bertie: how are you an nick?
me: perfect....
bertie: how long do you think you will last?
me: forever and ever
bertie: awwwwww! if he dumps yuou (HE WONT) what would you do?
me:...ide die..





bertie: have you told him about that time at mine?
me: oh yah! he smokes weed sometimes tew...
bertie: OMG HES SO PERFECT FOR YOU
me: he is isnt he :)

June 1st. 2005.

Dear diary,

Figured Ide set this out correctly. Todays been pretty uneventfull, you could say. Mom insisted I woke up early. And my early I mean eleven. Which Is early, I was tired. So yeah, I was like "uggh" And put on some music and got washed. Spoke to teh Matthew first thing, best way to start they day Ide say. First thing he said to me was "I smell of cum". Just made my day, right there. We're planning on going to the movies tomorrow perhaps to watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith, as we had previously discussed the undeniable hawtness of teh Angelina Joli.
My mother thinks Im on Crack. Its all good.
Smiles everywhere.
I woke up this morning, missing Nicholas :) He liked the love letter I wrote for him. Which means alot. Because everything I said, I ment it with all my heart. So thats defiantly good.
I was thinking alot today, about relationships. Philosophising you know? Because I can do that. I have teh brain power you see. Maybe more on that later, too much effort to type it.

Mom taking my brother and shaun to see Millions. Or whatever. At maybe 8:00? so I get some alone time with mah house. Apart from the teh random dude that lives with us. but its Okay, We dont talk. lol.

I wish I could write as fast As I type.

Infact, I wish I Could think as fast as I type.

I got another Msg from a delightful Turkish man.


Letter number: 39858380
From: [onurhıdır]
To: [choke_on_dreams] ([x][+] Suck My Strap-On [+][x])
Sent mail 2005-06-01 12:28:31
Comment in 39858462




HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HOW ARE YOU SEXY BABY???
SEND YOUR MSN OR YAHOO ADDRESS PLSSSS
MY MSN AND YAHOO ADDRESS onurcakmak23@hotmail.com
onurcakmak2334@yahoo.com
ADD TO FAVOURITE PEOPLE PLSSS
BECAUSE I AM YOUR NEARLY MEET WANT


[+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++]

My reply was :



I BE SORRY I NO NO SPEAK ENGLISH NO!


Insane. Isnt it?

Yes it is rather.


Spoke to my mom last night about the whole nicholas situation.

I have to take it slowly, take my time. Give her time, to accept it. It doesnt seem like much but its another step. No matter how insignificant or tedious it seems, its all worth it. Something in a bigger picture.

You dont know my mother.

She can be woman bloody hitler if she wants to be.

Aahh. I have my music up so loud.
My ears.
My beautiful ears.
Did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

You Dont Know Stupidity

Today was a much Better day.
Spoke to mah nicholas.
Everything is ay-okay.
Infact things are really good.
Im so happy.
I love him So
very very much.
Means Everything to me.
He is everything.

Teh day started of sorta odd.
Kinda S a d
Following on from last night.
But now things are better than ever


Nicholas,
believe me when I say this,

Nothing Can stop us now...

I promise you that

I got a msg :

"So you like guys but it says "suck my strap-on" how does that work."




lmfao.

.Im in a:

.s u b d u e d.

.and.

.s a d.

.m o o d.

Sometimes Life is just cruel.

Everyone is downstairs watching the last part of meet the fockers.

Im not the the mewd.


People are just pissing me off right now. The human race suck.

Oh why am I so bitter.

ugh I feel bitter.

Im maybe hanging out with Ben dawson tomorrow. hopefully :)

.He. .has. .Weed.

But Ionnu.






















I










NEED

















SPACE










Mah plans for teh week of holidays :D

- Movies with teh Matthew Barton.




- uh...Ryan HUNT wanted tew meet up so yah :)




- omgosh ryan breeze was like "do you want to hang out", and im like sure, whatever. he said he wants to get pissed but, uh, anti alcohol thing, remember. oh well we can just hang out. this is ryan breeze we're talking about. oh man.





- BEEEEENNNNNN

.Im in a:

.s u b d u e d.

.and.

.s a d.

.m o o d.

Sometimes Life is just cruel.

Everyone is downstairs watching the last part of meet the fockers.

Im not the the mewd.