This is part of a song I like and well I am drawn to it!

I think that the truth is I'm scared
I think that I'm just scared to live
I think that the truth is I'm scared
I think that the truth is I'm everything that I hate

Today was the first day you shut me out. All I could do was watch helplessly as you cried. I have never felt so weak in my life. Why couldn’t you just let me help you? Why do you have to act so strong? I thought we were friends but I was mistaken. You shut the door before I could get my foot in. I tried to understand what was going through your head but you just pushed me further away. Why? Have I not earned your trust yet? What have I been gaining these past 7 years? Does that time mean nothing to you? I tried to understand but you wont let me. Go ahead and push me away. I guess you are like everyone else aren’t you? You push me away and treat me like shit when you feel like it. Fine cry! Those tears you shed no longer effect me the way the use to! I am leaving without begging you to tell me what’s wrong. I do that all the time. I think you enjoy the attention from all of this! You can just FUCK OFF!

Wow. I think I just stumbled across my biggest fear.... the dark! I am terrified of the dark. I was down stairs doing my laundry and when I had to come back up the long dark hall my heart started to race. I stopped right where the dark consumed the light. I really could not bring myself to go through the dark. My heart started to beat and I started to lose my breath. I actually thought I was having an attack or something. I spent around 10 minutes stuck there trying to walk through the dark. I took off running safely into my house. Woooooooo! I cant believe I am afraid of the dark. That fear seems so childish!

Today I came to realize that "friends" are nothing but liars. I guess I thought that they would be there when I fell but they weren't. They watched as I fell and just stood there. I am always willing to catch any of them if they ever happen to fall from grace. I am always there for them to cry on my shoulder and I am fucking sick of it. I am sick of people hurting me then me forgiving them. Am I nothing but a door mat? Fuck all of them. I don't need any of those so called "Friends".

Today there is an OTEP concert in toledo!! My friend and I are going!! I am so excited! I get to see yet another kick ass band!

HMMMMMMMMM........ YEAH FOR THE NEXT THREE SCHOOL DAYS MY LOVELY SCHOOL DECIDED IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO TAKE A BREAK!! THEY SAID A THREE DAY BREAK WOULD DO JUST FINE FOR ME!! WHAT FOCKERS!

             *!SUCH AWFUL NEWS!*

  Today I was sitting in my living room when I heard Bush won! WTF is up with that? He wants to quit with the stem cell research and then wants to give tax breaks to the RICH PEOPLE!!! My dad works at a place that relys on the goverment grants! By this time next year my dad will lose his job! I wonder how such a man could win! People like that need to be put to sleep Permanently!!!

         

     My parents left me*cries*. I came home from work and they weren't here! What kind of parents leave their children home alone? So now to keep myself entertained I am on here! How exciting!

    Today is the election for the next twisted president! Yeah who really cares who is "running" our country?! It is not like our vote really matters! We could have another recount! I do not like BUSH or KERRY but I would vote for KERRY!