[If you give a rats arse about my story, read this.]

[now that I have 1 persons attention...]

I just found yet another old story/comic outline. This one was pretty interresting, and at the very least, I'm gonna steal the names to fill in gaps for LoI. =P

This unburied treasure was Project Chimera, set in an alternate reality in which on earth, post-WWI, the germans began doing research into human-hybridizing. (which, eerily enough, and among other things, they actually did) and come out with five prototypes. V1, M2, R3, F4, and C5. This gives my occasionally appearing character Odd his background story, and was also apparently how I planned to work in Zanno into a story. The three other characters, Kira, Siletto, and Nirobi may be appearing somewhere between LoI 3 and 5, as the heros' rivals.

x.x damn...

School's gearing up, and that means I'm going to have less time on then ever. As in, I shouldn't even be on now, and will be doing homework until sometime around 10 or 11. Yay for two AP classes in one year XP

[Yes, I admit it, this is a cry for help...]

I can feel it.

Its coming again. The point at which I either break, collapse, sink into a massive ocean of angst and struggle, or stand firm, try to find a friend to help me find the strength to overcome.

I'm in a sad condition. I have many friends to lean on: I just wish one of them was a friend I didn't have to make up...

*sighs*

I wish I could talk to my friends online...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could write my story and share it with everyone...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could bring you the wonderfully drawn pictures I've done for my stories...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could get back to the way things were, hang around, chat, draw, comment, and be there for people...

but I don't have a laptop.
And fate hates me.

Just another day in my life.
Just another bump in my road.
Just another knife in the back.
Just another cut through the heart.
Just another song left unsung.
Story unwritten.
Image undrawn.
Server not found.

Its all so depressing
Its all a soap opera
Its all going to happen again
And again
Even when I can't feel the pain anymore
Even when I'm soldiering on when all others fell away
Leave me behind
It will all just happen again.

Its the way things are. And its only going to grow.

*insert constant, vehement profanity throughout*
Great. We just got a call today from the company.

it would cost almost A THOUSAND DOLLARS to get it fixed. It took them two weeks to tell us this. Its not covered by warrenty because its physical damage that this bottom-of-the-line laptop, ive found out from friends, I should have expected for a cheap-ass $600 from Compaq. Because the power thing is messed up, I can't just not have it fixed. We're going to take it to a local repair guy and basically beg him to do it at a sane price. If not, we've spent a total of almost 1,200 on a piece of total shyte. A piece of shyte that has every bit of music, writing and artwork I've ever amassed, not to mention an installed and registered copy of WoW, which I might not be able to use if I can't just upload to a different computer. Providing I get one anytime soon. If the one guy can't fix it, my dad will try to. And you know what that means. He'll be able to do it in about 5 minutes, for absolutely no cost.

I want my laptop so I can:

Write Acts 2-8.
Write the opening poems for acts 3-8.
Start writing my other stories.
Actually play WoW.
Reconnect with all my friends.
Regain whats left of my sanity before I start seeing my LoI characters singing various 80's songs, mostly Batori singing things like Rock Lobser by the B-52's o.O don't ask. It was a looooong car ride.

T.T a day and a half. Thats all it takes for me to be hit with another WTF-ism. Meh, I'm becoming jaded to that kind of shock. Yay for the Generation Without Hope.

Spent the entire car ride home scrambling to finish reading and taking notes on The Odysee. The light faded too soon so now I've been scrambling all night to finish it up.

While on the road, I charted out the entire Legend of Inari series all the way through Act 8, and have begun preliminary work on the second series. Yep, you heard it here first. A second set of them =D I'm never going to be able to finish all of this.

God damnit, I want my laptop back already T_T

Gah.

Sorry everyone. I was gonna give you all a nice big update on what I'm doing (it involves alot of writing and a new story series/comic) but ET glitched when I tried to submit the entry and gave me a Cannot find server message. When I tried to go back and re-submit it, it was gone, and I don't have enough time to rewrite it all. (we're about to leave on vacation over labor day) anyhow, I'll fill you all in later.

Random facts about my drawing IRL.

-1. I'm drawing a dog-rabbit fusion in art class. Too bad we're not allowed to just make a combination, we just stick half and half together.
-2. I'm going ahead of the game and drawing Wes in easy-to-repeat cartoonish form for when we learn to animate and when we have to draw cartoons ^^ I'll have those scanned, eventually
-3. I've remembered what I always wanted to do with a printer: make an outline, scan, print, then color ^^ its as good as inking.

Why is it that whenever I go to school, I'm reminded that there only seem to be three kinds of teenagers in general nowadays.

1. people who hate themselves.
2. people who hate everyone else.
3. people who are too depressed to care.

*sigh* A full day of relaxation and computer time (even if I cant do anything like I could if I had my laptop T_T) has been nice, but I have a CRAPLOAD of homework. >< 2 AP (aka, college level) classes worth of reading and writing to do. @_@

Phew x.x it took a while, but all 23 pictures got scanned, uploaded, and put into a pair of wiki pages. With this much art and so long since the last time I put my art up, I better get some comments >< x.x

Whootness.

Parents and bro gone off to Indiana Beach all day to make themselves sick and woozy from roller coasters and waterparks. I on the other hand, "dont get to go" =P riiiiight. *cough*

This means, not only do I not have to pay people to scare the crap out of me (Which is why I don't get coasters, horror movies, etc) but I get the house, and the computer, to myself for several hours =D

I'm gonna grab the scanner at some point and go nuts with the uploads. And since my bro never used the puter yet today, that means I can easily cover up my tracks. I've learned its just too weird to know your sibling online. Still, I did decide to leave him the link to http://www.dominic-deegan.com =)

Oh, naturally. Drama with the computer. Somehow, I just knew.

We get there and take it back, smile and walk over to have the memory upgraded. no problemo. Then while the guys going to get the new processer, I decide to take a look to see if the new audeo port plastic would be a different color. Guess what I see.

Yep, still broken.

I shrug it off, and assume that, you know, at least they'll have fixed the charge-up problem. Again, you know where I'm going with this. The guy goes to run the processor to see if its working. It turns on.

Then it turns off 5 seconds later. Its working; but the whole problem was it doesn't recharge.

You'd think the manufacturer (it was less than a year old, so we had to send it to them instead of them just doing it at Circuit City) would at least have recharged the battery, since they could surely charge the battery itself. Nope.

So we get charged &72 for them to do nothing but put a plastic sleeve over it and ship it back, after several weeks of doing nothing and several more of doing nothing but claiming they're doing something.

So now, I get to wait even longer for it to be fixed. <3 techknowledgy.

Today during Visual Com I got to scan in a picture I did at school, then touch it up in Photoshop. What I learned is, with photoshop, I can make my stuff look like I have a clue when it comes to inking. anyhow, we got a call saying my laptop is fixed, but since 'rents arent home, i'll have to wait a while longer.

T_T Gaaaah... I want my laptop back. If the fact that the laptop is fixed and ready to be picked up has not been made true in the next day or two, I shall...

meh, who am I kidding, if its not done for another week, it wont change much. Just another week before I'm on regularly, and a ton more pictures to be scanned in.

I can't wait until we learn animations in Visual Com. By then, I should be a better artist, and able to put some of these things in my head into motion.

@_@ Yhis new music has sent me into a frenzy of art. Now I've got almost 30 pictures to scan in, whenever the hell my laptop is FINALLY done. *grunble*

Anyhow, while some drawings are turning out awesome recently, others, half of them in fact, just crash and burn. =/ theres no pattern to it. I'll just pause, look at it, and go 'oh my god' because I never draw that bad that often X.x

rantings... merf @_@ I need my laptop

Turns out I did get birthday presents today ^^

1.) A printer from the parents, for schoolwork, yes, but like the laptop, probably going to get lots of home-computer use.
2.) Another awesome music CD, FLCL Vol 2 - King Of Pirates, not as good as Vol 1 - Addict was (there are some audeo tracks from the show, but they're in Japanese ><) ie, you can't just listen through the entire cd and not want to skip a few tracks like Addict.
Still, now I've got the last few songs I wanted, like Crazy Sunshine, Blues Drive Monster, Funny Bunny and I Think I Can

Heres a nice summary my good friend teh gawdess Kara wrote on ElfPack, all the names are their EP names, some/all are also their ET names.

[Skadia] and [BabyKitten] are together when I come on. [Skadia] hates me for shit that wasn't true, compliments of Jess. [Skadia] then loves me again, and ends up leaving [BabyKitten] for me. Then [BabyKitten] reunites with [Miya] instantly, seeming desperate. They get together and what do you know!? Instant love. Then I break up with [Skadia] for reasons only Jess knows, really. I might have hinted on eMi a little bit.. Then [Skadia] says she always loved Jess more, and won't leave [Miya] and [BabyKitten] alone. [Miya] gets pissed and tells [Skadia] to back off. [BabyKitten] actually does also, according to her. Then there is some huge confusion, and [Miya] finds that [BabyKitten] is cheating on her and shit. So they break up somehow, it was too confusing for me to recall correctly. [BabyKitten] wants Tyler to take [Miya] cause she'll be safe. The next SECOND she goes to her backup which is [Skadia] and duh, she is accepted. [Miya] runs off with Tyler, but she was sad. Now [BabyKitten] was begging me and Molly person to get Via on cause she misses Via. Via comes back to talk to her, and omg..they are still in love! But then I see [Skadia] telling Via to back the fuck off. So really, I don't think Via should because [Skadia] did the same to her. But you know what? I'm just watching to see what happens.

Ah, the first day of school, and routines are already settling in. Like the 15 minutes or so I have left over after getting ready to go, then leaving at 6:45 my time. (tis 6:35 as I write this)

Great, school starts tommorow and my face is swollen out like a freakin' chipmunk. At least it doesnt hurt anymore, though I'm not even gonna try to eat anything solid until after the stitches in my gums dissolve.

Last night I had a kickass dream. I landed in a place where there are 10 floors, #10 being the entrance/exit. All other 9 were games and shyt you can program, but with your mind and a little hand work. Naturally, I restyled myself as Wes. Any dream where thats the end result rocks in my opinion.

Well like I said, tommorows the first day of school; I get to be a 16 year old senior because they keep pushing back the first day of school. Someone asked when I get my presents. A while ago. Thats what WoW was. But now, my laptop's outta commission even LONGER, because they didnt even start working on it until yesterday. e_e That means it won't be fixed until sometime around the end of the month T_T