Back from michigan. all that time i shoulda been doing stuff. i did nothing. kicked some ass at cousins house on the gamecube. we got antispyware stuff from them too but as it uses cookies, i may be oh so very dead if that lets them find stuff. if i dont come back its cuz fate truly hates me with a vengence that im certain will end any happiness in my life.
Blackness ensnares my senses, all is darkness, hope seems lost. Then a glimmer of Light appears, an old friend who i thought had left. That Light... it brings me so much joy that i can barely stop myself from doing something insane that i may keep that Light with me forever and always, but then the Light seems to fade, draw away, turn elsewhere, and im tossed back into the deepest circles of my own emotional hell...
I pray that this hell will fade again. If i lose my Light my life is meaningless.
ugh... not drama, not on bnet, we had finally escaped the drama, the 3 of us were FINALLY happy... now some serious crap is going down and i dunno whose gonna come out alive emotionally... out of all the people who would have chosen ME to find on elftown it had to be the one person who could drag the 3 of us back into the fray... oiyo. kxukj cavo, thats life.
Eesh, people are getting ticked at me on bnet. im gonna go back and do combat with them probably. hope i live, if not, oh well. wait 20 seconds and let the auto-respawn kick in =P
letting yourself die in a roleplaying fight is no fun. and if its not fun whats the point. exactly. left left x b a x x, activate god mode, and keep on living =)
ps people who rp super-realisti
AAAA! -panic attacks- i put my english journal off for too long, now ive gotta resort to recycling posts and writing random mind blurbs. you think im crazy? you know nothing of the insane levels of insanity i achieve when i so much as post the machinations of my mind O_o lemon foozball finland donut. just a 2 second flash of the randomocity! FEAR MY-
-distracted by a shiny thing-
hurrah, my mate [Katori PureHeart] is back with me. i missed her soooooooooooo much its nothing even close to funny x.x
-[UBERSNUGGLES]- im getting obsessed with her to an extreme now, i gotta find better places to keep my sketches so that people dont find them, and its not just cuz they arent quality drawings >>;
-Yawns- i should be watching the election but i know it'll never be over today/tonight what with the lawsuits, overseas ballots, and the inevitable recount of democrats arent declared the winner. I find you live longer if you dont take sides at times like this so thats ill im saying.
Well, me and my two best friends finally gave up on all the turmoil on battle.net, and restarted. We have matching names and everything, it stinks that angel is only on on friday through sunday. her and madison make such a cute couple together i wanna die with envy at times, but im happy to be their guardian. its pretty crazy but its fun, undenyiably. no drama, no one knows you yet, you can just hang out and watch a pair of kitsune girls making out in Town Square on a dare. and if your not careful, they may do more than that even if you dont leave the channel. like i said, theyre such a cute couple. I hope they can have a wonderful time like this for a long long time to come.
Ive drawn a pair of character duo sketches, GODS i wish i had a $^*# scanner! one is me sitting to the side of angel, one arm over her shoulder protectively. She looks almost as cute as i imagine the two of them to be and i look much better than i did with my old character. I also did a request of madison to do a nakie picture of the two of them together. they look so... uh... cute >>; together like that. i like the pink fur they chose with these characters worked out to look like. i dont think i could help but make them at least look cudly.
IM GOING TO DIE! evil English journal deadline! i gotta write about 18 more 1+ page entrys by the 10th, and im out of awesome topics! i just gotta kick back and scribble down some good sounding topics that come to me, randomly generated as per usual of corse.
eesh x.x the past two nights were crazy, and now its halloween! i dont bother to t or t cuz my bro gives me half his stuff anyhow. I actually did a costume for the first time in about 5 years, and im still finding pieces of blue hair. =P everyone loved the sword i got for the occasion, and I kicked someones tail when they started dissing me with it. some call it 'intimidation'
whoa, where the heck did the past 2 days go O_o life is passing me by. oh well. whatever happens -yawns- oh crap, im talking to myself in my diary again. if your gonna be crazy at least do it in style, man. or cause chaos. practically the same thing, anyways, right? Oo
HALLOWEEN!
3 days til the night of the year anthros show no fear of being themselves on the outside too ^_^
-sighs- mondays always suck for me >< my mate always has to go off to non-computer-a
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I can feel the insanity flowing through me, I've rediscovered my love of the rather obscure 80's band who wrote "Our House" and now I am once again literally listening to Madness =D It makes meh happy, its got a very lively sca sound to most of it, not the sad excuse for tropical flavor most of these punk/heavy metal people churn out with their damned Screamers (sorry if that offends you but I don't get how "singing" at the top of your lungs or in a dark hoarse demonic voice is anything but total BS =/ eh its your soul being corrupted =P) Heck, if you wanna see just how crazy their lyrics are, google search them and their song "House of Fun" to find a copy. Its how I learned those lucky brits have a legal age of 16! why can't we have that -sighs-
I finally found the lyrics to my "token" song 99 Red Balloons x.x turns out its been covered about 70+ times! most notably by Badfinger it seems, but i say nothing beats the original by Nena (Or Nina, not sure how ya spell it) anyhow, the lyrics are powerful enough even without the music, but i can assure you with music its twice as good scratch that awesome scratch that GODLY! X.x
You and I in a little toy shop
Buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got
Set them free at the break of dawn
'Til one by one they were gone
Back at base, bugs in the software
Flash the message, something's out there
Floating in the summer sky
Ninety-nine red balloons go by
Ninety-nine red balloons
Floating in the summer sky
Panic bells, it's red alert
There's something here from somewhere else
The war machine springs to life
Opens up one eager eye
Focusing it on the sky
As ninety-nine red balloons go by
Ninety-nine decisions treat
Ninety-nine ministers meet
To worry, worry, super scurry
Call out the troops now in a hurry
This is what we've waited for
This is it, boys, this is war
The President is on the line
As ninety-nine red balloons go by
Ninety-nine dreams I have had
And every one a red balloon
It's all over, and I'm standing pretty
In the dust that was a city
I could find a souvenir
Just to prove the world was here
Here it is, a red balloon
I think of you and let it go
Ahhh... I had let this song fall to the recesses of my memory, but the beat that matches that of my soul has returned... the song of the world celebrating cut short by an apocalyptic atomic bombing, the 99 red baloons flying free of the dead childs hand is eerie, but a solemn reminder of what will be if we do not fight to protect against it. The music is the total opposite of the stark meaning of the lyrics, a synthesized chorus that could lighten anyones soul...
I just wrote a poem for english and its good enough that I feel like sharing =P enjoy "Listen to the Beat of My Soul"
Light and Dark forever fight
to claim the law and test their might.
They clash in a neverending war
that must go on forevermore.
Dark uses hate and anger to call
those who would help them doom us all.
Light shall drive the darkness back;
the truith with passion drives out the black.
If Light should ever stumble and fall
then Darkness shall cast its deadly paul;
but if the just will head the call
the good shall stand unshakably tall.
Heed my words or pay the toll,
and Listen to the Beat of My Soul.
Oo man, search elftown for "vixen" and you only get 7 results even if you set the use time for a month ago, and only one sounds to be an actual girl fox in character oO
Ahhh... gotta love being an upperclassmen during standardized testing. the tranquility of the classrooms, the free time, the lack of freshmen in the hallways... its amazing how much you yell at 'em when your not one anymore =/ we think were cool but if we look back we see we're the lamers everyone told us we were.
Everyones trying to start up RP in the general chatrooms. Wish they'd hurry up, my fighting skills are going to waste. so many things left unburnt and unbroken. =P
Maybe I should start filling some part of my profile with all these storys Im writing to fill up my school journal. or maybe I'll stick that into my web profile and let Freewebs handle that
Hm, so many things to think of, too bad my heads mostly fuzz with lotsa empty space. As soon as I get that scanner I'll have to fill this public hole-in-my-hea
Id like to see more furrys responding to my stuff, must not be in the right chatrooms. This makes me realize all the pros and cons of Battle.Net roleplay life. Convienient chat forums, gameplay capabilitys, recognition, and all the people I've met there.
On the other end of the tail, they don't give you much of anything for your profile, you have almost no spam protection, and you cant delete posts you wish you hadn't sent.
Se La Vi. This will all either work for me or it won't. At the very least I can bum around and find some cool fur art to snag.