THIS IS WHY I HEART MY FRIENDS:





Sara: Hey you fucking broke it!

Me: Huh?

Sara: How could you do that? All it did was love you!

Me: ::blank stare::

Sara: ::throws herself on the piece of ripped paper::

Me: Umm are you okay?

Sara: GO! ::starts crying::

Me: ::Rips another piece while laughing::

Sara: ::Screams:: NO!!!!! Fine I shall cut your hair ::grabs a razor and starts laughing::

Me: Ummmm I can tape them back together luv...

Sara: BOW DOWN TO MY RAZORNESSELF!

Me: THATS NOT EVEN A WORD DORK! ::walks away::


Yeah that is my life wrapped in a little bubble.

He said "You are a hate machine wrapped all pretty"

Update:

My "amazing" cars brakes went out! Fun huh? So I have my "mother" take me to work which is the longest 15 MINUTES OF MY LIFE (and I will NEVER get back)!! It sucks. So I am waiting to hear back from a guy that can/will fix them for me! So I am stuck at my home or on the net at my moms house. I may be on here alot! This small town is good for nothing!

kthanksmucholove

The time is now 6:07...

Do you know where your kids are?





Yeah that's what I thought.

....My apartment....


Is creepy at night
Has wood floors
Amazing windows
A beautiful view (of bulildings)
Is upstairs
Has a store under it
Is clean
Has a box or two sitting around
Has lights out the ying yang



Ummm yupp thats it

So I was thinking......Maybe this job is not for me...I can't tolerate people yelling at me. I get pissed and I want to kick them in their ass! I do not know why I am here. I have no relationship holding me back. I know I can find a new job! Today is a day that I can not take! Stressful!!! I do not handle alot of stress well!

I sit here and think what is holding me back. Why am I so afraid to move on with my life and find a new job! I am only 18 and yet I act like I am 29 with a family of my own. I have nothing holding me back so why can't I put one foot infront of the other and just walk away? I am sitting here screaming at the top of my lungs yet people don't bother to care. They just pass me by. I just want to get out of here. Go somewhere not a soul would know me. I want to start a whole new life and just be me. Not this bitch that is miserable. Hmmmmmmmmm.....see why it is bad when I get time to think about my life. I second guess everything I do and want to do....pathetic I know. I just can't seem to get myself to make any life changing choices!

MSI OCTOBER 28!!!!



EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......HMMM.... IF YOU DO NOT KNOW MSI YOU MUST LOOK THEM UP THIS MOMENT! WAST NO TIME...


Here is a link for you lazy one :-P

http://www.mindlessselfindulgence.com/


KTHANKSMSIROCKS

Soooo. I am currently at work ALONE!!! Yeah I can handle it but not a damn person tells me whats going on. I guess I just decorate! My boss had crap to do for half the day and there was supposed to be a person to cover her....Well due to lack of communication there is noone to cover. So I am here all alone and feeling angry! They then called and explained why I was alone and said if I get busy to call them and they would send someone over. Well the nearest store is 35 mins away! By the time I call them when I am busy the rush is over within 20 mins!


I AM FUMING!!!


kthanksloveyouallbye

You are a hate machine wrapped all pretty

I am off to AZ (to finally put my dad at rest). I will be gone for about 10 days!

Don't miss me too much :-P




kthanksloveyoubye <3

I swore I would be through with this depression mode but I cant kick it. I still feel the tears swell in my eyes as people talk with me. Why must they always say you are in a better place?! I am so confused right now. The better place was here with me....by my side. They all ask what is bothering me when I cant keep a smile. Duh!! Well lets see....I lost a very important person to me, I am an emotional wreck, My life is slowly breaking. Things were going good until....Well until you left me here all alone. People do not understand how I deal with your passing. I may not be a blubbering fool at you funeral and then get over it....I was mostly calm and softly sobbed and I am not over it. My tears still come easily as others do not anymore. I guess now that your funeral is over we all should just forget?! How fucked up some people are. I do not think there will be a day that goes by where I wont even think about you. You were just so memorable!

[ Hearts ]

[ To You: My friend that passed away before my dad.]


Pain overwhelmed me when I was told
I would no longer be able to see you
There would be no more talks
No more hugs
Not even smiles with you
They have been stolen from me
It was not your time to go


I am not ready for you to leave me yet
High school just passed
I still need you to help me through my life
I fucking let you into my mind and heart
I do not let people close to me but yet you found a way


It does not seem fair that you were fucking ripped from my grasp
I hate the fact that I cry when memories flood my mind
I cant seem to speak to my family without crying
The tears don’t seem to disappear
Emotions like this have not ran through me in a while
Wait…….more like years


I just do not think it is fair that you are no longer here
People say it was your time to go and God needed you
Well FUCK GOD!! I need you here
Selfish?! Yes I know but you were so fucking young!


People say that you will watch over me......
It should not be that way
You should still be here with your contagious smile
That laugh that filled the room
Those eyes that people fell head over feet for


I never got to say goodbye though
Time seemed to beat me to you


The last I saw you I was rushing around and I had no time
You wanted to talk that night but I had a concert
How fucking pathetic.....a concert
I just quickly hugged you and ran out the door
I replay that over and over in my mind


I will always [ Heart ] you so much more than I took time to show you!


[ -ME- ]




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