Choosing

I`m confused
cause I have to make a choise
And it will always be the wrong one.
But I will choose
And if I would die this very moment,
I would not feel.
I do not fear death anymore
Cause the choise I have to make
will cost more pain then death will ever do.
And whatever I choose..it will be the wrong one.
But I shall make a choice...and live my life without
a smile.