[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
*bertie and mally sccurrypast some shop windows*
*mally stops and looks in the mirror*
bertie: LMFAO MALLY
hey we were high. and im just vain
*bertie and mally sccurrypast some shop windows*
*mally stops and looks in the mirror*
bertie: LMFAO MALLY
Smoked a cigarette: yes miss
Smoked a cigar: Once. ugh and never again.
Snorted coke: um no
SmokedWeed: fuck yes!
Been high: oh yessss
Said "I hope you die" to someone: haha yeah
Tried to kill someone: ...mmmm....may
Tried to kill yourself: naw
Lied to your parents: *blink* would I? hehe I try not to lie to anybody ...
Given someone a bruise: haha yewp
Ditched someone: naw
Freak danced: sure
Cut yourself: Noy intentionally!
Skipped school: Noooo, I was "ill":P
Hung up on someone: all the fucking time
Threw up at school: nope
Done someone else's make-up: yep, many a times!
Kissed someone of the same sex: haha yessss
Had a burping contest: ofcourse
Snuck out: mmmm ive gone places im not supposed to be going at a particular time...but my parents just thought i was someplace else. im not sure if that counts. I havnt ever snuck OUT TEH HOUSE.
Been to a school dance: yes
Thought your teacher was hot: ugh NO. all our "teachers" are like 2384 years old man
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
*Do you live in the moment?: depends on the moment XD mushahaha. no i dew:)
*Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yeah ide say so. unless they were evil.
*Do you have any secrets?: Im sure i dew
*Do you hate yourself?: naw
*Do you like your handwriting?: when im trying to be neat yeah i dew
*Do you have any bad habits?: mmmm yeah. I like "mmmm" tomyself alot. my friends say that they find it uncomfertable when i make noises like that in public. lmfao
*What is the compliment you get most from people?: ummm i iunno
*If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called?: teh story of my life?
*What's your biggest fear?: Being alone. f.i.s.h. (both at the same time . o. m. g. CONVULSION!)
*Can you sing: lol. fuck no
*Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:Probably when i was younger
*Are you a loner?: naw but i like being alone sometimes :)
*If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: oh yeah!
Are you a daredevil?: yup. ill dew most things once and if i like it TWICE! mushahahaha
*Are you passive or aggressive?: Bit of both. naw. aggressive lol.
*Have you got a question?: many
*What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Apparently according to some person my strength is my open mindedness and my personality and my weakness is that I'm too hard on myself. :S whatever that means
*If you could change one thing about yourself? mmm im okay with myself. Maybe my nose and my mmm legs or my stomach and HEY STOP IT. IM FEELING SECURE RIGHT NOW. I DONT NEED THIS.......
*There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Love...:D with love beauty and creativity come alone. isnt that right nicholas XD
*How do you vent?: A number of ways
*Do you think you are emotionally strong?:Ide say so, unless somebody i love is hurting badly.
*Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: one or two but i dont live in regrets. ive moved on.
*Do you think life has been good so far?: amazing
*What is a good feature of your body?: mmm ask somebody else
*And least? ummm quite a number of things.
*Do you think you are good looking?: I dont really find myself attractive but sometimes i feel pretty :D
*Are you confident?: when i want to be
*Do people know how you feel?: for the most part
*Are you perceived wrongly?: Im sure I am but its about how i perceive myself not what other people think. :D
DO YOU...
*Smoke?: on special occasions lol....(Weed :D - cigerettes = no no)
*Do drugs?: mmm sometimes
*Read the newspaper?: hehe i try
*Talk to strangers who IM you?: yeah i dew....
*Sleep with stuffed animals?: haha my giant tigger
*Take walks in the rain?: ofcourse I dew
*Talk to people even though you hate them?: yeah i dew. but if they piss me off im like "die" goodbye.
*Drive?:not yet
*Like to drive fast?:sureeeee
CLOTHES and other fashion
*What are you normally wearing to school/work?: fucking uniform
*Wear hats?: OFCOURSE
*Judge other people by their clothing?: newp....
*Wear make-up? : just eyeliner sometimes...im not a makeup person at all. au-natural all the way baby
*Favorite article of clothing?: panties
*Are you trendy?: Cha, you should lewk at my underwear :O
*Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: is there a choice?
You gotta be strong. I may not be with you. But you have to hold on
[come stop your crying it will be alright
Just take my hand
hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here dont you cry
for one so small
you seem so strong
my arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
this bond between us
cant be broken
I will be here dont you cry]
+_+_+_+_+_+_+_
[Why cant they understand
The way we feel
They just dont trust
What they cant explain
I know were differnt
But deep inside uus
We re not that differnt at all]
But I love you.]
[Pocahontas.......]
You think I'm an ignorant savage And you've been so many places I guess it must be so But still I cannot see If the savage one is me Now can there be so much that you don't know? You don't know ... You think you own whatever land you land on The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim But I know every rock and tree and creature Has a life, has a spirit, has a name You think the only people who are people Are the people who look and think like you But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger You'll learn things you never knew you never knew Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned? Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains? Can you paint with all the colors of the wind? Can you paint with all the colors of the wind? Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest Come taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth Come roll in all the riches all around you And for once, never wonder what they're worth The rainstorm and the river are my brothers The heron and the otter are my friends And we are all connected to each other In a circle, in a hoop that never ends How high will the sycamore grow? If you cut it down, then you'll never know And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon For whether we are white or copper skinned We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains We need to paint with all the colors of the wind You can own the Earth and still All you'll own is Earth until You can paint with all the colors of the wind
look at the stars look how they shine for you everything you do yeah they were all yellow i came along i wrote a song for you and all the things you do and it was called yellow so then i took my turn oh all the things ive done and it was all yellow your skin oh yeah your skin and bones turn in to something beautiful do you know you know i love you so you know i love you so I swam across i jumped across for you oh all the things you do cos you were all yellow i drew a line i drew a line for you oh all the things you do and it was all yellow your skin oh yeah your skin and bones turn in to something beautiful do you know for you i bleed myself dry for you i bleed myself dry
oh fuck this
Izzy this ones for you A whole dairy entry about you my love I love you I <3 you now some random space that my love for you can consume *consumes* I love you more than chlamydia my dear
well there isnt much to do now....
probably leaving for back home in some time....
it will be about shit one moment
*five hours later* ish...
im back....
hmmm mom and dada just went to a shop
brother watching tv downstairs
bored
im listening to bare nessesities ( balu the bear : <i>teh jungle book</i> <i>bitches).....</i>
Im really appreicating disney at teh moment
Im really missing nicholas at teh moment...
ouch
owwww.
Nicholas I miss yew
Im at my godparents house.
When my brother was smaller...
He called my god mother "dada"
And my god father “Papa”…
Kinda grew on me (I was only like 4)…
So im at Dada and papa’s house right now….
I was just down stairs with my mom and dada talking…
Our conversations are great:
dada: you need to get a man.
me: lmfao. “I need a man” haha
Dada: we’re gonna get you a man who is six foot five inches. *laughs at herself – mom laughs too*
me: umm
Dada: so that in future generations your kids might be almost average height.
me: *pouts* lol
Dada: hahaha it has to be two extreams of like 3 foot and six foot five
me: oh. My. Gawd. I am NOT three foot *Gasp*
dada: hahaha
me: dada do you know how tall 3 foot is. Or how tall it really isn’t?
dada: *laughing*
me: its like *thinks* I cant even work it out. Oh wait its like 90 cm.
*laughs* That’s not even a meter.
dada: and?
me: AND OMG. GOODBYE.
dada: I should buy you a step stool for your wedding….
me: ill be FINE THANKS.
mom: *decides to come into the conversation. Maybe she’s gonna help me out* yeah I was watching this show of cosmetic surgery. The things they can do! *wrong*
me: MOM what are you saying!?
mom: its amazing like, whatever you need they can do for you.
dada: yeah you know what we need to do. We need to break off her legs (great) and put some metal stilts in them and then put the other half on top.
me: *horrified*
mom: yeah they do that too ([suddenly mom’s the expert on cosmetic surgery])
dada: yeah seriously you should
mom: yes * a moment of silence like they are really thinking about it*
*even more silence*
me: WHAT?...NO you crazy women. Your not gonna do anything to my body. NO METAL BARS . NOTHING. Whats wrong with being small ANYWAY.
dada: nothing at all!
me: then what …:S
mom: mm yeah maybe you don’t need surgery
me: I cannot believe we are having this conversation.
lewk I can write in italics
that must mean that i am really super cool
i also have too much time on my hands
yesterday was teh best day ever.
Anybody know anything about shopping for guys?
msg me please
Answer the questions!!
What would you do if I?
1) I committed suicide:
2) I said I liked you:
3) I kissed you:
4) I lived next door to you:
5) I started smoking:
6) I stole something:
7) I was hospitalized:
8) I ran away from home:
9) I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What do you think about my:
1) Personality:
2) Eyes:
3) Face:
4) Hair:
5) Body:
6) Mannerisms:
from teh vag
1) seriously cry
2)
3)..hell yer
4)...neva b bored
5)...erm...haven
6)....erm...pass
7)...cry n neva leave the hospital bed till u were betta
8) find u
9) i wud run 2 whereva u were
Personality - ace n unique
eyes---so cool
face----perfec
hair----ammoni
body -- damn fine
Im loving it
just checking
just checking
just checking
Just something to imagine
You are incredibly high.
You are standing on top of a giant hill.
Overlooking a small sleeping town below you.
The Hot breeze to running through your hair.
Your holding the hand of on of your friends. Best friend maybe.
Standing a foot apart from eachother.
and the whole world ahead of you.
S l e e p i n g .
You hold her hand tighter.
You take a deep breath.
And you run
faster than you have Ever run before.
Your r u n n i n g so f a s t you almost feel dead.
Your feet are moving.
The World is moving.
Your heart it racing.
You cant breathe.
The ground is throbing.
pulsing beneath your feet.
The sky is melting.
The clouds are breaking.
You close your eyes.
And you Scream