[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

572445 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-05-11
Written: (7138 days ago)

Im feeling a huge amount of

[l-o-v-e]

towards my boyfriend, Nicholas.

and hes not online.

fucker :P

aaaaah. Hes so perfect for me :D

Five months :O.

more later.

and trust me there will be more.

I love you.

572432 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-05-11
Written: (7138 days ago)

perverted motherfuckers

yewp. thats the one. 
not finsished yet. 
too time consuming. 
just so you know the amount of fucking abuse people have to put up with on here.
Im sure im not alone.

572417 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-05-11
Written: (7138 days ago)

I could stay awake
just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you are sleeping
while your far away and dreaming
I could spend my life
In this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment
Forever

Every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
cos i de miss you baby
and i dont wanna miss athing

cos even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
ide still miss you babe
and i dont wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
feeling your heart beating
And im wondering what your dreaming
wondering if its me your seeing
and then i kiss your eyes
and thank god we;re together
I just want to stay with you
In this moment for ever
for ever and ever

I dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
cos ide miss you baby
and I dont wanna miss athing

cos even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
ide still miss you babe
and i dont wanna miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
right here iwth you
just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for the rest of time
yeah
YEAH!

I dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
cos i de miss you baby
and i dont wanna miss athing

cos even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
ide still miss you babe
and i dont wanna miss a thing

I dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
cos ide miss you baby
and i dont want to miss a thing
cos even when i dry my eyes
the sweetest dream will never do
cos ide still miss you baby
and i dont want to miss a thing
dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

 <3 This Song I heart <3

571971 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

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well im inescapably bored.

So imma write to yew Souriya

Wow I havnt called you That in a long time.

Well let me tell you in full d e t a i l about my day.

because we all know you want to know.

I woke up at like 7:35 which is odd because ive been waking up at like 7:40 - 7:45 for the past two weeks or so.

Remembering the fact that I have to be out of the house by 7:55....a few minutes lost or gained could be crucial.

I had to eat that hideous herbal shit my mom gives me in the morning.

I swear, its repulsive....

well it Was. Thats the thing. Im getting used to it and its driving me insane.

Im almost starting to like it

So i rushed to the bus stop. actually, i cruised over. because im cool and like. mmm.

hahha on the bus Im like

Me: okay emma, Kate, im going to talk to you today :D im not going to listen to any music, just talking :D
Emma: You forgot your headphones didnt you
Me: yewp.

hehehe....but we didnt actually talk much.

Fucker

Emma wrote me an Appreciation letter about the whole "steven" thing.

I dont think she realised how much it actually ment to me.

I wasnt asking for her appreciation.

I was just being a friend.

xdxdxdxdxdxdxdxdxdxd

Ashleigh bought me a twirl today. I lent her mah lunch pass so i could get some quality time with the German teacher.

She likes me.

I told you that all german people like me.

mmmmmmmmmmmmm I hurt my tongue.

We're watching the crucible in english and studying the play.

omg i love it

Its h e a r t b r e a k i n g.

Abigaile: I never knew what pretense Salem was, I never knew the lying lessons I was taught by all these Christian women and their covenanted men! And now you bid me tear the light out of my eyes? I will not, I cannot! You loved me, John Proctor, and whatever sin it is, you love me yet!

Abigale: You loved me then and you love me now

Elizabeth: I do not judge you. The magistrate that sits in your heart judges you

John: Because it is my name! Because I cannot have another in my life! Because I lie and sign myself to lies! Because I am not worth the dust on the feet of them that hang! How may I live without my name? I have given you my soul; leave me my name!

A man may think God sleeps, but God sees everything, I know it now. I beg you, sir, I beg you—see her what she is . . . She thinks to dance with me on my wife’s grave! And well she might, for I thought of her softly. God help me, I lusted, and there is a promise in such sweat. But it is a whore’s vengeance . .

571936 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

[O.M.F.F.F.F.F.G]

dear santa,

please buy me the entire contents of this store

http://www2.victoriassecret.com/?cm_mmc=aa-_-sp05p4-_-swm-_-12400

lots of love and kisses....

mally

571934 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

I WONT DIE IZZY. ILL JUST TRY NOT TO SWOLLOW MY PHONE. AGAIN

571921 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

Next in thread: 571923

I woke up

And the next thing I know

Im alive

I blink

And suddenly

Im dead

again

571894 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

[It feels so good to be loved......]

571890 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

Ian: *explains how he did like 4 1/2 pages for drama homework"

Me: oh dewd, thats totally bleeding man

Ian: most of it is just a stage plan though

Me: HAH CHEATER

Ian: shup!

571790 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

me and Mally were on the phone*

Izzy: Mally, have you put the phone in your mouth again?
*silence*
... You have, haven't you?
Mally: *tries to say something*
*fails*
Izzy: I'm sorry, Mally, I can't hear you because you have a phone in your mouth.

~*~

Mally: Did you call me?
Izzy: No Mally, I'm talking to you telepathically.

~*~

Mally: Are you talking to me now?
Izzy: No Mally, I'm talking to abrick.

~*~

Mally: And Rosalind's boyfriend's sister, no. Wait. Boyfriend's girlfriend. No. Sister's boyfriend... Uhh... Girlfriend's boyfriend... No. No. Brother's girlfriend...
Izzy: Rosalind's brother's ex-girlfriend?
*silence*

~*~

Mally: I didn't realise what I was saying until I realised what I was saying it.

~*~

Mally: *ganster black woman voice* You talking to me?
Izzy: No
Mally: Is it 'cos I'm black?
Izzy: ...Yers.

571741 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

[Me talking about rosies brothers ex girlfriend.....]

me:rosalinds boyfreinds sister... boyfriends girlfriend... sisters boyfriend... girlfriends boyfriend.. brothers girlfriend.
Izzy: *pause* *laughs ass off* Rosalinds brothers ex girlfriend?
me: YES finally.

571565 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7139 days ago)

Sign on Cigarette pack:

Nobody likes a quitter

571136 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-05-09
Written: (7140 days ago)

too tired to talk.

nicks back

yes

571135 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-05-09
Written: (7140 days ago)

[me and vag going through math questions]

me: omg you are going to FAIL
vag: hey if im going to fail what the hell are your chances

571006 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-05-07
Written: (7142 days ago)

Cruisin' on down Main Street
You're relaxed and feelin' good
Next thing that you know you're seein'
Octopus in the neighborhood!

Surfin' on a sound wave
Swingin' through the stars
Take a left at your intestine
Take your second right past Mars.

On THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS
Navigate a nostril
Climb on THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS
Spank a plankton, too
On our Magic School Bus
Raft a river of lava
On THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS
Such a fine thing to do!

So strap your bones right to the seat
Come on in and don't be shy —
Just to make your day complete
You might get baked into a pie

On THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS...
Step inside — it's a wilder ride!
Come on — ride on THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS!

OMG I FUCKING LOVED THIS SHOW

570914 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-05-07
Written: (7142 days ago)

Just as a poet needs inspiration to write a masterpiece

         I need you ...

   Just as an artist needs a subject for his work of art,

         I need you ...

   Just as a teacher needs a pupil to mold into greatness,

        I need you ...

   Just as a composer needs a theme to create a timeless   melody,

        I need you ...

nick..... I love you

570891 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-05-07
Written: (7142 days ago)

[The imperfect girl........]

570874 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-05-07
Written: (7142 days ago)

today imma go to some beauty place and my mom and i are getting some sort of FACIAL!
m a g i c a l.

I feel like I want to rent out a movie tonight. mmm.

Im feeling this sudden strong interest in politics

I had a funny dream last night.

I was with some people. I dont even think I know them. And i was smoking weed....out of some windows that magically appeared in my rewm.

I was having a hard time pulling....

I had a whole box full of joints just waiting for me.

Anyway....Nobody else was having any.

I wasnt even feeling the .e f f e c t. until i took a huge drag

and allowed it to like stay in my lungs.

it felt good

--------------END OF TEH DREAM----------------

570862 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-05-07
Written: (7142 days ago)

OoOoOoOoOoO
[NICHOLAS IS COMING BACK TOMORROW]
OoOoOoOoOoO

570671 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-05-06
Written: (7143 days ago)

When you started going through puberty, which of the following developments happened first?
Rapid growth of penis 10.9%
Rapid growth of testicles/scrotum 6.5%
Appearance of pubic hair 69.6%
I haven't started puberty yet 0.6%
I can't remember 12.3%

Which of the following did you experience first?
Orgasm by masturbating, but I didn't ejaculate 45.7%
Ejaculation by masturbating 37.1%
Nocturnal emission ("wet dream") 13.6%
Spontaneous ejaculation (e.g., while making out with a girl) 2.3%
Orgasm through sexual intercourse 0.6%
I have neither orgasmed nor ejaculated yet 0.6%

On the average, about how often do you have a nocturnal emission ("wet dream")?
Twice or more a week 2.0%
Once a week 3.3%
Once every two weeks 4.9%
Once a month or less — but I do get them occasionally 40.5%
I've never had a nocturnal emission 49.2%

On the average, about how many times per week do you masturbate to orgasm?
21 or more times per week (at least 3x per day) 6.8%
14-20 times per week 17.5%
10-13 times per week 16.1%
7-9 times per week 25.5%
4-6 times per week 22.2%
2-3 times per week 9.9%
once or less per week 2.0%

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