[I <3 IxxY]

x .For being my best friend. x
x . For loving me unconditionally . x
x . For never judging me . x
x . For instead of sympathising when I cry. She cries with me . x
x . For controlling me when I freak out . x
x . For Never letting me go . x
x . For all the warmth . x
x . (From your breasts) . x
x . For All the Underwear . x
x . For All our ballards . x
x . For Britney spears . x
x . For all the colour . x
x . For all the nothing . x
x .  For it will always be my something . x


[=======================================]

x . For All The giggles . x
x . For All The tears . x
x . For All The courage . x
x . For All The fears . x

x . For All The Times . x 
x . For All The twirls . x
x . For All The Rhymes . x
x . For All The swirls . x

x . For All The Smiles . x
x . For all the songs . x
x . For All the Short . x
x . For All the Long . x
x . For all the drugs . x
x . For All The weed . x
x . For All The Love . x
x . Its All I need . x 

omfg

I think im going to cry.

I just broke my back.

Again.

I cant move

mom: So how are you planning to teach them?
me: Well basically I just give them the facts about drugs, like the effects and stuff....
mom: uhhuh
me: you know, I havnt once told them NOT to take drugs.
mom: you havnt?!
me: nope. I think there are better ways to handle the situation. We're not there to run their life, and make desicions for them. We just provide them with all the information that they need to make them themselves
mom: oh come on! surely you should tell them that drugs are wrong.
me: whats the use though? if you tell a child not to do something, they WILL do it. Whether its specifically in spite of you, and in an act of rebellion or not. it happens mom. I know
mom: okay but shouldnt you stress the fact that drugs are bad for you?
me: moooom, yeah ill tell them what they do to you and what can happen IF you take them but i cant say to them "dont do drugs. you will die". Its probably not even the truth
mom: I guess so
me: *pause* I would never ever inject any drug into me
mom: you would never ever take a drug again (she knows about the weed) young lady
me: lol mother. Im a drug addict. I cant help it.
mom: well...
me: *back click EXTREAMLY LOUDLY* AHHHHHHHH
mom: oh wow. have you noticed that everytime you sort of answer back to me, something like that happens to you.
me: OMG I MOVE. *jumps up and dances* MOM I CAN MOVE. MY BACK DOESNT HURT ANYMORE. IM CURED. OMG. I CLICKED IT BACK TO PLACE
*silence*
me:...What were you saying
mom: oh shut up.

lol

Me: So yah mom, I feel much more confident in class and stuff. its really good. I even volenteered to read in english :D you know how much i hated that. Also I play the part of Elizabeth Proctor when we;re acting it out :)
mom: thats really really reallys good! so what do you think made you change?
me: mmm. Maybe its the drugs.
mom: really?
me: *Seriously* yes

*end of conversation*

That is just so wrong.

Im Extreamly Bored.

Well Its Just 10:48.

I Found My Rancid and Oasis Cd.

Back Of The Drawer.

Makes Me Happy.

Well tomorrow Im Teaching 6 Lessons On Drugs.

.YaY.

I refuse to tell them not to take drugs.

If you tell anybody not to do something...they are ovbioulsy going to do it.


I know that.

Instead, I think its important to tell them all the information they need to know about something.

The effects etc....

And let them make the decision.

Its stupid telling them otherwise.

Telling them "Drugs are Bad. Dont do drugs. you will die.".

Fuckers.

Okay I feel like diving head first into a fully fledged conversation with you. My love. Im feeling exteamly articulate and fluant today with my words. Which is good. I like talking. I like writing. I like. I like I like I like. :D:D:D.

I <3 VAG

name: brian
male
age 72

widowed

smokes 40 cigs per day

smoking for 50 years

he no longer works but was a teacher till he retired

health is reasonable

He sniffs various solvents on his own

I have found a quick an easy way to ingest resin that works really well!
Simply crumble some heated resin ontop of a MacFlurry ice cream - my
favourite is the Cadburys Chocolate one - stir in the magic 'chuncks' and
eat as normal.

The cold ice cream helps mask some of the bitterness of the resin and
crunching on the chocolate chips - along with the odd resin chunk - helps
grind it up and make it easy to absorb.

Normally within an hour, sometimes as much as two, the full effects kick
in and can be very trippppppy!!!! Much much better than smoking.




Cannabis Toast
You will need:
1. Lump of Butter
2. Cannabis (solid resin)

How?:
1. Crumble finely a good amount on to some butter.
2. Put under grill to melt cannabis into butter.
3. Repeat as necessary
4. Toast the toast
5. Spread the butter with added cannabis onto the toast.
6. Enjoy!




Me and Ixxy are going to have some FUN

http://www.cannabis.net/weblife.html

Strange

Im not a spider

Im a Creep













Im so creepy

If I get two cats. Im going to call them ~:
                              



                              Lucifer
                                 and
                              Vodka


How very hawt.

I like the name Rhianna

Megan too. But pronounced Maygen.

Turquoise.

eww. Turkey!

Canvas.

And as suggested by Nicholas :

.Zen.

Things to Do:

[.1.)] Shave my Legs

[2)] Wash My hair --->Shampoo ---> Condition ---> Dry

[3)] Curl My hair

[4)] Paint My Nails.

[5)] Sing along to Power ballards.

[6)] Light insence

[7)] Prance around in my underwear.

[8)] Marvel at the colour [x-x Pink x-x]

[9)] Draw doodles in your diary of little fluffy bunnies and hearts.

[.F o r . T h o s e . W h o .  C a r e . ]

----x----The End----x----

[P.o.e.m. . .T.o. . .A. . .H.o.r.s.e]

I <3 Ixxy

Letter number: 38836170
From: [Izzles] (•You•Are•My•Anti•Drug•)
To: [choke_on_dreams] ([x][+] Suck My Strap-On [+][x])
Sent mail 2005-05-16 15:42:46
Comment to: Diary entry 575812
Comment in 38837016




Hey mals.
Atko said there are plenty of places.
They got enough places for everyone who's doing history.
You just need to take in your money and they NEED the risk assessment form.
So yeah.
Take it to him tomorrow reg.
Ill come with you.
I have to take my blodge book to Firthy.



[xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx]

A song for my lover. One we can really connect with . XDxdXDxDxDxD

Uh-huh,
[Life's like this]
Uh-huh, uh-huh
[That's the way it is]
'Cause life's like this
[Uh-huh, uh-huh]
That's the way it is


[Chill out,]
What you yellin' for?
[Lay back, it's all been done before]
And if you could only let it be
[You will see...]


I like you the way you are
[When we're, driving in my car]
And you're talking to me
[One on one....]
But you become


[Somebody else......]
'Round everyone else
[Watchin' your back]
Like you can't relax
[You're tryin' to be cool]
You look like a fool
[To me.....]


Tell me


Why do you have to go and make things so [complicated?]
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me [frustrated......]
Life's like this, you
[And you fall and you crawl]
And you break and you take
[What you get and you turn it into]
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it


[No, no, no]


You come over unannounced
[Dressed up like you're something else]
Where you are and
[Where you sat, you see]
You're making me
[Laugh out........]
When you strike a pose
[Take off all your preppy clothes]
You know
[You're not fooling anyone]
When you become


[Somebody Else....]
'Round everyone else
[Watchin' your back]
Like you can't relax
[Tryin' to be cool]
You look like a fool
[To me....]


[Tell Me .......]


Why do you have to go and make things so [complicated?]
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me
I'm never gonna find you fake it


No, no, no...


Chill out,
What you yellin' for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could let it be
You will see


Somebody else
'Round everyone else
You're watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool
To me, to me


Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it

[No, no]


Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're
Acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this, you
And you fall and you crawl
And you break and you take
What you get and you turn it into
Honesty Promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it

oh my god.

Ive hurt my back seriously badly.

I cant move.

I think im going to Cry

Im sick today.

.gah.

Well I have to go to school tomorrow because we're doing drugs squad where Ill be teaching about the joys of xtc.!YaY!. Also I should seriously think about returning my fountains abby letter, I dont think im going to get a place. *cries*. BUT ive been ill, what do they expect me to do? Well I just woke up a little while ago and I havnt eaten just yet.

This turkish guy is pestering me to meet him. Ofcourse, I said "no" and hes like "but why?"....mmm I dont need this right now.


I have a severe cold (lol) but I really need to wash my hair tonight. So Im thinking im going to be rebellious and do it anyway. Its freezing in this house. My toesees are cold. But anyway. My room is a total mess, I should really think about cleaning it up eh? yeah. I know I know.

This guy wont leave me alone. He keeps asking why I wont meet him. My reply after like the 5th time :

Because I say so. I have no interest in meeting up with you whatsoever. The furthest this "relationship" can go, is to have conversations on elftown. And that is all. I feel no need to have to see you in person, although im sure your a great guy. Im sorry. Please stop asking me why, I dont need a reason. I just say so. .


Oh my gawd. And another one: "Hi how are you do you have msn".

[Hi im fine, I do have msn but im not adding you].

I swear, elftown is a breeding place for these kind of people.

blah.

Anyways. Its dismal outside. The rain is pattering on the window pane, the clouds are foamed across the sky. The trees are drooping, the grass it wet. Speckled with small raindrops.

Its beautiful.

I was talking to one of my old friends from primary school. She had a date with some boy and now he asked for a second date. She was freaking out.

Weird. For her, second dates seem to pose as a scary level of commitment.

strange.

I <3 commitment

Makes me feel safe.

I am ♥Commited♥.

But you knew that already.

[♥If I love you. Can I keep you?♥]

x .♥From the bottom of My Broken Heart♥. x

♥I♥love♥you♥to♥[x.death.x]♥

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Maybe its intuition.
But somethings you just dont question.
I love you Nicholas

I think I am going to S c r e a m.

Everything I create, somebody fucking destroys it. Its happened so many times in this fucking life.

Even if its a small thing, my fucking father (usually is him) destroys it.

I was drawing a picture on paint. okay so its not a big deal. but im kinda, "good" at drawing on paint, and like ,i spent a long tme drawing this one thing.

I get off the computer for my dad to use it for a moment.

I come back.

and hes deleted it.


another time, i was sending this HUGE file to my friend.

He comes on.

closes it.

I think im going ot S c r e a m