The crimson-stained sun
Has illuminated everything;
Now and the past
Is what I have imagined within this twilight
More than my own hands can accomplish?

Please teach me how to live
A little more naked than I do now
Won't you taint me just a little?
That way, even if I get hurt
And lose everything around me
This song of truth will flow through my heart.

This dispute will probably go on
About the road most precious.
I've become a rebel, I've overlooked things
Even the gentle smiles of strangers.
If eternity knows what manner of darkness
And when pain will vanish,
Then that way, you shall taint me.
I looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky
When will I be able to follow them?
This song of truth shall be my guide.

If eternity knows what manner of darkness,
And when pain will vanish,
This song of truth will flow through my heart.
Now, please, taint me just a little.
Please, just taint me, only a little.
This song of truth shall be my guide.

 Shinjitsu no Uta  (Translated Lyrics)
  -Do As Infinity

I'm gonna regret being so smushy tomorrow morning, because I'm usually so upbeat, but...

Without my friends here in Elftown... I probably wouldn't be alive here today.

Thanks.

I have no idea why I'm depressed lately. It probably has to do with the woods I always went in, to escape from reality, have been demolished and replaced with ugly houses... 

I feel trapped inside myself, and feel trapped in humanity. 

I bet, that when I buy a house, that its gonna be off in the middle of nowhere, away from civilization. I can't stand the fact that I can't simply walk somewhere to get away from it all. The pavement, the development... 

6 billion fucking assholes inhabit the planet just because people have the urge to fuck or have children. 

YOU CAN WAIT! MASTURBATE!!!!  WOohoo!!!! Damn I'm *censored* depressed. Am I typing this clearly? I just noticed that the MSN buttons on top look cool...

You know... Believing Dragons and Anthros are actually real help to get through life, but its probably not healthy... Aw well, I wasn't healthy to start off with. Bad things always happen to me, and not much turns in my favor. All my Dreams are unaccomplishable, because the dreams I have are not achieveable in reality. 

I have not much to live for, a not much I believe in, so I often wonder... Why am I in school? (to learn) Why do I need to learn? (to get a good job) Why do I want a good job? (to support yourself and stay alive) Why do I want to support myself and stay alive? (...)
I think that everyone has to ask themselves this question sooner or later. Why do you want to live?

All the major religions never seem to interest me and the theories I come up with are very interesting. I might share the main one I have someday, but I need to submit this entry before my computer blows up, and I lose my feelings. This is lifting weight off my shoulders to share this with the world, because I trust the Elftown community with my soul, and people on this website inspire me to live longer.

(Why do I stay alive? ... To keep the people dear to me happy, and to learn to better myself at all my art...)

I'm-a gonna try it too. (Typing my name with body parts, exculding the special male-only part)


Thumbs Together: dedvon (oh, hell yeah, I exited ET doing this too ^ ^;;)
Nose: devon (what now biatch!?)
Elbow:devoln (Shit!!! so close!)
Foot: devon (hell yah!)
Chin: xcdev kklon (OMG)
Eyes closed and one finger: debom (;;>>)
Back of your hand: deevln (u.u;)
Palm: ssvck mn (shit!)
Mouse: devon (he he)
Wrist: devo n (DEVON 'WIT A SPACE!)
Big Toe: edeb 90oh (crap)
Forehead: 4390 (how did i do that?! -.-;;)

Tomorrow, [TwstdLtlCreature] is gonna die by being hit by a tricycle. I know because I'm just psycic like that...

 I got a new pen pal from this site today!!! Check her out at [~Vash~]!!!!

  DAAAAAHHH! I've been hit in the head 3 times by [TwstdLtlCreature]! Help me!! She's gonna eat me alive!
...
 ehh*shrugs it off*, she apoligized to me anyways.
 Wait... she is a >girl< right?