[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
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Yes she has a good body
I hate her for it
Aerobics was so painfully boring today.
UGGGG.
I didnt do my Science homework but i got away with it because mr. brown loves me/ ([really he does :S]) lol.
I am SO behind in my Media coursework so you know, that may possibly be something to put on the [to do...list].
just a suggestion OFCOURSE
tommorow is Worse *Shudders*.
chemistry English Maths History
life is a bitch
really....
Hey I havnt been philo (
philosphical) in some time...any one notice?. Hehehehe.
blah. Im too
pooped
to use my brain right now.mally: *realises she has the upper hand on something BIG* MWHAHA NO ONE CAN DEFEATE ME....NOT EVEN YOU.
friend: Actually...*pr
mally: shit
rosie: *Says something really really funny*
mally: HAHAHAHA i havnt laughed that hard since i was a little boy
*silence*
rosie: um
mally: yeah that was a real conversation killer eh?
omg
. Matt likesrosie(vag)
awwww
...rosie.....h
omg...this is so awqard with matt
Rosie to mally: You know, you're the reason why people commit suicide. (I need a Hero...) says:
yuo spetl tit rong
Rosie to mally: You know, you're the reason why people commit suicide. (I need a Hero...) says:
its
Rosie to mally: You know, you're the reason why people commit suicide. (I need a Hero...) says:
awkward
*mally realises she spelt every word but awkward in the sentance wrong* lol
I need a hero
Im holding out for a hero till the end of the night...
mally: OMG YOU LIED TO HER
friend: no not lying...
mally: what the hell do you call it?!
friend: umm
mally: well?
friend: it was only a little white lie
mally: A LITTLE WHITE LIE?! ITS MORE LIKE A FUCKING HUGE BLACK AND GREASY HAIRY ONE.
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rosie: have you got the memory of a rock?
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mally: *trying to seem inteligent by explaing this really long winded theory about um, fire doors*
rosie: you know, you are the reason why people commit suicide
Today was odd.
It was strange not talking to matt. Kinda like, differnt lol. I had to Avoid him which i know isnt the best way....but still.
It got a little Awkward at the end because we were walking down the hall together and he's like.
"
hi wall, how are you today?"
I played along lol so it wasnt that bad.
science teacher: *Stares at me blankly for like 5 minutres* Is there a reason you find this amusing?
mally: lol no, i just dont appreciate being constantly stared at for 5 minutes.
*silence*
teacher:: get on with your work now
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history teacher: So one day i was texting my friends
mally: *whispers* he has FRIENDS?!?!?!?
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brother: *Getting really really mad*
mally: BLAH. go take a shit
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guy in school being an asshole: you are full of so much crap
mally: well all YOU are is cum, vagina juice and a broken condom.....
*Silence*
mally: suck it UP buttercup. go take a shit (i LOVE that one - you get the best responses)
some dramatic shit i say
If this is so wrong why does it feel so right?
How can you ask me what's wrong when nothing's right
We need to talk.
Got aerobics tomorow. I love it but I am
so
not in the mood. I just need to die or sleep somewhere. Besides...our pe teacher is a MAN. i CANNOT work under these conditions. lol.weeeell
~HATTY CALLED ME~
we have THE BEST
totally comfertable silences...EVER
I cant really describe it.
Like...We talk... ovbiously. Then lapse into a state of Thought and Silence. BUT it is
so comfertable
we dont feel theneed to talkuntil ofcourse one of us actually needs to . but you know...
hmmm what else.
spanish was bearable today
I dont know why. I dont think i Ever will.
lunch with rosie today.
I call her
vag
([long story. you pronouce it VAJ KENIY (but its spelt vag knei) and it stands for Vagina knife. Really really long story. Maybe ill tell you some day])
Any way she kinda <i>hates it. I dont exactly blame her. How would
you
like to be calledVAGINA
in public.touche
Well. I called her that for the past 2/3? years? . so shes used to it lol.
mally: rosie?
*Silence*
mally: Rose??
*Silence*
mally: Rosalind?
*Silence*
mally: Kirkham??
*Silence*
mally: ROSALIND KIRKHAM?
*Silence*
mally: VAGINA?
*TURNS around real fast*
VAG: YEAH?
I rest my case
I ate pizza and these shexay twizzler thingies.
I think im gonna die of vinegar
OVERDOSE
I LOVE IT
mwhaha. and then YOU'LL say:
'
hey whatever happened to that little girl who ate all the vinegar
'I will evolve into some magical fairytale that you warn your children of.....
FUCK
Im
sleep deprived
Im turning:
dellusional hysterical insaneeee
and I love it baby
me --------------
Yes she has a good body
I hate her for it
SO HAWT
Matt = I love him but sometimes hes an asshole.
Well the thing about matt and I is that we are Really really close. He Acts seriously gay or camp lol. And you know, I feel really secure about things beacuse of that. I know that nothing will happen between us And thats definatly a GOOD Feeling. He's totally
"sex-obsessed-but-still-virgin"
guy.I dont know...I just love him
But anyways. He likes this 'girl' whose name I STILL DONT KNOW. But I Accept that. Sometimes people dont want to be like, you know [public about their feelings] - I understand that. but you know how they PURPOSLY and dilliberatly talk about it, almost as if they Want us to ask them about it? Yeah...he does that.
I say to him:
"ITS OKAY MATT, if you dont want to tell me - dont..And if you do, then DO IT ALREADY<"
Anyways. People (bastards) think its
ME
Its like COME ON PEOPLE. Just because we are close it doesn’t mean anything. infact it means just that:
WE ARE FRIENDS
Okay, im rambeling on….
that’s not even the issue here
oh well you needed some background info anyways. Lol.
So yeah. This girl. Today he just said to me:
well something along the lines of: We shouldn’t be this close for sometime……….
I was like ‘okay matt‘.
THEN he said :
“Its not you, its just that, im planning on asking this girl out this week and We Are pretty close, so I don’t want to put her off By making her think that I would go off with anybody. including you. Just for sometime
WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY?
I just said okay. I guess it is okay. I just don’t understand why he cares what other people think so much.
FUCK YOU
izzy: Mally your boobs are talking to me. Please controll them
well what you are about to read was NOT made by me. its just dedicated for..uh...actu
Take my hand
Off we go
To the room
Shut the door
Hit the lights
Grab me close
Raise me up
Kiss me slow
Lips tongues touch
In a dance
I’m turned on
By your glance
Hands slide up
To my neck
In my hair
Pull me back
Trail your lips
Down the path
One plus one
Do the math
One kiss here
One lick there
Two hard nipples
Equals wet underwear
Lick me slow
Suck you deep
Make me cum
Till I’m asleep
Lose your pants
Take my shirt
Nipples so hard
That they hurt
Slide my panties
With your teeth
Not just wet
But soft heat
Take your dick
In my hands
Better get ready
I’ve got plans
Raise me up
Over your face
Put your tongue
In that place
Spread me open
Part my lips
While I kiss
On your hips
Take you in
I’m open wide
You taste me
I’m so high
Suck your tip
Flick my clit
This sixty nine
Is so exquisite
Take you deeper
Make me moan
Feel my lips
At your bone
Tongue me softly
Feel my flow
Now how fast
Can I go
Back and forth
Up and down
Swirl your tongue
Round and round
Feel you all
In my depth
Can’t seem to
Catch my breath
Stroke your shaft
Hit my spot
Make you harder
Make me hot
While you search
Seek to find
The pleasure in
This tongue grind
I’m taking you
All the way
Through the night
Into the day
I’m getting close
To the end
But I’m getting
My second wind
Suck you smooth
Jack you tight
All that cum
Is mine tonight
You’re getting tense
Back is arched
Throat is dry
Now I’m parched
I can’t wait
For another minute
Cum for me
Give me it
That’s it, baby
Give to me
Let it go
Set it free
Oh my God
What’ve you done?
Baby now I’m
About to cum
Ooh don’t stop
NO NOT EVER…
I can’t believe
We’ve cum together
* rosies says some really uber serious story. Mally isnt really paying attention. she pauses for a response*
mally: how very erotic
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*mally writes in her history book something*
hatty: what does that say? :S
mally: hospital
hatty: uh..no it doesnt.
mally: yes it does
hatty: mally you've written hospalily
mally: NO I HAVNT *checks* oh. Maybe i have
*laugh*
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*big conversation about lips*
rosie: *to hatty* you have really thin lips...
hatty: i know :(
izzy: its not bad
hatty: hmmm...*to mally* you have HUGE LIPS
mally: OH THANKS
izzy: thats good....like VELUCTIOUS MELONS
mally: my lips look like veluctious melons
hatty and rosie: hahaha
mally: yeah i know im pouty
hatty: yeah you are lol
mally: omg dont agree with me
rosie: *to izzy* you have really pale lips
mally: OH YEAH i know, their like minge lips *Stops* SHIT. i mean. not minge lips. I mean like, they minnnngle into your skin tone.
*izzy mortified*
mally: NOOO its not like that, its just like a huge opening in your face.
*izzy mortfied*
mally: aaah fuck this *walks away*
([I wasnt saying ANYTHING right today :S])
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*mally very confused in maths- the maths teacher notices and is about to walk up to her when she wails....in a broken sorta mortified scream...*
mally: DOONT COME NEAR ME
teacher: *not knowing what to say - just stops in his tracks* thats probably the most hurtfull things a pupil has said to me -- "dont come near me"
*Izzy writes something*
mally: what does that say *Reads* OOH haha. i thought it said scrotums...
*silence*
izzy and mally in unison: I dont like scrotums
mally: my hands are cold
matt: want me to put them down my trousers?
*silence*
matt: That a yes?
mally: No matt.
matt: what is it?
mally: its a no
matt: I tried
mally: *scary stare* you failed
matt: I know
mally: miserably
matt: goodbye
*Silence*
matt: your loss
mally: oh gawwd matt I KNOW!
matt: *blink*
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mally: *trying to get attention* Matt im hurting
Matt im in pain.
Matt i need to talk.
Matt im in love
Matt nothings right
Matt what do i do
Matt im going to cry
Matt i need you to help me
Matt im loosing everything
*gives up*
MATT IM NAKED
*silence*
matt: and your problem is....
*tearfull silence lol*
matt: maybe you should masterbate. *Silence*
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[msn convo]Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
matt
Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
I love you
Matt says:
n i sexually love u 2
Matt says:
altho i wanna sexually kill u as well
Matt says:
I have to goooo. bye byee
Nick: I LOVE YOU SHUT UP says:
I love you
Matt says:
then y dont u fuck me then
*Goes offline*
mally: my hands are cold
matt: want me to put them down my trousers?
uh oh spanish coursework.
meh.
Today was a GOOD day. I realised if you have everything n the right mind set with a positive attitude. most things will work out for you. Or everything will seem better anyways.
So yeah. I Woke up, went in and put some amazing power ballard on and groooooved while i got changed. lol. Well That kickstarted my day. XD.
sometimes i feel confident.
Sometimes i wake up thinking I feel Beautiful.
I want every one to see it. I want everyone to feel it. I want everyone to see me
Sometimes I just feel like what i think matters. What I Feel matters. And i can talk fluently and Articulatley
I love those days
Other days i just want to curl up into a ball and vanish.
other days I just want to be i n v i s a b l e . I just want to blend in. And not be heard.
other days I just think 'I dont need to talk- why cant i just feel '.
other days I feel so ugly
I hate those days
If you're enjoying the time that you are
w a s t i n g
just means that the time isnt really
w a s t e d