[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

505010 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Its all about priorities and How im going to do it.

right?

 right...

ok mally. Lets get some serious organising going on here:

7:20 - 8:20 : [German- uh oh]
8:20 - 8:25 : [search the house for my sheets]
8:25 - 8:30 : [sulk for some time because i never found it]
8:30 - 9:00 : [English - whatever you can do -bad very bad]
9:00 - 9:03 : [have a look at chemistry homework]
9:03 - 9:04 : [realise its not worth it. Meh. you can do it tomorow in Reg. Go call somebody and talk on the phone]

and you know what?

IM gonna do just ^^THAT^^

 no distractions.

none.

nada.

I promise

504997 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

oh man

this is not good

I cant find my english sheets for my homework

I have sooo much german to do.

I probably have chemistry and other shit to do.

This is NOT good people.

504981 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

*shivers*

I'm cold

504951 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Meh. Me and hatty talked more today :)
We went to henry's (the food place :P) and like....bonded (hahaha) again...FINALLY.

I missed her.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>......<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

SO cold today. My magicall socks got wet after like 3 minutes outta the house.

I was not happy.

Ok. fucking [Prince Henry's grammar school] <----

my school

Its snowing

Its cold

Its WET

Its one of the ONLY schools in the

 united states of ENGLAND

to be open

Every other partially [SANEEEEE] school is closed.

But <oh no>.

Not MY school

Becuse ^THAT^ would mean something good.

good things cant happen in otley. trust me.

ooh ooh ooh. 'chavs' :

9:00pm sky one

^^^mally, you gotta watch that^^^

504942 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Media today XD (FUN)

becky, matt and I were just listening to some music on

www.kerrangradio.com

and lol 'take a walk on the wild side' came on....Hehehehe...

lyrics (for the fisrt two verses anyways)

Holly came from Miami, FLA
Hitch-hiked her way across the USA
Plucked her eyebrows on the way
Shaved her legs and then he was a she
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
She said, Hey honey
Take a walk on the wild side

Candy came from out on the Island
In the backroom she was everybody's darlin'
But she never lost her head
Even when she was giving head
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
Said, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
And the colored girls go
doo do doo do doo do do doo

*GIGGLES*

hmm yah. So anyways. matt has tonsilitius *gaaawwwkk* He was feeeling

ill

and not the usual

 s e x u a l l y   d r i v e n

matt that i know and love. So i was like

MATT [NAKED CHINEASE WHORES ALL OVER THE FLOOR]

and he just Stared at me blankly.

I was like.

oh my fucking GOD.

HE'S SICK

somebody call a fucking

exorsist

503881 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

 pain and pleasure are seperated by perception

503867 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

well yeah i guess i should start on that list. But neighbours is going to start in maybe 5 minutes. So ill wait a while and when its finished at 2:15 ill um do my drama. I PROMISE.

503852 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

Weeeell.

my mouse isnt

working

. So i guess im going to have to talk to you my bootiful souriya.

Yum

I just had pancakes.

 lots of honey

ofcourse. undoubtedly. hmmm. My mom is Awsome she made pancakes at 9:00 pm last night.

I love her

Well, life seems really good right now:) yeah somethings are not so good, but its nothing i cant handle.

It makes me feel so

goooooood

hehehe.

Anyways i was asked to do some comedy show thing in school lol :P Its supposidly

'top secret'

(oooh sounds important) and its for comic relief.

Because i take drama they asked me and ian and emma and people to do like a show for every one in school....

bring it ON bitch

lol :D

oh man, im feeling so

happy happy happy

But theres NOBODY online to rub a little happyness off onto. :)....which kinda sucks.

Meh.

[things to do :]
+ Drama homework  [hopefully wont take that long maybe like 20 minutes]
+ English homework [umm maybe like half an hour - I NEED TO DO THIS]
+ Think about doing history sometime soon [Meh. i dont understand it. ive done most of it 
already. mr MALE teacher who 
wears UNDERWEARs/THONGs 
can just go buy a new  thong]
+ Think about doing german sometime soon [ yeah, this might take a little bit more time
I should SERIOUSLY think about doing this one. 
uh-oh]
+ Seriously think of doing my science sometime soon
[yewp, same as above]
+ Make a cake or something [no question. its gotta be done]
+ watch neighbours [thirty minutes - - -  OoOoOo]
+ Shower [DUH - i have new shower gell!]
+ Call somebody for a couple of hours :P [anybody. PLEASE] 
+ eat a bit of the cake i made earlier.[well, its gotta be done]
+ take a moment to think about how pretty everything is :) [yeah definatly 5 minutes at the 
LEAST]
+ Fall over a couple of times. [its going to happen so why not make it a point]
+ watch Home and away [thirty minutes. OMG RHYS AND SHELLY - how COULD they. 
dont they realise. I mean he's
 with beth and he expects everything to be okay.
 WtF is her problem. SHE left HIM 
because of ANGI for her stupid phobic 
BOYFRIEND, and now becuase HE 
leaves HER (i think) SHES going back to HIM? 
it WONT work you stupid WHORE]
+ walk around the house for no apparant reason [its just one of those things]
+ Think about how you've just WASTED an entire day and not done ANY homeowork. 
[its gonna happen]
+ Meh. Be happy. Go to sleep. Go to die or something XD
[yewp]

503846 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

OMG

Remember when i was saying 'if anyone wants to marry me, then send me a msg' ?

if you dont. Tough shit. I didnt expect you to...but shhh LISTEN

NOW

like a hundered days LATER

i get a msg saying somebody wants to marry me!

*breathes*

Its about fucking time hehehe im joking :)

503101 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

I realised that the best things in life don’t come with out a struggle. If you want something.

If you need something.

You gotta fight for it. Love [is one of those things.]

I was also thinking, why do we close our eyes when we sleep?When we cry? When we dream? When we imagine? When we kiss?

I guess its because

the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.

Im weird. But then again im thinking, we’re all a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up and fall into this [mutual weirdness.]

I think they call it love.

Shhh

I realised that the strongest people are not the ones who win. But the people walk away from something. The people who

fall

, yet stand up again to fight. Somehow you realise that [there shouldn’t be regrets.] It’s the mistakes you make that makes you who you are NOW, and you learn from them. Just have appreciation for the choices you have made. Because in the end, everything IS a choice. Like really, in a situation youre faced with everyday. ANY situation. If you take away all the shit, you’re left with a choice.

How will you react to it?

I

wake up in the morning, and I think to myself: its my choice, am I going to have a good day? Or a bad one? From that moment on,

that’s how it goes.....

You choose how people affect your mood. In the end, how YOU live YOUR life, is YOUR choice.

Love is not how you forget but how you forgive. Not how you listen but how you understand, now what you see but what you feel and now how you let go but how you hold on and Not how you doubt but how much faith you have.

I guess theres a time where we have to stop loving someone not because they have stopped loving you, but because we have found out that they’de be happier if we just

let go.

^^think about it^^

503080 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

oh man. I havnt written a proper diary entry in a long time.

well

I probably have. But who's complaining?

503025 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

If you are trying to fail.

But you succeed

what have you done exactly?

502934 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

It snowed again last night. but it was So beautiful.

It looked like a set to some fantasy movie :)

wow.

501502 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-02-20
Written: (7093 days ago)

Finally I am over my hangovereyness. thank the lord. I slept yesterday from: *wait for it...* two pm to 7:30pm::

WOW

i stayed up really late last night till like 5:30. it was so beautiful. it was snowing. it was late night. everyone (but me) was asleep. We were in the middle of a giant field. It was so quiet. so

peaceful

I just sat there and watched the snow fall. It was amazing. Unspoilt, just perfect. You dont get many of those moments anymore.

500700 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-02-20
Written: (7094 days ago)

I dont think people realise how much i love nick. :) but then again i dont want everybody to know, aslong as he does.

500497 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-02-19
Written: (7094 days ago)

Next in thread: 500567

I am sick

notta happy bunny

I drank way WAY too much in the first HOUR of the part. there wernt THAT many people there, just a couple. Even thought that isnt an excuse for me to go totally insane with the large supplies of alcohol. There were shitt pop songs being played, and it was like, ooh man. so yeah.

I swear to god im not drinking like that till....

the next party.
lol
but that wont be in a long time. i promise you that.

After school i went to Matts house. which was all good and smiley. He taught me how to play the GUITAR.! wooot. I FELT HAWT. lol. But yeah afterwards at arounnd 10:30 (at the pary) i was sooo screwed that i fell asleep. lol. on matts knee :P cozy. hahaha. It was really cute though (Althought [it didnt seem like it at the time]), chris put hist coat over me and it was like, eeeeee. I came home totaly FUCKED. but i dont think my mom noticed! omg lol. but yeah....so...

498783 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-17
Written: (7096 days ago)

::::FUNNY::::

me: lalalalalalala *pretending to sing - lol- cough-pretending-cough- i actually was i was just going lalalalalala*
brother: can you shut up.
me:im practising
brother: for what?!
me: my piano exams.
brother: oh yah, you relaly have to sing in your piano exam.
me:*smugly* actually. we do.
brother: *pause* hahahaha....your screwed.

XD

498757 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-17
Written: (7096 days ago)

::::about my day::::

ew i have this pervy maths teacher...Mr. Picket.

hes a wanker. He keeps winking at me and Smiling - ok so it doesnt sound that harmfull. But you should see him.

its GROSS.

I was walking past him with Ian and he's like - Hey mally, how you doin? *smiles continuasley* and when i turn away he winks at me *pukes*

and im like.

'[why are you talking to me?!?!]'? but i didnt say that>>>im just like 'um, great'. and went into my form room.

when i came out He asked if IAN was my boyfriend.

hes not

But what the fuck does he think hes doing.

so yah. I dislike him.

=)

I was SO FUCKED this morning. SO ILL. but im a Strong girly. On the way back on the bus, me and emma just sat on the ground (there are NO fucking seats left...and this is teh only bus we can actually take...GET YOUR PRIORITIES SORTED) singing disney songs.

i love not caring what other people think

just the look on their faces when they see you, and therse nothing they can do about what ever it is your doing. *beams*.

So yah. I got through math how i usually do. nodding inteligently every so often....

While secretly im just writing my name out again and again and again someplace in my book. :) <<< It makes me happy.

....and its worked so far.....

moms conversation

-[we're getting cleaning ladies in or something so shes like...]

mom: so mally, you need to clean your room, the cleaning ladies are coming...
me: So i need to clean my room?
mom: yah, the cleaning ladies are coming today
me: um, you want me to clean my room because the cleaning ladies are coming to clean my room today...
mom: JUST keep it clean for them!
me: but then, what are they going to do?
mom: CLEAN
:me: clean WHAT?!
mom: the house. we pay them to clean the HOUSE.
me: then why do i have to clean my room?
mom: because your ROOM is part of THE HOUSE.
me: MOM i know THAT.
:mom: just clean your room...
me: for WHAT?
mom: the cleaning ladies, dont make me repeate myself.
me: mom your telling me to clean my room so that the cleaning ladies can RE CLEAN MY ROOM?
mom: not reclean
me: what then just to stand in teh middle of my room thinking 'boy, this is one CLEEEAAAN room'.
mom: you have to make a good impresssion.
me: if your going to pay money for them to admire our house because its soo clean thats wasting money mom...
mom:they arnt going to ADMIRE anything..their going to CLEAN IT.
me: then WHY DO I have to clean MY ROOM. i will, but i dont understand why...
mom: just DO it *getting mad*
me: OOOOK!

*cleans room* *stares blankly*

what the fuck

498742 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-17
Written: (7096 days ago)

listening to jeff Buckley : halleluja.

amazing song

okay i got some Serious talking to do. well typing.

but omg , after the song. i cannot multitask.. apparantly girls can

i cant

uh oh.

I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

[Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah]

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

[Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah]

Maybe I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

[Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah]

There was a time you let me know
What's real and going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dark was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

[Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah]

Maybe there's a God above
And all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And it's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

[Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
]

*tear* beautiful.

Okay anyways about this thing

So theres this girl. And we have very odd sorta relationship. I think shes really confused about who she wants to hang out with ect and doesnt really stick with one crowd. which is okay i guess. She gets close to me, and then a few months later shes gone and then again and gone and again and gone . well the first time, it was kinda difficult because i am the sort of person who is quite possessive about friends and likes to keep em vclose lol ya know? But now ive kind of [accepted who she is...icant change it] i realise that, so i dont. But Recently we've been getting close...again. just talking and stuff. I dont know if i should keep a distance to Avoid me getting hurt again ([trust me, within a few months shell be

gone

])...or if i should just go for it and stop worrying all the time about what could happen?? hrrrmph.

Shes just there when i need her, you know? and its like, when i want to talk to someone about something...shes proving to be the someone.

blah. Life is too confusing. I decided im just going to ['go with it'].

uug Tommorow i was Supposed to meet my aunt ([we're really really close- i tell her

everything

]) on amazing msn msger...BUT im also kinda going to a party (james brabs).

So uh. i dont know.

It finishes at 11. [meeeh]. maybe ill call her. anyways im looking forward to tomorow.

actually wait. maybe not

i have my piano grade exams which i feel totally unprepared for. Then i have my Chemistry test which i am undoubtedly going to

Fail

.
Chemistry is one of those subjects my brain (or lack of) refuses to do. I cant argue with him ^_^.

BUT (see im trying to be optimistic here...)

Atleast i get to wake up at

9:00

and miss first two periods (german and physics- YESSSSS)

497863 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-16
Written: (7097 days ago)

becky is my bitch.

496863 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-15
Written: (7098 days ago)

*hugs souriya*

I think

souriya

needs some diary love.
Shes got a valentine....his names Steven. its [indigo boy]'s

diary

They are SO cute together.

*keeps hugging*

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