suicide is the most selfish thing you could doto somebody.
Dont you just hate it when people interfere
when it has absolutley nothing to do with them.
just leave me alone!!
aaah. [feeling so much better now].
omg i cant believe i did that. so. SO. retarded
All about me
I cant think why you would read this but yeah, if ever you want to ...........
If I were a profession I'd be: Umm…. Being ME would be a profession! (It is hard work)
If I were a country I'd be: Czechoslovakia
If I was a ocean or body of water I'd be: Indian Ocean or a raindrop . quite a big contrast but you know :) smiles all around.
If I was a piece of candy I'd be: Milk Chocolate OR TWIRLS (my fave yum yum)
If I was a famous building or piece of architecture I'd be: Statue of Liberty :) its had to be said
If I was a store I'd be: burnt down: p
If I was a brand of shoe I'd be: that is a weird question. But yeah probably vans
If I was a bad habit I'd be: I am a habit
If I was a swear word I'd be: FUCK
If I was a ice cream flavour I'd be: I don’t like icecream- way too cold
If I was a disease I'd be: insomnia
If I was a board game I'd be: umm…lol checkers :P yeah people who have played checkers will understand. I need all the practice I can get.
If I was a feeling I'd be: hysteria mwuhaha. Just happiness.
If I was a president I'd be: assasinated
If I was a war I'd be: stopped by me
If I was a city I'd be: City of the Dead
If I was a colour I'd be: PINK or black !!!
If I was a celebrity I'd be: umm my own person…and fake boob free
If I was a movie I'd be: PORN lol ummm no IDEA…maybe pulp fiction or thirteen
If I was a brand of toothpaste I'd be: Minty yet…taste like twirls
If I was a business I'd be: Bankrupt
If I was a currency I'd be: worthless
If I were a month, I'd be: April or July.
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Saturday or friday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: dusk
If I were a planet, I'd be: Pluto or saturn
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: a dolphin
If I were a direction, I'd be: lost ;)
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: A chair with 2 legs.
If I were a sin, I'd be: lust
If I were a liquid, I'd be: water or lipton ice tea lol
If I were a tree, I'd be: a willow tree by a stream
If I were a bird, I'd be: Eagle
If I were a tool, I'd be: uh. I don’t know?
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: A burnt /black rose or a lilly
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: a thunderstorm. Or just heavy rain.
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: Drums and GUITAR!
If I were an animal, I'd be: roadkill?*coug
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: broccoli * u don’t win friends with salad* NO IM KIDDIIIIIING ide be a lone reed
If I were a sound, I'd be: laughter
If I were an element, I'd be: fire
If I were a car, I'd be: a Lamborghini
If I were a book, I'd be: 101 bunny suicides or talking to serial killers. Don’t you just love self help books? I swear that’s all I ever read. Or some deep philosophical book.
If I were a food, I'd be: burnt
If I were a material, I'd be: silk
If I were a taste, I'd be: bitter and spicy
If I were a word, I'd be: *Stares blankly* im a word??
If I were a body part, I'd be: eyes – is tht a body part- it is rite?
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: mad grin or just a seldom smile
If I were a shape, I'd be a: giant blob. What?! It’s a shape.
If I were a number, I'd be: 6 (no questions asked, none answered)
If I were a band, I'd be: ide be my own band :p
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: a pixie
If I were a religion, I would be: unreligionus
If I were a boy I'd be: gay?
If I was a profession I'd be: High paying
If I was a country I'd be: A new one
If I was a famous building or piece of architecture I'd be the statue of liberty I told u
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? The gathering light
WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Mouse pad? I have none .o.O.
BABIES? YES YES YES
FAVOURITE SOUND? Rain and people laughing. I dunu whhhaaatever
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? the feeling that i have let someone down or disappointed them. AND um not being loved back…and feeling unbootiful, jelousy, lonely. Feeling alone.
FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? What the fuck just happened? And why arnt I asleep.
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? . 3- 1 is natural 2, is being fashionably late and three is right and four is just ignorant u bastard. lol
FAVOURITE COLOUR? Of what ?... Too complicated to answer. (black and pink)
WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE? Life I guess, and the ppl in it
FAVOURITE FOOD? Chinese
If you could PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? drums or guitar. But I do play the piano.
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? no car but yeh
SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? does a special pillow count??? Im joking. Just myself.
STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? amazing
THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? Um my old best friend from essex
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? broccoli???? YES BABY
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? Tv presenter
EVER BEEN IN LOVE ? hmmm I don’t know
IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? mines empty cos I just drank it … but ill fill it up if ya like. (but answering your question : full)
FAVOURITE MOVIE? thirteen
DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? Prolly not. But im not complaining.
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? Hopefully no bodies
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE NUMBER? 2 and 6
IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE on a giant white beach somwhere where I can see for miles & miles & miles - specific location would depend on where my heart and life takes me (home is where the heart is.) actually, no idea. Depends how im feeling and where I am in life…
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? My underwear. And maybe my hat. maybe
BEACH, MOUNTAINS OR CITY? Umm beach and cities depends whn in my life – yes I do have it all planned out
TECHNOLOGY OR ART? technical Art?
COMEDY OR HORROR? Spoof.
FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hands and feet and eyes
FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY? dusk
THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? rancid
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? Back I guess and my head and hands
WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? Strong in Mind. Definatly.
WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? 7:26 exactly
What's YOUR FAVOURITE KITCHEN ITEM? spatular ?
WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? Inconsiderate & selfish behaviour and self obsessed people. Racisim, sexisim…all the isms.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? Yupo. I was an Egyptian godess. :)
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? Summer
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? To heal and to fly
CAN YOU JUGGLE? hopeless
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY? Friday
WHICH DO YOU PREFER SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? have not tried sushi so so far hamburger definatly.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON? and grim adventures of mandy and bill. Mona the vampire
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL? Chinese.
IF YOU COULD TAKE A VACATION ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD IT BE? New York…japan, infact, anywhere I can go. I love to travel.
DO YOU HAVE PETS? The tense wud be : did u have pets. And ide answer- yes and then cry lol
Number of candles on your last birthday cake. 14
Date that you regularly blow them out? whatttt? April 22nd? You mean my birthday? lol
Body piercing?
ears…but I WILL /want TOUNGUE and yummm belly
Ever been to Africa?
Not …yet….somebody has to abduct me and take me there sometime.
Stolen any traffic signs?
Not yet..heheheheh
Ever been in a car accident?
no
Croutons or Bacon bits? Bacon
2 Door or 4 Door car?
4 door
Salad Dressing?
Salad????
Favourite Pie?
umm lemon
Favourite Holiday?
summer (those were the best days of my life….)
Favourite brand of body soap?
organic and something nice and smelly and looks nice and perhaps tastes nice too. Not that I eat it casually (hehe no just formally) but tht definaly helps
Toothpaste?
umm *runs to bathroom* colgate?
Perfume/Cologn
so kiss me…
What do you do to relax?
listen to music . write poems. Draw shit.
Favourite Fast Food?
Chinese I swear ive answered that about 3 or 4 times already…
When was your last hospital visit?
When I got knocked out
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Alive hopefully. And happy.
What do you do when you are bored?
umm make stuff, draw, rite stuff, ring ppl, go out and look at the big trees.
What presents do you enjoy receiving from friends for birthday's
sentimental stuff with meaning …or them just being there see im a really nice person
Diamonds or pearls? Um material things special big rocks arnt tht important
what is your favorite TV show? As long as theres tv baby. We will all be just FINE
what did you have for breakfast?
Uh croissants
What is your middle name? I don’t have one
What is your favorite cuisine? CHINEISE…FUCKI
What food's do you dislike? TOMATOES and MARMITE. U either love it or u hate it.
I hate it
what is your favorite crisp flavor? I dunu..salt and vinegar or something spicy I dunno
Favorite sandwich? Butter and sugar
what characteristic do you despise?
DISHONESTY SELFISHNESSS, SELF OBSESSED AND 2 FACED
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? AWAY
what color is your bathroom? Blue and blue
Favorite brand of clothing? Whtveer comfy
Where would you retire to? The ocean
Favorite time of the day? DUSK
what was your most memorable birthday? My first one
Coke or Pepsi? Its all to fizzy for me. I know im pathetic
Are you a morning person or a night owl? NIGHT OWL..more like a night lion hehe
what is your shoe size? It varies….betwee
Do you have any pets? DID
What did you want to be when you were little? AIR HOSTESS SWIMMING INSTRUCTER(:S), TEACHER, ACTRESS, HAIR DRESSER, PILOT
Do you Smoke-smoke what?
Tatoos-no.
Lucky Number-2
Favorite Time of Year- umm every day! Summer.
Favorite Instrument-dru
silence or noise- nosie. But silence when you need it.
luv or hate- luv or loving hate- no wait thts just weird. Love. Definatly love.
dark or light- depends….
best feeling-Love and happiness
laugh or cry- laugh or cry with laughter thts best
fast or slow- fast
sleep or awake- awake
shower or bath-shower!!
cry coz of a movie- maybe
most anoying thing about me- Im really dependant on people? I guess. I always need somebody around me. I guess that can piss people off. Or that I say what im thinking and sometimes they don’t like it. That pisses them off too.
bes thing about me : I don’t think that’s really something for me to say
most embarrasing time of my lifemy life is giant embarrassing moment. Were do I start. Alphabetical order?
Most romantic moment ; when someone says I love you and really means it
funniest time of my life- too many
worst time of my life – positive please
do i believe in reincarnation-
do i believe in heaven and hell- not too sure
do i believe in god- well theres somebody out there I think but I think it’s a frog. But that’s just me. Theres definatly something or someone out there.
worst tv program- fuck this im bored
Single or Taken: taken
Sign- aries / Taurus (one of those weird people born on a cusp)
Pets-fuuucck
Ugly? : yeah
Kind? : yeh I think so
Loud? :hell ya
Shy? : sometimes
Weird? :oh yeah. Ask, ask, uh, ask anybody.
Selfish? : hope not but I think I can be
Crazy?:yes
Nice? : hope so
Mean? : hope not
Immature? :can be
Rude? :can be sometimes
Cool? : not really…
Brat? :no I hope not
Caring? : hope so
Mature? :can be
A friend? :yup
More than a friend? : I guess that’s for you to say?
Talkative? :oh ya
Creative?: yeah :)
Confusing? :YES
Sweet? :Indeed
Mood swings? :sometimes, but not often.
Annoying? :can be
Funny? : funny to laugh at- yes
Hyper? :yup
Laid back? : Yeah I guess
Perfect? :Not at all.
Good Looking? : yeah…RIGHT
Good personality? : Its…differnt
think I'll get married?: Most definatly. If you’ll have me.
Married: YES
WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU HEAR...
Paper: burn
Candle: burn
Mouse pad: pad mouse?
Door: open
Pictures: memories
Flowers: lillies
Pencil: blurred
I see: pain
I need: you
I find: myself
I want: love
I have: a heart
I wish: star
I love: you
I hate: hating
I miss: you
I fear: loosing
I feel: pain
I hear: rain
I smell: rain
I wonder: why
Current location: leeds
Eye color: brown
Hair color: dark brown black (naturally) but rite now its red/purple. Redyed red though.
Righty or lefty:Righty
Your weakness: Love . the people I care about getting hurt.
Your perfect pizza: hmmm none thanks?
Goal you'd like to achieve: live my life to the fullest and get everything ive ever wanted. Be happy with how everythings been. Fall in love with someone :) make them as happy as they made me
Your best physical feature: isn’t that for you to say?
Your bedtime: late
Your most missed memory: I don’t remember :D
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: LIPTON ICE TEA
Chocolate or vanilla: NONE
Cappuccino or coffee: icky
Smoke: what?
Sing: CANT. WONT TRY
Take a shower every day: yup
Have a crush(es): right now, yes
Want to go to college: yes!
Like high school: its okay :)
Want to get married: yes
Believe in yourself: a little
Get motion sickness: a bit
Think you're attractive: nope
Think you're a health freak: I like to keep healthy.!
Get along with your parents: I love my mommy. My dad? No comment fuckin bastard
Like thunderstorms: they are so beautiful
Play an instrument: wanna play drums n guitar. I play piano
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: yes
Had sex: No
Made out: nein
Gone on a date: no
Gone to the mall: yeah
Made homemade cookies: yumm..no I made a cake
Dyed your hair: yes
Stolen anything: no
Age you hope to be married: whenever I meet the right person. Hopefully like 23 or 24 pr 25.
Describe what your heaven is: Happiness... whatever it is to you.
How do you want to die: happy and ready to go.
What country would you most like to visit: anyplace I can
In a guy/girl...
Best first date location: wherever it wouldn’t matter , as long as your with that person its all good.
Best first kiss location: in rain would be very cute but its more of a moment right? Rather than a location?
Number of people I could trust with my life: nobody, maybe one
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: ¾
Number of scars on my body: I don’t know
Number of things in my past that I regret: a lot but I wouldn’t change any of it.
Is everybody asleep or something?
like, is everybody dead?
aaah this sucks
anyways listen
I want a party....
Well it cant be a
now on to other news and headlines
poetryis for me.
super unique quiz thingies...gonna go find one....
hmm.
[no requests yet....]
Is it the whole
wedding dress senariothats putting people off?
bored.
so very very bored.
inescapebly bored
so i figured. Ide talk to you :) because im so nice and caring and considerate and all that....=)
you know what i was thinking? That i would love to do? Just be in a really
please leave your requests on my guestbook or just messge me :) ill get back to you :P
You know Einstein wore snowshoes everywhere for a while because he was concerned by the lack of solidity of the universe. If we are made of matter, and matter is made of molecules, and molecules of atoms, just loosly bouncing around, and an atom is made up of only .1% anything, held together by only the teensiest bit of gravity in the first place: then what prevents the .1% of yourself from passing right through the 99.9% nothing of everything else?
Life is just what happens while your planning for greater things...
think about it
my mom says im 'anti social' because I went to listen to a song in my room. OOPS i might have shut the door aswell
please god, forgive me
she says to me 'why are you so antisocial'.
and im like
'im not antisocial society is anti me'. (which i thought was quite clever.)
but thats [beside the point]. I am anything BUT anti social. I hate being alone. I love to communicate, and be around people.
thats just me
you were wrong
you read this.....and your life will change...
see ?
you must have felt something.
mom pissed of at me. again
no idea
oh well.
I am hungry.
theres no food in my system.
im going to be right back :)
toodles
[two minutes later in a galaxy far far away]
weee. I have
souriyawhat shall we talk about today? Too early in the morning to have actually done anything interesting, but im juts in a writing mood.
you would be nothing with out the people around you
isnt wreid taht you can raed tihs eevn tuohgh the wrods are all mxied up? its bcaeuse the hauman eye isz triaend to olny look at the frsit and lsat ltrets of a wrod..kndia lkie buaeuty.. poelep olny look at the outside..
msn
in english
lots of love
but when you cry, you cry alone
we dont have to be rebelious....
alotta time and effortinto...
just like that
there isnt any point.
that gets me through are my friendsespecially ones on msn. I just talk to them and i feel
dooropen.
this is from my beautiful [indigo boy].
1. Who are you?
Umm... probably your boyfriend
Yep
Met a few months ago (not very long ago eh), on the internet.. on elftown
To say the least :)
More than once
Mallygirl, because it sound s cute an affectionate :D:D:D
HOT
Oh wow, another girl messaging me on elftown, how novel.
hell NO. you're the BEST. nobody can compare.
the color purple :)
myself :) im willing to give myself up for you...
i'd say pretty well.. I want to know more about you though
Never in person :(
Nope
Probably not
you're wonderful. you're funny, you're smart, supportive, clever, intuitive, you are adept at problem solving and getting along with others (oops, it turned into a report card :P)
10 out of 10
Go for a long walk in the most beautiful place i could think of. Then i'd have my way with you :P
more than that.
We are :)
so there i was morphing into the new me ....
but then the new me slept in.
late
shit happens
I decided.
that i need to change.....lik
Not because people are telling me to. but because i want to
I realised.....
[From izzy.....]
1. Who are you? Im IZZY!!!
2. Are we friends? Actually... We're lesbian lovers...
3. When and how did we meet? Year 7. Rosie and Hatty introduced me to you.
4. Do you have a crush on me? Omg. So much.
5. Would you kiss me? Been there, done that... Actually got the t shirt.
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Dollface. Because all my special people are called Dollface.
7. Describe me in one word. Fantabulistic
8. What was your first impression? Small. XD
9. Do you still think that way about me now? Yes.... But you have a seriously big personality. It scares me. o.o
10. What reminds you of me? Weed, Booze... Photos... Victorian Fayres... Photos photos photos... EVERYTHING!
11. If you could give me anything what would it be? My undying love.
12. How well do you know me? Better than anyone
13. When's the last time you saw me? Thursday. At school. Now it's SATURDAY! =O Im gonna miss you soo much this week. ;.;
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Yes. A lot of things.
15. Are you going to put this on your house and see what I say about you? Hm. Possibly.
16. What do you think of my personality? Radiant
17. What do you think of my looks? Drop dead gorgeous
18. If we met, what would we do...? Hug?
19. would you say that we were very good friends..? Yes
20. Could we ever be anything more than friends? Omg. We so already are.
OKAY, so this is a special entry about izzy.
because....
souriya seemed pleased to see me. So i just had to write a new entry.
Yesterday, i went shopping YAY. nothing beats shopping. :)
I got.....
- pink and black legwarmers([weee])
- earings ([very very pretty])
-School bag ([ i do actually need one. my old one is totally fucked])
-A really pretty bra. ([its baby pink with red hearts on it. its my SPECIAL lucky bra :):) me = very happy])
-underwear ([oh my. Now this is beauty my mom got very pissed off thought because i have an underwear fetish and i HAVE to buy new underwear everytime i go out. its my passion lol. yeah, so yeah...])
-Red top ([oh my. just amazing.])
-hair dye ([RED hair dye :) ^_^])
uh. i think thats it. but somehow i managed to spend
So, todays my 'day off' right?
So obviously i am sleeping in....
I get a call saying my brother is not feeling well so i gotta go pick him up
UGGGGG lol.
talk about the presures of society
its disgusting
So there are the 'populars' that seem to inhabit our school.
*eeerrrrruuuugi know, i know
They dress the same
They talk the same
They walk the same
They think the same
They look the same
They have the same bags
the same shoes
THEIR FECKING CLONES I TELL YOU...
whats worse is they think they have the right to judge you
But nobody and i mean nobody has the right to make a judgement on YOU. Apart from you. Right? Sure, you shouldnt be an asshole
You should know when and where to stop
. But No one BUT you can tell you how to Be :)
[^^ just a little something for you ^^]
LAST DAY
of school :) one whole [entire week of freedom]
Weeeeeeee. lol. I know i know i am a retard
anyways. [ i never got my lemon cheesecake].
BUT i was reading [good housewife] (one of my dearest moms uber cool magazines) gosh it was amusing
To say the least.....
Articles like :
[honey, i shrunk my but]
[now you can eat ALL the pies] (which is now my msn name
and
[why are you ALWAYS HUNGRY]
Really, i think these women have problems. Im happy about the size of my ass
, and i like eating my pies
and I dont care if im hungry or not.
See, souriya
and I
are [HAPPY PEOPLE I TELL YOU].
We have EVERY RIGHT to be aswell..
I'm with my friends as the moan about how their
[hips are too big]
[teeth are screwed up]
[too fat]
[too thin]
[the sound like a man]
[voice is too high]
[their eyes are too dark]
[eyes are too bright]
[hair is greesy]
[hair is too soft to be tied up]
[their ass is HUGE]
[they have no ass]
[no money]
[too much money, dont know what to buy]
and shit yes <SHIT> like that.....
Why cant people just be happy with what they got ?
Im not saying [by any means] that I am the most beautiful, most amazing , happiest person on this plant.
[im far from it actually]....
but you see the difference is, that, I'm happy with myself.
[sureeee i could be better] but no bodies perfect
Everybody knows that right? But yet we still strive for bloody perfection
its non existant
Know what you can get, what you want to get, and go GET IT. But dont ever regret who you are. Because who you are is everything
and your are [always somethingto somebody]....
you just may not know it yet....
I dont want to be everything for everybody, i just want to be something</b> to somebody
I just hope there is somebody out there :) ([psst: for me])