[♥If I love you. Can I keep you?♥]
x .♥From the bottom of My Broken Heart♥. x
♥I♥love♥you♥to♥[x.death.x]♥
Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
Maybe its intuition.
But somethings you just dont question.
I love you Nicholas
I think I am going to S c r e a m.
Everything I create, somebody fucking destroys it. Its happened so many times in this fucking life.
Even if its a small thing, my fucking father (usually is him) destroys it.
I was drawing a picture on paint. okay so its not a big deal. but im kinda, "good" at drawing on paint, and like ,i spent a long tme drawing this one thing.
I get off the computer for my dad to use it for a moment.
I come back.
and hes deleted it.
another time, i was sending this HUGE file to my friend.
He comes on.
closes it.
I think im going ot S c r e a m
Me: I enrolled you onto a website :D
Vag: *silence* *Sternly* What ?
Me: cannibals annoymous
Vag: mally. please PLEASE tell me your joking
Me: no :)
http://www.may
strange.
just read some of it.
My brother is fucking hillarious:
([Our indepth discussion about cannabals])
Brother: So like can they do anything special?
Me: anything special?
brother: like do they have special powers
me: who? cannibals?
brother: yeah. like can they climb up trees really fast
me: *LMFAO* lolololololol "can they climb up trees really fast" lol. no they're just normal people who eat...people.
brother: no but i mean, about the trees thing..like (we are tlaking about the scene in hannible when he throws that dewd out of the blacony with his intestines hangingout)...how did hannible get up to the top of the building if he cant climb trees really fast?
me: lmfao....there is such thing as stairs you know.
brother: oh are they allowed to climb up stairs?
me: omg lol YES. they can climb up stairs.
brother: so like, they eat other people
me: yewp thats what they do
brother: why?
me: i dunu, OOH if HUMANS ARENT meant to be eaten WHY ARE WE MADE OF MEAT!
brother: because thats the only product available at the supermarkets.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH
Me: *points at picture of mary kate and ashlee* whos prettier
brother: well they kinda look the same to me
My conversation with Mark:
Mark: i wnt boxxing lst nyte
me: oh nice! did you kill anybody?
Mark: no onli ad 2 fytes
Me: you had two fights and you didnt kill anybody? oh man. You suck.
Mark: well 3 but 1 wlked away.
Me: oh go you. okay Mark you need to start spelling your words correctly.
mark: lol
Me: its not a laughing matter.
mark: wot u up 2 2nyte
Me: wtf.
mark: I fort u wer cewt
me: what
mark: sweet innocent mali
me: as apposed to what? oh gosh no, im harcore mon.
mark: u broke mah heart
Me: I did what?! When :S?!
.poop.
Ive become insanly addicted to this online dairy thing.
I enjoy writing.
Therefore I write.
Its simple really.
I also like to write in...
.short.
.quick.
.abrupt.
.sentances.
Its more dramatic.
I write about things.
That are unUsual.
Somethings people wouldnt normally write about.
weird.
eh?
.I <3 the ".".
.Teh fullstop.
.Just placing it randomly on sentances.
.Makes me happy.
x .Looks sexy too. x
I also write in different
. x . Youve already given me so much . x .
You are special....
You matter to me...
Im thinking of you...
I love you.................
More than anything......
oh wow.
One of my Friends invited me to joing HI5 maybe a year back or so.
I thought it was Stupid.
Infact I Still do.
I never uploaded a picture of myself on it and i never got any msgs etc.....
f i n a l l y today I decided to do it.
I >uploaded< a picture and did my profile ect.
I left the computer for maybe 30 minutes
and when i got back....
I had 15 emails
I was like w.t.f.
It was All from hi5.
All these random people had added me.
made testimonials for me.
:S
and like msgsed me.
it was Weird?
I like declined all of them. lol. strange.
oww I had to cancel my sleepover because im a s i c k b u n n y.
Which by the way I am not happy about.
I had the strangest dream.
My mom bought me like so much weed.
And i was like jesus christ woman.
I heart you like no other.
im always happy exept when im sad
The things that dont kill you make you stronger
"*"*"*"*"ON MSN"*"*"*"*"*
matt: hihi
me: DONT TALK TO ME I HAVE AIDS
matt: dont care. prolly have it too
me: fair enough
My mom just hugged me and said
"God I love you so much"
It .b.r.o.k.e. my heart.
[smoke it like you mean it.....]
x .Nicholas, I dreamed you into my life. x
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you.
.
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...
x.savage garden.x : fuck bags. but a cute song
Emotions can be overwhelming.
We all know that.
We all know how our minds can be litterally obbsessed with a patricular emotion.
for example : love :D
It doesnt get much easier but i guess it helps to know that its all really in your head.
no. im not doubting your feelings here.
not even a little bit.
but you need to understand the power of the mind.
the conents we humans use of this storage is so minimal. its astounding actually.
Yet....
our mind is the most powerfull organ in our body.
we find outselves dwelling on possibilities and fantasies
rather than physical facts.
but it is in these possibilities that we build and construct our dreams.
We conform around this, the world to fit in these dreams like a lost peice of the puzzle.
This is not bad. because learning this and accepting, we are able to make changes in our lives to go with what confroms
OR
to go against what has been driven in our brain even before conception.
Patterns are able to be changed. New roads can be built.
Now you ask what does this have to do with your problem?
Simple.
Accept you are in control.
And you dont really have to change a thing.
this probably didnt make much sense to anybody.
It did to me however.
I just answered my own problem
and It feels good :D