My grandpa passed away last night
RIP

I had no father growing up, But my grandpa was always there with his advice on how to become a good man.
He married his wife after they have only known each other for 3 days and stayed with her until the day he died.
He passed away in his sleep right next to the love of his life. I can not think of a better way to go after such a long life. I just wish he did not leave me when I needed his assistance more then any other moment in my life

I feel so very alone

so this is what is feels like to have your soul slowly riped from your chest.
confused
hopeless
lost
alone

I had to let her go. It was ruining her life, she did not deserve that. I had to stop being selfish man up and do what was best for her.
I will always have a place for you in my heart Sara.

not a day goes by in which i pray that i will wake up from a dream and she did not really move away. But there is nothing that i can do about that now, its become to much for her in a stressful time in her life. I had to do whats best for her.
I will always do whats best for her.

never forget that i love you

Today I befriended a spider. He was a smart spider and very cunning in the ways of science. Just as our friendship begain to blossum he used the wind to learn how to fly. As I watched him float away I learned how mother birds feel as they watch their babies fly away. I named him Flyie for his great ability to fly. God speed flyie.... God speed.