an uneventful sad day
and no one really cares
i want to go home
sleep alone
and drift off to dreamland
i can wake up from a nightmare
and know that wasnt reality
but i can wake up from a dream
and realize
what i had
was never there
I have every object i can ever want
but thats not what i want
what i want
I cant have.
and no one could ever know

so i feel like sleeping
dreaming
not being

I feel in a daze
my minds in a haze
just look at my gaze
my eyes are glazed
fogged over
although im sober
never tainted
but still unpure

I really am nothing
see you another day
another time
in someother place

Well, I hope I'm not hurt again
I know the chances are great
for some reason im optimistic
tho thats not my usual state

I love, but I dont trust
I feel numb to hurt
Tho thats only for now
but If you dont stab me
I will feel again
just as strongly as before

So take it slow
Theres no time
I will feel
and trust love of mine

please be mine

The first guy I ever loved
i fell for with in a month
as quick as it happened
he left me standing alone

i know im weak when i take him back months later
i know im stupid when he stand me up the first time
and i agree to let him come back
and even a simple date was enough to renew the feelings i once had
but he's done it again
he leaving me standing, saying he still wants (what i want to hear)

sometimes people arent as they seem
unfort. im seeing this more and more
they say one thing
they promise or give their word
but they just dont come through

and this is how they care?

ive learned how to piss a buncha people off at once
ive been told to die

well i wish i could
ive wished it for a long time
but the time isnt right
but it will come sooner than you think

im going to try to keep my mind off someone

letting go of your first love...is never easy...

I know a wonderful guy I care a ton about.
I can not wait to see him again.
the beauty in his heart and bold definition between right and wrong is just undeniably extent.
  i will see him later
     mandi