The Burden of my regrets...
Don't tell me you love me,
I've lost faith in those words,
Mostly when they are used,
Its only to hurt me

In god I am faithless,
To people I'm useless,
To her I am pledged and falling apart,
To you I am but a thorn in your side

I'm tired of being faithless,
I'm tired of being afraid,
I'm tired of when I turn to them,
they just turn away,
I'm tired of all their lies,
and the way they say they care,

I wish that I could smile,
Turn the corners of my lips to reach the sky,
Though after being stabbed in the back,
I can only ask them why,

Why were you there,
if not to catch me when I fall?
Why did you say you care,
When you never returned my calls?

All I did was let you in,
And open up to you,
When all you did was thrust your blade,
And to my heart it went through,

You drag me down,
Drown me in a Stream of sorrows,
You hold my mouth shut so I cannot scream,
And hold me under so I cannot breath,

You drowned my soul ina sea of fears,
And left me on the shore to suffer,
From my wrists, the blood flows,
Open your eyes to the pain you wrought...

Every time you close your eyes,
See my dying sillowet,
And when you try to sleep at night,
I hope you see my face,

Feel the guilt of your crime,
As it bares down upon you,
Curse my sould to wander these plains,
And I'll come back to haunt you,

See my face lined with tears,
Feel the burden of all my fears,
Sleep at night a wrestless sleep,
Try to escape through a forest of razor blades,

And on the hills,
I'll watch you from up high,
Watch as you carry my burden,
Cry dear lover, cry dear sinner,
Feel my pain tonight...

Haunting whispers as you lay on the floor,
They are calling out to you,
The ones you hurt want you to join them,
And in your heart thats what you want too,

Slice your wrists, and let the blood flow,
Here me whisper words of regret,
And when you close your eyes, one last time,
You see my face, before all is lost.

Condemned and chained,
To rot in hell,
Your apology and my forgiveness the only key,
You will suffer for all time,
Becasue I am tired of forgiving...

Feel the burden of every sin,
Feel the pain that I too felt,
Unscathed outside, but scared within,
This is your punishment, and I won't help,
These burdens shall be yours,
The burden of my regrets...

I shall be your guardian angel
looking down from above
its your side I will stand by when life is at its worst
it your hand that I will hold when I've lost all my strength
and its you that I will lift up when you're feeling down
I'll be the one to catch all of your tears
I'll be the one to ward off your fears,
to hold you tight til you fall asleep
when I shall return to my place in the sky,
to forever remain your guardian angel

Un finished but I will fix it when I can.
Dedicated to Melissa, please baby, remember that I love you
Verse 1

Watch as the soul of your loved one is spilled out before you,
and remember the love that you two once shared,
Remember the pain that you once inflicted, and remember the words he accepted,
remember the way you once were, a pair of friends, that friendship would never die,
Remember the heart that you helped to mend,
and the one you helped to break, so that he may start again
Remember he loves you more than life itself, and remember that it wont end...

Somewhere I can be free
Male singing:If you need a hug, I'll give you ten,
If you need to give a hug, I'm willing to recieve,
if you need to cry my shoulder is free,
for you my darling, I shall percieve.

Female singing: What if I fall?
Will you be there to catch me, and brace my landing?
Would you hold me in your arms and never let me go?
Would you lift me up into the night, and take me somewhere I can be free?

Male singing: When life holds you down, I'll be there to comfort you,
If your wings break, I'll give you mine,
I love you too much to see you ground down,
I'd never leave you for dead.

Female singing: What if you left?
What if you left me here, all alone to fight through my own fears,
How long would it be before you returned?
And when you return, will I be the first to be held in your arms,
So once again you can lift me up into the night, and take me to a place I can be free...

Male singing: For life eternal, I shall be yours,
I will not fail to be here ffor you,
When life is hard any you feel drained,
I am willing to share my strength for you,
If you fall I will be there to brace your landing,
I would hold you tight in my arms, and never let you go,
I would never leave you here alone,
If I had too I;d take you with me,
I would never leave you to fight your fears,
I will lift from this dusty prison, and fly away into the night,
To take you to a place you can be free...
To take you to a place that we are free...

Female singing: I see it now, I'll never fall,
Because you will be there to catch me,
You'd never leave me here alone to fight my own fears,
You'd hold me in your arms, and fly away with me,
Fly away into the night, and take me to a place I can be free,
Take me to a place I can be me,
Take me to a place that we are free...

[About Jamie-lee ((My ex))
Destrotying myself with Knives and needles,
She said she loved me, despite what she did,
She told me lies, to cover the truth,
my Heart never broke, it shattered inside.
Jamie-lee, I hate you.
<About Melissa>
Love has been given in my pointless life,
Killing all those that kill me inside.
She gave me love when the opther wouldn't,
she said she loved me, and meant every word,
she never lied, to cover the truth,
Melissa, I love you.

On my path to sanity and normallity I hope tofind her waiting,
Waiting at the cross roads and continue the journey with me.
To choose the path that I may walk
and the ones that I may not
To wait for me when I fall behind,
and lift me up when I fall on my face
To listen when I need to talk, and talk when I need to listen
To hold me when my strength is sapped
to kiss me when my wounds won't mend
But most of all, to remember that I always love her, and will never stop crying if she walks away

An angel that once new how to fly,
up above the world so high,
One of many for all would sing,
Now glides down on broken wings,
Show me your heart and I'll take it away,
Fearing the darkness and lonely by day,
Memories, of a love so true,
My head is now filled with the vision of you,
Green emerald eyes, and golden brown hair,
Your caring touch, and loving stare.
Green emerald eyes, and golden brown hair,
Your caring touch, and loving stare.
Memories of you, that will never fade,
Sleeping beneath stars and true love that we made,

Sorrow desire,
A world filled of fire,
Like wood to a fire my heart ignites,
Together we would lay, in a blanket at night,

Another half finished song, tell me what you think.

Yes to all those who care, my heart aches, and I do know why, I am in love, and the person I speak of knows who she is. Bloody hell it hit me like a ton of bricks, though I only felt heart ache and the longing to be with her. Why do I love her you ask, my answer is simple.
She is caring, beautiful, nice, always there when I need her, charming, sexy, lovable, not just beautiful on the outside, but I see beauty on the inside too.
She is everything to me, the same sort of person I would love to marry when I get older. She is my love, my life, the air I breath, and the only one I could ever want. I hope she isn't afraid of love.

The darkest of shaddows, looms over me,
Still I sit and wait,
The demon of love, haunts my every step,
And still I sit and wait for you,
Love is a toy, not to be played with,
I wait and I wait,
I don't eat, or drink or sleep,
I only sit and I wait,
The shaddows form the shape of your face,
I know its not, I continue to wait,
Your face it haunts me, your touch taunts my heart,
But still I wait,
I am trying to find an answer for my heart,
But I refuse to move until you return,
I wonder if your ever coming back to me,
That is why I sit and wait,
I am hoping that you love me, same as I love you,
And so I continue to wait,
I am desperate to see you, desperate to touch you,
That is why wait for you,
My first words when we meet, I haven't yet desided,
I wait for the oportune moment...

Another of the poems I have writen, I think the person that this iss directed to knows who she is, and knows how I feel, constantly waiting, seeing shaddows of her face, dreaming of her, wanting to hold her, to kiss her, and for the waiting to cease, I don't want to have to wait, but I do it anyway...I love her, and refuse to fight it, and refuse to deny it. I love you, and I hope you realise it is you and no other that I love, please try and figure it out if you read this...

Sleeping silently,
waiting for them to come,
waiting to be taken away,
I fall from great hights,
and the demons cry my name,
darkness closes around me,
and I try to escape,
the terror of the blinding darkness, I fall beyond all reach.
Many sleepless nights,
I lie awake and think of you,
The last of my memories spill before me,
and the blood from my throat forms a puddle on the floor,
I wish I could help you,
and those that I lost,
but my end has come,
and I will not fight...

Just a poem I wrote, I hope you like it...

I cry in pain, as my sins spread round me like fire,
I am a victum of my own selfish desire,
Falling too far, calling for help,
My selfish desires, make me a whelp,
The burning pain, I endured for years,
The pain I am feeling, brings forth the tears,
I sit alone, and for the pain I weap,

I can't think of anything to rhym with weap, if anyone who reads this can find saomething to go with weap, please tell me.