oO i dunoo man.... im kinda spaced out..... <<twitch>> i have a rash on my neck from this evil fuzzy sweater <<kills it>>
weeeeeeee ^^ haha, my life rocks :P yesturday, i came home late, and i got yelled at, but then i got 50 cents and pizza :P im at school right now. finishes my work in careers class. bored..... im making a book of poems that i wrote about doom, and some that he likes. on the front of the book i wrote "poetry for someone who cares" domm is cool. grrrr.... I HATE THIS SCHOOL!!!! <<dies.... regrets it and then un-dies>> only 5 minutes left till 5th period is over.... then i have math for 6th, 1st lunch, english for 7th and band of 8th. then i gotta go home.... talk to will, get a hold of brit, tell doom the book is in progress *so far i only got liek 5 pages, but its a start* oh crap... i gotta do a vasilone treatment when i get home..... evil lice...... oh well, maybe me doom will and brit can hang out tomorrow...... and go and kick stephens arse <<smiles innocently>> <<akward silence>> well..... oh well
i jsut wanna be somewhere with someone
i can love and hold forever
i just wanna be somewhere
outdoors with all the sunshine
and the wind blowing softly on my skin
i wanna be free from all my worries
not have to think a single thought
jsut have my world inside my mind
and take away the pain
be with him forever more
i dotn care what happens
i know you do
being in love is liek a dream
fast asleep in harmony
living a lie that hurts so bad
you cant stand to be away from pain
everything and everyone and everywhere you go
no one cares this life of yours
jsut use it well dont waste your air
think of how youre perfect
in no ones eyes but his
and every time he touches you
your heart skips a beat
and think of all the blissfull joy
every time your lips meet
you think that this is perfect
you think that this will never end
in your mind you know its a lie
but you enjoy your pain too much
he said that he would stay forever
forever wasnt very long
he said that he would take the hight road
he thought that i was always worng
cause when he lied it meant he loved me
and when he lied it meant he cared
and when he lied it meant he loved me
cause when he lied it meant that he was there
he said that he would go his own way
wrapped up my leg and down my spine
he said that he would be the fairest
drenched in blood and terpintine
cause when he lied it meant he loved me
and when he lied it meant he cared
and when he lied it meant he loved me
cause when he lied it meant that he was there
im never going back i dont care what he said
i wish he sould see the hate in my head
im never going back i dont care what he said
i wish he sould see the hate in my head
im never going back i dont care what he said
i wish he sould see the hate in my head
im never going back i dont care what he said
i wish he sould see the hate
he said that he would tell no secrets
he said that he would never lie
he said that he would spring eternal
he said that we would never die
cause when he lied it meant he loved me
and when he lied it meant he cared
and when he lied it meant he loved me
cause when he cried it meant he cared
cause when he lied it meant he loved me
and when he lied it meant he cared
and when he lied it meant he loved me
cause when he lied it meant that
he was
he was
he was
he was there
little children
running around with
bits of broken glass
and lighters
setting them on fire
and cutting open
eachothers hearts
in the dead of night
most peacefull yet
dangerous of times
wondering aimlessly
looking up at the stars
sirens shreiking loudly
more crimes
more drugs
more death
faint backround noises
peopel going on with their lives
giving not a care
thinking about
only themselves
the cold wind blowing
makes me feel hollow & empty
i dont liek this place
i have to get away
i dont know what
exactly it was
that was you know
instilled in me
but its this sort of
sense of being
a part of something
i dont know
you know like
i knew that i
was being ushered
into something
i wanted to
say im sorry
but i dont know
what for im
just sorry you know
i just suddenly
felt sorry but i
didnt want to
tell you because
like i dont know
you would have
asked why and i
wouldnt know
what to say so
i dont know
you know
fhyhtriygi5qqq
he is everywhere
at the same time
he is no where
to be found
thinks hes worthless
just a loser
cant do nothing
he is wrong
love him so much
makes me cry
i just want to
be with him
stuck here in this
dead darkness
here forever
silent, cold
wait for my time
he will come
make it all gone
i just know
mind over matter
everthing
ill make this work
no matter what
i am spinning
and im scared
for i know not
what is next
just have to wait
then ill see
what lies ahead
the future
hearing voices
they not real
guess i am though
at times i wonder.....
heres a stupid peom i wrote
i hate margerine..... it tastes foul and need to die. whoever invented it should be shot.......
i am filled with guilt and shame, yet i can not find a reason to be.....
"i love you so much,
it makes me cry,
suddenly i no longer,
want to die,
i wish i could spend,
the rest of my life,
warm and safe,
in your arms"
this is part of a poem i just recently wrote for jon erik. he makes me so happy and fills me with love.
BLOOD IS THE BASIS OF GRIEF, LOVE, PAIN, SUFFERING, SORROW, HAPPIENESS, JOY AND WAR. BLOOD IS ALL THERE IS. ITS ALL THERE EVER WILL BE......