[Jino "ChaoS" Silver_flamE]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7120 days ago)

end fucking racism!!

A black man walks into a cafe one early morning and noticed that
he was the only black man there. As he sat down, he noticed a
white man behind him. The white man said, "Colored people are not
allowed here."


The black man turned around and stood up. He then said:


"When I was born I was black,"


"When I grew up I was black,"


"When I'm sick I'm black,"


"When I go in the sun I'm black,"


"When I'm cold I'm black,"


"When I die I'll be black."


"But you sir..."


"When you're born you're pink,"


"When you grow up you're white,"


"When you're sick, you're green,"


"When you go in the sun you turn red,"


"When you're cold you turn blue,"


"And when you die you turn purple."


"And you have the nerve to call me colored!!!"


The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away...


//Pass this on and help erase racism//

582838  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-05-25
Written: (7121 days ago)

GO EducatE YourselveS! NOW!!! ^_^

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580222  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-05-22
Written: (7124 days ago)

WelcomE TO MY WorlD
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554235  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-04-17
Written: (7159 days ago)
Next in thread: 554593

DuE TO MY MuM TakinG ThE KeyboarD AnD MousE OF MY PC, I'M NoT GonnA BE ON SO OfteN AnD FoR LonG PeriodS OF TimE.

540592  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-04-03
Written: (7173 days ago)

This hasn't happened for quite some time.
It's odd.
And it hurts.

I was with the Nightwish Fanclub.
Sitting on a table with some friends.
Drinking.
Smoking.
And suddenly I realized what the feeling was.
I felt alone.
Like in some silly music video.
I watched them talk and laugh.
I watched them move and live.
And everything seemed to be in slow motion.
I put on my headphones and I felt away from them.
I could see them.
Feel them.
Yet...
I was alone.
I wasn't to be there.
Although they perswaded me to stay for a while longer.
I stayed.
One more cigarette time.
No one talked to me.
i had nothing to say to anyone.
I was alone.
In the whole fucking bar, full of familiar faces.
Alone.

I haven't felt that way for some time now.
Not so strong a feeling.
You get hurt.
You just want to die.
When.
This dreaded feeling.
Comes.
To take you away.
To slam you to the wall.
To rip your heart out.

And memories don't help.
Memories.
Of times forgotten.
Of days of joy and love.
Lost.
Nevermore.
Nevermore.

I don't even know why I'm writing this.
I'm sure no one will read it.
And if you do- bravo.
That means you're curious enough.

But, honestly- you don't need me, do you.
I'm just a face.
Some letters.
Some words.
A nick.
And nothing more.

You don't need me.
I'm sure.

Why.
Why do I write this.
It really doesn't matter.
I doubt anyone cares.
I doubt it matters.

You, dear reader, do you even know me?
Are you a friend?
Someone who was just passing through my house?
Or maybe a foe?
Do you even know what I'm talking about?
How I feel?
How it hurts to try to be there for everyone.
But when you try to tell everyone you're hurt, you feel like an idiot.
Because most of them don't care.
And the ones who do can't help you.
Because they have problems of their own.

And you- you know who you are.
If you're reading this.
Stop fucking with my life.
Our life.
We suffer enough without you.
Hmpf... Whatever.
Try harder.
See if I care!

God.
I feel alone.
I'm talking to people online right now.
And the feeling's still here.
Alone.
So fucking cold.
And so fucking alone.

No one's there.

518005  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-03-10
Written: (7197 days ago)

My current <poll:46329> results.
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Written about Sunday 2005-03-06
Written: (7201 days ago)



LosinG ClosE FriendS



502033  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-02-21
Written: (7214 days ago)


That's how I'm gonna look like one day.


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475043  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-01-18
Written: (7248 days ago)
Next in thread: 488521

If you know me- read this.


I keep wondering howcome the world around me still accepts me.

All I leave behind are ashes.

Yet the wing takes them and turns them into snow.

Why?

I do not deserve all my friends.
They do not deserve a curse like me.

They keep baring me, eventhough I keep hurting them.
They take the ashes and treasure them, as if the fire's still alive.

Yet it isn't.

My allconsuming darkness spreads.
I burn and scorch and scar everything, everyone.

Yet they keep on.
They don't give up.

I've been evil, I've done wrong.
Yet my friends are all around me still.

I don't deserve them.

But they believe otherwise.
Howcome?
Why?

It makes no sence to keep a being like me as a friend.

I keep hurting all of you.

Yet you're still here for me.

Even those of you who hate eachother unite in order to protect me.
To keep me.

Why?

It makes no sence.

You don't run away.
You don't hate me.
After everything I've done.
I've said.

I bow to you.
I thank you.
448726  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2004-12-18
Written: (7279 days ago)
Next in thread: 448758, 450256

!!!HappY!!!

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Written about Wednesday 2004-12-08
Written: (7289 days ago)

I AM

<<GodsmacK>>


I am your spoken truth
I am the lies in you
I'm gonna make you shine in everything you do
I am your lighted way
And I'm your darkest day
I'm here to help you see you can rely on me

Just consider me your friend
I am until the end
Can I guarantee you life?
I don't think I can

This isn't the life for me
This isn't the way I wanna be
And let me tell you
Death will come when I'm good and ready

I am your peace of mind
Confusing all your time
I'm running through your veins, I am your pain
I thought by now you'd know
I'll never let you go
It's time you recognize I am the devil's eyes

Just consider me your friend
I am until the end
Can I guarantee you life?
I don't think I can

This isn't the life for me
This isn't the way I wanna be
And let me tell you
Death will come when I'm good and ready

This isn't the life for me
This isn't the way I wanna be
And let me tell you
Death will come when I'm good and ready

(Background)
(Death will come when I'm good and goddamn ready)

Take me by my hand
And let me show you what I am
I'm taking control again
Now I know I can
Take you back to where it all began
'Cause I am

This isn't the life for me
This isn't the way I wanna be
And let me tell you
Death will come when I'm good and ready

This isn't the life for me
This isn't the way I wanna be
And let me tell you
Death will come when I'm good and ready
410048  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-11-11
Written: (7316 days ago)
Next in thread: 410124, 410616, 411407, 432508

I want to die.

409573  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-11-11
Written: (7316 days ago)
Next in thread: 409660

This too



Relese the Demons Lyrics

<<Godsmack>>

What do you see in the dark
when the demons come for you

If only you could have seen
how fucked up my life used to be
then everything starts to change
supposedly healing my pain
I never thought I'd feel this way
I never thought that I'd see a day
I'd run away from anything or anywhere or anyone
Its all these demons haunting me
Its all these little things trapped inside of me
Releasing me from all my sin
Its taken me all of my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together
Releasing the demons again

And now I look through my minds eye
And see where my past needs to rest
Its always disturbed by these voices
That echo inside of my head
Another way that I can hide
Another reason to crawl inside and get away
from everything and everywhere and everyone
NO!
Its all these demons haunting me
Its all these little things trapped inside of me
Releasing me from all my sin

Its taken me all of my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together
Releasing the demons......again

Facin the days as I grow into my own
Loving and hatings the same
And three-fold I told you
it comes back with laughter
Over and over again
Its coming back

Its taken me all of my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together

Releasing...
Releasing the demons again(4x)
Releasing the demons...
408393  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-11-10
Written: (7317 days ago)

Sick of Life

<<Godsmack>>


Paralyzed. Nothing's getting through to me.
Hypnotized from all my surroundings.
I wanna be something I could never be.
I wanna say things that I could never say.
Yeah, I'm gonna do it again!

Sick of my life. I'm tired of everything in my life.

Dragged down. Rubbing my face in the ground.
No time for the undecided.
I wanna know why I've always felt alone,
I wanna love. Why am I untouchable?
Yeah, I'm gonna do it again!

Sick of my life. I'm tired of everything in my life.
I never wanted to be sick of my life.
I'm tired of everything in my life.

408391  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-11-10
Written: (7317 days ago)

Trippin'

<<Godsmack>>

Written by: Sully & Tony

Living a different way. You can't expect me to be the same.
Separating our lives and wondering why.
Face down I walk away. Every time I think I do the right thing,
you turn your back on me.

Trippin' into a world that never seems too far away.
Too much time, too many wasted days.

How can you be this way? Now I'm alone and cold today.
I'm walking dead man's drive. Reaching out for my life.
I've been known to fuck up everything.
In this skin there's a broken man.

Trippin' into a world that never seems too far away.
Too much time, too many wasted days.
Just another vision in my world!

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