[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
Christmas card from a hooker in Minneapolis by Tom Waits Karma Police by Radiohead, All these things that I've done by The Killers, Mr Brightside by the killers, Perfect day by Lou Reed, Maps by The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, More than woman by Pink Grease, Tom's Dina by Suzanne Vega, Express yourself by NWA, Little Thoughts by Bloc Party, Idioteque by Radiohead, Needle in the hay by Elliott Smith, Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley, Subterranean Homesick Blues by Bob Dylan, Citizen erased by Muse, Love will tear us apart by Joy Division, This charming man by The Smiths, District sleeps alone tonight by Postal service, The New Year by Death Cab for cutie, Rainy day woman by Bob Dylan, Oxygen by Willy Mason, No woman no cry by Bob Marley, Fake plastic trees by Radiohead, Imagine by John Lennon, Hounds of love by The Futureheads, A forest by The Cure, Lucy in the sky with diamonds by The Beatles, All mapped out by The Departure, Blowing in the wind by Bob Dylan, Bang bang by Nancy Sinatra, The man who told everything by The Doves, I heard it through the grapevine by Marvin Gaye, Window licker by Aphex twin, Visions of Johanna by Bob Dylan, Plug in baby by Muse, Heaven knows I'm miserable now by The Smiths, 1979 by The Smashing Pumpkins, Gimme some more By Busta Rhymes, Banquet by Bloc party, Underwear goes inside the pants by Lazyboy, When I see an elephant fly from the movie 'Dumbo', Do I have your attention by The Blood arm, Apply some pressure by Maximo Park, Mission Impossible by Limp Bizkit, What a wonderful world by Louis Armstrong, Sinnerman By Nina Simone, Dont look back in anger by Oasis, Brand new colony by Postal service, Seen the light by Supergrass, Cannonball by Damien Rice, Drug ballad by Eminem, Mockingbird By Eminem, So here we are by Bloc party, First day of my life by Bright Eyes, Formed a band by Art Brut, She dont use jelly by The Flaming lips, Meantime by The Futureheads, Emily Kane by Art Brut, Golden Brown by The Stranglers, Road to nowhere by The Talking Heads, Ever fallen in love by The Buzzcocks, Common people by Pulp, Son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield, Talkshow host by Radiohead, Killamangiro by Babyshambles, Blow it out by The Features, William by The Others, It's a wonderful life by Black, Female of the species by Space, Should I stay or should I go by The Clash, Dreams by The Cranberries, Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush, In the morning by The Coral, Your so vain by Carly Simon, Make me smile by The Cockney Rebels, Waterloo Sunset by The Kinks A friend in Need by Placebo, Killing in the name by Rage against the machine, Bulls on parade by rage against he machine People of the sun by rage against the machine Fuck the police by rage against the machine November rain by guns n roses Wind beneath my wings Celine Dion Wind beneath my wings by Bettie Midler The scientist by coldplay Yellow by Coldplay Roses by Outkast The magic school bus theme by the magic school bus Dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith Ironic by Alanis Morrisette Im a bitch By Alanis Morrisette Hit me baby one more time by Britney Spears Them bones by alice in chains Whiskey lullaby by Alison Krauss and Brad Paisley Everything I do by Bryan adams Summer of 69' by Bryan adams Beauty and the beast by celine dion Ganstas paradise my coolio How i could just kill a man by Cypress hill How you remind me by nickleback Hero by chad...(cant spell name) Kissing you by Desree Colours of the wind by pochohontus Dont want you back by eamon (I cant help it) Candle in the wind by elton john Your song by eltown john 100 years by five for fighting Killing me softly by the fugees I will survive by gloria gaynor Broken angel by hanson Angels by Robbie williams You can do it by ice cube Rainmaker by Iron maiden Dance of death by Iron maiden Stairway to heaven by Led Zepplin Without you by mariah Carey Televators by the mars volta Ovbiously by mcfly Tainted love by marilyn manson Beautiful people by marilyn manson Evolution by motorhead Feelings good by Muse. Space dementia by muse. Stop crying your heart out by Oasis I want you to want me by letters to cleo /NOFX Levitate me by teh pixies From this moment on By shania twain If it makes you happy by sheryl crow Kiss me by six pench none the richer Handbags and the gladrags by stereophonics Fuck her gently by tenacious D Drops of jupiter By Train. Drugs dont work by teh verve I will always love you by Whitney Housten Thriller by Micheal Jackson Helena by my chemical romance You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison by my chemical romance I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by my chemical romance Billy jean by michael jackson The earth song by michael jackson
[+]Temporarily
[+]Similiarily [I dont even know if im spelling it right]
[+]Antidisestabli
[+]Phenominon
me: OKAY NO, YOU KNOW WHAT, I HAVE TO REVISE BECAUSE MY EDUCATION IS IMPORTANT ME. I WANT TO GET GOOD MARKS, I WONT SETTLE FOR B'S OR C'S BECAUSE I ONLY WANT A'S AND A* OKAY. I NEED TO GET GOOD MARKS SO I GET GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING COUNTRY AS SOON AS I FUCKING CAN. I NEED TO GET INTO A GOOD UNIVERSITY AND GET GOOD GCSE'S AND A- LEVELS AND I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK BECAUSE THE REST OF MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THIS. I DONT CARE IF STATISTICS ISNT IMPORTANT OR IF WE'LL NEVER NEED IT WHEN WE'RE OLDER BECAUSE THE FACT IS I NEED IT NOW AND I NEED TO REVISE FOR THOS FUCKING EXAM ON FRIDAY THAT I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT AT ALL. YOU CAN CALL ME A FUCKING GEEK OR A NERD BUT I DONT CARE BECAUSE IM THE BEST GODDAMN NERD AROUND AND WHEN IVE GOT A FUCKING AMAZING JOB PAYING A SQUILLIONS PER SECOND AND YOUR WORKING INNA SUPERMARKET YOUR GONNA BE THINKING "I WISH I REVISED WITH MALLY IN YEAR 10" BEACUSE THEN YOUR GOING TO REGRET IT. BECAUSE ALL OF THIS MATTERS, I WANT TO DO GOOD IN LIFE BECAUSE FROM THIS MOMENT ON THE REST OF MY LIFE, AND NOT JUST MY CAREER DEPENDS ON THIS. I LIKE BEING SMART AND I LIKE GETTING GOOD MARKS, BUT UNLIKE SOME PEOPLE I HAVE TO WORK MY FUCKING ASS OFFF TO GET AN A BECAUSE THATS ALL I CAN EVER SETTLE FOR. SOMETIMES I CANT EVEN MAKE IT BUT I STILL TRY BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE I WANT TO BE, AND I NEED TO FUCKING REVISE FOR THIS MOTHERFUCKER OR IM NEVER GOING TO BE WHO I WANT TO BE. SURE STATISTICS DOSENT MEAN SHIT BUT IT MEANS THE SHIT TO ME BEACUSE ITS FUCKING IMPORTANT AND I CANT FUCK THIS UP. [and so on........]
*silence*
vag: mally, you know you know we're doing this exam a year early and you can re take it in year 11.
Kay
Im having a break from:
-Mah break-.
But while I have the chance
Before I go on my
Next break.
About my Nose.
Well I was browsing the internet
and some Chick was like
"[Ive pierced my eyebrow, naval, nose and lip - I do all my own piercings]"
So thats when the idea *_*_Struck me_*_*
"Hey Why doesnt Malleh get her nose pierced!
It was quite a quick spontainious sort of thang.I rushed downstairs.
"M o m . i m m a p i e r c e m a h n o s e"
Now my mom already has a nose pierced.
She sorta freaked out saying that I should get it done professionally
If I was that determined.
And Oh boy was I ever!
I was So determined that I couldnt wait.
So i Ran upstairs.
Found a needle
A thimble (to keep it in place etc)
Q- tips
Hand soap (yes I KNOW)
Cotton wool
and a um...Earing.
And so it began.
I noticed that teh nose has three layers you must pierce.
The first is no problemo
No bleeding
The Second - a little bit more tricky
No pain - not really)<
.B.L.E.E.D.S
[ A little bit anyways ]
The third.
Oh man
This one wasnt that painfull as such,
But it was fucking difficult.
Each layer sorta *pops*
And thats when you know its gone through
Which is good
Took me about 30-40 minutes
Listened to
[ My Ch3mical R0mance ]While I was doing it.
Got me in the mewd
To .rebel.
During the chorus' I was like:
Fuck yesssss.
Once it was through
Finally
I placed an earing in it.
With No back.
I was afRaid that Ide
snort it
up my nose
and die
or Something.
If its any consolation
I did wash my needle in...
um...
handwash
In order to disinfect it.
Although.
It didnt
So meh.
Its done with now.
So yah, I woke up.
First thing.
Put mah earing in
oops. Mah noooose ring
The hole was stil open.
Thank god
All that trouble for nothing
Eh?
Anyways, at School
Went to the school nurse at break
and asked for some anti-septic-
wipes.
Because im a responsible person.
Im not that much of a [f l a k e ]
I do do the right things....
Eventually
But thats not the point.
Anyway, she gave me one,
Also gave me a couple of weird looks.
But its funneh.
At lunch time. I went to JR's
Piercing parlour/hairdressing salon
And told them mah situation.
She said :
"Well now the damage is done."
and then...
"all you can do it is wash it in salt water twice a day. and pray it doesnt go septic"
Good enough for me sunshine!
I bought a Stud
A little blue one
Its [ p. u. r. d. y. ]
Put that one in
instead
of the Earing
Only one pound.
wow
Came home, showed mom
She wasnt that pissed at all.
I sorta only kinda mentioned i did it myself.
I told her I started it.
And the people at the piercing place
did the rest
for me
..............
For free
Lol.
Well Mah mommas teh r0x0r.
I bought some wipes at lunch too
So I came home
ANd had a little Facial session.
Now its not that sore.
Its okay
Not septic.
yet.
Ill deal with school rules tomorrow.
OMFG I JUST PIERCED MY NOSE. MORE LATER. OMG OMG OMG
[*have u ever*]
[pictured ur crush naked:] Yesssss. Ofcourse. Undoubtedly. All the time.
[actually seen them naked:] Hehe yes :)
[been in luv:] I am in love.
[said i luv u and ment it:] Yes to my beautiful Nicholas.
[cried when someone died:] Yeah :$
[lied:] I have but I try not to. Im not good at it at all. ask anybody. You have to just ask me the same questions twice and I can promise you that on the second time. Ill be honest.
[kicked someone in the nuts:] Accidently Im sure I must have at some point in my life.
[stolen something:] Yeah :S
[smoked:] Yes I have goowaah
[drank:] Yewp.
[done drugs:] Yes sir :S
[cheated on someone:] Cheating is fucking low and stupid. So thats a no.
[fallen for a best guy friend:]Nick is mah one of my best guy friends ;) hehe. But like, If you mean as in someone whos just. ugh I dont know what you mean. NO havnt.
[rejected someone:] mmm yeah :S
[been cheated on:] Nope :) Nevar
[done something u regret:] all the goddamn time But I try not to regret anything.
[food:] Lots
[fruite:] Strawberrys, Grapes, Green apples.
[peircings:] Mah ears. so far.
[longest relationship:] well so far we're onto our 7th montho ;)
[first love:] Nicholas. First and only and last.
[what do u do when ur grounded:] I sit in my room and sulk. Im a looser. I dont really rebell, its too much effort lol :P
[things that i love:] Nicholas. everything
Oh oh oh oh OH You wear Black You are so Gawth
An email martyn wrote me last May -
Thanks for the e mail mally
im replyin cos u asked me 2 , im like that u c cos im nice (stole that bit form ur email)
Life will get more exciting (i hope) if not the ill just have to drive my kart down the street n if u get really bored then ill let u have ago aswell. lol Good job ive got insurance
School is borin the hell out of me aswell. Apart from at breaks for obvious reasons. O on the subject of break thanks for holding the door for me n getting my chair. I will do it for u n hatty n ros 2 moz, I feel like i shud repay the favour.
Ok im really tired now. I cant get to sleep either. Putting on some music does it for me, lol it actually bores me to sleep.
Hope u have a good sleep. I ned it (my beauty sleep that is)
Night
Martyn
xx
Hmmm Things have changed *sigh*
Just one moment
You dont know what you do to me
Maluuuu i love youuuuu.! [Im at the cottage now so i prolly cant get your msgs but im just letting you know i love you hehe] Dooooobeeeedooo im coming home for youuu! Xxx :)
.People. .are. .going. .to. .talk. .so. .why. .not. .give. .them. .something. .to. .talk. .about.
dad: you have no respect for other people
bro: I do I just have no respect for you
dad: you behave like an animal
bro: dad your fat
lmfao.
My dad and my brother actually get on really well, they like joke around all the time.
mmm.
me: Now you either meain, the rasmus, rancid or the ramones lol.
kiran: oh lol ramones.
me: lmfao. rasmones.
Hi
Im bored
I know I should be revising
And really, Ive tried but
its fucking difficult
If i dont have any notes
or any books
to help me
Its like
wtf
I cant even do anything
THIS is SO frustrating
What do I do
Oh my god I
am
gifted
and
talented
To find yourself.
You have to lose yourself first.
Similar to ;
You dont know what youve got
until its gone.
Sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom
before you can start climbing back up.
me: It is organised. you just have to be able to see the organisation.