[Wes Foxx]'s diary
...Something doesn't feel right... why is my impending doom radar blinking like that... whats going on... why cant i stop myself from shaking... cant go crazy now... now isnt a good time for this... whats wrong with this picture... it doesnt add up... what the hell... gotta distract myself with something... more history of inari stuff will do, gotta finish those character pages up
Lets see... I got an extra large piece of paper from school to do with whatever I want. What shall I draw? Wes? Inari? Some character group picture? None of these! I have a much nicer idea for what it should be that I only just thought up because Im writing in my journal. Hope it'll turn out nice. She should like it ^^ Wait, nope, that idea doesnt work anymore. hm, now ive got an even bigger one, like, 16"X25" or something like that, and no ideas.
Aye... Getting woozy Xx good thing that dermatologist thing is next week. I keep getting stigmata-style cases of bleeding from my face, it dosent form almost any scar tissue and keeps opening up. I wipe my hand across my face and my palm is covered in blood. Ive completely covered one and a half tissues with it. I have to use bandages or else it'll become serious and I'll pass out. My mom says I'm already looking a little pale >< at least this most recent little cut is closing up. Right in that stupid line of acme running like a knifeslice along my right jawline, the pimple crap keeps forcing it back open. Anyhow, if I go really quiet without logging out and don't come back in an hour or two, I'm out cold or being strapped to a streacher.
Really? not really, im exaggerating, but my face is bleeding way too easily and its pissing me off.
Yeah, I just love giving myself more work. I didn't listen to myself and therefore designed Anthro Angels rather quickly. At least its a way for me to help other people =)
So many ideas for sketches have come to me Oo If only I had the detail skills of some of these artists! My ideas are incredibly awesome but I don't have the art programs I need for them to be properly recognized in the case of the Legeands of Inari story act artwork >< (sort of like cover art) and another of them would launch another entire wiki, and I'm doing enough at the moment thankya.
New Character sketches for the History of Inari:
Dekka - 
Tanjo - 
Tychus - 
Larune - 
< Ive overdone it again, now im starting to feel sick and my eyes are killing me. I'll have to start writing the first story later, im beat. -logs out for the day-
ITS DONE! ITS DONE! THE LEGEANDS OF INARI HAVE BEEN PLANNED AND ARE FINALLY READY TO BE WRITTEN!!!
There, 19:53:46, finished outlining Act V.
20:55:44 - working on Act VI, came up with a kickass plot twist =) Finished it up shortly after
21:05:23 - working on act VII...
HUGE PLOT TWIST! IT JUST GOT CRAZY!!!
My dad told us all a rather touching story today in his sermon (Lutheran pastor's kid, proud of it. dont like it? bite me and shaddap ;) ) I like it because its another story of why cats > dogs =P
One of the members of our church just passed away recently. One day when he was visiting her house before she died, a ginger cat just showed up at her door on its own accord and walked in like it lived there. It promptly went up to the woman's bed and hopped up next to her while my dad was sitting there talking to her. It curled up in her lap and sat there serenely purring as she stroked it, easing all of her worries and fears about death. It came back every day they tried to send it on its way, always coming back to give comfort to her. As she was slipping towards a coma, it would lay streched out alongside her with its forepaw over her shoulder like a guardian angel.
Sounds to me like it may have truly been one, don't you think?
Okay. Heres how the stories for History of Inari are looking so far:
Act 1: Figuring out who he is
Act 2: Figuring out who he was
Act 3: Figuring out which one will win out
Act 4: Save the world from another
Act 5: Save the world from 'himself'
Act 6: Save the world from the very things that saved it once
Act 7: Rise above all trials
Act 8: Culmination
Damn, this is the 15th entry ive written in the past week! Im on fire! ... OW FIRE BURNS! HOT! HOT-OT-OT-OT-O
I keep listening to songs, keep feeling my body stuck to a rhythm
If I didn't totally stink at dancing and wasn't a fat-a** I'd probably dance to this. You gotta hear the stuff I listen to to know what I'm talking about. They're my Soul Rally songs. Ie, 99 Red Balloons, Walk Like an Egyptian, District Sleeps, etc. Stuff that just takes a vicegrip on your mood and tempo and bends it mercilessly to its will, till you comply and find yourself having the time of your life.
And now I gotta watch http://www.Hom
Wow. Im looking back to my old diary stuff again. This is one of the more interresting ones I found.
Fate... Fate gives us some of the most precious things we can ever recieve. It gives us true love. It gives us what we need in our darkest hour. It is the thing that makes life worth living.
Usually.
Fate gives us these things to rip them savagely from our arms, not giving a sh*t if it tears apart the holder in the process. It reduces us to cold fragments of who we were.
Why do I say this? Its the story of my life.
I am a loner. I do nothing, like no-one, and plan my life almost happily, dreaming of a solitary existance with no one around me, alone for all eternity.
Then I found her...
[Katori PureHeart], Jess, Lilly, whatever name she is called by, she is the reason why my heart is no longer frozen in the dark cold stone it once was. She taught me love.
But wouldn't you know, since fate hates me, it had a cost.
I constantly found myself struggling to keep my sanity. Her parents are divorced and her mom has no computer, no way to talk to us. She only got on 3 days a week.
Over half of every week I was alone and unable to see her.
It hurt. The stress, the temptation, the rumors, the suspicions, the lies, the sorrows, the drama, the god damn drama was a constant aggrivation, and never left.
We were living a soap opera with a sadistic scriptwriter.
Fast forard past the strife, the betrayals, the hurts, the forgiveness, wounds cut open after theyd healed, lessons learned and history repeated.
Her mom gets a car; her mom is as sadistic as the writer.
She can never come on anymore. Shes been on only one day both this last week and the one before. I never even got to talk to her. Praise elftown for leaving messages.
Now I have to learn to deal with this every single week.
I must be as crazy as they all tell me because I think this is no problemb. On the outside at least. Inside I'm being torn to the shreds by fate. (1-19-05)
I can't believe my life has gotten so much better since. Now instead of my love never being on, shes on almost every single day! Ive gotten DSL and aren't getting monitored like a suicidal, max-security prisoner that i thought i was gonna be, found a bunch of friends online here on elftown and even created a fun RP group! I'm writing an 8 act story series and am drawing art better than ever for it! Viva Vita!
My Analysis of Water
The water is clear, the water is cool
The water is shining in a crystaline pool
The water is clensing, the water is warm,
The water is constantly changing its form
The water is tranquil; its peacefully raining
The waters of earth all life are sustaining
Water is complex, both deadly and healing,
The rushing white rapids a thousand lives stealing
Yet at the same time, so many are living
Because of the relief that water is giving
Washing out wounds, washing out fields
Giving and taking, it both rebels and yields.
Water is the only reason we're even alive
It gives every human their body's drive
Theres almost no where to go where it cannot be found
Great lakes and rivers, oceans all around
Most of the world is kept in its hold
From the tropic's warm gulfs to the polar's deep cold
Almost nothing we make, the most complex compound,
Within the greater part of them some water is found
Yet humans cant controll it, as we're realizing,
The crushing tsunamis and floodwaters rising
A sort of continuation of my earlier entry, Analysis of Fire. More of these to come.
Words from Wes.
I follow the world around me, living its tempo to the fullest.
I let the wind carry me on the wings of my heart, soaring above all my expectations, floating freely as my mind wanders like a cloud across the sky.
I hear the song of life itself, trillions of voices shouting in glorious chorus their hopes and dreams, the very essence of the soul has its own unique song, the lyrics as beautiful as the hymn of a heavently angel.
I am guided by the pulse of the tides, the water of my day fed from streams of imagination. My mind drinks it in deeply as I feel myself pulled and led inexorably on my way. I feel the moon guide me in its silvery arc across the gem studded velvet of the night sky.
I feel the earth beneith my paws and read the story of a million years of humble service, the life and death of a million creatures, the rays of sun that struck it, the drops of rain that carried it away, the molten heat of the earth reforming it, eons of time seeing it slowly called to the surface once more, holding with atlas like strength great skyscrapers, massive vehicles, indeed, the entire weight of the world was once told to me by a grain of sand that once confessed it had been right upon the metalic core of the earth.
The winds have sung a song that all have heard before. Its siren wails, its enchanting whispers, its fierced raging gales, its heart-stopping destruction
These and many other things combine in a great symphony of song, story, dance, combat, poetry, music!
Magna Terra Artis Certus Est!
Lets see what I have on my checklist today:
X Draw an adaptation of my "Father and Son" picture (Foxx Galary) for a friend at school who recently had a kid
?_? Do a character sketch of Inari (may not actually do it 'till after the Inari Contest is over) to finish the Act IV character sketches (History of Inari)
_ Character sketches for Act I
_ Character sketches for Act II
_ Character sketches for Act III
_ Chapter outlines for Acts V-VIII
_ Character and Location outlines Acts V-III
_ Character sketches for Act V
_ Character sketches for Act VI
_ Character sketches for Act VII
_ Character sketches for Act VIII
_ Work on a special piece of writing, which may be for the History of Inari? >> << >> *conspiratoria
_ Write my analyses for other elements
_ Translate the analyses into poems if they aren't already
_ Sketches for my mate (which wont be displayed publically >> << >> *wink wink*)
_ Commissioned drawing for a Furcadia member
_ Re-do submission for Anthro Chic Contest
_ Complete any new art commisions afterwards
My thoughts keep turning to a warm breeze and palm trees, crystal waves and sunny days, steel drums over sugar plums, the frozen days to island ways, the call of the seagull, the pulse of the seashore, the feel of the sea breeze, fireworks, firesides, fireflies, days without school, a nice swimming pool, the icecream cool.
Only 5 more months to go, then no more snow. The days will be slow, but thats just goes to show.
The music in my head just refuses to go away, i feel my fingers walking to the keys, the digits tapping away a message written from my heart, my brain content for once to step aside. My heart begs to speek of love, guiltily confesses sorrows, inner aches and pains, but never truly ignored by others. Its pulse keeps time to the songs it sings, a pure melody of emotion untainted by selfish desires, flowing straight to my fingers unfiltered by my brain which selfishly cuts out the mushy romance and keeps it locked away.
I feel my body swaying my whole soul entwined in song
The snowflakes with their white lies tell me that nothing can go wrong.
My heart is content to listen and my mind has naught to say
Sometimes its nice to pretend that all our troubles have gone away.
Nothing wrong with doing this so long as you still know:
Everyone would freeze to death if they always listened to the snow.
A random train of thought extracted from my brain. thanks for reading my thoughts ^^
History of Inari is coming along insanely fast! at this rate monday will be the day i start to write the ACTUAL STORY for the first act! I plan to post every chapter as its completed on here, so watch for it!