just got back from the hospital, i went in with chest pains, everyone thought i was having a mild heart attack >> but after getting doped up and ekgs and xrays they saud my hears was good BUT i shoudl talk to my doc about it, the all decided i was over stresed heres what it says on my discharge papers: Anxiety and Stress Reactions, Chest Wall Pain, Administered Narcotic Medication

im such a mess i think i messed up big time, shes going to be gone a bit to vist friend so i cant talk to her any, but i dont think she wants to talk to me anymore... i dont know what to do, i messed up, but we were talking about it, i though really did though things were going to work out.. i still do, but i dont know..

the doc says i am way to stessed and i need to get thing undercontral, and he says that im to young and good looking to be soo stressed LOL! i have been put on meds to keep me "calm" lol more stress pills

i am suposed to talk more about my feelings and problems lol the doc said that my stress is really bad and that it can be a threat to my life, he was talking about when your upset and or stressed you budy reacts by doing something or other, aand like the # of white blood cells drop making it ez for you to get sick,

well im not suprized, i have been sick most of this past week i have been runin feaver, throwing up, stuff like that

i think i know what it is, its my fault, i messed up soo much... it hurts...

i feel weak, empty, alone, helpless..

but i was told to not care anymore, about anything, then i can happy... im not like that, but maybe shes right.. should i just stop careing about everything...

Just a dog, a dog neglected by his master ... should he runaway, or stay and be obedient ... poor dog ...