[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

516229 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-03-08
Written: (7077 days ago)

* rosies says some really uber serious story. Mally isnt really paying attention. she pauses for a response*

mally: how very erotic

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*mally writes in her history book something*

hatty: what does that say? :S
mally: hospital
hatty: uh..no it doesnt.
mally: yes it does
hatty: mally you've written hospalily
mally: NO I HAVNT *checks* oh. Maybe i have

*laugh*

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*big conversation about lips*

rosie: *to hatty* you have really thin lips...
hatty: i know :(
izzy: its not bad
hatty: hmmm...*to mally* you have HUGE LIPS
mally: OH THANKS
izzy: thats good....like VELUCTIOUS MELONS
mally: my lips look like veluctious melons
hatty and rosie: hahaha
mally: yeah i know im pouty
hatty: yeah you are lol
mally: omg dont agree with me
rosie: *to izzy* you have really pale lips
mally: OH YEAH i know, their like minge lips *Stops* SHIT. i mean. not minge lips. I mean like, they minnnngle into your skin tone.
*izzy mortified*
mally: NOOO its not like that, its just like a huge opening in your face.
*izzy mortfied*
mally: aaah fuck this *walks away*

([I wasnt saying ANYTHING right today :S])

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*mally very confused in maths- the maths teacher notices and is about to walk up to her when she wails....in a broken sorta mortified scream...*

mally: DOONT COME NEAR ME
teacher: *not knowing what to say - just stops in his tracks* thats probably the most hurtfull things a pupil has said to me -- "dont come near me"

516220 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-03-08
Written: (7077 days ago)

*Izzy writes something*
mally: what does that say *Reads* OOH haha. i thought it said scrotums...
*silence*

izzy and mally in unison: I dont like scrotums

515669 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-03-07
Written: (7078 days ago)

mally: my hands are cold
matt: want me to put them down my trousers?

*silence*

matt: That a yes?
mally: No matt.
matt: what is it?
mally: its a no
matt: I tried
mally: *scary stare* you failed
matt: I know
mally: miserably
matt: goodbye
*Silence*
matt: your loss
mally: oh gawwd matt I KNOW!
matt: *blink*

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mally: *trying to get attention* Matt im hurting
Matt im in pain.
Matt i need to talk.
Matt im in love
Matt nothings right
Matt what do i do
Matt im going to cry
Matt i need you to help me
Matt im loosing everything
*gives up*
MATT IM NAKED

*silence*

matt: and your problem is....

*tearfull silence lol*

matt: maybe you should masterbate. *Silence*

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[msn convo]

Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
matt
Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
I love you
Matt says:
n i sexually love u 2
Matt says:
altho i wanna sexually kill u as well
Matt says:
I have to goooo. bye byee
Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
I love you
Matt says:
then y dont u fuck me then
*Goes offline*

515667 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-03-07
Written: (7078 days ago)

mally: my hands are cold
matt: want me to put them down my trousers?

515641 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-03-07
Written: (7078 days ago)

uh oh spanish coursework.

meh.

Today was a GOOD day. I realised if you have everything n the right mind set with a positive attitude. most things will work out for you. Or everything will seem better anyways.

So yeah. I Woke up, went in and put some amazing power ballard on and groooooved while i got changed. lol. Well That kickstarted my day. XD.

sometimes i feel confident.
Sometimes i wake up thinking I feel Beautiful.

I want every one to see it.
I want everyone to feel it.
I want everyone to see me

Sometimes I just feel like what i think matters. What I Feel matters. And i can talk fluently and Articulatley

I love those days

Other days i just want to curl up into a ball and vanish.
other days I just want to be i n v i s a b l e . I just want to blend in. And not be heard.
other days I just think 'I dont need to talk- why cant i just feel '.
other days I feel so ugly

I hate those days

514813 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-03-06
Written: (7079 days ago)

If you're enjoying the time that you are

w a s t i n g

just means that the time isnt really

 w a s t e d

514811 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-03-06
Written: (7079 days ago)

Be….

[+]Be s t r o n g enough to at least try to make your life better…

[+]Be c o n f i d e n t enough that you won't settle for a c o m p r o m I s e just to get by.

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to??

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to l e a r n.

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons

[+]Be t h a n k f u l l when youre tired. because it means you've DONE SOMETHING.

514802 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-03-06
Written: (7079 days ago)

[+] It is easy to be negative about past mistakes and unhappiness. But it is much more better to look at ourselves and our past in the

light of experience, acceptance, and growth.

Our past is a series of lessons that advance us to higher levels of life in general. The relationships we started, stayed in, or ended taught us necessary lessons about how to learn from them .Some of us have emerged from the most p a i n f u l situations but with

strong insights

about

who we are and what we want.

Our mistakes?
we NEED them.
Our frustrations, failures, and sometimes our s t u m b l i n g attempts at growth and progress?

Necessary too.

Each step of the way, we learn something new. we grow. We went through exactly the experiences we need to, to become

who we are today

. Each step of the way, we progressed.
Is our past a mistake?

Nooooooooooo.

The only mistake we can make is mistaking that for the truth.Today,

I

need to help myself, help me let go of negative thoughts I have about my past circumstances or relationships. I can accept, with gratitude, all that has brought me to today.

and all that I am

[+]Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, pain, l o v e,

l o s t

moments of true happyness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of yourself. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to

n o w h e r e

in particular.

CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT

. If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaksyou heart</3>, forgive them. because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you o p e n your heart to.If someone loves you...

love them back unconditionally,

not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and

o p e n i n g

your heart and

eyes

to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to e x p e r i e n c e it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually

l i s t e n

Hold your head

up

because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual, that you are

beautiful

and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.You can make of your life anything you wish. C r e a t e y o u r o w n l i f e.

then go out

a n d l i v e i t

514589 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-03-06
Written: (7079 days ago)

Im still stunned about friday.

[+] Maybe like three-weeks-ago we took some Extra cirricular maths challange thingy. It wasnt a part of the syllabus or anything. It was just a puzzle challange thing. It didnt count for anything. So i didnt really Care. I did it though. anyway i got the results....

I GOT A CERTIFICATE

*hyperventilates* like...I GOT A CERTIFICATE. Things like that dont happen to people like ME. Lots of people didnt get anything but

I

did.

somethings gotta be wrong

. Wow my inteligence astounds me. Only joking people. XD

[+] i got to beat the shit out of somebody :O OMG I KNOW. He was this little boy who talked like a rapper :P. I mean

how could i possibly resist

. He was beingg and Asshole. meh. I feel better.

[+] In history we actually did 'women in medicine'. Finally something Worthwhile.

514138 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-03-05
Written: (7080 days ago)

scene:[ my moms like lecturing me while we were shopping. shes telling me about this person we know]
mom: she spent so much money all the time...always shopping for clothes and stuff, now look whats happened...
mally: what? shes pregnent? (She actually is)what the hell does THAT mean?
mom: lol

514100 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-03-05
Written: (7080 days ago)

scene:[ okay this was in registeration and i was really really tired due to lack of sleep lol. And im like mumbeling something...]
mally: uuugg..uuaah...
hatty: lol
mally: *thinks*whats the time?
hatty: ten to nine
mally: no that wasnt the question *okay <- it sounds weird but its beause like, i was thinking of a question and it didnt come out right so i asked what the time was and um...*
hatty: *doing her 'i-think-your-retarded' face* Yes it was...
mally: *softly* It wasnt in my head...
hatty: well it Was in your voice

scene:[Mally observing rosalinds earings. like DEWD they were this funny coloured and everything....]
mally: OMG is that a picture of Jesus christ in them? *moves head closer before realising*...OH ITS MY REFLECTION. hah.

514097 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-03-05
Written: (7080 days ago)

in response to the previous entry. Im going to kill the bastard

But now that that is over with :) lets continue.
So im at my aunts house. and im so bored.

BLAH

514094 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-03-05
Written: (7080 days ago)

I know this four year old girl.
shes as cute as a button
I was talking to her.
she

cried to me

.
Why?
because....
They boy she liked broke her little heart.
She invited him over.
Instead of playing with her he played on the playstation with her brother.

he called her names

and then

ignored her

Isnt it sad. Her first experience with a boy.

</3and he broke her heart </3

513673 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-03-05
Written: (7080 days ago)

Im busy, you're Stupid.

have a nice day

513170 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-03-04
Written: (7081 days ago)

GOD
Somebody just sent me a msg saying:

Heysexy
[how original].
You know
[ no i dont, but im sure your going to tell me anyway] you are HATT
[okay. Imma hat.]
im onli messn
[learn to spell you illiterate fool]
haha
[no. nobody is laughing]
im jkin
[is it really THAT difficult to write the word wholly. in its full spelling?]
its mah speshal way
[yes. very special]
of ritin hot but as in hatt
[no its not special. its just extreamly retarded. Hatt just sounds like a headwear, not anything remotley like the word 'hot'].
enyway
[its anyway]
i war doin dis tst on da computa wiv me bruvas
[for real nigga...lol 5O CENT YOU GOTTA LOVE UM. joking guys]
. and i got 89% Fuck monsta and 11% lova.
[100% asshole?].
what dya fink
[im just 'finking' about how to tell you how much of an asswipe you really are].
so ya your propa hatt and ide fuck u eny day
[trust me that wont be any time soon if i have anything to do with it].
How bout a lil cyba
[how about NO you crazy turkish bastard]
im prety gud at it.
[I'll bet you are]
*kiss your nec softly and slips fingars in your lil panties*
[*escapes your perverted hands, kicks you in the balls 5 times, and knocks you unconsciece with a slegehammer*]

ya want more?
[no]
jst mssg me bck pussy
[no]
you is one hatt pussy
[did he just call me a hatt pussy? yes. thought so. 'you is...' lmfao]
dun fink a guy like me wud be able to be anyfing serious wiv ya. i just wnt fun alrigt? how about rite now pussy >
[how about never?]
ide luv somat more to happen but i dun fink it will
[no your right. it wont]
Im into da devil and shit like dat, but ya seem gofick so its alight
[OOOH LOOK AT ME IM SO COOL. I SPELL GOTHIC LIKE GOFIC. LETS GO SLIT OUR WRISTS. OMG HE WORSHIPS THE DEVIL. HOW HATT]
nd ude b propa turnd on when i break dance
[yes because SATAN break dances- hatt]
red and blck ar my fave colourss
[whose asking?]
and u luk good in em
[how satanic]
rock on
[fuck off]
im propa horny now. you need to service me girl
[I need to stab you a couple of times]
write back as soon as pos pussy
[as soon as poss pussy>- POSS PUSSY]
or i mite jus cum now
[okay great. goodbye]
fuck me
[no]

HELP

513064 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-03-04
Written: (7081 days ago)

mally: *Super super concentrating*

*Friend keeps on and on and on coughing CONSTANTLY*

mally: *looks up sternly lol*
friend: im *cough* dying *Cough.....*
mally: Well could you please die silently

513045 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-03-04
Written: (7081 days ago)

omg.

its friday.
I had SUCH the amazingest day.

ever

512590 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-03-04
Written: (7082 days ago)

You think you look strong because you are

holding on

But

Strength lies in

letting go...

512392 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-03-03
Written: (7082 days ago)

I showed my mom my underwear. She didnt actually freak out as much as i expected ([i buy underwear everytime i go out] I think that annoys her. possibly)

ALLS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR

Especially if the underwears hawt

which it IS

512386 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-03-03
Written: (7082 days ago)

history presentation was a catastrophy

Its only History.

OoO
(---)
> . <

XD.

512380 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-03-03
Written: (7082 days ago)

today was Cold.

*shivers*

I've come to Realise that The later i sleep the better i feel in the mornings. And the earlier i sleep, the worse i feel in the mornings.

Thata my fucked up

body clock

for you :)

blah.

oh well.

On the bus. Usually i cant stand the loooong boringness. But latley ive really really enjoyed it. okay it sounds weird. But like, it gives me time to think and, i dont know - I like thinking :).

HAHAHAHAHA Drama was SO funny. Oh my i LOVE tom! haha. He just makes me laugh so much. And Ryan was just about to perform (well we are in a drama lesson Afterall) and He was like doing blowjob faces and things with his tongue to me: OKAY PEOPLE HE WAS DOING IT AS A JOKE.

We are FRIENDS. I just have lots of SeX-oBsEsSeD -bUt- sTiLl- vIrGiN friends.

so yeah

I was laughing so much.And then the rest of the class goes into Silence and go 'ewwwwwwww'
Hah.

He was sitting directly opposite to my wonderfull friend matt and omg it was funny.

FINE DONT EVEN PRETEND TO FIND IT AMUSING

Maybe you just to be there- sorta thing.

blah.

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