...bad news...
I dont feel like writing about it :S Even this is a diary, I know, but ugh.
Im holding you so gently......
x.I was never good enough.x
.I never will be good enough for you. .I never will be who you want me to be. .I never will be able to make you proud of me. .But I love you. x .Im sorry. x
Hello friend.
How are you?
Well Im bored out of my fucking mind. Thanks for asking.
Im at a family friends house (We're here quite alot)
Its fucking insane, they live approxamatly thirty seconds away from us (by foot) and my mom insists I come because its rude if I dont. Which I can understand.
But I mean, the kids are like 4 or something, and all they do is run around the house screaming. And the "adults" just talk about the most stupid things.
I cant even try to socialise.
But you know, apart from that. Things are great.
Its a beautiful day outside today. Everybodies out and like, acting like in the american movies :D hehehe.
I went to watch monster in law with mah mama and her friend (Who is actually really seriously pissing me off. oh my god I am so frik-ken pissed)
Ohmygod. I am so frik-ken pissed. is So my new uh, whatdyacall it. slogan? Catchfrase? uh....My mascot. My special line. MINE.
It was so funny, people are getting so frik-ken pissed off at me, because I keep saying that. oh well, they'll live.
I feel like buying a dress.
A frock.
I dont know.
Something big and poofy.
.Marry me.
LAYER ONE
-- Name: Malavika
-- Nickname: Mally, Shorty (hehe), Jaffa, Turquoise lady (harriet...), pussy (Rosie :)), Mallygirl (yes!), mmm And probably some more but Mah mind is blank dewd...
--Preferred name: Anything :)
-- Birthdate: the twenty second of april 1990
-- Loction: Beautiful Leeds
-- Birthplace: India
-- Current location: In teh computer chair
-- Eye color: Brown
-- Hair color: Black/Red/Purp
-- Height: Small. ugh 4'8"? I dont know.
-- Righty or lefty: Righty
LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: South Indian
-- The shoes you wore today: Mah boots
-- Your weakness: Im not sure
-- Your fears: ....F...i.....
-- Your perfect pizza: None thanks
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: uh im fucking bored
---Im bored. Im going onto some interesting questions---
LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: weed
-- Drink: Im stopping
-- Sing: ofcourse
-- Take a shower every day: Yes sir
--Have a crush(es): very much so
-- Do you think you've been in love: I am....uh huh
-- Liked high school: Yeah its fun
-- Want to get married: Only with nicholas
-- Believe in yourself: Sometimes I do
-- Get motion sickness: Only if; Im reading, its too hawt and the windows arent open, or like ive had lots of dairy products before hand. yewp.
-- Think you're attractive: Personally, naw.
-- Think you're a health freak:naw
-- Get along with your parents: NO. well. sometimes..... NO
-- Like thunderstorms: They are beautiful
-- Play an instrument: Teh peeyano
LAYER SIX
In the past two months...
-- Drank alcohol: yeah
-- Smoked: yeah
-- Done a drug: Yes
-- Had sex: Nope
-- Made out: Nope
-- Gone on a date: Nope
-- Gone to the mall: Yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I hope not. ew.
-- Eaten sushi: nooo i want to try it though
-- Been on stage: Yes :D
-- Gone skating: Nope. ugh I WISH
-- Made homemade cookies: Yup
-- Gone skinny-dipping
-- Dyed your hair: nah
-- Stolen anything: Yes. 10p
LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Probably. Probably didnt get far either.
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated...
-- Been caught doing something: Yeah sure
-- Been called a tease: uh
-- Gotten beaten up: lol. only for fun, I kicked ASS THOUGH
-- Shoplifted: lol only like a sweet
-- Changed who you were to fit in: Probably when I was younger.
---too fucking bored to continue---
Hehehe. Vag is here now. Im wearing a dress. We're having some serious ass kicking fun.
Shes just SO FRIK-KEN PISSED
because I keep saying Omg I am so FRIK-KEN pissed
and Somebody throw SHAMU back into the ocean. I wonder who said that! look its TINA THE TALKING TUMMMY!
Vag: *rips MASSIVE hole in mallys thong*
Me: OMG I JUST LOST MY ASS VIRGINITY TO YOU
Vag: eww
me: *checks ass out in mirror. realises that hole looks quite cool, its positioned just before crack. rosie has created a new brand of thongage* Hey vag this is cOOOL!!*shows*
Vag: mmm! easy access!
me: easy access to my ass? why the fuck.
Me: *POINTS* OMG LOOK ITS A RABBIT. NO ITS A HORSE! ITS A HORSE. LOOK AT THE HORSE.
vag: mally. its a cat.
I <3 Vagina Kai
Fill this out for me...? please........
1. Who are you?
[Parmasan the great]
2. Are we friends?
[yeah ovbiously...]
3. When and how did we meet?
[seven years ago at a party, i think, did we?]
4. Do you have a crush on me?
[NO!!!!]
5. Would you kiss me?
[err noooo are you mad]
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[monkey. because you call me punky and its spelt munky]
7. Describe me in one word.
[obsessed...]
8. What was your first impression?
[seemed nice but a bit hyper...and you danced]
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
[your nice...and yeah your still hyper]
10. What reminds you of me?
[*laughs* aahhh idontknow. wait wait wait. i dont know]
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
[nicholassssss to come here beecause your too obsessed with him and you talk about him non stop]
12. How well do you know me?
[very wellllll]
13. When's the last time you saw me?
[today lol ]
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[uhmmm noooo i dont think so]
15. Are you going to put this on your house and see what I say about you?
[what ii dont have ahouse. I HAVE A HOUSE. I HAVE A HOUSE. I HAVE A HOUSE BUT NOT ON ELFTOWN. ]
16. What do you think of my personality?
[ummmmmmmm what do you think. very um sociable, kay]
17. What do you think of my looks?
[your very pretty....]
18. If we met, what would we do...?
[weve mettttt havnt we yeah]
19. would you say that we were very good friends..?
[yeah i guess , i dont know]
20. Could we ever be anything more than friends?
[what do you mean. ERRRRRRRRRRR]
So I woke up today at like 10:30 to the sound of rosalinds voice. She was calling me to arrange tonight. Best way to wake up i'de say.
LoL.
omgosh it was so funneh last night, everybody was downstairs getting wasted and I was watching teh ring.
For teh second time.
Alone lol.
oOoOoOoOoOo
Anyway, suddenly the phone rang and i was like. omgosh its SO gonna be nick. So i had to get the phone before my father did. I like flipped OVER the bed, jumping on about three people and strangling them.
I picked up and im like HELLO..
and just as he replied, my dad picked up, in his amazing wastedness and was like "hello hello, who is it"
"dad. its for me"
"no its not, who is it"
and so on so fourth
Frustrated me a lot.
Rosie coming over today.
Maybe going out for a movie :)
Gotta work on my six month anniversary present for nicholas.
Its so hawtotowata :)
[On teh phone...]
Nick: okay mally, im focused on you now..
Me: Yah about frikken time
me: when did he say that?
matt: a minute ago
me: yeah but when was a minute ago
matt: i dont know like two minutes ago
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Its frustrating how, the most interesting days, where i have so much to talk about, i just cant be bothered writing about it.
hmmmph. Thats pissing me off slightly.
Well im looking forward to the next week.
half term baby...
Just one more day to get through and then im OVAR. for one whole week.
Some family friends coming over tomorrow to prolly sunday. Its bankholiday weekend so everybodies getting wasted. But no, not me, not I.
I refuse.
I am determined to stay sober.
And sober I shall stay.
And then Vag is sleeping over from sunday to monday :) so that aught to be fun, Ide say.
Shes planning on dazzling me with her fantabulastic cockail making skills. 99 parts alcohol, one part juice. I think thats her theory. Maybe ill just watch while she gets drunk.
Anti Anal Queen.
Anti Alcohol Goddess.
Tomorrow Im going to textiles once again with mah homies to continue working on my mushi cushi.
XD.
I havnt even looked at my homework for tomorrow and its 11:30 already. Meh. Oh well, i havnt even thought about till now either actually.
Worked on my flexo baby today! yay! im getting lower and lower each time I practise.
I also noticed that you can go further after a hot bath.
Somrthing about it loosening your elasticy things.
I really am not going to get technical on you, for some time, I dont think.
Its so much fun, but its quite painfull, apparanlty you have to hold each stretch for 30 seconds (For begininers) and like up to five minutes (OMG FOR ADVANCED BASTARDS). I cant do that yet.
Im working on it though.
And it fucking hurts.
If I keep this up, with the Dedication and enthusiasm lol I have now...oh yeah baby.
Fuck what I said It dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might aswell throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back.
Im really taking a liking to That song. ew. Why.