Well tomarrow ish Dan and I's 3 month anniversary! im so happy. But there are alot of ppl at skewl who are trying to come inbetween us. i just wanna leave the world behind. Especially Amsterdam. i hate it here. and i feel really bad about Heather and Devin. He ish such a douche bag for puting her through this. She wants to give him everything and all he can do ish tell another girl he loves her. Does he even know what love means? sometimes i wonder if anyone really knows what love ish. I dont know i keep having these dreams of all my loved ones dying. i dont know why. I wake up crying becuz of it. The worst part ish when Dan gets killed by my mom. and its funny cuz he had a dream lastnight about the same thing. My mom ran him over with her car, she claims she likes him. Its my dad that i have to worry about. I sometimes get the feeling that he doesnt want me to have friends. everytime i'm around my friends he acts like he owns me. i hate that!! he doesnt own me. and he even says that he does own me. we always have arguements and he always comes out with the whole "i own u until ur 21" FUCK HIM !!! im not a piece of fucking meat that he can sell. im not a fucking slave. i absolutly hate him when he says shit like that. The only time i dont mind him ish when he gets me stuff or brings me to places with my friends. which ish almost like never. i know it sounds selfish but its true. and now him and my mom are getting back together after seperating. i dont really know how to adjust to that. its like i want my mom to be happy, but i like when its just me and her. i used to hate my mom but now that ive been here with her for like 5 yrs its a lot kewler to spend time with her. she lets me do more and i dont know... i just hope that my dad doesnt just up and leave like he did last time. He better not hurt us again, i dont think i could handle it again. well im gonna go
Jennie

OMG!!! Today was the best day ever!!! Im finally going out with Caty!! whoop whoop!! she's sooo hot and i love her to death.. i would give my life to her!!!! she's my babies daddy!! Brosh Spelderd! Half Josh Elderd and Half Brittany Spears... wheeeeeeee!!!! I LOVE YOU CATY!!!


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well again im bored as hell and my mom is pestering me to get off the computer and im bored.