Here's a poem... since I promised...

Faded:

This silent luluby,
Dancing within my head
It tells me I don't deserve
I am not worthy...
My self hatred is continuously Fueled
By my overwhelming desire,
My need for companionship.
I know not my own soul... And therefore I'm destined to loneliness.
My heart knows nothing but despair...
And nobody sees me in the shadows.
There is no worth to my mortal life.
So I stand here, beside my cold, motionless body
I move slowly towards the churning light
Close my eyes and fall forward...
Lonesome, my constant state...
The pain fades as now I have no life...
No body to hold the hurt inside.

Untitled:

I'm falling beneath the darkness...
I'm fading from within.
You could see it in my eyes,
If you cared to look.
My pain grows as I watch them.
Can't you feel it?
Can't you sense their hearts breaking?
Can't you hear their minds shattering?
Why don't you just look?
I can feel them dying and I can't...
There's nothing I can do to help.
Something's gnawing on their soul,
And you can't help it?
I hate you
They love me and I can't save them.
I can't do enough for them.
And you won't even look...
I can only watch, in horror...
And this, you don't care?
You deserve death
Something tells me I will die...
I could care less...
Just save them before...
Before I lose my mind and body.

-that one barely makes sense to me... so don't feel bad... it's sort of like me talking to myself... I dunno. well I don't feel like writing anymore today... buh bye