[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
a dedication for my nerd:
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow
[Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so]
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
[Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry]
Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you
Our song :) Coldplay tickles my toes.
Ian's just weird though.
But still O so kewl.
Doing english coursework. ugh. Why cant i just finish it and just get it over with already? Why do i have to keep putting it off for anyother time. mmm. Im starting to frustrate myself here. ugh.
Nicholas you are the one I [<3 love <3]. If your happy and you know it ...... Please get the fuck out of my house
omfg. I just watched the stupidest show. ["When animals attack...."].
You know what?. its not [when animals attack....] its more like [whens stupid people get bitten].
This guy got eaten by a fox.
hahaha.
well not totally. just a little.
i dont know if that makes it grosser or better?
Friend: *explains herself for the 100th time*
Me: ok ok ok ok ok ok i understand. wait what?
friend: MALLY
[A wise man once said,"I don't know go ask a woman" ]
PLEASE dont ask me
he who gossips TO you, gossips ABOUT you
mally: *freaks out in the underwear shop*
Vag: honestly. its like a kid in a candy store. *silence* Wait, its like me in a candy store.
mally you and your FEWD!
I was just thinking actually. People are just in such a rush to [fall in love...]
I dont understand. I know its an a m a z i n g feeling to know that you love somebody who actually loves you back.
Trust me, that feeling is worth the wait.
It Seems to me that some people are settling for somebody that they can live with when really, you should be waiting for the one you Cant live without.
Sounds dramatic I know.
I wasnt even lewking for a relationship when I met nicholas. But things progressed and i believe that philosophy totally. Because feelings for somebody has to grow into something much s t ro n g e r. Things arnt just placed in front of you.
Maybe for some they are. Not for Me though.
but i wouldnt have it any other way
Its worth it
Oh and also, people argue. Its natural. Its humane.
" Just because two people argue it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. Just because two people don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. "
As quoted from me. lol im so stupid.
I also read somewhere that it takes both Rain and sunshine to make a
rainbow.
Going shopping with mother.
Again.
But This time for actual clothing.
yesssss.
I hope she's feeling Expensive. Because i sure as hell am.
hehehhee
just listening to.....
[Killing in the name]
peace out sistah
pss: ew i died my hair purple. its hardly even showing up. the red/purple i had in my hair before was even brighter. motherfucker. not impressed
http://www.freewebs.com/bens troozies/
Mah dearest friend Ben along with his Stunning [troozies].
its some funny shit people
This is what you get when you get three guys, a pair of trousers, an internet connection and Waaaayyy too much time on their hands.
a rather dangerous combination actually
Written about Friday 2005-04-22
Written: (7031 days ago)
I guess its my Birthday today.
Happy birthday to me
matts poem to me
Happy birthday to you
your name is mally , not poo
although it tastes quite nasty
Ide still like to eat you
I <3 him
A note From TEH VAG
-+- i am doin anythin...hehe
hehe
n dave...dnt read this everyday
really sad u no
GET A LIFE...U NO
Vag: *sits on mallys ladder she keeps in her room* this is really uncomfertable. how do you sit on this for a living?
Vag: is nick online?
Me: no hes 'away'
Vag: DOESNT HE HAVE A LIFE
Me: your saying that because hes NOT on msn he DOESNT have a life?
vag: YES :)
[A Note To Teh Nicholas from vag]
heya apple boy.....mally so has to marry you...you are my access to lucky charms, candy corn, jolly ranchers, gatorade and erm....what else....oooooo
MALLYBU/MALLYB
LADY is now speaking:
i appologise for her um. uniqueness.
explanation for the clit thing
me i just clicked my clit
no people i didnt really
*Mally telling vag who was online on her contact list*
Me: this guy called tom, this girl called kirsty, this guy called Ian, This guy called Brad, this guy called Cal, this girl called nikita, this guy called uh girl.
Ian Is TEH SHITZ muthafucka.
And Im a
motherfucking gangsta
:::Ian's Just Jealous Cos I Got Nice Legs:::
Fifteen years ago yesterday two days tomorow today one day tomorow I was born
Fifteen years ago yesterday two days tomorow today one day tomorow I was born
fifteen years ago two days tomorow I was born
Anybody?
Yes please
Nick: Its because i dont feel I have to be "cool" around you.
Me: Trust me. your not.
Written about Tuesday 2005-04-19
Written: (7034 days ago)
Chemistry: I dont want to talk about it.
But Ian thanks for all the help. I still dont understand Balancing equations. Yeah i dont care if you find it easy. I dont.
please fuck off and die
[Not you Ian. I <3 you. Just everybody else please. Thanks].
And on the topic of thank yous and call outs to people :
[+] Ben I appologise for um, saying, well I believe my exact words were "Please Die". Im really sorry. I dont want you to die. I just. I was just pissed off. You can continue talking to me on msn if you want. No more death threats. Promise.
[+] Matt PLEASE stop asking my mother for her phone number its just wrong. And no i didnt tell you that you could "touch her" and no you cant educate my brother on the joys of puberty and masterbation.
[+] Izzy I DEW love you. Even though our conversation was sorta like :
Izzy: Mally! I love you
Me: *Silence* I hate you.
You know I love you. I just dont Love chemistry thats all.
[+] Nicholas. Thanks for the anal.
[+] Joe, im still coming over to play Halo. I dont care if your afraid.
[+] Joe ([yewp and again]) its not funny writing "[Mally loves cock]" Places I cant reach. One day Ill grow and really hurt you. Actually Ill hurt you now and just grow later.
[+] David you may possibly be the most annoying motherfucker on this planet but you know I <3 you. kinda. sorta. Thanks for getting me out of that study room though.
Very brave of you. But next time Ian's tryiing to teach me, please just die, temporairly or something.
[+]Izzy Im coming to your house tomorow. I hope you read this before Tomorrow. If not, oops, and doesnt matter, Im Still coming over. If you do, imma be spontainious and come over to your house tomorow. this conversation never happened.
[+] Mark I know your new and everything. But that is no excuse. Smugly raising your eyebrows and saying "alright" to me doesnt make us friends Yet. I know you think Im weird but i really dont care. Your not too great either but im not complaining. btw. nice hair.
[+] Bell Me miss you.
[+] Phil My reflexes Are improving. Sooner or later you'll never be able to attack me during break, lunch and other gaps that we may cross eachother. Oh and thanks for the breif sex just before my spanish orals. Too bad you came too soon. I mean, too bad you left too soon. Phil. I hate you.
Phil: *following mally* mally turn around
me: NO I DONT LIKE IT FROM BEHIND.
phil: ooh thats not waht you said last night *picks up*
me: shit.
[+] MATT. Muffy muffy muffy. I know you are stressed but thats no excuse for totally screaming at me today. And no breast luck either. hah. people saw you.
Brother: Your so gay you idiot ([vicious I know])
Me: Uh whats wrong with gay people? are you homaphobic?
Brother: no its just gross . like gay men *Shudders*
Me: so why are you calling me gay like its an insult. homopobe
Brother: what does that mean
Me: people who are anti gays
Brother: oh I thought it ment people who were afraid of gays.
me: lmao
Brother: it said phobic on it. you gay idiot.
Matt: mally, would you ever fuck a fat person?
Me: lol hmm i dont think so :P unless i was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH THEM. AND HEAVILY SEDATED.
Kay im bored. I think if i revise anymore my brain will implode with nothing ness. Its a weird feeling.
I know so little that i cant possibly know more than all that i do know already.
Kay this ones gonna be a long one. lets get prepared.
Firstly, last night , at around 3 O'clock i decided this Really wasnt working. I packed my bag (Well just pencil pen ruler and shit) and went into my beautifull bed.
The floor of my room was not visable.
usually im the type who must get up and sort it out. But it was late. I WAS STRESSED (YES) and I just thought "fuck it" and got into bed. With my giant tigger which know your all jealous off.
[I huggled him ever so tightly]
I was like praying, just saying that i know i didnt prepare for this really well but i PROMISE that i will next time and like, yeah im a Stupid girl and um. yeah. that sorta lordy shit.
It was a last resort lol.
I must do well on these exams.
Anyway, sooner or later i guess Gawd gave me a sedative.
I Fell asleep.
Woke up to the wonderfull noise of the birds chirping in the trees.
I felt like i could have shot them. .
So the day was starting of great.
XD I wore my super furry socks which i thought would Trap heat since its a cold day.
Little did Mally know that it would also trap water.
So fucking aragh.
I wore my boots and my furry socks and my anklets and toe rings and shit ([im just like that i cant help it. i like prettty feet]). And Within the first 5 minutes of leaving my house my socks were soaked through. The water was even trapped in the super furryness of them
.
super pissed off
When i got outside my mom was like "[OMG ITS RAINING!!!!!]"
i JUST sorta stared at her blankly and im like, mom when does it not rain in england? Seriously?
Enyway. Huge MONSTROSITY of a puddle on the way to the bus stop. In which a car simply HAD to drive through, full speed. Yess.
[Who ever said Life is beautiful deserves to be shot too].
I couldnt even think about revising on the bus even though i knew it was sorta what i did have to do. I didnt know. I just listened to Rage and The pixies the whole way.
okay:: I put NEW batteries in my cd player in the morning.
And now apparantly its run out.
Wehre the Fuck is the logic.
Fucking batteries.
Anyway. At school David attempted to help me with German. blah. didnt work though. However the exam wasnt that hard. some questions i might have screwed a little but i mean come on, its german. no body really cares.
So i was happeh about that.
The exam finished slightly earlier than break so Izzy and I went to the study room and listened to "November Rain" and "Gangsters Paradise". Which i think was super kewl of us. Perhaps not the smartes thing. but its Me and izzy ew're talking about. But dont worry. Its all gewd
By break Izzy insisted with her powerfull powers of persuasion and violence for me to get a cookie from the cafeteria. Although the strong smell of amonia radiating from the freshly died hair was extreamly intoxicating and hard to resist. I did resist.
At break i just spent it with Mafphew. He was seriously freaking out. We went through some Formulas. tried to be kewl and stuff. But he just hugged me and was like MALLLLLLLLLLLL
I
CANT
DO
THIS
i had to be strong for him ofcourse.
Anyway. Physics was GEWD. We had an hour an a half starting at like 11:14. And i finished at like ten to twelve so i had to just Sit there wasting so much time of my life for that.
Motherfucker.
Cos nothing lasts for ever
And we both know hearts can change
and its hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
Oh take me back to the stars