[Delusions of Granduer]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-11-03
Written: (6959 days ago)

[paigeywaigey163: haha boonies... as if....we are so better than those city girls... ::puts nose in the air and walks off snooty(ish):: ....lol..jk]

I love paige!!!!


so i am sick.. blehhh... my head is going to explode! *booom*

semi is in a week and i have no idea what the hell is going on ...and what's new?

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-23
Written: (6971 days ago)

he's so cute ... i wish i had that...

"It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing"

Hope life's been good to you
since you've been gone
I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on
It's not so bad--I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived
I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive
I can't complain--I'm free again

[Chorus:]
And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath--to forget

Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night
There's no need to worry, I'm really all right
I've never looked back--as a matter of fact

[Repeat Chorus]

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no, I've never looked back--
as a matter fact

[Repeat Chorus]

Hurts when I'm breathing
Breaks when it's beating
Die when I'm dreaming
It only hurts when I breathe



basically ya.. only when i breathe, only after i finally feel alive do i realize how dead I am ....

girls.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry boys are stupid and annoying a-holes... and I wish I could help... I'm here.. if you need someone to talk to...

just when everything seems fine.. just when the pain feels managable... the whole damn world flips upside down and you're back to dealing with the problems that you were unable to deal with in the first place

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Written about Tuesday 2005-10-18
Written: (6976 days ago)

*tears* X like 1349807140971

volleyball is over... and sarah is awsum!!!!!! hun you are such a sweet person.. love ya hun!.. and everyone was really sweet and said some awsum things about me, including the coaches, and I am really gna miss them next year... esp Kristy!! lol and tomro at the last game... ooo tthat's gna be one biiiiigggg crying festtt... but we're gna win!!!!!

but today was also sad for another much more important reason.. today was steph's 18th birthday...so the day kinda was sad...*see below song*

o and my cousin (25 years old) moved out of her house and to the North Hills which no one, including her parents, knew until I saw her in Tarje today with jess and told my parents who called her parents... and now its a "situation" ... I swear "situations" and alcohol are the only things that hold my family together

and to make the day sooo much betterrrr.... barabus told colleen someone from mt called him.. and me and sammy P are like we have no ideaa who did it! lol

[Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone

(Chorus:)
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today


Would you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

(Chorus)

Today (3x)
Today (3x)

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday

Someday, someday
]

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Written about Friday 2005-10-14
Written: (6979 days ago)
Next in thread: 681892, 681893

wow.. for life...

and if everything is perfect how come it seems like everything is falling back out of place?

wow...everything that suddenly changed is back to how it used to be...but not for the better...for the worse, for the much worse...cuz its like living the same thing twice, the feeling is so much more intensified and it's so much worse


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Written about Sunday 2005-10-09
Written: (6984 days ago)
Next in thread: 680309, 680312, 680313

that makes 3 ... three ppl who completely went a different direction... are now themselves again?... wow....

i'm so confused...


wtf?

just when you think you got it figured out and you think everything's finnaly ok... the world turns upside down

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Written about Tuesday 2005-10-04
Written: (6990 days ago)
Next in thread: 676036, 676220, 676221

      It's unbelievable but I believed you
       Unforgivable but I forgave you
       Insane what love can do
        That keeps me coming back to you
        You're irreplaceable but I replaced you
         Now I'm standing on my own..alone*

the end.


for real... for everything... in the end i am alone

the end.

673407  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-09-29
Written: (6995 days ago)

10 laps... 10 effing laps... i should just frickin' quit.. its not like I play anyway...

dude.. so nothing seems right anymore...like senior year was one big sellout... waited so long and the damn thing just sucks, everyone who can save it is gone... I really did lose on of my best friends.. well 2.. and there's too much stuff to do and not enough time to it... SENIOR IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE BEST YEAR EVERRRR!!! well guess what... its all an effing lie... senior year sucks, everyone leaves, theres too much work, too much to handle... too much drama, too little fun, too much $$$$, too little tiime...yup its supposed to be the best year ever, with the people that are the best friends ever taht you'll never forget... well its not... its a big fake, i hate everyone there... well i cant stand them at ALL!.. i feel like i'm losing the friends who can make it better, nothing feels right anymore.... everytime i walk into church I expect to see certain people, certian priests, and I dont.. everythiing feels wrong and I cant keep going much longer living the lie that everything is ok... cuz its not... its not...

losing friends, losing time, sitting on the edge of one of my worst fears... letting life pass me by, while i sit watching it all alone... and i cant fix it.. i have no idea how to

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It’s try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care
When I’m throwing punches in the air
When I’m broken down and I can’t stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

Sheryl crow... strong enough

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Written about Sunday 2005-09-25
Written: (6999 days ago)

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/trinacria_87/my_photos

YA pics... hopefully more to come

actually all the pics are from the myspace group... lol thnx guys.. cuz i am a loser w/o a scanner

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Written about Saturday 2005-09-24
Written: (6999 days ago)

SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN


I can't be losing sleep
over this, no I can't
and now I cannot stop pacing
give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
if my mind would just stop racing

cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening

this is over my head
but underneath my feet
cause by tomorrow morning
I'll have this thing beat
and everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream

would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
don't be surprised if I collapse
down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening, yeah

cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
668643  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-09-20
Written: (7003 days ago)

omg.. i'm so worried about him!!!!!!!!!!!!... this is what happens when you have dumb parents who wont let you online YOU MMISS THINGS LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!

so while i'm here wallowing in my self pity about volleyball, too much homework, i hate everyone at school...life confuses me...blah blah blah ... john somehow got himself in ICU

damnit

sunday was .. um okay i suppose.. ppl are so confusing and messed up.. yesterday sucked.. I dk why i even play sometimes.. it just takes up time and money.. ya...


crap... please pray for john, even if you have no idea who he is! i'm so worried...

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Written about Thursday 2005-09-15
Written: (7009 days ago)
Next in thread: 666030

wow.. life needs to chill. It seems like there's so much going on... can you make the room stand still for a sec?

for example...
*volleyball.. dont even start with that
*family.. dudes.. I need some effing space.. like space outside my house
*"situation"... ppl effing confuse me, when you play with fire ur gna get burned
*college...ooo snappp.. right gotta get started on that crappola..yay
*and school... get me the hell out of that moneysucker... ppl annoy me
*and that other thing.. but no worries.. Adam is coming home next weekend!!!! lol

so ya.. basically life is busy and confusing and annoying.. thank God for certain ppl cuz otherwise I wouldnt be sane

aight gtg do some hw.. gotta game tomro.. if you are anywhere out by StoRox.. aka the GHET-TOOOO... come and watch us get screamed at by our coaches... wooo

*sighs* wish life could be .. back to summer.. I hate this frickn uniform and i love long shorts and beeters... woooo

664551  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-09-13
Written: (7011 days ago)

well we sucked.. that was horrid

glad ur happy now... I'm just feeling left behind again.. why cant I have that with anyone? I really do just wish that the perfect one would get dropped infront of my face, and I could finaly get it.. but i dont.. and once again,i feel like i'm on the outside looking in as life speeds away

eh.. talked to mr. A today about my school issues... interestingness...

well that's all... gna go to sleep and forget this horrid game

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Written about Sunday 2005-09-11
Written: (7012 days ago)

Remember when the days were long
And rolled beneath a deep blue sky
Didn’t have a care in the world
With mommy and daddy standing by
When happily ever after fails
And we’ve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers dwell on small details
Since daddy had to fly
But I know a place where we can go
That’s still untouched by man
We’ll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
[This is the end of the innocence]
O’ beautiful, for spacious skies
But now those skies are threatening
They’re beating plowshares into swords
For this tired old man that we elected king
Armchair warriors often fail
And we’ve been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers clean up all details
Since daddy had to lie
But I know a place where we can go
And was away this sin
We’ll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
Who knows how long this will last
Now we’ve come so far, so fast

But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
I need to remember this
So baby give me just one ((kiss))
And let me take a long last look
Before we say good bye
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best \\defense//
But this is the end
[This is the end of the innocence]

--Don Henley...

I *heart* this song

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Written about Monday 2005-09-05
Written: (7018 days ago)

great my family's done it again... how the hell...? *sighes* family's are funn

[reasons why public school is better than catholic school]
you dont have to pay for it
they employ better teachers, who dont teach math with effing smilely faces
its closer to my house
they offer more AP classes..that are freeee
no uniforms to tuck in
i could have insurance
you dont pay 5000 $$$ for a 40 minute relgion class
you dont have to get along with everyone to survive the school... hell you dont even know them all
certain ppl wouldnt be able to attend it (no one on here sillys)
you dont have to pay over $300 just to play a sport
the cheerleading squad consists of over 5 ppl
better choice of activites/class/sports
your taxes pay for you

*sighes* i dk why i am on this big rant about public schools being better. its never bothered me to go to a catholic school before, well except for the uniform thing but w.e. but seriously .. you can get so much more out of a public scchooolll -- maybe its just cause i see my parents freaking out about $$ and wonder why they just dont give it up and transfer me to save money.. it just doesnt make sense... why do you have to pay money to be taught how to believe?

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Written about Sunday 2005-09-04
Written: (7020 days ago)
Next in thread: 661181

["No matter how serious life gets, you still gotta have that one person who you can be completely stupid with."]



those awsum ppl
brittany
lauren
clare
barabus
adam

you guys are the Bessssttttttt


and i do not hate minorities ... it must have been all that talk about chip that made me temporarilary feel angry toward them... ^_~
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Written about Friday 2005-09-02
Written: (7023 days ago)

[ .001. ] first name: anne
[ .002. ] middle name: ElizAbeth
[ .003. ] last name: not stock -- something normal like smith
[ .004. ] nickname(s): anner, anneypoopooshmoooj fpeo foahfjf ... ya that one
[ .005. ] gender: duck
[ .008. ] hair color: dark brown
[ .009. ] eye color: chocalate
[ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: both damn them both
[ .011. ] do you have braces: damn those too... but they're coming off sooon!!!!
[ .012. ] is your hair long or short: ooo who has short hair?? oooo meeeee
[ .013. ] where were you born: in a hospital stupid
[ .014. ] current location: my butt is in the chair
[ .015. ] zodiac sign: sagitaritupos a,mfjvlp bjn .. ya had some spelling anger issuesss
[ .016. ] how many languages do you know: 2
[ .017. ] what language do you want to learn: arabic
[ .018. ] bad habits: lving
[ .019. ] piercing you have: ears
[ .020. ] piercing you want: lip, eyebrow, toungue
[ .021. ] tattoos you have: none want: couple
[ .023. ] today: monjay
[ .024. ] today's date: november -12th
[ .025. ] the time: 12:61
[ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: ehh not really

F A M I L Y
[ .027. ] mother's name: why
[ .028. ] father's name: do
[ .029. ] brother's name: you 
[ .030. ] sister's name: care?
[ .031. ] favorite aunt: moochie
[ .032. ] favorite uncle: pj/chucky
[ .033. ] favorite grandparent: papa
[ .036. ] worst relative: all of them except the above ones
[ .037. ] best relative(s): britt/jaden
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: mostly
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: hell no


S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yes
[ .044. ] did you drop out: no
[ .046. ] favorite grade: kindergarthen
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 10th... *shivers* smoky and may
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: mrs. P
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: mr. herring
[ .050. ] favorite subject: spanish
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: history
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: bring IT ON
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: volleyball
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: some
[ .055. ] are/were you popular: umm not exactly
[ .056. ] favorite dance: safety dance
[ .057. ] favorite memory: that one time at band camp....
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: sophomore year
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: life

F A V 0 R I T E S

[ .061. ] number: 19
[ .062. ] letter: Z
[ .063. ] shoes: none
[ .064. ] saying(s): damn straight
[ .065. ] TV show: gilmore girls
[ .066. ] sport: volleyball
[ .067. ] vegetable: french fries
[ .068. ] fruit: mango
[ .069. ] movie: arthur
[ .070. ] magazine: cosmo
[ .071. ] actor: vin diesl, harrison ford!
[ .072. ] actress: sandra bullock
[ .073. ] candy: circus peanuts
[ .074. ] gum: orbit
[ .075. ] scent: man hoodie.. or that stuff at target
[ .076. ] candy bar: milky way
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: mint chocolate chip
[ .078. ] color: red, black
[ .079. ] season: summer into fall
[ .080. ] holiday: christmas
[ .081. ] band(s): just.. go to the house
[ .082. ] singer: roger, kissinger
[ .083. ] group: band?
[ .084. ] rapper: HELL NO BIACH
[ .085. ] type of music: ROCK!!!! xian
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my bed...cd player
[ .087. ] place to be: outofdoors ... at camp
[ .089. ] tv channel: spike
[ .090. ] junk food: chips
[ .091. ] overall food: food
[ .092. ] store: target
[ .093. ] hangout: cars
[ .094. ] fast food: wendys
[ .095. ] restaurant: outback
[ .096. ] shape: zigzag
[ .097. ] time of day: night
[ .098. ] country: usa
[ .099. ] state: Hawaii
[ .100. ] boys name: william
[ .101. ] girls name: montana
[ .102. ] mall: ross park
[ .103. ] video game: mario kart
[ .104. ] shampoo: cheap?
[ .105. ] board game: life
[ .106. ] computer game: roller coaster tycoon
[ .107. ] car: berrata
[ .108. ] music video: motely crew...if i die tomorrow
[ .109. ] swear word: damn
[ .110. ] word: cappadocia
[ .111. ] month: april
[ .112. ] cartoon character: speedy gonzallz
[ .113. ] scary movie: secret window
[ .114. ] team: STILLERS
[ .115. ] possession: cd player


T H I S - 0R - T H A T ?

[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: Rock
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: ROCK
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: ewwww turn off the radio
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: turn off the damn radio
[ .148. ] rap or metal: metal
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: TURN. OFF. THE. RADIO. NOOOOWWWWWW
[ .150. ] pop or metal: metal
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park
[ .153. ] tool or korn: korn
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: umm nope
[ .155. ] hot or cold: hot
[ .156. ] winter or summer: summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: fall
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: also niether
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: BOTTHHH!!!!
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: garbage
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: vh1
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: neither
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: gilmore girls
[ .165. ] football or basketball: football
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: summer
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: skate boarding
[ .169. ] black or white: black
[ .170. ] orange or red: red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: green
[ .172. ] purple or pink: purple
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: BOTH!!!!
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: BOTH!!!
[ .175. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol... tastes better
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell phone
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: pen
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: OMG!!! powerpuff rocks my socks
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: scooobbyyyyy
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: dragon....
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars...hell yes
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: tattoos
[ .184. ] prep or punk: punk
[ .185. ] slut or whore: whore

P R I V A T E L I F E

[ .186. ] do you have a ..boyfriend or ..girlfriend: actually quite alot...
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: of course
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: sorta
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: dk
[ .190. ] how many ppl have u kissed: 1
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: ha. ha.. hahahahahaha... funny joke
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: 1
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: ><never love something so much that when fate snatches it away your whole world turns black><Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever><Love is... Running into his arms, Colliding with his heart, And exploding into his soul.
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: i forget
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: sorta
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: no scanner.. sry pyscho stalkers
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yeah
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: the house...
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: personality.. if they have a good one looks get better as they go
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: yes
[ .202. ] are you still friends: umm dk
[ .203. ] do you smoke: 2nd hand
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: no
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: no
[ .206. ] how about a little x: no
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: no
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: mostly good
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: pansy drinks
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: none
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: yup

W 0 U L D Y 0 U E V E R..

[ .215. ] bungee jump: yes
[ .216. ] sky dive: yes
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yeah
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yeah
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: yeah
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: no
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: never
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: no
[ .223. ] cross-dress: umm maybe...
[ .224. ] lie to the police: possibly
[ .225. ] run from the police: yes
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: sometimes
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: ya
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: dk
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: maybe
[ .230. ] streak: $$$?

H A V E Y 0 U E V E R

[ .258. ] flashed someone: yes
[ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: yes
[ .260. ] been to michigan: no
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: no
[ .263. ] skateboarded: yes
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: no
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yes, petty things
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: all the time
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: haha ya
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: no
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: no, i'm not my family
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: ooo yes.... lol
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yeah
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
[ .275. ] been to a concert: no (stupid parents)
[ .276. ] been to another country: no
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yes...can we say mrs. lynch
[ .278. ] got pulled over: yes
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: yes
[ .280. ] broke a law: yeah
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yes
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: no
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: no
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: no
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: no
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and ate it: yes..lol

0 P I N I 0 N S

[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: meh
[ .288. ] about boy bands: ewww
[ .289. ] about flag burning: heh
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: damn bush
[ .291. ] about suicide: bad
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: if you do it nicely i'll listen, if not i'll kick your ass then tell you what I think
[ .293. ] about abortion: NO
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: = my life
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: not in my house

W H A T D I D Y 0 U DO

[ .297. ] last birthday: a funeral actually
[ .298. ] yesterday: volleyball game, and school
[ .299. ] last weekend: umm worked on my papr =[
[ .300.
] christmas: slept
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: puked
[ .302. ] new years: eve--played poker/day--family xmas party... i know we are really screwwd
[ .303. ] halloween: umm watched movies with jess and left bad msgs on britt's phone
[ .304. ] easter: more sleep and research paper
[ .305. ] valentine's day: HAPPy singles awareness day

T H E L A S T

[ .306. ] thing you ate: ceaser salal
[ .307. ] thing you drank: sprite
[ .308. ] thing you wore: my name
[ .309. ] place you went: olive graden

[ .312. ] person you kissed: ... haha
[ .313. ] person you fucked: umm u decide.. its so much better that way
[ .314. ] person you talked to: mom
[ .315. ] song you heard: break my fall .. breaking benjamin

N 0 W

[ .316. ] what are you eating: food
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: not quite sure.. hope it has some alcohol in it
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: jeans and a T
[ .319. ] any shoes on: heck no
[ .320. ] hat: no
[ .321. ] listening to: breaking benjamin
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: ooo yes all of my imaginary friends are having a fascinating converstaion about treesss
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: ya... ur lucky i dk who the hell you are

Y or N

[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: hell no
[ .325. ] do you like cows: yup
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: umm hhmmmm
[ .327. ] are you artistic: hell no
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: when i'm depressed
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: not really
[ .330. ] can you ski: neg
[ .331. ] are you british: a tad
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: maybe
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: all the time.. they say ur an ass
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: no.. never had a barbie
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: *pukes*
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made alice in wonderland: HELL YES
[ .337. ] are you straight: as a circle
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: umm H--all of the above
[. 339. ] are you naughty: suurrrreee
[ .340. ] are you nice: when i'm too awake to realize where i am
[ .341. ] are you short: hahahahahaha
[ .342. ] are you tall: yes *sulks*
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: cami
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: umm nooo
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: there they goo to afffrica
[ .346. ] are you evil : hell yes
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: ya.. but then he made it go away... kissinger... get one back hahahahaha

655596  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-08-29
Written: (7026 days ago)

*So don't be a liar, don't say that "everything's working" when everything's b.r.o.k.e.n. And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me.*

[say it aint so... I will not go
turn the lights off... carry me home
Keep your head still.... I'll be your thrill
the night will go on
]

wow... life happens.... and continues... regardless of what you think or do....the worlds turns


when did i get so frick'n old?... and life so frick'n confusing?


Man we were killin' time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothin' can last forever - forever, no

And now the times are changin'
Look at everything that's come and gone

652840  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-08-24
Written: (7030 days ago)
Next in thread: 652874

wow... wow...

when i'd finally given up hope -- didnt even care anymore -- he came through....


wow... amzing... wow


*sniff* I'm gna miss them soooo much....



[Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
]

651501  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-08-22
Written: (7032 days ago)

haha.. i might go to florida for spring breakkkkkk wooooottttttttt---and get a tatto while i'm there


but i start school in two days...that sucks... but i might getta see fr. matt for a lunch?


but i have volleyball 2 out of 3 nights left of freedom... grrrr


gtg do some papers

650982  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-08-22
Written: (7033 days ago)

guess what guys? I'm 12... cuz that's the way my dad treats me, like I'm 12, like ben.. hey maybe we're twins...cuz we're the same age!!!.... psychodad

back from "vacation" HA... excuse me laughing... in INdiana woooooo...ooo...o...*snores* and now I start school on effing thrusday... damn basement

ur right gates.. its totaly my song.... even if I try to let go, that involves looking at it... and that hurts, so i never do really let it goo... its just a part of me i deal with...

well i'm off to go to bed...cuz its 10:00 and that's what time 12 yr olds go to bed...so goodnight


O wait I almost forgot.. I've decided I need to meet some new ppl... esp. new guys... so if you are a diary stalker and see this then msg me...


I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

647597  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-08-16
Written: (7038 days ago)

November

Has lots of extraordinary ideas.
Difficult to fathom.
Thinkforward.
[Unique.]
brilliant.
Sharp thinking.
Fine, strong clairvoyance.
make good doctors.
Dynamic. Secretive.
Inquisitive.
Know how to dig secrets.
Always thinking.
Less talkative.
amiable.
Brave.
generous.
Patient.
Stubborn.
hardhearted.
Determined.
Never quit.
Hardly become angry unless provoked.
Love to be alone.
Think differently.
Sharp-minded.
Motivate self.
[Dont appreciate praises. ]
Highspirited.
Well-built, tough.
Deep love, emotions.
Romantic.
[Uncertain in relationships.]
Homely.
Hardworking.
High abilities.
Trustworthy.
Honest.
Keepsecrets.
Cant control emotions.
Unpredictable.


*so true...
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