Ok so get this. MY 17th birthday is tomorrow, and no ones doing anyhting for me. Well except my dad, who's taking me out to celebrate, and my ex girlfriend but i don't know what shes doing. And out mutual friend who got me i think they said a teddy bear (i love stuffed animals) and a carton of ciggs, which is great cuase i'm gonna need them. I have to babysit my little cousin starting tomorrow..on my birthday of all days. I was gonna have a party but that got cancled when i was reminded about babysitting. Well at least I get to see my lil' sis and bro. Thats a plus. But you wanna know the worst thing of all. My own boyfriend isn't doing anyhthing or getting me anything at all. I told him that i don't want him to do anything big, like he was supposedly trying to do a while back, but just be there get me a teddy bear or something ( i really do like them lol) But he's not even gonna do that. He's not even gonna be there, cause he's got plans with his buddies. How lame is that. I just wanted to see him. I've never actually had a birthday where i wasn't alone. And now that i have a boyfriend, it's like i don't, cause he's not gonna do anything. But hey, if my friends are there then thats all i need. So for anyone who ever feels like i do, just realize that your friends are there for you. You aren't alone is they're there. Bye all, and happy birthday to me.

So, lifes still a major bitch. I had a miscvarriage 3 weeks ago yesterday. I have a great boyfriend..finally. Things are a little complicated right now, but if things are meant to be then they'll work out...right? But anyways, I found out that I was gonna have a girl, her name was gonna be Payge. It's spelt differently, but I don't like it when names are so alike. I have great friends, I have alot of fun, and my life is finally working out. Thats what I was really working towards. I'm moving to azle/springtown, I have a job already lined up, and i already made alot of friends. So I guess things are alright, but something just doesn't seem to fit. I can't figure out what it is. I guess i'll find out when it comes around huh? If anyone ever needs someone to talk to then just message me, i'm usually on.

I have one question that i need help answering. My friend is pregnant, but she won't tell the guy cause she thinks that he won't want anything to do with her or the child, and i agree. I don't think he would either. She says that he'll probably call her a liar or a slut, but she says that she hasn't had sex since him, and i believe her. So... The question is, should she tell him even though he might do all this, or should she just keep it to herself and raise the chid on her own. Please, please, please....help with this question. I have my own opinion, but what do you think she should do. I want guys and girls opinions. I need both sides.

I fell for a guy that isn't true. He loved with nothing real. I wish..... I guess I shouldn't say that I wish cause anything I wish upon doesn't come to be. I don't want to be loved with anything that is true. But does that even exist? What is truth? What is love? Does any of it actually exist?

I just found out that a person to whom I thought was a friend hates me cause of something I said. But what I hope she understands is that I wouldn't tell her anything but the truth. I don't lie unless important. I don't lie unless it will hurt that person. Even so I tell only wehat they need to know, nothing more, nothing less.

I have only one other thing to say. And that is: If you want to speak the truth, have a great conversation, or just chat about relationships (yours or others) then please feel free to message me. I will anwser any questions you may have truthfuly or tell you what I feel you need to know.