MY LIKES AND DISLIKES



Things I do not like: </3
Liars
The dark
Pop (aka soda)
Meat (frickin nasty!)
Fake bakers (The people that tan A LOT)
Birds (They make noise too early)
People who talk with no point in mind
Beer (smells like nasty sweaty gym socks)
Drunks (They are mean)
Most of my family
People whose vocabulary consists of like and that’s hot and like umm well like you like know.hehe (People like that make me angry!)
Smelly people (You know the ones who smell like they haven’t showered in frickin weeks...nasty!)
Technology
The president
Emotions
Tears
Abusive Assholes!
Guys who think its an honor to be with them (Guys like that make me angry!)
Driving
Toledo (People drive crazy there)



Things I like: <3
Bunnies
My kitties
The select few I socialize with
Concerts
Lists (They tend to keep me organized)
Technology
My own hard earned money
My 1992 van! (HECK YES IT IS AWESOME!)
Writing
Singing
Smiles
Jokes
Dorks
Lotion (Victoria Secret crap.....It SMELLS GOOOD!)
MUSIC
Jeans
T-shirts
My 2 rings that I barely take off my fingers (They mean a lot to me!)
The stars
Messy Hair
My fluffy bed
The cold air
Walking in the woods
Screaming and running around stores

Heh speaking of screaming and running around stores... I went to Lowes (or something like that) with my brother and a friend. We were walking around and came across this pile of fluffy stuff. I have no idea what it was. It was like insulation wrapped in plastic. But anyways I stopped dead in my tracks and began giggling...Then they stopped and asked if I was okay. I nodded my head then jumped in the big pile of fluffy stuff. I just sprawled out on it and they took off running while laughing. As I was attempting to get out of the pile it went everywhere in the isle. I took of running trying to find them while I was crying from laughter. It was amazing.....I tend to do crap like that when I need to entertain myself.

MUSIC / OPINION

I absolutely LOVE concerts.

**My list of music includes** (I have not updated this since 2004)
Lola ray ( you may not know them yet but they are awesome live)
The used (hell yeah the Taste of Chaos tour is gonna be sweet!)
Under oath
Slow Coming Day
Further Seems Forever
MARILYN MANSON (I ♥ HIM……one day I shall see him!)
Scars of Life
Senses Fail
Skillet
Something Corporate
OTEP (FRICKIN AWESOME \m/)
Kittie
The Postal Service
The Vines
Thursday
Tool
With Broken Wings
Funeral for a Friend
From First to Last
Ice Nine
Eighteen Visions
Die Trying
COLD (<3 them…..they are frickin kick a**)
Cinderella
Bleed the Dream
JET ( ♥ ♥ )
HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS (they were frickin awesome live!!)
HIM
BACKSTREET BOYS (Yes you are reading that correctly :-P)
The Beautiful Mistake
Driving in Silence
Bleed the Dream
From Autumn To Ashes
Letter Kills
My Chemical Romance
MAE
The Killers
Matchbook Romance (ehhh I bought their "cd" and it is frickin awesome!)
Poison the Well
Dashboard Confessional
REVIS (Yes that is correct!!! They are awesome!)
ZAO (I LOVE THEM!!!)
CHEVELLE (If you dont know them please leave my page.)
Opiate for the Masses
A PERFECT CIRCLE (If you dont know them SHAME on you!)
Ramones
36 Crazyfists (<3 They are awesome<3)
My Amercian Heart (AMAZING)
A COMING TRAGEDY ( I just found them and I LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!!)
Juliana Theory
LAMB OF GOD (FUCKING HELL YES!)
Breaking Down (hahaha I just found em!!)
Minus 200
Left Foot Forward
NonPoint (<3)
Aiden
Name Taken
Tragic Romantic (Good!)
April Sixth (THEY ARE FUCKING GREAT!!!<3)
SHORTIE (THEY BLEW ME THE FUCK AWAY)



I simply have a passion for music <3
I love music but I do not let change my appearence.
If you listen to one type and that is all then you are missing out!



MUSIC DOES NOT DEFINE YOU (Plain and Simple)


[A note to all of you: If you feel you must dress a certain way due to the music you listen to then gain a brain. </3 
Also recently I AM overly annoyed with the fact that people only know fucking fall out boy , hawthorne heights , my chemical romance , death cab for cutie (the list goes on). FUCKING CHALLENGE YOURSELF TO LISTEN TO MORE THAN WHAT IS POPULAR AT THE MOMENT! DO NOT PREACH TO ME ABOUT MUSIC WHEN WHAT I LISTEN TO YOU HAVE NEVER HEARD! IF IT IS NOT IN STYLE THEN YOU THINK YOU ARE TOO COOL TO LISTEN TO IT? PEOPLE LIKE THAT FUCKING ANNOY ME MORE THAN ABOUT ANYTHING!! Sorry for the rant but I am pissed off that people really only listen to MTV! I could go on but I am purdy angry so I shall leave it at that.]

MY MYSPACE ACCOUNT:


The link to my kick ass page..
http://www.myspace.com/twistedinside

Quotes that I have grown attached to:


"It's better to be hated for who you are, than loved for the person you're not"
Kurt Donald Cobain (February 20 1967- April 5 1994)

"Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought." Percy Bysshe Shelley

"Men fear death as children fear to go into the dark; and as that natural fear in children is increased with tales, so is the other." Francis Bacon

"Life can be found only in the present moment. The past is gone, the future is not yet here, and if we do not go back to ourselves in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with life." Thich Nhat Hanh

"Independence is happiness." Susan B. Anthony

"Children have never been very good at listening to their elders, but they have never failed to imitate them." James Baldwin

"There is a way that nature speaks, that land speaks. Most of the time we are simply not patient enough, quiet enough, to pay attention to the story." Linda Hogan

"Punk is musical freedom. It's saying, doing, and playing what you want. In Webster's terms, 'nirvana' means freedom from pain, suffering, and the external world, and that's pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock." - Kurt Cobain

     


"Youre about as smart as you'll ever be while youre a teenager, before you let the world drop its knowledge on you."

I lurv these songs


EVANS BLUE [♥]

"Cold (But I'm Still Here)"

Hello, I'm your martyr, will you be my gangster
can you feel my trigger hand, moving further down your back
when you hide, hide inside that body
but just remember that when I touch you
the more you shake, the more you give away

cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we're far from obvious this time

wait, another minute here, time will kill us after all
now can you feel its second hand wrapped around your neck
so fall into my eyes and fall into my lies
but don't you forget
the more you turn away, the more I want you to stay

cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we're far from obvious this time

you're so endearing, you're so beautiful,
well I don't look like they do, and I don't love like they do
but I don't hate like they do
am I ever on your mind?

cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we're far from obvious this time

COLD, you broke me from the very first night
I'd love you 'til the day that I die
we're far too comfortable this time
COLD, I loved you from the very first night
you broke me 'til the day that I die
I'm far too obvious this time







   WEEZER
"This Is Such A Pity"

How is your heart little darling?
I didn't mean to get so mad.
Let me just hold you closely.
How did things get so bad?

I know how to pick on you.
You pushed me over the edge.
We caused so much agony.
We can't seem to move ahead.

This is such a pity.
We should give all our love to each other.
Not this hate that destroys us.
This is such a pity.
(This is a pity)

What kind of future will we have?
Will we ever find peace?
Everybody thinks we're crazy.
They're about to call the police.

I don't want to be a chump
You think I'm a fascist pig.
Right now everything is black.
I don't think we'll ever give.

This is such a pity.
We should give all our love to each other.
Not this hate that destroys us.
This is such a pity.
(This is a pity)


This is such a pity.
We should give all our love to each other.
Not this hate that destroys us.
This is such a pity.
(This is a pity)

This is such a pity.
We should give, we should give
All our love (destroys us)

People with cell phones are frickin idiots! (Yes I have one but I am required to have one for my job!) Have you ever been in a movie theater where some idiot left their frickin ringer on? I think that is rude and it makes me angry! I paid my 9 dollars to see a damn movie not hear a person talking to another over a phone. Then most of the time they talk really loud because their signal is going out. The last time I went to the movies a chicks phone ringed and she actually picked it up! WTF? She started to talk really really loud about how some guy is a cheater then she began talking about how hot she looked that night! (All I could think was  are you fucking serious!) I tried to focus on the movie again but her fucking screeching pulled me away! I finally had it so I took my perfectly good popcorn and threw the whole bucket at her! I was beyond pissed off now. She had the fucking nerve to ask me what the hell my problem was. She ended up getting off her phone after that incident. I mean come on who the hell sits in a movie talking on a cell phone? I really wish people like that were allergic to oxygen!

The Keys to Your Heart (MY RESULTS FROM A QUIZ)

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need.

I am currenlty torn.


That boy and I got into a tiny disagreement.
He called to pick a fight with me.
It was not like we were going out.
You had no reason to pick a fight with me.
That call broke my heart (well what was left of it).
You wanted your answer right now!?
Why was that I love you back so important?
Patience was all I asked for.
I actually enjoyed being around you.
When you read my previous diary entry you were so happy because you finally knew how I felt.
I love you should not be thrown around.
When I say it then I will mean it.
Until then I will not say it just to make you feel better.
When I feel it I will let you know.

Things can't always work out I guess.

The doctors..............


Well they drew my FUCKING BLOOD!!! Which I have weak veins due to my past. So they poked me in total 13 times in order to get blood samples. (I am terrified of anything sharp coming towards me. So it was very colorful (language) in the room. I was not nice because they had a fucking smile while stabbing me!)

Out of all of that I have low fucking iron. Wow! All that pain only for them to tell me I have low iron and need sleep. I am currently not a happy trooper!

They are putting me on a sleeping pill and an iron supplement. ASSHOLES!

There is this boy.
I think I like him.
He makes me laugh.
He is on my level.
He is sweet.
Our random conversations keep me interested.
He likes to talk.
He intrigues me.
I love how he is okay with who he is.
I love that he is bold.
I love his mind.
When he talks to me I get those butterflies.
The sight of him makes me happy.
I am like a little school girl with a crush when he is around.
His gestures take my breath away.
I can not seem to get my words straight when he is near.
There is not many times a boy can take the words away from me.
I think I like him.
But I am not sure.
Just wanted to let everyone know!!

Thanks.


MUCHO LUVO

I just found this poem I wrote (an hour before it was due) about a picture of Amanda (my best-friend since 3rd grade) and I. It was for an english credit.



…Simple Memory…

Many years of watching us grow into the young women we are today
Those years flew by and you wonder where they have gone
That simple flash of light made time stand still to create a simple memory
The only gift I have for you is nothing but a simple memory

We sat together with faces next to one another
Oh what a simple memory
Amanda’s wide childish smile barely being serious
Oh what a simple memory
My tongue flopped out to the side replacing my tired smile
Oh what a simple memory
Her eyes closed from the light yet mine wide and eager for the light
Oh what a simple memory
A shade of pink romancing our faces
Oh what a simple memory
The light filling the room showing my messy nature behind us
Oh what a simple memory
The dark consuming the doorway behind us
Oh what a simple memory

Still to this day we remain close
Neither of us wanting to bid farewell to this happiness
An angel was always there helping us through our rough spots
That angel was you
Thanks for all that you have done
I hope this simple memory brings you happiness

Rain.......






:-(









A WHOLE WEEK OF NOTHING BUT RAIN!!!!!!





:-(















THE NEWS SAID WE STILL HAVE ANOTHER WEEK BEFORE IT WILL QUIT!







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RAIN......

Graduation:

I graduate June 4 which is only a few weeks away. I have yet to send out invites for my family to come. I am not sure when I will be having a party. I have not even thought of who I will invite.


As of today I realise I am a procrastinator.

Nothing special.....Just some thoughts












Behind this smile is nothing but emptiness



All my laughs are forced



My outgoing personality is a sham



I am not what I seem



Looks are deceiving



And you went along for the emotional ride



The tears that you caught with courage



Reassurance that you provided daily



Happiness consumed my days



Simple words brought smiles



My gentle heart beating stronger day by day



The emptiness filling up with happiness



Smiles feel right



The laughs seem honest



I am what I seem



My looks no longer deceive



Thanks for the emotional ride



Now I am ready for life







<3

I have been sick (really sick) recently. Not sure with what but I am going to the doctors on Monday. Hopefully it is not all bad news.


Mucho Luvo

<3

I have atleast done 23 of these!





50 Fun Things To Do In An Elevator


1. Make race car noises when people get on and off.


2. Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your kleenex to other passengers.


3. Grimace painfully while slapping your forehead and muttering, "Shut up darnit, all of you just SHUT UP!"


4. Whistle the first 7 notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.


5. Sell Girl Scout Cookies.


6. On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.


7. Shave.


8. Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask, "Got enough air in there?"


9. Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear your upside-down.


10. Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.


11. When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to pull the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.


12. Lean over to another passenger and whisper, "Ever had a Wet Willy?"


13. Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you "Admiral."


14. One word: Flatulence!


15. On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.


16. Do Tai Chi exercises.


17. Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on."


18. When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back, "Oh, not now, damn motion sickness!"


19. Give religious tracts to each passenger.


20. Burp, then say, "Mmmmm.....tasty!"


21. Meow occasionally.


22. Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.


23. Frown and mutter, "Gotta go, gotta go," then sigh and say, "OOPS!"


24. Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.


25. Sing "Mary Had a Little Lamb" while continuously pushing buttons.


26. Holler, "Chutes away!!" whenever the elevator descends.


27. Walk on with a cooler that says "Human Head" on the side.


28. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce, "You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.


29. Leave a box between the doors.


30. Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them.


31. Wear a hand puppet and talk to the other passengers "through" it.


32. Start a sing-along.


33. When the elevator is silent, look around and ask, "Is that your beeper?"


34. Play the accordion.


35. Shadow box.


36. Say, "Ding!" at each floor.


37. Lean against the button panel.


38. Say, "I wonder what all these do?" and then push ALL the red buttons.


39. Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.


40. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."


41. Bring a chair along.


42. Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger, "Wanna see wha in muh mouf??"


43. Blow spit bubbles.


44. Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.


45. Announce in a demonic voice, "I must find a more suitable host body."


46. Carry a blanket a clutch it protectively.


47. Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.


48. Wear "X-Ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.


49. Stare at your thumb and say, "I think it's getting bigger."


50. If anyone brushes against you, recoil fiercely and scream, "BAD TOUCH!"

Bloodumpster (a band).........they made my fucking ears BLEED!!

They were by far theeee utmost worst untalented band ever to play at headliners...They made me want to simply cut off my ears and carve out my ear drums...I fucking HATED them!!!

I like to give bands atleast two chances because it could be something wrong with the sound, building, equipment, anything like that. BUT HELL NO!!! This band just absolutely sucked! No talent....and the twisted part was they actually liked being told they suck. It is like they enjoy tormenting people.



!!!!!BLOODUMPSTER CAN GO JUMP OFF A FUCKING CLIFF!!!!!





P.S. If I did not make it clear enough
I THINK BLOODUMPSTER FUCKING SUCKS!




Mucho Luv

♥

Some little poem I wrote in my spare time:

"Match"


This match is tempting me


Tempting me to throw it down


Throw it down and burn our bridge


Our bridge that we created


Created through the years


The years of laughter, regret, love, and trust


Love and trust I thought was strong


Oh how I was wrong


Wrong to think our bridge was strong


Strong enough to hold both of our egos


Egos that we still think is non-existent


Both of us too stubborn to admit we were wrong


Wrong in thinking the other would return


Return without thinking twice


Thinking twice about throwing the match


Throwing the match and setting our bridge ablaze


I will stand here with the match deciding


Deciding if I want to burn our bridge


Our bridge will last until you let the match burn me


I will let go of this match if you want me to


Want me to give up on the person I love


I love you





This is just a simple note to you.


You said I have never loved any one...Well you were mistaken I love you! I Thought you would realise that by now but I guess not. I just wish things could go back to the way they use to be but they can't. Can they?


This is just a simple note to you