*_*Hehe piano went pretty well actually *_*

*_*I played one of my peices really well... *_*

*_* my piano teacher asked me to play at a concert this may*_*

*_* oh my gosh*_*

*_*I am a pianist *_*

*_*Love me *_*

*_* So much*_*

*_* Its cold in this house.*_*

*_* Where is the goddamned heating*_*

*_* This is england you know.*_*

*_* ugg. whats going on with this world. Anyway. Vag called.*_*

*_* Phil picked me up today. He sorta dislocated my ribs. ouch*_*

*_* Matt is so funny. he makes me giggle.*_*

*_* Religious education was so kewl. I poisoned Ians eyes with ink from his fountain pen.*_*

*_*He swore he would NEVER give me a fountain pen again. *_*

*_*Haha. we'll see about that *_*

*_*Exams in two weeks. uh oh speggetio.*_*

*_*How come i dont know these things ever? *_*

*_* EVER?*_*

Spoke to David today. After a long time.
I simply said to him.

"David I am not going to continue i g n o r i n g you or disliking you, because quite frankly its a waste of my time and my energy. However, I what you did was low, Infact it was past low, but now its in the past. I dont know what you must have possibly got out of it. If it made you feel more important, involved or just good about yourself. It definatly didnt make me feel any of those things. But you know what?I hope that you felt like it was worth it."

He just said : "Im sorry Mally, but you cant go on like this.."

To which I replied.

["Trust me. I can. But I wont because you're right, its not worth it. Especially You. I can forgive you, but i cant forget it. Bye]

*And then i walked away*

I was so proud of myself. I didnt totally loose it. I didnt shout or [s. c . r . e. a. m]. I said eactly what i needed to say, and then left it.


Its just that I realised that theres no use constantly fighting. For what? Anyway? What do I really get out of making ascene? Sure, some attention maybe, and maybe i can realease some anger, but im just releasing it into another form. If i just let it go, accept it, and get on with my life, all the hurt or anger, or whatever i do, or did feel in me, can totally go. Instead of just being transfered or kept inside me.

I dont need attention.

I dont need to make a scene.

Although he pisses the Shit out of me. He was right. What is screaming about it really gonna do anyway? Nothing.

My point exactly

I hope things are okay

[In Religious education today, we were talking about prejudice against gays....because we do that sometimes O_O]

Teacher: Generally Gay men are more prejudiced against that gay women....

me: *super loud* YAH BUT GAY WOMEN ARE HAWT.

*everyone stares at me*

me: Im not a lesbian. Honestly.


[Kay this one we're talking about transvestites...I love R.E]

Teacher: So just imagine if one of your male teachers came to school in a dress...
me: Like you sir?
Teacher: *laughs a little* no not like me, i cant really imagine myself in a dress..
me: *loud* oooh I CAN

*silence*

Ian:Mally please stop imagining him inna dress
me: *laughs* hahaha but i cant help it

Yah sure my opinions may have changed.

But not the fact that I am right.

annoying person: malllly why are you being so anti-social
me: i am not antisocial. I just hate you.


me: *mummebling*

[someone tries talking to me]

me:. Hello. Conversation going on here. dont talk to me when im trying to talk to myself



.....................................

If it doesnt fit, force it, if it breaks.

it needed replacing anyways

emailing is fun.

I woke up just now.

Its 14:02

homework to do before tuesday(that i can think of right now:

If you wish, you may disguise your hAndwRitiNg.

um..question...

Why is elftown looking very fucked today?

money cannot buy happiness

It can however rent it

time is a great teacher

unfortunatley it sometimes kills its pupils

dont give up

SO MUCH FUN LAST NIGHT

mally: MATT. YOU CAME (he wasnt going to come but he was here so i was happeh)
matt: yah i know, no need to rub it in
phil: no matt, if you rub it in, you'll NEVER get the stain off

izzy: mally. are you a sperm whale?


omg guys it was so much fun.

We watched ten minutes of porn.

SO not worth it

SO worth it

So worth it

now that was just Funny

SO FUNNY

Eww.

Its 10:59.am.

I just woke up. People coming over in um...half an hour.


i cant be bothered moving.

Ugggh.

Now here's a song everybody knows

I will survive

 the bohemian Rhapsody

 people I need to talk to:

[+]Phil

[+]Izzy

[+]Vag

[+]Hatty

[+]Matt


[+]Chris (ask chris to talk to scott. blah)

[+]Scott 

[+]Nick ([just because....no particular reason. I love him? yewp. thats good enough
for me skippy. hehehe])

hold on

dont be scared

Feeling kinda italic today.

Went to bed at 4:30 last night.

woke up one an a half hours ago.

1:15 pm.

I feel proud.

its been a productive day.

I think so.

anyway.

had pancakes for breakfast. Harriet called me so we talked for some time....

Forgot to call vag back last night :O *uh oh*

But i just cant be bothered lol.

ew james asked me to sleep over.

I said:

no.


I dont think so buddy.

Friends coming over tomorow and sleeping!

yay. I really need to tell them details though.

mabe like 50 percent of them know that its at my place tomorow.

the others have no fucking clue.

I should really think about telling them.

soonish.


<i>...after this song...<


Ew. james is consistantly asking me what im doing every day of the week.

I need more excuses.

ew. help. ew.


YES PHIL IS ONLINE. okay. need to talk to him about tomorow.

hmm okay.

Im so not good at planning shit.

</i> okay enough italicness.

you know I love you really.

But I'm sorry....

Im moving on...

"oh yes im GREAT. im over the bloody moon"

life is beautiful

Ok. Just relax. Be calm.

Think of happy thoughts.

All that chocolate

that big

Honestly.

tasteless celery stick. 
Hmmm healthy.

Yep, dream confirmed,

e a t  h i m 

Or did I?

happy thought syndrome? 

e  c s t a s y

‘Think happy thoughts to fly’ 

It really can. 

Please may I have a one way ticket to Nicholas please?

I tripped over the cordless phone

Dont ask me why or how. I just did okay?