[Shooting Star Shadow]'s diary
Written about Thursday 2006-10-05
Written: (6623 days ago)
My heart broke at the news of that another one took your heart, but then I thought that maybe it was for the better since I can and probably would not be able to be with you for a while. Then I heard your voice and my heart stopped beating for a little while and just hearing you made my night no matter what.. Now I sit and think of you and the chances that could and may be in the future. just one thing I do know for the eternity of my life you will always have me as a great friend, and you will as well have my heart as well
Written about Friday 2006-09-29
Written: (6629 days ago)
Lips Of An Angel
Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No, I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late
I can't take this shit anymore they've dropped one of my classes i'm down to about 13 hours left, their going to fuck with my finacial aid, and my rooming so i'm pretty much going to be out on the streets, I NEED YOU BAD I CAN'T HANDLE THIS SHIT ANYMORE, I'm literally sore from head to toe, my stomachs cramping up, just i'm breaking down and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it anymore and i'm just to the point of saying fuck it with this damn college shit and just walk off campus for good and never come back,not saying good-bye to anyone and not letting anyone know, just walk off and never turn back.. it's getting that bad baby- I want to be home with my sweetheart, with my friends just need to get out of this death trap before it kills me honestly
eh never was one for long good-byes, so I leave for college in a few minutes and figured I'd get on here and say good-bye to everyone and hope you guys have a good life for the next 3 years or so
Baby, I know the story
I've seen the picture
It's written all over your face
Tell me, what's the secret
That you've been hiding
Who's gonna take my place
I should've seen it coming
I should've read the signs
Anyway...I guess it's over
Chorus
Can't believe that I'm the fool again
I thought this love would never end
How was I to know
You never told me
Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who thought you were my friend
How was I to know
You never told me
Baby, you should've called me
When you were lonely
When you needed me to be there
Sadly, you never gave me
Too many chances
To show you how much I care
I should've seen...
Chorus
About the pain and the tears
Oh, oh, oh
If I could, I would
Turn back the time
I should've seen...
Chorus twice
This song is for a certain sweetie that last night I didn't get a chance to tell them that no matter what happens I'll always love them....I hope she knows that I'm talking about her because lately I haven't been the way I should towards her and should have my tail kicked for it!
She's like the wind through my tree
She rides the night next to me
She leads me through moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
She's taken my heart
But she doesn't know what she's done
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind
[solo]
I look in the mirror and all I see
Is a young old man with only a dream
Am I just fooling myself
That she'll stop the pain
Living without her
I'd go insane
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind
Feel your breath on my face
Your body close to me
Can't look in your eyes
You're out of my league
Just a fool to believe
(Just a fool to believe)
She's like the wind
(Just a fool to believe)
Just a fool to believe
(She's like the wind)
Just a fool to believe
(Just a fool to believe)
She's like the wind
(Just a fool to believe)
Just a fool to believe
She's like the wind
(Just a fool...)
(She's like the wind)
(She's like the wind)
(Just a fool...)
(She's like the wind)
(Just a fool...)
Softly we tremble tonight,
picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in site,
I said I'd never leave you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me….
We made plans to grow old,
believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told.
Lost in a simple game cat and mouse are we the same people as before this came to light?
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me…
You must live for me too'...
For me too...yeah, yeah…
You said that you would die for me…
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me…
My college schedual is
[Tuesday/Thursday]
CJ130T1 7:00 am
CJ140T2 9:00 am
MTH110T 11:30 am
CJ150T4 1:30 pm
[friday]
My Only Class WooT Woot
PDC111F3 11:30 am
Written about Saturday 2006-07-15
Written: (6705 days ago)
to save everyone from being stupid, and making a fool of yourself by calling the wrong cell phone, I have my old one back so it'll be alright to call that one
eh did it this morning to keep myself occupied and just kind of felt like getting it off my chest
Could It All Be Over?
The halls are empty.
They still smell of students.
The books they carried through the years.
Bookbags and extra gym closthes make it seem like it is a new home
Could It All Be Over?
The Halloween costumes through out the area.
Teenagers having that one last taste of childhood within those halls.
The doors did shine with glitter and lights from the many designs as the Christmas holidays arrive.
The desk once in rows as if they were the band sweeping the field.
Now stacked on piles until time comes around once again
Could It All Be Over?
The first year seems like a lifetime.
A routine down and classes are learned by the end of the second year.
Three years of memories, slowly and secretly haunted by a single thought.
New friendships sprout were old ones fade.
Hearts are broken by love and yet they still go on.
Could It All Be Over?
The time has come to walk the final walk.
Two colors divide but all have one goal tonight.
Could It All Be Over?
Just think if it was over then time would seem like it has stopped.
Celebrating and mourning all are apart of the final day within these halls but to be honest things are never truely over :)
Was Messing around with ruins and got this
The Cross spread is used to plot the arc of your life and the forces acting on it. It is the most popular spread, giving a very complete view of the situation. Jade Runes are most commonly used for questions about love, friendship, and relationships.
The left rune represents an important element of the past. Isa is the rune symbolizing Ice - cold, stagnant, frozen, and unchanging. This rune suggests heat removed not just from anger or conflict, but from passion as well. Paradoxically, Isa conveys images of slippery slopes and unsure footing, but also of circumstances that have crystallized and become utterly immutable. Remember that in the cold north, ice is not just THE challenge to be overcome, but the very nature of the environment. Be courageous, for you work against this element every day. Will you fight alone or with others against this, our common foe? Is there much worse than lack of change?
The middle rune represents a deciding element of the present. Thurisaz represents a thorn, the most basic of barriers to our boon or our bane. In the case of hedges, thorns protect our encampments from that which skulks towards us from the outlands. In the case of rosebushes, thorns keep us from beauty. Though thorns are passive and have no thoughts, they puncture, tear, and may even be poisonous. Hence, this rune may also represent irrational violence and anger.
The top rune represents a force that works for you. Perth is the rune of chance and gambling. Throw the dice, read your fate. Gaming is a fine way to pass the night...as long as one is careful. Games of chance have outcomes that are hidden from us, and as such Perth represents secrets unknown. Perth symbolizes enjoyment and wild abandon, but be watchful, for Perth is also the rune of mystery and the outcomes unexpected. You cannot lose if you do not play, but neither can you win...
The bottom Rune represents a force that works against you. Ansuz refers to a god or the spoken word of God. It is the voice of reason, law, prophecy and truth. It is the truth heard in the wind. This rune represents wisdom obtained or knowledge delivered. It is the rune of absolute good advice and true council - the message we all must strive to hear.
The right rune represents the critical element of the future, at the core of the final outcome. Laguz is the most strongly feminine of runes, representing water. Deep sexuality is suggested by this rune. Through Laguz, water is seen as the ocean - vast, uncontrollable
Written about Thursday 2006-06-22
Written: (6728 days ago)
ay matie, i got a cell phone that i'm using till i get mine back the number is 419-852-4148 even though no reads these, but yea call me and if i don't reckonize the number then i'll assuming it's someone from here just make sure ya let me know who ya bloody are at the begining, but i'm off yo ho
Ever just have one of those nights that you wish that you could just stop time and completely up and leave what's going on and go find something that isn't as bad as the time at the moment is?
Heres something for everyone to attempt to figure out because i can't, for some odd reason i can't sleep, every time i get to sleep about 10 or 15 minutes later i end up getting hurt and end up waking up...and no one is doing to me, so far i figured i'm doing it in my sleep, but i'm not getting why or what's with the injuries....so far i've got a sore chest, messed up knee, a messed up elbow, and i just added a busted up fist and a new scar on my head from my desk about a half hour ago....so if you can honestly figure out what's wrong then let me know before it ends up getting worse
I guess the word friend only means that they are someone to treat like shit until you're b/f or g/f are gone then they come feed on you like a damn virus... well it stops here i want NO friends, i don't want a thing from anyone ever....so fuck off for good
"Rooftops"
When our time is up
When our lives our done
Will we say we've had our fun
Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your
All the love i've made
I have no regrets
If at all it's now i'm sad
Will we make a mark this time
will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your
Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)
Scream your heart out [x42]
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your..
I lost a good friend this week because of some oddly fucked up shit, but all i know is that we had 3 years together and yet it ended in the matter of 3 days... but my biggest thing is i never could openly admit it but i was truely in love with her, in the past three days i've cried 3 times walking around town, fell asleep on an photo albium that she did for me with the page being on an old card she made for me, but tonight was what killed me, we went to the fountain and sat around, i wanted to tell her that i honestly loved her and that even though i know better i wish i still had a chance to be with her. and the fact that i didn't want to let her go for anything.....t