[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
me: OKAY NO, YOU KNOW WHAT, I HAVE TO REVISE BECAUSE MY EDUCATION IS IMPORTANT ME. I WANT TO GET GOOD MARKS, I WONT SETTLE FOR B'S OR C'S BECAUSE I ONLY WANT A'S AND A* OKAY. I NEED TO GET GOOD MARKS SO I GET GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING COUNTRY AS SOON AS I FUCKING CAN. I NEED TO GET INTO A GOOD UNIVERSITY AND GET GOOD GCSE'S AND A- LEVELS AND I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK BECAUSE THE REST OF MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THIS. I DONT CARE IF STATISTICS ISNT IMPORTANT OR IF WE'LL NEVER NEED IT WHEN WE'RE OLDER BECAUSE THE FACT IS I NEED IT NOW AND I NEED TO REVISE FOR THOS FUCKING EXAM ON FRIDAY THAT I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT AT ALL. YOU CAN CALL ME A FUCKING GEEK OR A NERD BUT I DONT CARE BECAUSE IM THE BEST GODDAMN NERD AROUND AND WHEN IVE GOT A FUCKING AMAZING JOB PAYING A SQUILLIONS PER SECOND AND YOUR WORKING INNA SUPERMARKET YOUR GONNA BE THINKING "I WISH I REVISED WITH MALLY IN YEAR 10" BEACUSE THEN YOUR GOING TO REGRET IT. BECAUSE ALL OF THIS MATTERS, I WANT TO DO GOOD IN LIFE BECAUSE FROM THIS MOMENT ON THE REST OF MY LIFE, AND NOT JUST MY CAREER DEPENDS ON THIS. I LIKE BEING SMART AND I LIKE GETTING GOOD MARKS, BUT UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE I HAVE TO WORK MY FUCKING ASS OFFF TO GET AN A BECAUSE THATS ALL I CAN EVER SETTLE FOR. SOMETIMES I CANT EVEN MAKE IT BUT I STILL TRY BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE I WANT TO BE, AND I NEED TO FUCKING REVISE FOR THIS MOTHERFUCKER OR IM NEVER GOING TO BE WHO I WANT TO BE. SURE STATISTICS DOSENT MEAN SHIT BUT IT MEANS THE SHIT TO ME BEACUSE ITS FUCKING IMPORTANT AND I CANT FUCK THIS UP. [and so on........]
*silence*
vag: mally, you know you know we're doing this exam a year early and you can re take it in year 11.
Kay
Im having a break from:
-Mah break-.
But while I have the chance
Before I go on my
Next break.
About my Nose.
Well I was browsing the internet
and some Chick was like
"[Ive pierced my eyebrow, naval, nose and lip - I do all my own piercings]"
So thats when the idea *_*_Struck me_*_*
"Hey Why doesnt Malleh get her nose pierced!
It was quite a quick spontainious sort of thang.I rushed downstairs.
"M o m . i m m a p i e r c e m a h n o s e"
Now my mom already has a nose pierced.
She sorta freaked out saying that I should get it done professionally
If I was that determined.
And Oh boy was I ever!
I was So determined that I couldnt wait.
So i Ran upstairs.
Found a needle
A thimble (to keep it in place etc)
Q- tips
Hand soap (yes I KNOW)
Cotton wool
and a um...Earing.
And so it began.
I noticed that teh nose has three layers you must pierce.
The first is no problemo
No bleeding
The Second - a little bit more tricky
No pain - not really)<
.B.L.E.E.D.S
[ A little bit anyways ]
The third.
Oh man
This one wasnt that painfull as such,
But it was fucking difficult.
Each layer sorta *pops*
And thats when you know its gone through
Which is good
Took me about 30-40 minutes
Listened to
[ My Ch3mical R0mance ]While I was doing it.
Got me in the mewd
To .rebel.
During the chorus' I was like:
Fuck yesssss.
Once it was through
Finally
I placed an earing in it.
With No back.
I was afRaid that Ide
snort it
up my nose
and die
or Something.
If its any consolation
I did wash my needle in...
um...
handwash
In order to disinfect it.
Although.
It didnt
So meh.
Its done with now.
So yah, I woke up.
First thing.
Put mah earing in
oops. Mah noooose ring
The hole was stil open.
Thank god
All that trouble for nothing
Eh?
Anyways, at School
Went to the school nurse at break
and asked for some anti-septic-
wipes.
Because im a responsible person.
Im not that much of a [f l a k e ]
I do do the right things....
Eventually
But thats not the point.
Anyway, she gave me one,
Also gave me a couple of weird looks.
But its funneh.
At lunch time. I went to JR's
Piercing parlour/hairdressing salon
And told them mah situation.
She said :
"Well now the damage is done."
and then...
"all you can do it is wash it in salt water twice a day. and pray it doesnt go septic"
Good enough for me sunshine!
I bought a Stud
A little blue one
Its [ p. u. r. d. y. ]
Put that one in
instead
of the Earing
Only one pound.
wow
Came home, showed mom
She wasnt that pissed at all.
I sorta only kinda mentioned i did it myself.
I told her I started it.
And the people at the piercing place
did the rest
for me
..............
For free
Lol.
Well Mah mommas teh r0x0r.
I bought some wipes at lunch too
So I came home
ANd had a little Facial session.
Now its not that sore.
Its okay
Not septic.
yet.
Ill deal with school rules tomorrow.
OMFG I JUST PIERCED MY NOSE. MORE LATER. OMG OMG OMG
[*have u ever*]
[pictured ur crush naked:] Yesssss. Ofcourse. Undoubtedly. All the time.
[actually seen them naked:] Hehe yes :)
[been in luv:] I am in love.
[said i luv u and ment it:] Yes to my beautiful Nicholas.
[cried when someone died:] Yeah :$
[lied:] I have but I try not to. Im not good at it at all. ask anybody. You have to just ask me the same questions twice and I can promise you that on the second time. Ill be honest.
[kicked someone in the nuts:] Accidently Im sure I must have at some point in my life.
[stolen something:] Yeah :S
[smoked:] Yes I have goowaah
[drank:] Yewp.
[done drugs:] Yes sir :S
[cheated on someone:] Cheating is fucking low and stupid. So thats a no.
[fallen for a best guy friend:]Nick is mah one of my best guy friends ;) hehe. But like, If you mean as in someone whos just. ugh I dont know what you mean. NO havnt.
[rejected someone:] mmm yeah :S
[been cheated on:] Nope :) Nevar
[done something u regret:] all the goddamn time But I try not to regret anything.
[food:] Lots
[fruite:] Strawberrys, Grapes, Green apples.
[peircings:] Mah ears. so far.
[longest relationship:] well so far we're onto our 7th montho ;)
[first love:] Nicholas. First and only and last.
[what do u do when ur grounded:] I sit in my room and sulk. Im a looser. I dont really rebell, its too much effort lol :P
[things that i love:] Nicholas. everything
Oh oh oh oh OH You wear Black You are so Gawth
An email martyn wrote me last May -
Thanks for the e mail mally
im replyin cos u asked me 2 , im like that u c cos im nice (stole that bit form ur email)
Life will get more exciting (i hope) if not the ill just have to drive my kart down the street n if u get really bored then ill let u have ago aswell. lol Good job ive got insurance
School is borin the hell out of me aswell. Apart from at breaks for obvious reasons. O on the subject of break thanks for holding the door for me n getting my chair. I will do it for u n hatty n ros 2 moz, I feel like i shud repay the favour.
Ok im really tired now. I cant get to sleep either. Putting on some music does it for me, lol it actually bores me to sleep.
Hope u have a good sleep. I ned it (my beauty sleep that is)
Night
Martyn
xx
Hmmm Things have changed *sigh*
Just one moment
You dont know what you do to me
Maluuuu i love youuuuu.! [Im at the cottage now so i prolly cant get your msgs but im just letting you know i love you hehe] Dooooobeeeedooo im coming home for youuu! Xxx :)
.People. .are. .going. .to. .talk. .so. .why. .not. .give. .them. .something. .to. .talk. .about.
dad: you have no respect for other people
bro: I do I just have no respect for you
dad: you behave like an animal
bro: dad your fat
lmfao.
My dad and my brother actually get on really well, they like joke around all the time.
mmm.
me: Now you either meain, the rasmus, rancid or the ramones lol.
kiran: oh lol ramones.
me: lmfao. rasmones.
Hi
Im bored
I know I should be revising
And really, Ive tried but
its fucking difficult
If i dont have any notes
or any books
to help me
Its like
wtf
I cant even do anything
THIS is SO frustrating
What do I do
Oh my god I
am
gifted
and
talented
To find yourself.
You have to lose yourself first.
Similar to ;
You dont know what youve got
until its gone.
Sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom
before you can start climbing back up.
me: It is organised. you just have to be able to see the organisation.
.But its nothing We cant Handle.
[ .Nothing can stop us now. ]
.Because Its entirly up to you and me.
[ This ]
Is
[ My ]
Super
[ Big ]
Hello
[ To ]
Chris
Is
[ My ]
Super
[ Big ]
Hello
[ To ]
Chris
Me: Im going to fail
Chris: No your not
Me: You dont understand, I actually am. lol.
Chris: ur not, if god had wanted angels to fail he'd have made some-one else one not u. As it stands he made u one so ur not