This whole week was the worst week ever.. Damn I hate my life so much right now.. But I hope I can live through it..
By3
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........... Can you help me..... I am crying........
...... I need to kill. Since the killing... His hurting..
.... My life sooo bleak.. Nothing at all exciting....
My life not filled with joy Nothing to keep me laughing...
My life is worthless... Worthless to this world..
Hello.. I am here skipping school on a thursday at 11: 24 and bored.. I don't want my mom to wake up cause she is gonna yell at me for sleeping in and not going to school... Yesterday was the worst day ever.. First of all the night before I went to bed pissed.. Cause I just found out I got used.. Let me tell you what happend..
Some girl was plaining to choke me with my dog chain that came from my dog, I wear it cause she died that night I was pissed... It sucked and I was depressed all day. People thought I pulled the Alarm the day before and the principal yelled his ass off at the people in the lunch room.. Saying how stupid we are and all he cares about it the students edgucation and our safelty it was soo fuckin boring and stupid.. My friend is making me try to get this one dude that she has a huge crush on to talk to her and I Dont want to!!.. When I got home I was exspecting my dog to run to me, since I had a really bad day, but she didn't since she is dead so then I just cryed for a bit then when I got my report card and I got 3 ds and 1 c and 1 b... - Sighs.. - Everyone thinks I am a lesbian at my school since I am really good friends with Mandy Makris.. and they all hate me since they think I am in touch with the devil.. It just pisses me off!!.... But now I don't care, I don't care what they thinkof me. They start asking qustions I will say 'Why the fuck do you care dammit?!' Cause I am about to snap... And my friend Mandy is worried she is gonna get her ass beat just cause her firend Emily hates us just cause we are friends... And everyone is trying to get them to fight they are saying stuff to them that the other said that isnt true!! Damn.. Hopefuly Friday is better.. If it isnt someone is going to get their ass kicked... Oh and I don't know what is happening with my boyfriend.. He lives in Cali and now I can't get into touch with him I am really, really worried that he might be dead.. Or have another girlfriend.. Or moved and didn't tell me.. Or is trying to run away to me agian but.. I don't know if it really takes this long.. I havn't talked to him in over a month.. Well now I am going to take a shower to wash all of this away now G00d By3..
" Searching For Me??"
Sitting on a padded patio seat...
As I wait for the moon of the night to come out..
I wait for it cause I know it will lead me to you my love...
Cause I am always thinking of you...
I few hours have passed and one big dark cloud of this night as I listen..
I listen for your call through the dogs houling and barking...
And I still think of you, wondering when you are going to find me..
A chill waves up my body as a cold night wind blows by..
This night is wonderful...
But what would make it perfect is you sitting beside me sharing your thoughts with me as I share mine..
I'd stare into our eyes...
And listen to your gentle voice..
As cars zoom by on the quiet neihborhood street..
And the bright orange street light gleaming in your beautiful silver eyes...
with those old dogs still barking..
I will always be waiting for you as I listen carefuly for your call...
For I will wait for you forever and evers my love...
Cause I will love you forever...
Till eternity ends..
I am bored and a new member to this.. But I want to put one of my poems in this so here it is..
'Will You Keep Me Alive?'
You are my sun on dark days..
My guied..
Before we met I felt like dying so much..
Then you saved me..
You said you love me..
I don't know why you do though...
If you want to leave me..
I will let you..
But I won't be able to live with myself..
So I will die,
commit suicide I know it..
Cause I know everything I know will be lost...
So... Will you keep me alive?..