Half Past dead

I hope your as happy as you're pretending to be
I hope you realise that it isn't how it seems
You tell yourself those lives
You tell yourself everything you hate is okay
because you're everythign you hate, its okay?
Arn't you happy that you arn't where you were
Arn't you glad that you're you?
You're you , since when?
Wheres the balance?
Wheres the counterweight?
Hear you scream the silent scream
with no one to answer your call

My dearest, I've missed you very,
very much since that last night we were together.
And I'll hold that night especially
in my memories for years to come.
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately.
I've read your letter through at least four times,
and will probably read it more times before I'm through.
I've been sitting here,
looking at your picture,
and getting more homesick every minute.
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of,
except of course, you yourself.
I keep thinking of you darling.
I keep wishing I could be home with you.
I want to leave in the worst possible way so I can come home to see you, but,
things don't look so good on that subject.
And this war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess.
I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now.
I'm completely lost with out you darling.
I never realized I could miss any one person so much.
I just hope it won't be too much longer until I am able to be with you again,
and live a sane and normal life.

He said that he would stay forever
forever wasn't very long
He said that he would take the high road
He thought that I was always wrong

Cause when he lied it meant he loved me
And when he lied it meant he cared
And when he lied it meant he loved me
Cause when he lied it meant that he was there

Where the one who's meant to be here?
Gone far, far away
Not for a day, forever
Forget him you say
You wern't any diffrent together
You were just as you are today
Ignore the empty inbox
Did you really expect a reply?
Why keep on the cry?
Two years of amzement have slipped away
Move on by, Forget him!
He forgot you cant you get the message
You'll never get "the moth between the butterflies"
You'll never recieve all the promises
Promises made in a vain hope
Forget him!

smile like you meen it...there is no motive for this crime he was a friend of mine...make the pain stop make this ache stop making it ecome a dullness i have come to know and forgive for if it wasnt there i would have never felt your love only now is it like a constant stab at my heart, at my movements at my thought. I wish you were here to hold my hands thru these dark time thru these times where the edge is shining with a light yet the darkness overwhelms it...Save me from myself...bring back all you have taken...but then again this would not be if you were still here to guide me