Effigy

I step forward
A faltering chance
Rehearsing to myself,
What I can say.

Short clauses
Stuttering voice
Uneasy stomach
Heartbeat furious

You’re in front of me
I stare in disbelief
I become inarticulate
Can you feel my belligerence?

Furtive effigy
Ineffectual glances
Inscrutable heart
Tacit anger

My statements are festooned in harsh honesty.
Oh, how I would love to see you founder.
This… is… a conspiracy.
You falter to stand upright.

Shattered glass
Bloodied knuckles
Tempestuous coincidence
Dubious encounter

I speak calmly, at first.
Relaying my message,
Then, just as abrupt as a wall,
I shattered the glass of your pride.

I shouted…

YOU FUCKING LIED!
My rapt face shined clear.
YOU are a manipulative, ludicrous,
Failure at life,

You think I wouldn’t care?
YOU FUCKING THINK…
That’s your problem
Incompetent bastard

I looked at him…
Straight in the face
I stood upright
Finally seeming taller

You, disgust me
I stare in tacit
My incursion harsh
I wish I never would have met you

Silence

He opens his mouth as if to speak
Then realizes the intensity of my voice
I pause a moment
As if to take back everything, cry, and apologize.

I look up, after staring blankly into the dirt,
You are an effigy.
Again, I pause to recollect myself.
I look up again.

In the same manner, I begin to speak
First calmly, I never want to see you again
My voice gradually changes in volume
Get… Out… Of… my… FUCKING SIGHT!

I walk away
Calmly I start my stride
Knowing I will never see his face again
Never letting him manipulate me.



No. i didn' t write it. i was house zapping and i came across it...but it rocks.

TODAY ROCKED!!! oh yeah....

somehow..our small city (okay...so average...sized)

managed to get BABY TIGERS that you could actually play with...like get in the cage and play with...for 25 bucks...

and to have one of my best friends [DarkAngel3] and my beloved boyfriend Evan...playing with tigers...


IT totally rocked!!!!

I hate how i get left out because everyone assumes i'm working, when half the time i'm not.

don't even get asked anymore.


and that really sucks...

Anyways, More fun white ninja links...I'm gonna go through the whole list...you better enjoy this..
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/deadboy.shtml <Jars..heehee


http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/santa.shtml the true meaning of christmas...


http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/findfunny.shtml It's a brain teaser..CAn you figure it out?

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/icefishing.shtml This would be pulling a jade move..


http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/bonebike.shtml It's a ghost rider!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/pregnant.shtml<It's like dejavu

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/halloween.shtml< another brain teaser

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/sleeps.shtml <a truly awesome prank!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/grapes.shtml <k i lied, this is the greatest prank..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/prankster.shtml <the pranking just never ends!!!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/hairy.shtml < hehee

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/duck.shtml <bread..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/bill.shtml Poor bill...
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/dinner.shtml on eof my favorites..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/doctor.shtml knowing the docters i do...this is a common occurance...

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comicsmagiclamp.shtml <SUPER FAVORITE!!!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/drivethru.shtml ultimate super favorite!!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/egg.shtml <who does this remind jade of?..*hint it starts with an m and ends with a boat..."

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/mole.shtml <proof those machines are evil!!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/record.shtml < we need to play this game!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/racket.shtml <this made me grin

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/parched.shtml <another super awesome one!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/laundry.shtml <OKAY THIS ONEIS THE BEST EVER!!!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/tired.shtml< the best way to pick up chicks..
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/farm.shtml< this reminded me of pizza hut

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/content.shtml melons rule..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/home.shtml another good prank!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/beststick.shtml <something coral and i would and problably have done..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/breakfast.shtml surprise in yoru cereal..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/slippers.shtml <bunnies..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/munga.shtml <MUNGA MUNGA!!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/roommate.shtml this is why i want my own room...
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/roommate.shtml this is another favorites of mine

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/corner.shtml he's pulling a jade again

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/weight.shtml I gotta remember to send this one to my warrior seal princess andre lol

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/birthday.shtml since it's gary birthday and all, i'm sending this to him

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/birthday.shtml This is me and my thirteen yearold brother husband jordan..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/genie.shtml white ninja is a good firend
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/bird.shtml a literal jail bird!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/invention.shtml its a comb for bald people..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/lap.shtml <hee heee hee
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/morning.shtml <pure greatness

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/tan.shtml <SUPER SPECTACULAR...was my sn for a very long time..hehe
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/camp.shtml *snigger*

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/prison.shtml AHAAAHAHAH!!!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/nose.shtml NOSE SNIPERS!!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/school.shtml This is somethign My dad would do

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/crystal.shtml yes we drink out of shoes

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/environment.shtml stupid women

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/sweet.shtml all men should be as sweet as this..heehee

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/wine.shtml stomping

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/scabby.shtml scabs!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/spoils.shtml I wish i were his daughter..

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/principal.shtml this would be better than green and white

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/sensitive.shtml heehee

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/couple.shtml this is something i would totally do

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/goodthing.shtml this reveals my secret! lol

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/practical.shtml he's the best father ever!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/editor.shtml yet again, white ninja pulls a jade

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/atoms.shtml specfreakingtacular!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/fiddle.shtml this is like half the guys in pierre

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/luck.shtml he is the luckiest guy in the world!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/mitts.shtml i want to be a mitten now
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/thedeath.shtml another one of my favorites...it's got to be the best will ever!
http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/photographer.shtml apples are punks

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/soup.shtml i've honestly though this before too

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/clouds.shtml one of my favorite quotes is in this one

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/crashtest.shtml yes...kitten killer!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/sosleepy.shtml i love his logic!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/barber.shtml he should do my hair

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/midget.shtml (i've prolly already showed this one)

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/dinosaur.shtml STAY EXTINCT!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/fathersday.shtml he pulls another jade move

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/files.shtml grammar is gross!!!

http://whiteninjacomics.com/comics/ninjaturtle.shtml white ninja turtle!!

there...some of the best ...i went through every comic..you better feel loved..

lol....

you know you need to gain more culture when...

here's an interesting epiphany i had today. I like classical music.

how did i discover this?. I had to call the all-tell help line for somethign about my phone, and i was listening to the waiting music they play...I was like, dude..this song rocks...

I got so into listenign to the music i forgot my question, and asked them to put the music back on...which they did...it was great...

k [The Black Cat in Your Path] This one is mainly for you...

The Seminary Gang Saga

You wanted to see the most amazing story i've been raving about


You have to click the sotires...an dbooks three and four arn't up yet cuz they'r enot written. but you can read one and twoo...And love them too...


Then spread the word to your buddies!!!...it's gonna be EPIC!


*please note* you might possibly find spoilers seeing as we just made it today...but i figured you'd like it!

and now, and Important News Bulletin

Will I never be healthy?

as if it wasn't freaking bad enough that I had to waste the first weekend (not to mention the first three day weekend) in bed becuase of some unnamed sickness..

The day i feel completely fine..almost...I GET FRICKEN PINKEYE!!!


It's not fair...It's not fair!*rants and bawls...which hurts...*

And the stupid school nurse didn't come into school ntil second period...so i had to sit through a painful open period with my eyes watering and nose running...trying to act like i'm fine...while feeling totally miserable..

and it didn't help that everyone kepttelling me i looked like shit...or asking me why i was crying...I was like...i'm sick...not sad...

but now i'm sitting here...in my room...in the dark...It feels nice...

but it sucks...cuz i acutally LIKE school this year..

God, Why couldn't you have made it so i Was this sick last year..when i hated my classes and was totally miserable...

Will I never be healthy?

as if it wasn't freaking bad enough that I had to waste the first weekend (not to mention the first three day weekend) in bed becuase of some unnamed sickness..

The day i feel completely fine..almost...I GET FRICKEN PINKEYE!!!


It's not fair...It's not fair!*rants and bawls...which hurts...*

And the stupid school nurse didn't come into school ntil second period...so i had to sit through a painful open period with my eyes watering and nose running...trying to act like i'm fine...while feeling totally miserable..

and it didn't help that everyone kepttelling me i looked like shit...or asking me why i was crying...I was like...i'm sick...not sad...

but now i'm sitting here...in my room...in the dark...It feels nice...

but it sucks...cuz i acutally LIKE school this year..

God, Why couldn't you have made it so i Was this sick last year..when i hated my classes and was totally miserable...

RANDOM THINGS TO DO!


1.At lunchtime, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars.See if they slow down.

2.Page yourself over the intercom,don't disguise your voice.

3.Every time people ask you to do something,ask if they want fries with that.

4.Put your garbage can on your desk and lable it "in"

5.Put decaff in the cofee maker for 3 weeks.Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine additions,switch to espresso.

6.in the memo field of all of your checks write "for sexual favors"

7.Finish all your sentences with "in accordance with the prophecy"

8.Don't use any punctuation marks

9.As often as possible,skip rather than walk.

10.Ask people what sex they are.Laugh after they answer.

11.specify that your drive-through order is "to go"

12.Sing along at the opera.

13.Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme.

14.Put mosquito netting around your work area and play a tape of jungle sounds.

15.Five days in advance,tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood

16.Have your friends adress you by your wrestling name,Rock Hard Devon.

17.When the money comes out the ATM,scream"I won,I won,3rd time this week!"

18.When leaving the zoo,start running towards the parking lot screaming"run for your lives,they're loose!"

19.Tell your children over dinner,"Due to the economy we are going to have to let one of you go.


-Friends: People who know you well, but like you anyway.


-If we do not succeed, we run the risk of failure. --Vice President Dan Quayle


-If at first you don't succeed, destroy all evidence that you tried.


-Never let a computer know you're in a hurry.




I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it. ~mandi's back pack


Wisdom comes with age. Death comes with age. Therefore, wisdom is dangerous.


Deja moo: The feeling that you've heard this bull before.


Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.


The more people I meet the more I like my bird. ~used to be cat. but i don't have one of those.


Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.


This land is your land. This land is my land. So stay on your land.


I want to die peacefully in my sleep, like my grandfather.. Not screaming and yelling like the passengers in his car.


Coincidence: when God chooses to remain anonymous.


It is not what a teenager knows that bothers his parents. It's how he found out.


The difference between in-laws and outlaws? Outlaws are wanted.


The knack of flying is learning how to throw yourself at the ground and miss

[Annoying Things To Do On An Elevator]

1) CRACK open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask "Got enough air in there?"
2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
3) WHEN arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act as if you're embarrassed when they open themselves.
4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.
5) MEOW occasionally.
6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: "You're one of THEM" - and back away slowly
7) SAY -DING at each floor.
8) SAY "I wonder what all these do?" And push all the red buttons.
9) MAKE explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
10) STARE, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce: "I have new socks on."
11) WHEN the elevator is silent, look around and ask: "Is that your beeper?"
12) TRY to make personal calls on the emergency phone.
13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: "This is my personal space."
14) WHEN there's only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn't you.
15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.
17) HOLD the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say "Hi Greg, How's your day been?"
18) DROP a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: "That's mine!"
19) BRING a camera and take pictures of everyone in the lift.
20) PRETEND you're a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the Passengers.
21) SWAT at flies that don't exist.
22) CALL out "Group hug" then enforce it

my sister is the greatest sometimes here's why

"CORAL you suck!" me
"...actually, i don't. If everything is moving away from you...it's cuz you blow."

i was like...dude.

There's a girl in the mirror
I wonder who she is
Sometimes I think I know her
Sometimes I really wish I did
There's a story in her eyes
Lullabies and goodbyes
When she's looking back at me
I can tell her heart is broken easily

'Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying out tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright
Oh the girl in my mirror
Is crying 'cause of you
And I wish there was something
Something I could do

If I could
I would tell her
Not to be afraid
The pain that she's feeling
The sense of loneliness will fade
So dry your tears and rest assured
Love will find you like before
When she's looking back at me
I know nothing really works that easily

'Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying out tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright
Oh the girl in my mirror
Is crying 'cause of you
And I wish there was something
I wish there was something
Oh I wish there was something
I could do

I can't believe it's what I see
That the girl in the mirror
The girl in the mirror
Is me

I can't believe what I see (no....)
(The girl in my mirror)
The girl in my mirror is me
Ohh...is me

'Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying out tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright
Oh the girl in my mirror
Is crying 'cause of you
I wish there was something
I wish there was something
Oh I wish there was something
I could do

well...i'm gonna call it a day now. Sorry.

just wanna say a quick thanks to [The Black Cat in Your Path] love ya girly!! you made my friday the 13th a hell of a lot better...

kenji mutt...WHERE ARE YOOH!!!

kenji mutt...WHERE ARE YOOH!!!

as some of you know...i'm absolutly obsessed with degrassi...so i went to www.the-n.com and started doing quizes...here are the results...(are you in for a shock or a laugh...we'll find out...)

You're a two-faced backstabber. 
 
 
    
 Wow, you're a backstabber? You seem so nice! And that's your secret: You're amazingly good at being sweet and friendly to people you despise, because you find it easier to ruin their lives if they don't suspect anything. We don't have any official proof of your backstabbing behavior, because you are good at covering up the evidence. If a close friend catches you doing the two-faced thing, they will probably never forgive you… but that's unlikely, because you almost always get away with it! 

(what's sad is that's kinda true...heh)__________________________________________________
You're the confused face. 
 
 
    
 This is you: :S

Hmm… it sounds like a recent experience left you puzzled, and you don't know where to turn for help. When you lose your way online, you're not alone – the confused emoticon will always be there for you! If you end your thoughts with one of these, everyone will know that you need some guidance. The confused face is especially useful if you missed a few key minutes of a recent TV episode. Use it whenever you need answers.

(true too)
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(this one is how big of a degrassi fan are you...)

You’re a huge fan… and you show it in creative ways. 
 
 
    
 Why should the show’s writers have all the fun? Instead of just watching Degrassi, you take on Degrassi-inspired projects of your own. Maybe you prefer an alternate reality where Manny and Craig stayed together, where Emma chose Peter over Sean… or where J.T.’s still living. In your fanfic (or your music, or your art), it’s all possible. Your Degrassi sounds like a sweet place, because you’re probably also the kind of fan who’d bake special, themed cupcakes to celebrate a new episode. You’d love it if your creative projects attracted the attention of someone on the show, but even if that never happens, at least you’ll have a chance to share your Degrassi love with the world.

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who is your N prom date?
Bailey from Beyond the Break 
 
 
    
 If he looks that good in a bathing suit, can you imagine how nice he must look in a tux? Bailey's always been a bit of a player, so you might catch him checking out other girls on the dance floor, but the nice thing about taking a surfer to prom is that he'll be a stress-free date. He'll probably be up for anything, whether you want to dance all night or leave prom early and hang out on the beach.

(i love him...he's hawt!)

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what kind of kareoke singer are you?

You're a Showstopper! 
 
 
    
 Whether or not you hit all the right notes, you're always an audience favorite at karaoke. You believe self-confidence is an essential part of any karaoke performance, and that the worst things anyone can do are sing softly, stare at the monitor, and sway awkwardly between verses. You choose songs that the whole audience knows and loves, and put on a high-energy show that blows everyone away. You aren't just there to sing—you are there to PERFORM.


sooo...true!!

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Who cares about destiny? You won't let anything stop you from becoming a star. 
 
 
    
 You don't really care what this quiz tells you, do you? You're used to dealing with rejection and tough competition, so even if we gave you a negative answer, you'd never let it hold you back. You know real stardom doesn't involve stuff like crystal balls and fortune cookies – it takes talent, hard work, and constant self-promotion. You probably work harder than anyone else at pursuing your dreams, and since you're so determined, we believe you'll see them all come true. We'd like to take this opportunity to say you seem awesome and talented and really, really nice… because someday you'll probably be our boss.


lolololol...

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You're kind of crushy. 
 
 
    
 You get crushes on a regular basis, but you try not to let them run your life. You might have occasional moments of weakness when you say something stupid in front of your crush, but you don't take your crushes very seriously. You'll joke about them, and give them silly nicknames in your head, but you're not the type to refresh someone's online profile every five minutes, desperately hoping he/she will sign on. If it's a real world (non-celebrity) crush, you're relatively realistic about the outcome. There's a chance you and your crush might date if you get to know each other better, but no matter what happens, you'll enjoy the crush – and the occasional crush-themed daydreams – as long as they last.

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You're a seductive flirt. 
 
 
    
 When you flirt, you're not subtle! You've already got enough friends, so you only flirt with people you want to get to know on a romantic level. If you see someone you like, you make it very clear what you have in mind. You might start out with a few double entendres and some arm touching, but if he/she isn't getting the hint, you'll come right out and say what you want. Sometimes you're so intensely flirtatious that it scares people off, but at least you know right away if they're interested or not.

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quizes are so much fun ...