why am i so unnhappy when i reallly should be happy.
this is all very lame.
i do miss steven -- even though i deny it.
dylan yelled at me last night -- i should have broken up with him then.
steven peck doesnt like me =(
steven jones hasnt removed my pictures from his special bed place thing.
i have his fork on my wall. just because i can.
I dont know if i want to date anyone anymore.
at all.
i sorta wanna be single.
i like Alli McCleary =(
she'lll never like me.
Justin in Spencers told me he "really likes me"
Josh says when im 18 hes divorcing his wife.
high school is all dramamtic.
i dont kow if i wanna go to the mall anymore-- if i do.. im so just chilling with Justin and Josh in Spencers. then Quintin.
my mom needs to not get attched in my relationships.
she heard that im not that into dylan anymore..and she says "thats messed up"
he says he'll kill himself if i ever break up with him. =( =( i hate when people pressure me into dating them forever.
i cant beieve he yelled at me.
UGHHHHHHHHHH
I have so much.
I shouldnt feel the way i do.
Emptiness taking hold.
He treats me so well..
He tells me he loves me..
but emptiness still abounds.
You do nothing to help.
Using everything against me the way you do..
confusing me to the end.
Drama entertains the soul.
The soul of high school.
uughh. i dont know.
c-o-n-f-u-s-e-
i love Dylan.
<3
would you...
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] listen to Blink 182 with me?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap me in the ass?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] carress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] let me wear your pants?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
do you....
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle wit me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
are we....
[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?
am i.....
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?
have you ever.....
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
are you.....
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin bout me?
yeah for the second time its here... well thats because no one did it. =[ shows how much people care.
what would you do if:
[1.) I committed suicide:]
[2.) I said I liked you:]
[3.) I kissed you:]
[4.) I lived next door to you:]
[5.) I started smoking:]
[6.) I stole something:]
[7.) I was hospitalized:]
[8.) I ran away from home:]
[9.) I got into a fight and you weren't there:]
What do you think of my...:
[1.) Personality:]
[2.) Eyes:]
[3.) Face:]
[4.) Hair:]
[5.) Clothes:]
[6.) Mannerisms:]
General stuff...:
[1.) Who are you?:]
[2.) Are we friends?:]
[3.) When and how did we meet?:]
[4.) How have I affected you?:]
[5.) What do you think of me?:]
[6.) What's the fondest memory you have of me?:]
[7.) How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:]
[8.) Do you love me?:]
[9.) Have I ever hurt you?:]
[10.) Would you hug me?:]
[11.) Would you kiss me?:]
[12.) Would you make love to me? :]
[13.) Would you marry me?:]
[14.) Emotionally, what stands out?:]
[15.) Do you wish I was cooler?:]
[16.) On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:]
[17.) Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. :]
[18.) Am I loveable?:]
[19.) How long have you known me?:]
[20.) Describe me in one word. :]
[21.) What was your first impression? :]
[22.) Do you still think that way about me now?:]
[23.) What do you think my weakness is?:]
[24.) Do you think I'll get married?:]
[25.) What about me makes you happy?:]
[26.) What about me makes you sad?:]
[27.) What reminds you of me?:]
[28.) What's something you would change about me :]
[29.) How well do you know me? :]
[30.) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? :]
[31.) Do you think I would kill someone? :]
[32.) Are we close?:]
[33.) Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:]
...Im happy.
He makes me so happy ... its unbelievable..
Blah, everything is effing great ,, right now..
garsh , i hoppppe it lasts XD!
WEE!!!
<33333
my entry before this says it all.
I just really dont see the point.
You know for living..
mean...
we're all born.. then we go through soo much pain and hurt and then we have some happy memories which serve no purpose...beca
so tell me please what is the point of working hard in school so you can grow up and get this great job and get all this money so you can be happy while everyone else suffers..and then you die...and everything you've worked for is gone.
Adn when you think about it...hell shouldn't be all to bad..just the version that these conspiracies they call "churches" draw up is this bad place where your soul goes after you die and you get endlessly tortured..but tell me how is that when you are only a soul and nothing more..and you have no human form...and you are dead, so there is nothing that satan can do to hurt you...i swear to you if there is even a such thing as hell and i go there..im going to just lay down. and there is nothing anyone can do about it..i have no body for them to poke and prod so how the hell are they going to stop me from resting?! i can put up with endless screaming and shouting. thats no big deal. so really i see no point in trying to be this wonderful great person who does good for everyone else and gets nothing in return when in the end your just going to die. and nothing else can happen to you...
DO YOU SEE MY POINT?!!?!
tell me...
what can anyone do to you once your dead? nothing.
So what is the point of building up this perfect life..when in the end your going to loose it..
you see if i had my way i would just not even live..consider
And another thing..
If god is this wonderful great perfect person or thing...then why the hell couldn't he create a perfect world... he is obviously flawed if he can create such a vial place and such vial evil creatures such as humans..
And HOW HYPOCRITICAL IS THIS:
"tho shalt not judge.. for tho will be judged"
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT!?!?!!?!?! how can he sit there and tell us not to judge..when hes going to judge us... God has done absolutly nothing for me..and not one of my prayers has been answered in my 13 years of asking. I dont even think there is a god... i think that he is just something that someone created to try and make the world better.. and in their poor attempt just made things worse...giving people false hope and empty promises.. nothing worse. i swear to you.
I dont see the point in living...
if you see one.. please clue me in because i would like to know. besides friends.. what do i have?
life sux. i want joey soo bad.but he dumped me. i love him. alot. and no i am not just on a "joey hihg" as [betterdays813] puts it. i really do love him. considering all i think about constantly all day over and over is joey,what he looks like, how it would be if i dated him again, what i should have done when i was with him, what i would do right this time if he were to ask me out agian, i analyze every second i remember of going out with joey and what i did and should have, and i just basically think all about him all day everyday. and i have ever scine he dumped me. NO I AM NOT OBSESSED. its called love you idiots who think i am obsessed. LOVE.
wOW...I DON'T KNOW WHO I LIKE ANYMORE... i'm not even sure if i like anyone at this point...damn emotions suck..lmao...a
CONGRATS ROBBIE WITH YOUr BoOoOO Danielle! LMAO!