Karma is not sweet to those that bring pain......

I have been doing alot of thinking.....(you know that can't be good)....It was some recent events that have slapped me in the face. I was fuming when it happened
becuase I could not believe it. People can't always walk the walk.....they tend to talk the talk. I know its weird but its true. When was the last time a person that
"cared" actually was truely there for me? I am tired of people acting like they really care yet when I need to talk they can't be found. I am shocked because if they need help they do not hesitate to come to me! WHY? I finally had enough balls to tell them what I thought.....trust me it was hard due to the relationships...
There was more than one person that has done this...some in my family...and some just "really good friends". I think this is the turning point in my life. It is weird how you
have to sit and really think about your life (yes it only took me a day :-P). I am thrilled that I am finally awake to life...It has been MONTHS since I really smiled. Oh and yes it does feel great to live.


Muchoheartsluvs <3

Lyrics.....I bet you do not know the band!

"everyone i know
is gone
they left
saying see you around
but i don't care
i like it that way
i don't care
i never had much to say
everyone i know says that im wrong
stubborn cold hard headed and withdrawn
see you later
see you around
see you later
see you around
but
everyone i know is gone
i don't care
i like it that way
i don't care
i never had much to say
i don't care
i just wanted to say
it means nothing to me
i gave it away"

6 mins till I am off......WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CANT HANDLE ANYMORE!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GO FAST......


123 go...........123 go now?..........123 go now PLZ!

GO GO GOG OGOGOGOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGGOOGGOOGOGOGOGOGOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOOG YES THAT IS THE REMIX VERSION!

THIS IS WHY I HEART MY FRIENDS:





Sara: Hey you fucking broke it!

Me: Huh?

Sara: How could you do that? All it did was love you!

Me: ::blank stare::

Sara: ::throws herself on the piece of ripped paper::

Me: Umm are you okay?

Sara: GO! ::starts crying::

Me: ::Rips another piece while laughing::

Sara: ::Screams:: NO!!!!! Fine I shall cut your hair ::grabs a razor and starts laughing::

Me: Ummmm I can tape them back together luv...

Sara: BOW DOWN TO MY RAZORNESSELF!

Me: THATS NOT EVEN A WORD DORK! ::walks away::


Yeah that is my life wrapped in a little bubble.

He said "You are a hate machine wrapped all pretty"

Update:

My "amazing" cars brakes went out! Fun huh? So I have my "mother" take me to work which is the longest 15 MINUTES OF MY LIFE (and I will NEVER get back)!! It sucks. So I am waiting to hear back from a guy that can/will fix them for me! So I am stuck at my home or on the net at my moms house. I may be on here alot! This small town is good for nothing!

kthanksmucholove

The time is now 6:07...

Do you know where your kids are?





Yeah that's what I thought.

....My apartment....


Is creepy at night
Has wood floors
Amazing windows
A beautiful view (of bulildings)
Is upstairs
Has a store under it
Is clean
Has a box or two sitting around
Has lights out the ying yang



Ummm yupp thats it

So I was thinking......Maybe this job is not for me...I can't tolerate people yelling at me. I get pissed and I want to kick them in their ass! I do not know why I am here. I have no relationship holding me back. I know I can find a new job! Today is a day that I can not take! Stressful!!! I do not handle alot of stress well!

I sit here and think what is holding me back. Why am I so afraid to move on with my life and find a new job! I am only 18 and yet I act like I am 29 with a family of my own. I have nothing holding me back so why can't I put one foot infront of the other and just walk away? I am sitting here screaming at the top of my lungs yet people don't bother to care. They just pass me by. I just want to get out of here. Go somewhere not a soul would know me. I want to start a whole new life and just be me. Not this bitch that is miserable. Hmmmmmmmmm.....see why it is bad when I get time to think about my life. I second guess everything I do and want to do....pathetic I know. I just can't seem to get myself to make any life changing choices!

MSI OCTOBER 28!!!!



EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......HMMM.... IF YOU DO NOT KNOW MSI YOU MUST LOOK THEM UP THIS MOMENT! WAST NO TIME...


Here is a link for you lazy one :-P

http://www.mindlessselfindulgence.com/


KTHANKSMSIROCKS

Soooo. I am currently at work ALONE!!! Yeah I can handle it but not a damn person tells me whats going on. I guess I just decorate! My boss had crap to do for half the day and there was supposed to be a person to cover her....Well due to lack of communication there is noone to cover. So I am here all alone and feeling angry! They then called and explained why I was alone and said if I get busy to call them and they would send someone over. Well the nearest store is 35 mins away! By the time I call them when I am busy the rush is over within 20 mins!


I AM FUMING!!!


kthanksloveyouallbye

You are a hate machine wrapped all pretty