I AM BACK.....



BACK AGAIN.....

TELL A FRIEND :-P

Stay with me.Safe and ignorant.Just stay with me.

I am right back where I started.

Seriously WTF? Since when is it sweet to play hard to get? COME ON!

CAT AND MOUSE GETS BORING AND ANNOYING!

kthanksdork

FORGIVE AND FORGET?

Is it so bad that I am so numb to ones pain? I simply could care less if another is hurting. I am tired of people coming to me and wanting me to fix everything or anything. I use to fix it or repair it as best as I could. I kept my feelings and thoughts to myself and kept my mouth in line. I felt this darkness consume me after a while. I began to get so displeased with myself. Even with the life I have created myself. So one night I snapped and since then I have become numb. I can tell you I honestly do not care about you now. You want me to come back like I always have and be at your side. This time is different. I will not bend or hold my mouth shut any longer. I told everyone what they ment to me and I made my point clear. I have to look back and laugh at all the years I wasted. Well I am now making up for my lost time.

kthanksbye

Sorry will not come as easy
I will not bend this time
Yes I may be sorry in the end but I would rather live my life the way that I want. I am fucking sick of saying sorry for stuff I never do. Its just easier when I apologise. Or even when you always say sorry but never seem to mean it....becuase it happenes again.We can go on like nothing has happened. That is what we use to do. Until this time. I will not fucking forget! I will not say sorry! I am not going to fucking bend! Get over it. I will not take your apologies either....Instead of throwing a match to our bridge you slowly chipped it away with each drink. Everything you would say while drunk broke our bridge down piece by piece. I may miss you but I do not miss feeling sorry and like shit all of the time! I am me. Changes have happened to me. I can smile honestly now. No more of this shit.

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I cut my hair....and along with that many changes. I am no longer the person I use to be. I will not bend all too easy.

kthankskids:-)

At my job I see alot of parents with their kids. Let me tell you some of those wack job moms that come through here fume me! I just had thee most adorable little boy come in the store. He was six and just started school. His mom can afford to get her damn nails done an expensive cell phone and some horrible tattoos....YET she can not afford to dress her son! I mean I can understand a struggling mom but dont fucking come in the store pay your expensive phone dress nice and have those wretched nails done and dress him like a rag! This little boy then came up to the front desk and just started talking....TALK ABOUT MELT MY HEART! He proceeded to tell me he was 6 and he just started school but it was really expensive....I looked at the mother and she said its all the way in defiance....BOO FRICKIN WHOOO! Why would you tell your kid that their education is expensive! I was really fuming! DAMN LAZY ASS MOTHER NEEDS A SLAP! As they were leaving he went to touch a phone and that bitch actually screamed at him and yanked him really hard out the door. He just looked back and waved! :-(

WHY? I wanted to go take that kid from her and bitch slap her! Worthless mothers like that fume me!

So what you had didn't fit Among the pretty things

I wish creepy lurker guys would just disappear! Honestly!

I can not go into a bar/ a concert/ even work with out some creepy fucking guy lurking over me......

Thee bars are by far the worst place.....It is their breeding ground.

I had a guy honestly lurking over me and beside me all night.....My friend even acted like a b/f to get him to quit lurking but that would not even work....WTF?????? Why the hell are guys so creepy?

And cocky fucktards that think they can have any girl fume me! If you have a g/f keep it in your damn pants....quit being a whore!

Okay I am done ranting. So hearts kids :-)

LOOKING FORWARD TO 2007. MANY CHANGES ARE GOING TO BE HAPPENING!

MUCHO HEARTS KIDS

I finally snapped at a guy. This friend makes fun of any person that is not "metal". Why? I do not know....maybe it makes him feel better. Well he made fun of my friend because this guy is REALLY "EMO"....He did not realise that I knew him....Then all of us we at a concert and he was talking shit about guys wearing girls pants and so on. I finally told him I wanted to punch him in his fucking face....nicely acorse. I do not see the point in picking on people becuase they are just in style. That pisses me off when he is all like "I am metal"....and yet he whines like a little bia and puts on his puppy dog face when he gets yelled at..Eff that he should be wearing the chick pants!


The End

hearts

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

::The girl has a blank stare::

" Do not even fucking act innocent! You are an ice queen to people."

::the girl trys to joke::

"Yes I am a queen ;-)"

"Dont fuckin joke...I am serious. You prance around here claiming to have feelings but you fucking lie! ::starts yelling:: You never let anyone close enough to fucking love you! WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF?"

::slaps guy in the face as tears stream down her face::

"Leave me the fuck alone! You are no one to talk to me this way! YOURE A FUCKING ASSHOLE!"

::straightens himself out::

"Fucking pathetic...You can not even hear the truth! What the hell are you upset for? It is you that causes pain to others! You lead them on and just drop them like they are nothing! YOU WILL NEVER BE WITH ANYONE!"

::starts walking away while shaking her head::

"HEY!"

::yanks her arm and pulls her back to him::

"Dont fucking walk away until I am done! All I have left to say is you have [ NO HEART ]. Enjoy being alone."

::guy walks away leaving the girl all alone and crying::







L I F E

EFF THE X-MAS MUSIC!

One Special Day...
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was "Daddy's Day" at school, and she couldn't wait to go.


But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.


What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter at home.
But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all.


Of a dad who's never there, a dad who never calls.


There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.


One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare.


Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?!" she heard a boy call out.


"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout.And from somewhere near the back, She heard another father say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day.


"The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.


"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away.But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special dad. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know,


All about my daddy and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike.He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him.


I'm not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest.


Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.


And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.


"I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far. You see he was a fireman and died just this past year. When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise.


A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out.


And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed..
But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.


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