my foot hurts

*shrugs*

and I still love you nick

OMFG. IZZY'S BACK

Isnt is so Amazing.

You just walk down a street and you see a couple together. just standing there. just see the way the girls holding onto him, like she never wants him to let her go and hes looking into her eyes like shes the most beautiful person ever.

And the thing is. SHE IS.

And they wont Ever let go.

You can tell so much from their eyes.

Sometimes you can say it the best when you dont say anything At all.

When you can say So much just by looking at the person you know that you love

I think think you realise that he's all you ever need.

And he is.



he saves you

he makes you beautiful

so your the bitch that told the bitch that im a bitch well listen bitch it takes a bitch to know a bitch to call a bitch a bitch.


bitch

Dear dorothy
hate Oz.
Took the bloody Shoes
find your

own

LoL. i read some where that one out of every four people is mentally unstable.

Take a look at

three of your closest friends

i guess your the one eh?

omg.

I just asked my mom why cats drink from the toilet.

SHE said its because 'the waters colder'.

and im like

HOW DOES MY MOM KNOW THAT?'

 LIFE IS STRANGE. or its just my family

 my good friend kermit the frog:

'times fun when you're having flies'

Have you realised. that   

whereever you go, there you are 

has anyone else noticed that i write my diary entrys weirdly? With all the diffent

fonts

sizes

I LOVE LOVE

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk [.rejection.]
To place your dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
He may avoid [suffering and sorrow], but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or

love.

freedom.

free.

very very true

nothing to say.

but ill try. just for you

Well things are good right now. reeeaaallllyyy good. I dont know why, but you know when you just feel happy.

^^thats the feeling^^

Well we're having a party thing right now. But their all my moms and dads friends. bah. humbug. They're all down stairs getting drunk

mwhahahahaha. The computer shall be mine. for eternity.

or whenever. 

my purrrfect guy....



[Hair Color:] Dark brown and black, i prefer the whole dark look...but when you think about it, it doesnt matter at all.
[Eye Color:] dark hair and light eyes. wow. but dark eyes are just as pretty
[Height: ]not very tall because i aint tall, but taller than me nonetheless
[Six Pack:] lol well i wouldnt complain
[Long or Short Hair:] Long...
[Glasses or contacts:] I dont mind, both can look cute. Whatever he wears, i cant make him change :S
[Piercings:] oh most definatly
[Scars: ]nah, but if he does, hey, i wont freak out, you cant change something like that
[Buff or Skinny:] in between. I not bothered. Just not too scrawny lol.
[Funny or Serious:] He's gotta make me laugh. But i guess he has to be serious when he needs to be.
[Party or Stay at home:] Both, it doesnt matter aslong as your with that person right?
[Should he know how to cook:] just a chinease take out would be fine. XD
[Should he have a best friend: ] sure why not?
[Should he have a lot of girl friends:] sure
[Outgoing or Shy:] Inbetween, not too shy and not too loud. I love loners. I love the quiet guy at parties, i love the guy who sits at the back of the bus with noone sitting aorund him. I just wanna hug those people. Just stand there and hug them...xXx
[Sarcastic or Sincere:] Sarcastic to the extent that he makes me laugh, but not to hurt me...he should know when to stop being a jackass and be sincere
[Should he watch chick flicks:] If he wants to...:S
[Would he smoke: ] prefrably no
[Would he drink:] sure! its his choice but , he shouldnt be an alcoholic.
[Would he swear:] Hell yeah
[Would he play with your hair:] aww that would be cute.
[One or more girls at a time: ]just the one...meeee.
[Bad Boy or Good Boy:] Both when he wants to be
[Would he kiss you on the first date:] Yeah, but only if the moment was right. not just because....
[Where would you go to dinner: ]Anywhere, aslong as we were with eachother :P
[Would he bring you flowers: ]doesnt really matter.But if he bought a twirl that would be a whole new ball game. :P im joking guys...
[Would he lay under the stars with you:] aw yeah....
[Would he write poetry about you:] if he was like that, i wouldnt say no. It would be very sweet.
[Would he call you hunny or baby:] Yeah, but not just for the sake of it, it would have to be a name that ment something to us.
[Would he hang out with your friends:] I wouldnt force him to, he should hang out with whoever he wants. but he should respect my friends......XD
[Would you hang out with his friends:] ofcourse....!lol
[Would he walk you to the door at the end of the date:] yeah...
[Would he hold your hand:] Yes
[Would he play sports:] sure...
[Would he sing:] whatever he wants...
[Would he play an instrument:] no need, but my dream guy would play the guitar or the drums..lol
[Would he keep his room clean:] naaah...
[Would he paint, draw or sculpt:] yeah i guess ide love a creative guy, its not just about drawing painting and sculpting though....
[Would he write his own music:] it would be very creative...
[Would he use the word "dude":] sure
[Would he use the word "tight'':] well if its how he speaks i cant change that
[Would he watch the sunrise or sunset with you:] yeah *aww*
[What kind of vehicule would he drive:] anything....
[How old would he be:] older than me. like 3/4 years?
[does that resemble your current boyfriend]: oh god, my ''current boyfriend' kicks the shit out the guy up there ^^

all dressed up and nowhere to go

I don’t ask you understand me,
Because I barley understand myself,
But I ask of you to accept me,
Accept me as me,
nothing

more

less

big

I ask you to give me space 

falling,

that’s all I can be,

you

me

never compare

ok

nothing comapares

I feel kinda queesy

I dont know why, maybe its because i havnt had breakfast or something
bah. humbug lol.

(0) Name: call me mally :)
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/BÂI?: straight
(3) Single?: nupo
(4) Want to be?: not at all
(5) Your birthday: april 22
(6) Age your act: I really don’t know….:) depends on the situation :) diversity baby. lol
(7) Age you wish you were: 16..? im okay with where I am right now.
(8) Your height: uh im not sure, but its small.
(9) The color of your eyes: Dark brown
(10) Happy with it?: ofcourse :)
(11) The color of your hair: purple/red/brown/black
(12) Happy with it?: extremely :P
(13) Left/right/ambÂidextrous?: righty
(14) Your living arrangement?: my mom and brother (Dads in London…thank god. But their still together and everything, he just works there)
(27) Your family: mom, dad and a brother.
(29) What's your job: ah, just going to school lol. Not really a job, child labour ide say.
(30) Piercing?: yah my ears..so far
(31) Tattoos?:nup
(32) Obsessions?:oh wow. I have a few. Twirls, eyeliner, nick (Weee) oh man, I have much more I just cant think.
(35) Do you speak another language : yeah huh
(36)do you have a faviort quote if so what is it?: shoot for the moon, if you miss, you’ll end up in the stars. The harder you fall, the higher you bounce. If you can DREAM IT. You can DO IT. – there are so many more where that came from
(37) Do you have a WebPage?: yeah I did
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?:very much so. Its when I think to myself ‘come on, live for now, you might never get this chance again’ that I usually do things.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I try to be
(40) Do you have any secrets?: I guess so, but generally im an open person.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: No, I don’t :)
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: lol, if im making an effort.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: oh god, yeah.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?:that um im retarded? Lol. Or that im stubborn ?:(
(45) If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called?: ‘the movie of my life?’ – perhaps?
(46) What's 1 of my biggest fears: I guess just being alone.
(47) Can you sing: not at all. Therefore I dont
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no, not ever…:S
(49) Are you a loner?: I can be. I have friends, but you know when you’re with so many people but you still feel alone? I guess that makes me a loner huh?
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yes…:) im a nice person
(52) Are you a daredevil?: definatly. 
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: I guess I can be both, depending.
(55) Have you got a question?: I got lots of questions. But none that im gonna ask a questionnaire thing :) sorry :P
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength: my personality I guess? The way I can communicate with people? Or maybe that I listen to people? Weakness: self conscieseness….
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself? Im happy with the way I am. Thanks :)
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love all the way. Love makes you beautiful. And love is creative in its own way.
(59) How do you vent?: how do I what?!
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I try to be.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:there are lots of things I would ‘redo’ but no, I don’t live in regrets. Its no way to live. 
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: its been better than good. Its been amazing. 
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Just be yourself, don’t listen to what others have to say, if you know what you want to do in life, just do it. If you need to say something to someone, just say it, don’t wait, because sometimes nothing will ever happen. Ive learnt so much from life….
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: I guess that’s for you to say right?
(65) And least?: my feet!?
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: no body is ugly, but no, I don’t think im beautiful.
(67) Are you confident?: no….:S
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: thumbelina. Lol. No idea.
69) Do people know how you feel?: maybe one person?
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Its more about how I pervieve myself. I know whati am, and what im not, it depends on how different people see me. Nobodies vision is the same. :) vision : the ability to see the invisible.
(71) Smoke?: tried. No
(72) Do drugs?: tried., no (Well alcohol. Yes?)
(73) Read the newspaper?: I try to, but the pages get kinda screwy. Lol.
(74) Pray?: When I really really really need something. Which is selfish I know. But its last restort sorta thing, when I realise that nothing I can say or do is going to change anything, maybes somebody else will///
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Just until I get an idea of their character. And then decide if I keep going.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: nah :P
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Defiantly.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: I don’t hate anybody
(80) Drive?: noooo
(81) Like to drive fast?: no car…but ya!
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: not when its trying to sing. lol
(83) Hurt yourself?: not intentionally.
(84) Been out of the country?: yeah
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: I don’t think so. But then again – I prolly have
(86) Burped?: ya
(87) Been unfaithful?: no
(88) Been in love?: I don’t know :) how can you define love?
(89) Done drugs?: yeah
(90) Gone skinny-dippingÂ?: not….yet..
(92) Had a surgery?: nah
(93) Ran away from home?: no
(94) Played strip poker?: oh lol yeah. Once.
(95) Gotten beaten up?: not really badly
(97) Been picked on?: yes
(98) Been on stage?: uh huh
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: *Reads* how about no?
(100) Slept outdoors?: yah lol
(101) Thought about suicide?: maybe once but ide never do it. More of a moment sorta thing like ‘OMG I WANT TO DIE’.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: oooh yes
(103) If yes, what is your record?: well all night till the next night when I had to go to sleep.
(104) Gone one day without food?: oh man, I don’t think so
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: not ALL night. Maybe from like 1 – 5:00 lol. OOOPS
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: hmmm I don’t think so
(107) Slept all day? Not all day . record is maybe like 3:30 lol.
(108) Killed someone?: ahem…maybe…no.
(109) Made out with a stranger?: no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: I know. I don’t ‘think’ it.
(112) Kissed the same sex?: lol
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
(114) Been betrayed?: I think so
(115) Had a dream that came true?: hmmmm…yes?
(116) Broken the law?: hm I don’t know
(117) Met a famous person?: yes haha.
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: uh no?
(146) Stolen anything?:lol like a sweet.
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: hahah YESSSSS
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: no :( not yet
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? maybe
(150) Considered religious vocation?: a religious wha?
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: lol noo .
(152) Bungee jumped?: yeaaaah
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: oh man yeah. Im at my aunts house and I run, im being chased or something and then I JUMPED all the way down the stairs. That was oooo fucking scary. And then im sitting on achair. Just on top of a clff, and the chair tilts forward. Im not moving or anything, I know I wont actually fall of the chair, im glued on it or something, but then it just tilts and tilts until aaah…
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: uniform? Yeah it sucks.
(159) Wear hats?: ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: no not at all.
(161) Wear make-up? Nah. I have nothing to hide. Lol. I just don’t wear make up, I think that I feel prettier without it.
(163) Favorite article of eallyclothing?: eally clothing? Whats that
(164) Are you trendy?: naah . I just wear what I wanna wear .
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: I already do .
(175) Love at first sight?: nooo. Lust at first sight. Not LOVE. Love is so much deeper than that.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? If you really love somebody, whats stopping you? If that one person is EVERYTHING to you, what more do you want?
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: actually. The rainbow doesn’t end. Its kinda inspirational in its own rights…like, something so beautiful doesn’t ever finish. I mean, who really wants a pot of gold at the end? Bah. Humbug.
(181) Do you wish on stars:? yes
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: uh not really. 
(183) Do you remember your first love?: I don’t think ive been in love. I rmember my crushes though
(184) Still love him?: no
(185) Do you consider love a mistake:love ‘cant’ ever be a mistake.
(186) What do you find romantic?: something with meaning…
(187) Turn-on?: confidence. How they handle themselves around others, sensitivity. They way they talk to me.
(188) Turn-off?: ego
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no never
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating, expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: very VERY flattered.
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating him or her or going on a date: yeah I think so, well actually, it depends on the person ?
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: who cares about what society thinks
203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: I guess you have to ask them
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: how do you mean?
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: ^^
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: uh..head phones :S
(208) Are you in love?: I hope so
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: oh gawd yeah.
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot girl standing on the sidewalk?: well firstly im a girl, so mayve ide say ‘wow shes pretty, goddamn her’ and then that’s it
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: izzy. Probably
(212) You wanted to kill?: I don’t want to kill anyone
(213) That you laughed at?: Nick . (but its just SO easy)
(214) That laughed at you?: Nick (I guess that’s SO easy too)
(215) that you spoke to ?: ben :S 
(216) You went shopping with?: Emma and stevo
(217) That broke your heart?: my hearts okay :)

(218) To disappoint you?: umm, oh man, I don’t know
(219) to you asked out?:mr. Squeezy head. You know who im talking about :P
(220) To make you cry?: my MOM
(221) To brighten up your day?:niiiick
(222) That you thought about?:izzy :( I miss youuu
(225) You talked to through an IM?: Ben and craig :S
(223) You saw a movie with?: oh god I havnt seen a movie in so long.
(224) You talked to on the phone?:This mystery person who just called me, I have no idea who he is, but it was kinda fun.
(226) You saw?: my mom and brother?
(227) You lost?: I lost?
(229) You thought was completely insane?:nick. Most definatly
(230) You wanted to be?: I don’t know
(231) You told off: uh my brothers goddamn friends. They are SOOO annoying
(232) You trusted?: nick?
(233) You turned down?: mr. Squeezy head. lol
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: I am smiling :)
(235) Laughed?: like a few minutes ago…see I told you im a happy person
(236) Cried?: umm i cant remember, a coupla days ago?
(237) Bought something? I don’t remember
(238) Danced?: all the time
(239) Were sarcastic?: lol all the time. Maybe like 2 minutes ago.
(240) hugged someone?: uuh a day?
(241) Talked to an ex?: maybe two days ago?
(242) Watched your fave movie?: sooo long ago
(243) Had a nightmare?:I cant remember
(245) Talked on the phone?: a few moments ago lol
(246) Listened to the radio?:actually I don’t listen to the radio.
(247) Watched TV?: last night – I was watching : when teenagers go bad, and ‘orgasimatron’ (OMG IT WAS SO FUNNY- apparently scientists are trying to make it possible to have an orgasim by pressing a button. Lol. All there was is just ooold ocuples having sex while some scientist guy sat in the room taking notes and shit. It was like ooowweee)
(248) Went out??? yesterday
(250) Were mean?: hmm I try not to be :) im a nice person
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: so long ago
(254) Missed someone?: all the time
(255) Fought with a family
member?: last night.
(256) Fought with a friend?:not for a while
(257) Had a serious conversation?: dude. Me an nick ARE THE GODS OF SERIOUS CONVERSATIONS.
(258) Got drunk?: umm actually maybe a week ago?
(259) Had sex?:never
(260)had breakfast?: actually no, not yet
(261)Whos your best girl friends: IZZY IZZY IZZY (all the way) and HATTY HATTY HATTY
(262)Whos your best guy friends: there are a few :S
(263)Where do you hang out?: anywhere and everywhere
(264)Best looks?: hmmmmm, all my friends are SO beautiful.
(265)Best hair?: ME goddammit. Lol. I don’t know
(266)Best eyes?: I don’t know
(267)Most trusted by you: harriet
(268) tallest: harriet probably
(269)Shortest?: meee
(270)Best friends for ever and ever?: izzy and hatty
(271)Smartest?: Rosalind.
(272)Pyromanic?:
(273)Tolkienish: IZZY
(274)Style?: Whatever they/I wanna wear
(275)Funniest?: huh. We’re all retards
(276) Serious?: rosie
(277)Can keep secrets? hatty
(278) Favorite weather: sunny
(279) Favorit song: to many to list
(280)favorit color: pink and black
(281)favorite sound: dont know
(282) Astrological sign: aries/taurus

just when i was getting over yesterday

along came today

hmmmph. i was talking to colin [hollow heart]

until he LEFT me.

Now all i have is 2 turkish perverts.

life just gets better and better lol

Perhaps the whole ' go on rides till i am SICK' thing didnt really work out.

Doesnt feel as appealing as it sound.

Holy fuck, im going to be sick

lol. well. it wasnt that bad

I won a teddy :) H'es uber cute.

im giving it to nick as a valentines present.

 well, its the thought that counts.

I cant actually 'give' it it to him. Im sure he'll be just FINE'

sure you do