If I start having really weird mood swings or act really weird, its because I've gotten WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too far into-character while planning/writing my stories.

o.o brainstorm. -> Wes's Ever-changing Mood Go there for my thoughts and feelings!

*Saved diary entrys: 3 a day*

I want to take this moment to post a diary entry.
(Yes [Taresuke], another one already :P this is how I talk to everyone at once.)

I want to thank all my silent watcher friends for reminding me that they're still there. Sometimes I just need them to break their silence for a little while.

Now I know they listen; Now I just need to know if what I say really matters to them, or if I'm just giving them stuff to check up on :P

I've decided to test how much people care to hear the rest of the Legend of Inari series turn out. When I have the time, I'll be posting parts of the scripts, just to show the thought process running behind things. Perhaps create a new house poll for it.

After my first scrapbook meeting for latin club, I'm tempted to speek in third person, poke people, and talk a mile a minute like the other people who were there. I can tell that it'll be entertaining with things like the 3rd Person Thursdays girl always talking like "Austelle wants to cut the paper!". And the other guy complaining about how he wants to cover up the picture of the monkey, because he's afraid of monkeys.

Mihi pecta libeato, non cognosceunt...

A very rough english-to-latin translation.
I pour out my heart, but no one knows.

Since I can't tell if you read these or not, or if you care, if you want to hear the news on my Legends of Inari work (art, writing, the new legend) just Elfmail me!

*sighs thoughtfully*
I really should thank Mrs Ciochina (cha-ki-na) for assigning us this book, Tuesdays with Morrie. Its about a guy with Lou Gerrigs (your body slowly shuts down until you die) and an old college student of his, doing one last project together, a final thesis on life and death.


Its making me think in deep, profound ways. I can't tell if its good or bad, sad or content, its something I haven't felt since I said goodbye to my grandpa a year and a half ago.


It makes me regret that I no longer have the time to talk to my friends or share my stories with them. It also makes me appreciate [how much my being here or sharing my writing may mean to someone, even if sometimes it feels like no one cares and no one listens.]

[If you give a rats arse about my story, read this.]

[now that I have 1 persons attention...]

I just found yet another old story/comic outline. This one was pretty interresting, and at the very least, I'm gonna steal the names to fill in gaps for LoI. =P

This unburied treasure was Project Chimera, set in an alternate reality in which on earth, post-WWI, the germans began doing research into human-hybridizing. (which, eerily enough, and among other things, they actually did) and come out with five prototypes. V1, M2, R3, F4, and C5. This gives my occasionally appearing character Odd his background story, and was also apparently how I planned to work in Zanno into a story. The three other characters, Kira, Siletto, and Nirobi may be appearing somewhere between LoI 3 and 5, as the heros' rivals.

x.x damn...

School's gearing up, and that means I'm going to have less time on then ever. As in, I shouldn't even be on now, and will be doing homework until sometime around 10 or 11. Yay for two AP classes in one year XP

[Yes, I admit it, this is a cry for help...]

I can feel it.

Its coming again. The point at which I either break, collapse, sink into a massive ocean of angst and struggle, or stand firm, try to find a friend to help me find the strength to overcome.

I'm in a sad condition. I have many friends to lean on: I just wish one of them was a friend I didn't have to make up...

*sighs*

I wish I could talk to my friends online...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could write my story and share it with everyone...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could bring you the wonderfully drawn pictures I've done for my stories...

but I don't have a laptop.

I wish I could get back to the way things were, hang around, chat, draw, comment, and be there for people...

but I don't have a laptop.
And fate hates me.

Just another day in my life.
Just another bump in my road.
Just another knife in the back.
Just another cut through the heart.
Just another song left unsung.
Story unwritten.
Image undrawn.
Server not found.

Its all so depressing
Its all a soap opera
Its all going to happen again
And again
Even when I can't feel the pain anymore
Even when I'm soldiering on when all others fell away
Leave me behind
It will all just happen again.

Its the way things are. And its only going to grow.

*insert constant, vehement profanity throughout*
Great. We just got a call today from the company.

it would cost almost A THOUSAND DOLLARS to get it fixed. It took them two weeks to tell us this. Its not covered by warrenty because its physical damage that this bottom-of-the-line laptop, ive found out from friends, I should have expected for a cheap-ass $600 from Compaq. Because the power thing is messed up, I can't just not have it fixed. We're going to take it to a local repair guy and basically beg him to do it at a sane price. If not, we've spent a total of almost 1,200 on a piece of total shyte. A piece of shyte that has every bit of music, writing and artwork I've ever amassed, not to mention an installed and registered copy of WoW, which I might not be able to use if I can't just upload to a different computer. Providing I get one anytime soon. If the one guy can't fix it, my dad will try to. And you know what that means. He'll be able to do it in about 5 minutes, for absolutely no cost.

I want my laptop so I can:

Write Acts 2-8.
Write the opening poems for acts 3-8.
Start writing my other stories.
Actually play WoW.
Reconnect with all my friends.
Regain whats left of my sanity before I start seeing my LoI characters singing various 80's songs, mostly Batori singing things like Rock Lobser by the B-52's o.O don't ask. It was a looooong car ride.

T.T a day and a half. Thats all it takes for me to be hit with another WTF-ism. Meh, I'm becoming jaded to that kind of shock. Yay for the Generation Without Hope.

Spent the entire car ride home scrambling to finish reading and taking notes on The Odysee. The light faded too soon so now I've been scrambling all night to finish it up.

While on the road, I charted out the entire Legend of Inari series all the way through Act 8, and have begun preliminary work on the second series. Yep, you heard it here first. A second set of them =D I'm never going to be able to finish all of this.

God damnit, I want my laptop back already T_T

Gah.

Sorry everyone. I was gonna give you all a nice big update on what I'm doing (it involves alot of writing and a new story series/comic) but ET glitched when I tried to submit the entry and gave me a Cannot find server message. When I tried to go back and re-submit it, it was gone, and I don't have enough time to rewrite it all. (we're about to leave on vacation over labor day) anyhow, I'll fill you all in later.

Random facts about my drawing IRL.

-1. I'm drawing a dog-rabbit fusion in art class. Too bad we're not allowed to just make a combination, we just stick half and half together.
-2. I'm going ahead of the game and drawing Wes in easy-to-repeat cartoonish form for when we learn to animate and when we have to draw cartoons ^^ I'll have those scanned, eventually
-3. I've remembered what I always wanted to do with a printer: make an outline, scan, print, then color ^^ its as good as inking.

Why is it that whenever I go to school, I'm reminded that there only seem to be three kinds of teenagers in general nowadays.

1. people who hate themselves.
2. people who hate everyone else.
3. people who are too depressed to care.

*sigh* A full day of relaxation and computer time (even if I cant do anything like I could if I had my laptop T_T) has been nice, but I have a CRAPLOAD of homework. >< 2 AP (aka, college level) classes worth of reading and writing to do. @_@

Phew x.x it took a while, but all 23 pictures got scanned, uploaded, and put into a pair of wiki pages. With this much art and so long since the last time I put my art up, I better get some comments >< x.x

Whootness.

Parents and bro gone off to Indiana Beach all day to make themselves sick and woozy from roller coasters and waterparks. I on the other hand, "dont get to go" =P riiiiight. *cough*

This means, not only do I not have to pay people to scare the crap out of me (Which is why I don't get coasters, horror movies, etc) but I get the house, and the computer, to myself for several hours =D

I'm gonna grab the scanner at some point and go nuts with the uploads. And since my bro never used the puter yet today, that means I can easily cover up my tracks. I've learned its just too weird to know your sibling online. Still, I did decide to leave him the link to http://www.dominic-deegan.com =)