thursday is the last day of school before glorious glorious spring break! so very very happy! except todays been boring, with no new sketches and [Katori PureHeart] never showing up online. She and my friend [Vampiric Wolf Archer] are together officially now, so hope they do well together. If I can't have her, at least one of my best friends can. And hey, its not like we now hate eachother ^^ me and Katori are still really great friends. Now to find a way to cure my loneliness instead of just supressing it.

And this is how my mood has been:
Lol! ^^ thats so nice! awesome! lol!!!
(3 minutes later)
god... im so pathetic and worthless...
(34 minutes later)
heh, im such a moody little sonofa*****
(random time later)
EVERYTHING IS SO FREAKIN AWESOME!!!! ^_^

wash, rinse, repeat =P

Ive been noticing that poll message quiz thing lots of people have in their houses. I wonder what mine would be?
[
Do you know my full real name?
Did you meet me before I was Wes?
Where did we meet?
What do you think I'm like?
What do you wish would change about me?
Why do you care about me, if at all?
How do you think of me?
What do you think I'd guess that last answer was?
What do you WANT me to say, right now?
Why won't you tell me honestly?
Why do you feel that way?
If we switched lives, do you think you could survive?
If you've already been in my position, are you glad your back to being you?
If you could have me grant you one wish, what would it be?
]

Must do wolf sketch for [Katori PureHeart] must write chapter 8 for The Legeands of Inari: Act I must do stupid latin mini-epic poem translation... (damn you Catullus ><) must do chemistry (balence yourselves, accursaid compounds!) must do algebra II (ebil sum of a series bullcrap) must do new picture I just thought up when I was looking in the mirror (dont ask, wait and see) must do Shared Worlds picture of [Just Paula] and Xa' Tsuna (her idea Oo) must outline alternate History of Inari story (the original) must copy english journal entry I wrote on the dream (the one that inspired the order, the history, wes, etc etc etc)

I somehow managed to focus long enough to write the seventh chapter of The Legeands of Inari: Act I, and now I must face this EVIL load of homework >< oh joy. AP Latin Lit, Algebra II, and Chemistry.

Summary

For all those who have been waiting for me to work on the Legeands of Inari, sorry ^^; I've been a bit slow on working on it, I promise I'll start working on it some more today! Don't hurt me O-o;

Dear god, I'm trying to fake being happy so hard even I'm convinced. Another person ish finally entering the Inari contest! ~dances happily~ I like the pic of him I did so much I use that piece of paper as a special bookmark for the Harry Potter books (They're so gigantic a regular bookmark would just get lost, its small enough to fit inside but large enough to hold the place, plus having a picture on one side helps me find my spot) ive gotten a few sketches done, and its finally the weekend. Everyones telling me to just move on, so I'm finally going to take their advice. Sixth times the charm for them apparently (Yes, I said six (6) times, meaning 5 times being told to move on after being dumped. Im an emotional punching bag =P go on, take a swing or two or ten. I just bounce right back as the stuff inside of me starts to shatter and break despite my calm collected exterior)

Its all but officially my motto.
I am... Complicated.

"Only In Dreams"

You can't resist her
She's in your bones
She is your marrow
And your ride home
You can't avoid her
She's in the air (in the air)
In between molecules
Of oxygen and carbon dioxide

Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But when we wake
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams

You walk up to her
Ask her to dance
She says, 'Hey baby
I just might take the chance'
You say, 'It's a good thing
That you float in the air (in the air)
That way there's no way
I will crush your pretty
Toenails into a thousand pieces.'

Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But when we wake
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams

Only in dreams...
Only in dreams...
Only in dreams...
Only in dreams...
Only in dreams...
Only in dreams...

By: Weezer

"The World Has Turned And Left Me Here"

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said

You remain turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened
You laughed enchanted by intellect
Or maybe you didn't

You remain turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

You remain, turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place, an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?

Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?

By: Weezer

"The World Has Turned And Left Me Here"

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

I just made love with your sweet memory
One thousand times in my head
You said you loved it more than ever
You said

You remain turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

I talked for hours to your wallet photograph
And you just listened
You laughed enchanted by intellect
Or maybe you didn't

You remain turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

You remain, turned away
Turning further every day

The world has turned and left me here
Just where I was before you appeared
And in your place, an empty space
Has filled the void behind my face

Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?

Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe what I sing now?
Do you believe?

By: Weezer

Take me down in a tidalwave
Take me down when im wired
The hardest thing you ever gave away,
and the hardest thing to keep
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Need
Take me back to the other place
Take me back when im alone
I can see all the little things
That I once thought could make me whole
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Need
I Can Feel It Again
I Can Feel It Again
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Need
Be they colors of a different light
Be they colors gray and blue
Everything you ever hoped to be
is when the colors bleed
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Need
I Can Feel It Again
I Can Feel It Again
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Wanted
I am Everything You Wanted
Everything You Wanted
Everything You Wanted
Everything You Wanted

By: Unknown

Sunrise Sprint

The skyline lightens, I'm up with a start
Whats this feeling, deep in my heart?
Is it joy? Is it fear?
Is it longing? No, its clear...

The warming glow of the sun
Fills my spirit. I have to run!
To run to you, run all the way
Running faster, I will not stray

I have to be there! I know its true
I have to be there! I'm running to you
I have to make it, I strive and I pray
Will you come to me or just run away?

Will you run? Will you wait?
Am I welcome or is it too late?
The path is rough, but I do not care
I will do anything it takes to get there

If your gone, I'll follow you
Never stoping; My heart is true
No matter what keeps me from you
I brave it all to be there for you

See with your heart and let it free
I'm there for you. Will you be there for me?
I can see you, you running here
At last, at last, I hold you near.

The world is bright, not a fear in my heart
Then in an instant its fallen appart.
You've run away its all gone awry
All I can do is lay there and die

You've cut off my air and I cant move my legs
The weight of your words tie my heart down like pegs
I try to get up despite all of this wreck
Then your actions slice deeply and cut 'cross my neck.

Written by [Wes Foxx]

And yet again, its all fallen away. Me and her so wonderfully, then the argument, the huge incident. I lost her. Then she basically faked me out for a while, I thought I was happy with her, then she decided she hurt too much, so even though I knew she wasn't happy, I let her leave me, praying she would take me back. Then lost her to Ty. Then she went for Kat and Kara. Then she seemed to change her mind. She promised... "I'll take your hand this time... I promise I'll never let go again". Even now my hand is still waiting to take hers back as many times as it must. Jess, I'll love you forever, this you and I both know. You've tried this with Kori before, and it didn't feel right. But the reason wasnt how well you matched up to Kori; you love me as much as I love you but your uncertain. Don't be.

I love you Jessica, Lilly, [Katori PureHeart]





Why... why do I bother... why do I do this to myself over and over and over, its like shooting myself in the head, I shouldn't be able to survive this, but I can, I can feel all the pain, and yet I face the gun over and over, waiting for her, but she never stays, I'm chasing after my echo, so perfect for me but never touchable.

Or maybe, I am the echo. Just an unsubstancial sound in the background music, a footnote to history if even that. What have I ever done that actually helped anyone in the long run?

Do you have an answer for that? Because I dont.

5 chapters posted in the same number of days. -yawns- well now im sleepy and will be taking a break from writing these until they come at a more convenient time. Like when I'm awake. g'night all.

WERE BACK TOGETHER! ^_^

I'm extatic! [Katori PureHeart] ish taking me back, at least to some extent. Just a few minor conditionals and incidents...

Xx I dunno either. A quick 3 minute sketch =P I can sometimes do decent stuff quickly but im far too lazy to color this kinda thing neatly, plus it makes it seem all the more comical

stupid dad wants to watch a stupid movie >< time to eat, homework, no connection from bedroom, im probably out for the night. ciao.

Well, its fixed now. sort of. I an get on at the same time, but it takes a higher connection level and I cant get that from my room.