[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

511364 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-03-02
Written: (7083 days ago)

I could tell you everything thats happened in the past few days.

but

Im too lazy

something interesting will probably happen while Im doing it anyways.

blah

509540 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-03-01
Written: (7085 days ago)

blah

so much has happened in the past umm i dont even know.

But

 more about that later

nighty nighty Souriya

may the angels be watching you

508040 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-02-27
Written: (7086 days ago)

Stuart

bastard

506342 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-02-26
Written: (7088 days ago)

fuck

I gotta go.

D a d
i s
b a c k

joy

He wants me to get of the computer so i go to bed early so he can fuck my mom all night.

yet another sleepless night in my house....

He got so mad at me. He was in the toilet and He even GOT OUT of the toilet to shout at me

pathetic

506271 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7088 days ago)

Well today i slept in till

7:39

*gasp*
I am supposed to get up at like 7:32 ([possibly the LATEST hehehe i got a very strict schedual you see].

But meh.

The bus was late. It was SO COLD.

Dont you hate that? Well anyway hmmm the journy to school was fairly uneventfull. *yawn*.

very intersting conversation with james and emma about breasts. Well it kept me awake through chemistry

OMFG

i actually understand some of this shit! I amd going to be a chemist. I swear. lol :P

I think he may have possibly forgotten about my re-test

*PHEW*

506269 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7088 days ago)

I LOVE Izzy.

We have this thing were we have this basic collection of ass kicking powerballards we know

all

the words too.
We just have to walk along and suddenly burst into song. Its really strange how we just know what to sing :) I lub her. I going to robin hoods bay with her.

Things are GOOD

506012 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7088 days ago)

Next in thread: 506019

I got cramps

OW

505820 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7088 days ago)

weeeee <--- See the happyness?

piano grades

= I got [139/150]

weeeee

Lots of lub

 teh pianist

Teeheehee ^^that sounds SO good^^

505339 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7089 days ago)

beauty is the eye of the beholder...This IS the beauty. behold

505090 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

ok so i got a little bit distracted:

It is 10:19.

I have not finished my german.

I have not finished my english.

I im not even gonna think about my chemistry.

So you know.

 its all good

505010 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Its all about priorities and How im going to do it.

right?

 right...

ok mally. Lets get some serious organising going on here:

7:20 - 8:20 : [German- uh oh]
8:20 - 8:25 : [search the house for my sheets]
8:25 - 8:30 : [sulk for some time because i never found it]
8:30 - 9:00 : [English - whatever you can do -bad very bad]
9:00 - 9:03 : [have a look at chemistry homework]
9:03 - 9:04 : [realise its not worth it. Meh. you can do it tomorow in Reg. Go call somebody and talk on the phone]

and you know what?

IM gonna do just ^^THAT^^

 no distractions.

none.

nada.

I promise

504997 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

oh man

this is not good

I cant find my english sheets for my homework

I have sooo much german to do.

I probably have chemistry and other shit to do.

This is NOT good people.

504981 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

*shivers*

I'm cold

504951 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Meh. Me and hatty talked more today :)
We went to henry's (the food place :P) and like....bonded (hahaha) again...FINALLY.

I missed her.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>......<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

SO cold today. My magicall socks got wet after like 3 minutes outta the house.

I was not happy.

Ok. fucking [Prince Henry's grammar school] <----

my school

Its snowing

Its cold

Its WET

Its one of the ONLY schools in the

 united states of ENGLAND

to be open

Every other partially [SANEEEEE] school is closed.

But <oh no>.

Not MY school

Becuse ^THAT^ would mean something good.

good things cant happen in otley. trust me.

ooh ooh ooh. 'chavs' :

9:00pm sky one

^^^mally, you gotta watch that^^^

504942 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7089 days ago)

Media today XD (FUN)

becky, matt and I were just listening to some music on

www.kerrangradio.com

and lol 'take a walk on the wild side' came on....Hehehehe...

lyrics (for the fisrt two verses anyways)

Holly came from Miami, FLA
Hitch-hiked her way across the USA
Plucked her eyebrows on the way
Shaved her legs and then he was a she
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
She said, Hey honey
Take a walk on the wild side

Candy came from out on the Island
In the backroom she was everybody's darlin'
But she never lost her head
Even when she was giving head
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
Said, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
And the colored girls go
doo do doo do doo do do doo

*GIGGLES*

hmm yah. So anyways. matt has tonsilitius *gaaawwwkk* He was feeeling

ill

and not the usual

 s e x u a l l y   d r i v e n

matt that i know and love. So i was like

MATT [NAKED CHINEASE WHORES ALL OVER THE FLOOR]

and he just Stared at me blankly.

I was like.

oh my fucking GOD.

HE'S SICK

somebody call a fucking

exorsist

503881 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

 pain and pleasure are seperated by perception

503867 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

well yeah i guess i should start on that list. But neighbours is going to start in maybe 5 minutes. So ill wait a while and when its finished at 2:15 ill um do my drama. I PROMISE.

503852 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

Weeeell.

my mouse isnt

working

. So i guess im going to have to talk to you my bootiful souriya.

Yum

I just had pancakes.

 lots of honey

ofcourse. undoubtedly. hmmm. My mom is Awsome she made pancakes at 9:00 pm last night.

I love her

Well, life seems really good right now:) yeah somethings are not so good, but its nothing i cant handle.

It makes me feel so

goooooood

hehehe.

Anyways i was asked to do some comedy show thing in school lol :P Its supposidly

'top secret'

(oooh sounds important) and its for comic relief.

Because i take drama they asked me and ian and emma and people to do like a show for every one in school....

bring it ON bitch

lol :D

oh man, im feeling so

happy happy happy

But theres NOBODY online to rub a little happyness off onto. :)....which kinda sucks.

Meh.

[things to do :]
+ Drama homework  [hopefully wont take that long maybe like 20 minutes]
+ English homework [umm maybe like half an hour - I NEED TO DO THIS]
+ Think about doing history sometime soon [Meh. i dont understand it. ive done most of it 
already. mr MALE teacher who 
wears UNDERWEARs/THONGs 
can just go buy a new  thong]
+ Think about doing german sometime soon [ yeah, this might take a little bit more time
I should SERIOUSLY think about doing this one. 
uh-oh]
+ Seriously think of doing my science sometime soon
[yewp, same as above]
+ Make a cake or something [no question. its gotta be done]
+ watch neighbours [thirty minutes - - -  OoOoOo]
+ Shower [DUH - i have new shower gell!]
+ Call somebody for a couple of hours :P [anybody. PLEASE] 
+ eat a bit of the cake i made earlier.[well, its gotta be done]
+ take a moment to think about how pretty everything is :) [yeah definatly 5 minutes at the 
LEAST]
+ Fall over a couple of times. [its going to happen so why not make it a point]
+ watch Home and away [thirty minutes. OMG RHYS AND SHELLY - how COULD they. 
dont they realise. I mean he's
 with beth and he expects everything to be okay.
 WtF is her problem. SHE left HIM 
because of ANGI for her stupid phobic 
BOYFRIEND, and now becuase HE 
leaves HER (i think) SHES going back to HIM? 
it WONT work you stupid WHORE]
+ walk around the house for no apparant reason [its just one of those things]
+ Think about how you've just WASTED an entire day and not done ANY homeowork. 
[its gonna happen]
+ Meh. Be happy. Go to sleep. Go to die or something XD
[yewp]

503846 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7090 days ago)

OMG

Remember when i was saying 'if anyone wants to marry me, then send me a msg' ?

if you dont. Tough shit. I didnt expect you to...but shhh LISTEN

NOW

like a hundered days LATER

i get a msg saying somebody wants to marry me!

*breathes*

Its about fucking time hehehe im joking :)

503101 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

I realised that the best things in life don’t come with out a struggle. If you want something.

If you need something.

You gotta fight for it. Love [is one of those things.]

I was also thinking, why do we close our eyes when we sleep?When we cry? When we dream? When we imagine? When we kiss?

I guess its because

the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.

Im weird. But then again im thinking, we’re all a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up and fall into this [mutual weirdness.]

I think they call it love.

Shhh

I realised that the strongest people are not the ones who win. But the people walk away from something. The people who

fall

, yet stand up again to fight. Somehow you realise that [there shouldn’t be regrets.] It’s the mistakes you make that makes you who you are NOW, and you learn from them. Just have appreciation for the choices you have made. Because in the end, everything IS a choice. Like really, in a situation youre faced with everyday. ANY situation. If you take away all the shit, you’re left with a choice.

How will you react to it?

I

wake up in the morning, and I think to myself: its my choice, am I going to have a good day? Or a bad one? From that moment on,

that’s how it goes.....

You choose how people affect your mood. In the end, how YOU live YOUR life, is YOUR choice.

Love is not how you forget but how you forgive. Not how you listen but how you understand, now what you see but what you feel and now how you let go but how you hold on and Not how you doubt but how much faith you have.

I guess theres a time where we have to stop loving someone not because they have stopped loving you, but because we have found out that they’de be happier if we just

let go.

^^think about it^^

503080 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-22
Written: (7091 days ago)

oh man. I havnt written a proper diary entry in a long time.

well

I probably have. But who's complaining?

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