family could drive you to
+ Smoke? second hand but not really
+ Got a pager? no


SECTION 5 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? gates, brittany, jess, sarah, adam, bill, rj, julie, erica, gloria
+ Who do you hate? dont ask me that now, cuz i'll probably answer
+ Who is the shyest? ME definantly
+ Who is the most talkative? kayleen
+ Who is the cutest? jess
+ Who laughs the most? brittany, or jess
+ Who have you known the longest? gates <3
+ Who have you known the shortest? glenn
+ Who do you miss the most? glenn (like the real one, pre-prom) or tyler
+ Who do you go to with personal problems? brittany, gates, jess
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? yea.. how else would i survive mt. hellvernia?
+ Do you trust your friends? yes
+ Are you a good friend? i hope so
+ Can you keep a secret? yes


SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? fr. matt
+ Kissed? my brother OO like really? glenn
+ IMed? jess
+ Talked on the phone? brittany
+ Yelled at? colleen or rose
+ Fell in love with? .......


SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? me
+ What has been the best day of your life? finishing sophomore year alive, getting out of st. alexis, kennywood (anytime), that saturday in april
+ What comes first in your life? I'd like to say God, but at the moment probably myself
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? no...well maybe...idk anymore..ok ok i figured it out... I have a crush on an illusion of a person
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? whatever I am listening to
+ How many times have you fallen in love? .... couple I suppose, though i dont think anyone has fallen in love with me... (would you please stop asking me these questions??? its only making me more depressed)
+ Love your family? mostly
+ Love your friends? my true family...yes!


SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: arthur, Star wars, anything with harrison ford/johnny depp, miss congeniality (=me) matrix triliogy
+ Song: pancake song..totally describes my life, miracle
+ Group: CKY/breaking benjamin now
+ Store: target . hot topic . anything that sells T's jeans, and food
+ Relative: o God, does this question apply to me???? probably my uncle chuck or badass uncle PJ
+ Sport: FOOTBALLL baby!
+ Ice Cream Flavor: mint choc. chip
+ Fruit: grapes or oranges or apples
+ Candy: hershey kisses (true PA girl ~_^)
+ Holiday: christmas
+ Day of the Week: thrusday or sunday
+ Time of day: sunrise/set... 1am
+ Color: red/black/blue..any shade
+ Name for a Girl: lorelai
+ Name for a Boy: will
+ Quote: "that's the thing about life there are some things worth dying for and som that aren't and when u lose your ability to make that distinction you are something less than human."


SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? umm hmm and to be hugged
+ Like to give kisses? lol sure...
+ Like to walk in the rain? omg yes!
+ Prefer black or blue pens? BLAck
+ Like to travel? ehh depends who I'm with and where I'm going ... for instance going to Indiana with my family... noooo, but going to sayyy australia with gates and brittany o yess
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? side
+Think you're attractive? no, but i like the way i look, mostly
+ Have a goldfish? no
+ Ever have the falling dream? sometimes
+ Have stuffed animals? of course


SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: ooo that's a big no no ooooo
+ Smoking: eh... might be ok to try but very expensive for someone with limited funds (cough me cough)(no pun intended)
+ Eating Disorders: sad, but if someone has that much of a need for acceptance then there was something else wrong in their life to begin with
+ Suicide: sad that no one else took the time to see through the facade
+ Summer: hott, pool, tan, no school
+ Tattoos: want them... gross if on old ppl that have them everywhere...but mostly neato
+ Piercings: dont overdo it.. i do want more


SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tongue.. i know.. but i still think its cool...nose is overdone
+ Single or taken? ... (depressing question) dk
+ MTV or BET? not a big tv person
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? ewww niether
+ Sugar or salt? umm water (ya that would be the weird mood talking)
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? umm alchol...lol
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? desaturated... photoshop junkies'll get it (hint: see my house)
+ Stay up late or sleep in? both! but stay up late
+ Hot or cold? cold, so i can bundle up and be cozy
+ Sun or moon? Moon
+ Left or Right? wth?
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? ...that is an issue with me at the moment...dk
+ Mustard or ketchup? HEINZ ketchup BIACH (lil pgh girl showing through)
+ Spring or Fall? Fall
+ Happy or sad? Happy
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? burger king
+ Mexican or Italian food? mexican!
+ Lights on or off? off
+ Candy or soda? soda
+ Pepsi or Coke? pepsi

and this is exactly what I mean... If I took the chance that coulda been me...damn... i hate myself...may as well just go hole up in some dark cave and stare into the blackness for the rest of my life...Owait..mayb that's what I've been doing all along...

I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late

why is it that you feel the most lonely at the worst possible times? seriously why do I feel so alone? I have so many friends but I still feel like I am the only one here, left alone again. while everyone else is out with their boyfriend, working, or just having a damn good time, I'm here, by myself, doing nothing. The worst part of it all is that its mostly my fault, if I would take a few more risks, or just be a little more outgoing I might just have that. But I am too cautious, not willing to risk anything for everything... if I did I'd have my license, I wouldnt be sitting at home now, hell maybe I'd even have a boyfriend...but no...I'm just home, alone, again,...gna be a long summer

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing i have

If u believe its in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

Last person who;;
Slept in your bed : my sister who has an odd fascination with sleeping in my bed instead of hers O.o
Saw you cry : brittany
Knew you were crying : ditto
Spent the night at your house : some random family member maybe gram?
You shared a drink with : ummm....cant remember
You went to the movies with : jess and chrissy
You went to the mall with : my mom
Yelled at you : probably my dad
Sent you an e-mail : the weather.com ppl


Have You Ever...
Been to Florida : no
California : I wish
Been to Hawaii : maybe... do they have good umm medicine?
Been to Japan : No
Been to China : to get my one of my children
Been to Canada : only on days that end in y
Danced naked : all the time

A few questions;;
Last time you went out of the state : april
Lucky number : umm dont have one?
What you look for in a guy/girl - um tall, funny, drives, idk i suppose its one of those things you can just tell, someone who will talk, umm not being afraid of my massive family
Weirdest thing about you : myself, my sense of humor
What book are you reading now : i needa get a new one
What's on your mouse pad - my mouse u idiot
Favorite board game : sorry
Favorite magazine - uhhh sure...maybe that one that gloria had the one that had scott weiland in it that she was having mind-sex with in the middle of the bookstore
Worst feeling in the world : being on the outside looking in, knowing that you have to do the one thing that you never wanted to, regret, rejection,lonely
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning : where am I? why am I awake?
Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters - umm scary
How many rings before you answer : 1-3
Chocolate or vanilla -vanilla
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : yes
What are you going to do after you finish this survey : find more colleges to visit
What was the last food you ate : um a chewy thingy
How many buddies are on : 60
Last movie you saw : theaters--> pants movie / at home--> some random midway history movie my dad was watching
You get embarrased when : i cant think of anything to say or i dont know anyone
What upsets you - reallyyy preppy preps, my siblings, rules, stupid ppl, annoying ppl, and lotttss of other stuff
Do you like to cook : eh.. maybe sorta, if its easy, otherwise I'm moving in with a gay chef heh...
Do you have a secret you have not shared with anyone - probably
Do you set your watch a few minutes ahead : if i remember...but then i'm always early
Do you believe in love - of ppl? for some... I think everyone has that one thing in life that just does it for them, it could be a person or a job or God or flowers, or cooking or whatever but as for me... if it's out there..I haven't found it yet


What is...
Your most overused phrase on IM - ya..
Your best feature - my arms cuz they're really tan now.. and I like arms
Take a shower everyday : ya
Want to get married - eh not at the moment and probably never
Have any tattoos/where- Not yet
Piercing/where : Ears but i want more like maybe my belly button and maybe my eyebrow, cept i cant decide if i like the way it looks
Get along with your parents- my mom yes, mostly, my dad hardly ever


When you see this name you think of;;
Ryan : umm interesting
Heather- evil bitch princess, my hated cousin
Aaron : backstreet boys
Jordan : ....
Chip : kirk, republican, killing things, stories
Amy : poser (aw) funny kid who thought i should go to NASH and had very interesting friends (scholl)
Eve : ...*blanks out*
Eric - my cousin who i hardly ever see
Megan : jess's sister
Sierra : Mist
Name : uhhh
Natural hair color : dark brown
Current haircolor : Dark brown w/fading red streaks
Eye color - chocolate brown


Preferences;;
Cuddle or makeout : depends on who, where
chocolate milk or hot chocolate : Hot chocolate
Milk, dark or white chocolate - Milk chocolate, even though its bad for you

In the last 48 hours, have you...
Cried - not since sunday
Bought something : yes
Gone to the movies - no
Gone out for dinner : no
Said "I love you" : ummmm no
Written a real letter : no
Talked to an ex - no
Missed an ex : no
Had a serious talk - yes with myself
Missed someone - sorta
Hugged someone : yes
Fought with the parents : cant remember
Fought with a friend : No

*tan* hehe... [I <3 SummEr]

went the pool with my brother and his friends..that was exhausting! soo umm ya other than that nothing too much has been going on... ya just wasting time I guess...

6*more days till Young Apostles WOOOTTT!!!