I was talking to Ashley today on the bus.She spilled her heart out to me.She told me about things that happen with her parents,and everything.It's sad,really.I know if she told anyone else what she told me,they wouldn't believe her.I believe her.I'm not mad at her,I'm glad we talked.My mom got pissed because she had to take her home,and that she didn't ride with Marie.And then she kept asking about Bethanie.She thought that me and Bethanie had a thing,because she saw Bethanie jump on me,and hug me.Well,she kinda humped me too.I tried to explain to my mom that she does that to everyone.She didn't belive me.She kept saying that gays are bad because it's "not her thing".And then she feeds me this shit about how sex is good if it's with someone you care about.Well,what's the difference?It shouldn't matter what your sexuality,as long as you're with someone you care about.Fucking hypocrit.She keeps asking me if I'm a lesbian,without actually asking me.I almost told her.But I know she would shun me,and I told her that,too.She didn't deny it.And,on top of that,I got to thinking about Nikki.And that made me think about my baby sister who died,and my big sister who never wants to have anything to do with us.I always wanted a sister.And,when I was 4 my mom got pregnant.I can remember always wanting her to hold me,but she couldn't.And when she finally could...Ahh.It was great.And I can remember sitting outside the room where they kept the sick babies,holding my little sister.I was wearing a fluffy,yellow dress.I remember looking down at her and thinking,"Yes!I have a sister!".And,less than a week later,she died.No one knows what happened...And,I find out about my older sister.Well,she's actually my half sister.But still,I always wanted her to be a part of my life.But she doesn't wanna come around us.That's partly her mom's fault,because when her and my dad divorced,she wouldn't let him see her.So,it's like she grew up knowing she wasn't supposed to be around us.But now,she's an adult,she could at least put forth SOME effort to come around.But she won't.We offered them a place to live,and a better life.They dont' have it very good.Her boyfriend was very abusive,he always threatened to kill her,and her son.So,they broke up.And we offered to let them stay with us.We had stuff for her,because she was pregnant again.We had a crib,and clothes for the baby at our house,waiting for her.She never came.That hurt.And the thing with Nikki.She is the closest thing to a sister I have ever had.I consider her more my family than my actual family.And she doesn't seem to care.I won't go into depth with that,because that would take forever....