carnival dance was tonight it was so much fun!!!!! violet stephanie stefanie amanda and me were all dancing it was sooo much fun but at the end stephanie was really upset because some guy pulled her shirt down while she was dancing with a guy she really likes and she wasnt wearing a bra so shes upset and theres a girl that really likes me shes in 6th grade and we were dancing together and shes telling all her friends about me and i feel really REALLY bad because i cant remember her name everytime she sees me shes like "HI SHAWN!!!: and im like hi and i think to myself what is her name......anyw
well i just found out my best friends courtney and amber hate me and whenever we hangout they get migraines those fuckin whores i always fuckin help them and what do i get I GET FUCKIN INSULTED AND CONSTANTLY GET PUT DOWN!!!!!
i need time to cool down bye
today i found out that my friend courtney's immune system broke cause whenever she got cut she would get an infection and she gets cut alot from her sister adn she used to be a cutter so now if she gets infected she'll probably die but when she gets cut if she immediatly cleans and swallows a pill bout the size of an oreo she'll be okay but im scared for her shes my bestest buddy pray for her please
ok back last entry wasnt long cause i was still creeped out so her it goes
i was walking to johns[Darkstrike] house cause i wanted to see if he wanted to hang out. i get and some guy starts waving a knife in my face threatening to stab me until harry told him to leave me alone i asked harry where john was and he told me he was behind the shed with violet [Sheenio](his gf) gato (his friend) erica (gatos gf) gerald (johns brother) and linda (geralds gf) so i go behind the shed and they were all fucking eachother i started to leave and harry said "stay i think there almost done" but i still left that was not an image i needed i think i threw up in mouth well im not going to johns house anymore
went to johns [Darkstrike] house after school harry told me he was behind the shed so i go back there and i find john violet [Sheenio] gato erica linda and gerald all fucking eachother that was not an image i neeeded.......
since tru calling is back on the air im posting its theme song by full blown rose (YOU ROCK FULL BLOWN ROSE)
somebody help me
full blown rose
I'm being haunted by a whisper
A chill comes over me
I've been trapped inside this moment
I'm not a victim
I'm not a freak
Free me, before I slip away
Heal me, wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?
I've seen the face of my affliction
Of my reality
I'm being tortured by the future
Of things that yet to be
I'm being haunted by a vision
It's like the moment never comes
I feel the burden of confusion
Always searching, on the run
Free me, before I slip away
Heal me, wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?
Somebody help me
Now, I'm not a hero, no
But the weight of the world on my soul
These images burn in my eyes
They're burning me up inside
Free me, before I slip away
Heal me, wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?
Free me, before I slip away
Heal me, wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?
Somebody help me
Somebody help me
Somebody help me
ok i went to johns house after like i always do and like 10 minutes later robbie pulls me into his lap and says "tell santa what you want for christmas" and i laugh and start to get up but he held on and started bouncing up and donw on the chair yelling "A BOUNCY BOUNCY BOUNCY BALL!!!!!" and i yell robbie lemme go and i break free and say goodbye to john and go home so yeah
im in a very good mood because.......
i found out one of my friends john made out with robbie AND HE CALLS ME A FAGGOT!!!!!!!! i dont have a problem with that but now i asked him about it during lunch and lots of people heard him admit that he did so hes probably pissed at me and im going to be a victim of a vicious man rape HELP ME!!!!!!!
today lunch was very..........
it was really cold and my friend amanda comes over to me saying shes really cold and starts clinging to me cause i was wearing a really big jacket and she starts saying shes really warm now. i didnt think anything of it until we were standing by the fence and she unzips my jacket and leans against me then she zips up my jacket and starts rubbing her ass against my dick and then the vice prinicipal starts coming our way and he doesnt even notice us and then she left and went on her way to 6th period
lunch was very odd today.......ve
ok............
i went to my friend johns [Darkstrike](*cough* pot head *cough*) house for a few minutes like i always do when some girl chelsea comes into his yard adn starts asking me john robbie carmelo and harry (all pot heads except me ^_^ yay for me) and i quote her "how big is your penis????" she asked us all like 5 times and then i left cause i wanted to go home.........b
*sigh* things are not getting better with my gf
today when i was walking with her and courtney to behind the school where they get picked up amber drags courtney away from and she starts talking about some guy danny in my drama club shes saying that hes soo hot. i mean hello boyfriend RIGHT HERE I CAN HEAR EVERY WORD YOUR SAYING!!!!!!!! i swear if today wasnt her b-day i would break up with her im fuckin tired off her saying all these guys are hot and then turns around and flips on me for talking to amanda or mercendez WTF IS HER PROBLEM!?!?!?!
message me and tell me if you think i should break up with her
tell me do you think its odd that i get my attention more attention from my friends Amanda or Mercendez than my gf Amber. i mean she doesnt even hug me anymore its like im not even her bf. when im around all she does is talking about gerard and all these other celebs. she flips out on me whenever amanda or mercendez hug me and yet she goes around hugging her ex and my best friend john and robbie.
WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURES?!!?!? message me and tell me what you think
no more greenday *sobs uncontrolably*
if you have aim add me crytoawhisper
my gf amber just imed me saying she got 3 tickets to greenday and shes taking me and courtney I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AMBER
*hugs amber tight and kisses her very passionately*
ok just so you know i havent been on lately because im trying out for the track team so ive be down at the track. I'll see be on ET just not as much
love ya raven
note to self: do not get courtney mad
ok my gf had a total meltdown at lunch today she flipped on her bestfriend courtney then they made up and when the 3 of us (amber courtney and me) were leaving court got mad i dont know why and she scatched me across the neck making me bleed and she barily missed my juggulor (dont know how its spelt) vein so im kinda scared and well thats it night everyone
ugh my gf is such a prude >< she wont even let me hug her in the hallways, or even give her a kiss after school or in the movie theater WTF no hugging no arm around her NOTHING *sigh* oh well
god i v-day makes me sick literally im fuckin tired been throwing up not feeling well at all emotionaly physically and mentally i dont know why im even on right now typing this when i should be in bed drinking plenty of fluids (as my friend Amber would say) god why always me T_T *throws up in garbage can as he finishes typing this*
im fuckin tired and theres been alota shit going on in my life with v-day and other shit that shall not be mentioned its all irl shit just sos ya know so if im in a bad mood dont ask me bout it