YOUR...
[:x:] Name?= Hanny
[:x:] Nickname?= Hatty..mostly
[:x:] Birthday?= 18 september
[:x:] Zodiac sign?= Virgo
[:x:] Birthplace?= Jutryp
[:x:] Age?= 16
[:x:] City?= Not a city but a village
[:x:] Height?= 158 cm
[:x:] Shoe size?= In Dutch sizes . 39 ,5
[:x:] Hair colour?= Blond
[:x:] Eye colour?= Depends..somet
NUMBER...
[:x:] Of siblings?= One
[:x:] Of pets?= 8
[:x:] Of shoes?= 3 or 4
[:x:] Of piercings?= None.. I don`t like needles. Do ears count? If so then I have two.
[:x:] Of people I could classify as true, could trust with my life, type friends?= Four.. Fenna , Yeb , Grytsje and Josry (although he hates my guts)
[:x:] Of people I consider my enemies?= I don`t..I have a lot of people I dislike but as far as I know I don`t have any enemies.
[:x:] Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?= Dunno , Five or six times I guess.
[:x:] Of scars on my body?= Four or five
[:x:] Of things in my past that I regret?= At least 1.
DO...
[:x:] You have a crush on someone?= yes
[:x:] You know someone that has a crush on you?= Yes...-.-
[:x:] You wish you could live somewhere else?= All the time.
[:x:] You think about suicide?= Never..
[:x:] Others find you attractive?= Some.
[:x:] You want more piercing?= Yes but I`m scared:P
[:x:] You drink?=Not a lot.
[:x:] You do drugs?= No.
[:x:] You smoke?= No
[:x:] You like cleaning?= HELL NO! I`m the most messy person you`ll ever meet. If you want me to clean , you`ll have to force me.
[:x:] You like roller coasters?= Absolutely ^^
[:x:] You write in cursive or print?= Cursive
[:x:] You believe in yourself?= Most of the time yeah , but not always
[:x:] You get along with your parents?= Yes now that its mentioned , I do.
FAVORITE...
[:x:] Music?= J-pop
[:x:] Bands?= Don`t have one.. but I like Di-rect.
[:x:] Color(s) All colours.
[:x:] Food(s)?= Lasagna ^^
[:x:] Thing to do?= To watch anime with my sis
[:x:] Thing to talk about?= Anime , manga ,drawing , josry , my friends
[:x:] Sport?= All fighting sports. But I also like to dance
[:x:] Drinks?= ...uuuh... Cola..
[:x:] Clothes?= Clothes that match my personality. Just a tad different from the crowd. If I see someone else with the same pants or sweater as me , wearing it seems less fun to me.
[:x:] Movies?= Anime Movies. But I also like comedies
[:x:] Holiday?= The one that lasts the longest ^^
[:x:] Word?= Baka!
[:x:] Nickname?= Han-han
[:x:] Eye color?= Dark brown
[:x:] Flower?= A rose
HAVE YOU...
[:x:] Ever cried over a girl?= yes
[:x:] Ever cried over a boy?= too many times..
[:x:] Ever been in a fist fight?= Yes...It was my sister and me against five others..
[:x:] Ever been arrested?= haha no . I look too innocent ^^
[:x:] Ever been on a talk show?= Eeh...no..
WHAT...
[:x:] Are you scared of?= Heights,needle
[:x:] Time do you wake up?= 7 am mostly. 9 am in weekends
[:x:] Reminds you of your past?= Everything
[:x:] Makes you think?= ...what not?
[:x:] Is your best feature?= My eyes I gues..
[:x:] Are your most missed memories?= I don`t know because I forgot... If I didn`t they wouldn`t be missed
WHAT DO U PREFER...
:x: Pepsi or Coca Cola = Cola
:x: hot chocolate or hot coca = hot chocolate
:x: chocolate or vanilla = both ^^
:x: cappuccino or coffee = coffee
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: funny = rarely
:x: friendly = mostly
:x: amusing = yeah I think
:x: lovable = I hope so
:x: caring = Yes.
:x: sweet = I can be when I want to
:x: dorky = Oh all the time
:x: ditzy = hehe...no comment
:x: smart = I am but I don`t show
:x: understanding = yes
:x: entertaining = dunno..
IN THE FUTURE...
:x: what age do you plan to be married = dunno..before my 40`s
:x: how many children do you want to have = 1 or 2
:x: where will you be at age 20 = Still on this earth I hope
:x: how do you want to die = Somewhere where my beloved ones can`t see me dying.
If I was a profession I'd be: An Animator
If I was a country I'd be: Japan
If I was a ocean or body of water I'd be: The pacific
If I was a piece of candy I'd be: Chocolate ^^
If I was a famous building or piece of architecture I'd be:Dunno..
If I was a store I'd be: A book store
If I was a brand of shoe I'd be: ..uuurm.. The brand that`s really really comfortable
If I was a bad habit I'd be: The shutting everybody out habit
If I was a swear word I'd be: Baka!
If I was a ice cream flavour I'd be: Strawerrie
If I was a disease I'd be: The plague
If I was a board game I'd be: eeh.. Monopoly?
If I was a feeling I'd be: Compassion
If I was a president I'd be: Rich
If I was a war I'd be: The cold war
If I was a city I'd be: Amsterdam
If I was a colour I'd be: Red
If I was a celebrity I'd be: Johnney depp
If I was a movie I'd be: How`l moving castle
If I was a brand of toothpaste I'd be: The one that works
If I was a currency I'd be: The euro
If I were a month, I'd be: September
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Monday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 14 pm
If I were a planet, I'd be: Pluto
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: A Jellyfish
If I were a direction, I'd be: North
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: A chair
If I were a sin, I'd be: Lust.
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Water
If I were a tree, I'd be: A willow
If I were a bird, I'd be: A Chicken!!^^
If I were a tool, I'd be: A hammer
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: A rose
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Storm
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: the Harp
If I were an animal, I'd be: A wolf
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: Peas ^^
If I were an element, I'd be: Earth
If I were a car, I'd be: Caddilac
If I were a song, I'd be: Wind from Akeboshi
If I were a book, I'd be: Too many to say
If I were a food, I'd be: Lasagna
If I were a material, I`d be: Iron
If I were a taste, I`d be : Sweet
If I were a word, I'd be: Love
If I were a body part, I'd be: The Hands
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: Shock
If I were a shape, I'd be a: Shapeless
If I were a number, I'd be: 7
If i were a mythical creature I be a: Sphinx
List:x=yeah
{ } Fallen for your best friend?
{ } Made out with JUST a friend?
{x} Been rejected?
{x} Been in love?
{x} Been in lust?
{ } Used someone?
{ }Piercings?
{x} Been used?
{ } Been cheated on?
{x} Done something you regret?
{x} Considered a life of crime?
{ } Considered being a hooker?
{ } Considered being a pimp?
{ } Are you psycho?
{ } Split personalities?
{ } Schizophrenic?
{x} Obsessive?
{ } Racist?
{ } Obsessive compulsive?
{ } Dream of dead bodies, blood, death, and gore?
{x} Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them?
{x} Understanding?
{x} Open-minded?
{x} Arrogant?
{x} Insecure?
{ } Interesting?
{x} Hungry?
{x} Friendly?
{x} Smart?
{x} Moody?
{x} Childish?
{x} Independent?
{ } Hard working?
{ } Organized?
{x} Healthy?
{x} Emotionally stable?
{x} Shy?
{x} Difficult?
{x} Attractive?
{x} Bored easily?
{x} Thirsty?
{x} Responsible?
{x} Sad?
{x} Happy?
{x} Trusting?
{x} Talkative?
{x} Original?
{x} Different?
{x} Unique?(duuh everybody is unique)
{x} Lonely?
{x} Had a bad life?
{ } Have a bad life?
{x} Dye your hair?
{ } Floss daily?
{ } Own a web cam?
{x} Ever get off the damn computer?
{ } Ever done a drug(s)?
{x} Ever drank alcohol?
{ }Suicidal?
Carts for my math project have to be finished tomorrow..
I haven`t even started yet.
its gonna be a looooooong night.-.-
I have my mojo back! bwahahahaha!
For the first time in months I`ve had a dream that didn`t include my ex-boyfriend.
And I must say , that was extremely relaxing.
This weekend I went out again (for the first time in weeks , if not months) and I`ve had the greatest time with my friends . Its like I didn`t know how to have fun in these last few months.
But I`m back , I`m starting to become the happy person again that I was a long time ago.
So my breaking up must`ve been good.
Things I have to do
: make a drawing or something else artistic for bv3 ca
: make a book essay for dutch
: Try to be nice to my ex josry , even when he pisses me off.
: Draw more hands !!!
: make those carts for my math project.
:Draw more.
: Clean the messy mess in my dad`s home as soon as I come to burgwerd.
: Try not to think about josry all the time.
I am a A Rune Dragon!
Hey, I took the http://dragonh
In the war between good and evil, Rune Dragons take the side of the noble and good....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon tends to do things by the book. ...
As far as magical tendancies, a Rune Dragon's nature does not lend itself well to the ways of Magic....
During combat situations, whether by spells or by claw, your inner dragon will do whatever it takes to get the job done....
Rune Dragons are burdened with a specific task upon the world. They retain their original knowledge and experience, but something about their making compels them into undying loyalty.'
Although it does not cast spells itself, the Rune Dragon is Very magical in nature. In fact, it is a being made almost purely from the stuff of magic itself.'
The Rune Dragon appears dull grey in color, with each of it's scales containing a magical glyph of power. These glyphs contain the mighty spells involved in the dragons making. To undo these glyphs is to undo the dragon itself. It should also be noted that when the Rune Dragon has completed the task set for it, it's soul is freed from it's body.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Magic and Undying Loyalty
http://Dragonh
aha...glad to know ^^
Yay I drew something again:D
it was about time , it has been ages since I picked up the pencil.
I was having an "artist block" Or however you may call it.
Its not like I`ve drawn something great. But at least its something.
go me!~^^
I`m really starting to miss him now... Its monday , 19.46 and this is normally the time he`d come around for a while. Its at times like this that I feel how much I really miss him. I didn`t know it would be this bad. Whenever I have nothing on my mind or nothing to do I start thinking about him. Actually , I`m thinking about him all the time even when I`m busy. I miss everything , his smile , his touch , the way he used to look at me , the way he used to tease me. Hell I even miss the annoying things that used to piss me off. I want to touch him again, talk to himm , do silly things say silly words. . I just want to BE with him.
Its impossible though , he hates my guts. And when we were still together it wasn`t possible either..becaus
But still...that doesn`t mean I don`t miss him now. I knew this was going to happen I really knew but I couldn`t avoid this anyway. Whatever was gonna happen back then , I`d still be the one who`s been hurt.. And that sucks, it really does.
I didn`t know you could miss someone this much.
He`s trying to make me jealous..
and its working
dammit
And so I try to make him jealous to
thats also working
but I do not feel happier..
He may act like a five year old
but so am I...
Not when he`s around though , I still have my dignity
I think...
I`m obsessed and I still love him 0.o
damn it.!
My ex.. is behaving like a little kid :| seriously! I thought that we could be friends because he obviously didn`t care about me anymore but then I broke up with him and he`s suddenly behaving like a 5 year old towards me :S
I don`t get it.. I must`ve hurt his ego or something or maybe its just the fact that I dumped HIM and not the other way around. He can`t be really sad or anything.. If he loved me , he would`ve treated me better.
I`m feeling sorry for him though.. And maybe he has the right to be angry at me .. but I don`t know what I did wrong exept for dumping him and I did that very gently also.. I didn`t use bad words or anything..
And he asked me if we could be friends.. well yeah sure I said and I thought it would be okey but he`s not behaving friendlike at all :S
Geesh I really think its his ego or something .
Well.. I hope he can act normally around me soon because I would really like to be at least friends with him..And he`s a little pathetic now with he`s childlike behaviour. He`s making a huge fool of himself and it pains me just seeing it.
Maybe he really did love me..Because..w
Okey so I have a diary. Lets use it! XD
I broke up with my boyfriend last friday although I`m still deeply in love with him. He just didn`t seem to be interested in me anymore.He never took me out (and if I wanted to take him out he just said " no some other time" ) He never cuddled or kissed me anymore , Said rude things to me. I barely got to see him even though we go to the same school and he practically lives accros the street. " I don`t have any time " He said. What he meant was " I don`t want to make time for you " This last month was really the worst. I knew that I had to break up with him because he was obviously not going to make me happy like this. But I still kept hoping that he would change. He didn`t..it got worse. He stopped saying sweet things to me , ignored me completely and although he said he loved me .. it sure didn`t feel like it.
So I decided that although I love him , it isn`t worth the effort if he doesn`t love me. And so I had to do the hardest thing uptil now in my life. I`m a big fat coward actually because for weeks I just couldn`t tell him (but that was also because I didn`t want to say it in front of his friends ..that would`ve been cruel)
And so.. after a month of doubts and hopes I finally did it. Strangly enough I feel happier now.. although it really does suck that I`ve lost him. But in the end I know it was the right decision... He didn`t have any intentions to change his blunt behaviour towards me even though I begged him for it.Well..I guess it can`t be helped. Maybe my breaking up with him made him realise what he`s lost. Or not because he didn`t react hurt or mad or anything.
He used to be very sweet and nice to me..I just wish he had stayed that way..
Last time our relationship lasted 6 months and 1 day
This time it lasted 8 months and four days ..
I just hope that there won`t be a next time ^^
Hatred is such a useless feeling
You won`t solve anything with it
I used to think the other way around,
but now I know that to hate is to die a little
Everytime you let hatred get into your hearth,
your soul will become darker.
My soul has been dark...because I hated.
But now I know , it was foolish of me..
Don`t spend all of your energy into hating someone..
Its not worth the effort .
I`d rather spend my days without hate and love
Than having a dark soul one more day.
Because it was love..that learned me how to hate.
Don`t cry
Don`t cry...please don`t cry
I can`t bear to see you sad
My heart has also torn apart
but still I try
To keep on smiling ,
and put on a happy face
just to make sure..I won`t die
so I can keep protecting you.
Masks
I can`t believe it has happened again
That I`ve once again been fooled
I`m not sure if I will survive this time
Look at what you`ve done to me
I was happy untill now
Now there`s only a shadow of me
I don`t exist anymore
Its someone else making jokes
Its not really me thats laughing
Its only the mask I wear
That prevents me from killing myself
I will pretend like I`m not hurt by you,
But on the inside, I`m already dead
You killed me and my will to move on.
But I still can`t hate you...even if I tried
Not to feel anything , thats my only wish
I`m afraid theres only one way left
But untill then, I`ll wear my mask
And fake my happy smile
My promise
I told you I`d love you always
And for always I`ll keep loving you
Even tough you broke my heart
I`ve finally forgiven you
Even tough I would never want to try again
Even tough I don`t want to be with you
Even tough I would never want you back
You`ll have a place in my heart
Because I promised you
And if you would know me for real
You would know I keep my promises
Always
I kept my promise to you.
All fear
she has come .
Her eyes can freeze you to the bone.
Don`t try to run cause she will get you.
All fear
She has come
Her voice will nail you to the ground.
Don`t cry I will protect you
All fear
She has come
Her Revenge can let you shiffer
Don`t hide cause she will find you.
All fear
She has come
She will make you Wish you`ll die allone.
Don`t be affraid I tell you
Its only the Icequeen
She will go away..
and we will be together
She has come to take revenge on you
but I won`t let her.
Don`t be mad
She will go away
Like a bad dream that faints in the morning
I`m here
I do not love you like the first flower in the spring.
I do not love you like the singing birds.
I do not love you like an distand star far away.
I love you like I love dark things.
In shadows...secr
Why?
Why won`t you talk to him? what has he done
Why are you ignoring him? what did he do wrong?
Since when is it wrong to love?
Since when is it forbidden to feel?
Since when did the world turn around you?
Why did you speek of love, while everybody knows you never loved him.
Why is it You who`s hurt..while he`s the one who has the right to be.
So tell me miss, why do you hate him..he`s done nothing wrong.
All he did was getting over you and only because it did not took very long...you hate him for it.
Why are you crying fake tears, You are not fooling anyone
Why do you say he`s a jerk..you were the one who`s been lieing all allong.
Why do you keep messing up our lifes..get your own
Why do I even care about your feelings? Why can`t I just let you be?
Maybe its because I love him..and I know he loves me.
So mind your own cases ,and leave mine alone.
You don`t have the right to hate us
So why miss Ice queen? Why?
When I open my eyes, before the sun has awakened
Everything sleepes..its all silence...but not my dancing heart.
Its not affraid of dancing anymore
All because of you.
Before I knew you ..I did not live
I was dead and my heart remained in silence...it was too hurt to dance.
I could only feel hate.
But you, you learned me how to love again..how silly it was to loath.
How wonderfull life can be when you love someone
How wonderfull life can be when someones loves you.
How to always look at the bright side of things.
How to smile and mean it.
You make me smile..and thats just one of the million things I love about you.
I love you and finally I can really say it..I love you..
Thank you
Thank you for making me stronger.
Thank you for all the lies.
Thank you for making me think that love would last longer.
Thank you for leaving me to die.
Thank you for releasing me ,
from the iron chains you call love
It took me so long to find all the pieces of my heart.
4 months it took me to get my heart back.
Thank you for breaking it.
Because now I can love again.
And this time, it will be someone worth my love.
So.... thank you.
The Ice queen.
I used to like you..but now I don`t know anymore..
I used to talk to you..but now theres only silence
I used to laugh with you...but now there are only tears.
And when I look at you...I do not see you anymore.
All I see is hate.
All I see is the Ice Queen.
When you look at me , my heart is frozen solid.
Cause youre eyes are filled with Ice.
And when I stand next to you, I can only feel coldness.
You used to be my best friend.
And now you call me youre enemy
All because of the Ice Queen inside you.
Choosing
I`m confused
cause I have to make a choise
And it will always be the wrong one.
But I will choose
And if I would die this very moment,
I would not feel.
I do not fear death anymore
Cause the choise I have to make
will cost more pain then death will ever do.
And whatever I choose..it will be the wrong one.
But I shall make a choice...and live my life without
a smile.